| so this is love...ha ha ha ha! [/sarcsm] |
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hmmm...i have the strangest urge to go blow my brains out right now...weird...never wanted to die that way before...*ugh*...i've never been in a worst mood...(i probably have)...but it fucking hurts right now...i had forgotten how dependent on relationships i've become...but wow...it's all bad...hmm...yeah...i dunno what to do...say fuck it to my pride...and just be like..."oh well...if he doesn't appritiate me at all...no big...cuz since i can't live with out him...i guess this is better than nothing"...or be my usual self and just be like "fuck that shit...tay doesn't take shit from no one...and i'm not about to start"...i mean fuck...i broke up with him...and he couldn't care less...i love it...[/sarcasm][/sarcasm]...fuck...this sucks...i need someone right now...i just need a fucking hug...one of those big ones...where you just get held for hella days...and nothing else matters...i just want a fucking hug...geez...i better stop writing...cuz i'm getting pretty watery eyed...and i'm getting sick of this crying shit...and i use to think crying every day over HDOS was bad...fuck...
won't somebody just love me..?
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