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[03 Nov 2005|08:29pm] |
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i wish i were some1 different...some1 he could really >love< ...
*sigh* i thought about it today...i kept saying that if i were to change, i'd be miserable...and still unhappy...yet, i hate who i am already...so would changing really be so bad??...cuz really...i'd change to NE one he wants me to be...i mean...it sucks...i've never wanted to be with some1 so bad...i just keep telling myself that if we were really meant to be together, then we will be in the end...*sigh*...i just don't care about NE thing anymore...i just want to be with him...just in a normal, loving relationship...but is it possible?...i guess only time will tell...shit...i don't even want to go to the air force NE more...cuz i'm so scared to lose touch with him, and have him find some1 else...how do you really know if your meant for each other...cuz i've never been so damn sure in my life...
<(life)><(love)><(you)><(me)>
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