Kortney

9:29am: NeW HoUsEs...
Yesterday evening me, Kyle, & Frankie went looking for new houses becasue after i get out of my lease i am gonna move out and get my own house and just rent some rooms out. Because my momma is gonna give me 20,000.00 to put a down payment on a house so i am really excited and i am finding the coolest houses in the world @t phat ass prices like 4-5 bed rooms with dens for a grand a month.... I am so excited....YeAh!!!!!!!

3:14pm: StUpId AsS PeOpLe....
Today @t lunch i went and picked up my bf from school so we could go to lunch because his truck was broken. So i picked him up and was leaving the parking lot when i got rear ended by some dumb coke head bitch named Felisha Allred. She didn't even stop to give me her info & just took off and went to Jack-N-Box. So I was pissed and called the cops on here dumb ass as a hit-n-run. So the cops found her b/c she went vack to school and they pulled her out of class and was like i didn't hit her and if i did i don't remember. (it happened 20 mins ago). So they cop kept asking the gurl how many people were in the car and she was like 2, then i mean there were 3, and then finally she said four...Then the cop was all you lied to me about how many people were in the car so now ur probably lyin to me about hittin her. So the cop went and pulled all the gurls out of class and asked them how many people were in the car and then if they hit any one @t lunch and they all said that yes they hit someone. Then her mother shows up and starts flipping out over the whole accident and was like she always gets into accidents and she never files them your dumb and all this is stupid. So i told her keep it up because i have the power to send ur daughter to jail for leaving the sence of an accident... I just want her to pay for the damages and that is all. So thne her mom started bein nice but her daughter was still bein a royal bitch b/c i caught her and she knew i was right. then the cop was all so you want to charge her with a hit and run or prosecute her and i was like i don't know and she said well heres the deal, it might be hard to charge her with a hit and run because all the other gurls said you left so it will be hard to determine that. SO you can exchange info and she can pay for your damage and that be it. and I said fine.. I will just have her fix the car and be done with it. Then her mom was all don't turn it into insurance because it will sky rocket and i was like then you pay it up front then i won't. and her mom was all thank you and the daughter was still all pissed so she walked past my bf and was all thanks alot asshole b/c they go to school together... So lesson learned even your friends rat you out.....

9:08pm: I aM So BeAt & TiReD
I am so tired it was so freakin hot @t the dunes that we decided to come home an entire day early...It was so miserable except for when we went swimming @t the canal i think that was the best thing that went on at the dunes it was way to hot to do anything there and it was miserable to just sleep there let alone just ride & hang out. So we just got home like 2 hrs ago and i am gonna take my much needed shower and got to bed. SLEEPY TIME!!!!

12:06pm: DuNeS..
I am almost all packed to go to the dunes, but i am sad to have to leave my little Baby Hustler @ home...Oh well he will have his own fun i am sure tearin my shit up for leaving him @ home by himself oh well i will be home on sunday neway...PeAcE OuT.....DuNeS hErE i CoMe

6:53pm: NeW KiTTeN
YeAh!!!! I JuSt GoT a NeW kIttEn tOdAy.... I am so happy and my kitten is a little badass. He is all black with little specks of white and is mellow as can be....He just sleeps all day which is a good thing so he is not tearin shit up when i am not home. Neway I named him HuStLeR.... He's my little badass....

12:34pm: I SeEm tO nEvEr LeArN.....
I'vE DoNe iT OnCe aNd I'vE dOnE iT TwIcE bUt FoR sOmE OdD ReAsOn I NeVeR LeArN..... AhHhHhH!!!!!!! I hAvE pUt MySeLf tHrOuGh tHe AgGrAvAtIoN oF lEnDiNg oUt MoNeY aNd NoT LiKe $20 BuCks EiThEr..I aM TaLkInG iN tHe hUnDrEdS..... aNd BeLiEvInG tHaT i WiLL SeE iT AgAiN...BuT I tHiNk iT hAs BeEn My LaSt FrEeBiE. I wOuLd SaY I hAvE lOsT a GoOd GrAnD WoRtH Of MoNeY tO ChEaP sLiMy BaStArDs... YoU KnOw wHo YoU aRe... So If YoU NeEd aNy MoNeY DoN't AsK mE...

2:53pm: YeAh!!! WeeKEnD WiTh NO bOyFrIeNd....
TOMORROW my BOYFRIEND is LEAVING on A much NEEDED vacation........YEAH!!!! AND i AM gonna STAY home AND get SEVERLY drunk...PARTY time!!! I can't WAIT... and HE will BE gone UNTIL monday SO now I don't HAVE to BABYSIT him AND his OUTTA hand FRIENDS... P A R T Y thats ALL i AM gonna DO and NOT worry ABOUT a DAMN thing....can't WAIT, wanna JOIN me...CALL my CELL (480) 452-6223!!!

12:37pm: aLL Is FaIr In LuV N' wAr.....
k WeLL I tHiNk I FiNaLLy gOt aLL tHiS DrAmA sTuFF fIgUrEd OuT. I TaLkEd tO cHeLsI & fOuNd OuT ThAt FAT ASS EaN & TeRRi WeRe MaKiNg aLL tHiS sHiT uP....WhAt a BuNcH oF LoSeRs!!! ThEy DoN't EvEn KnOw mE. I nEEd To aPoLoGiZe tO cHeLsI fOr EvEn ThInKiNg ShE wOuLd HaVe SaId aLL ThAt aBoUt mE....So cHeLsI... I AM SO SORRY.... I aPoLoGiZe fOr NoT TaLkInG tO u AbOuT tHe wHoLe SiTuAtIoN & JuSt ThInKiN' U wOuLd aCtUaLLy Do sOmEtHiNg LiKe ThAt....So I aPoLoGiZe & FeeL sO BaD AbOuT EvErYtHiNg.... HoPe u CaN SeE PaSt My StUbBoRn NeSs aNd fOrGiVe Me.....I jUsT dOn'T wAnT tO FiGhT wItH YoU!!!! Ur ThE CooLeSt!!!

7:32am: To Chelsi
I found out yesterday that Chelsi was talking shit about me and if you want to know who said something it was Terri and Ean so you can bitch to them....I can't believe you tried to be my friend but then turned around and talked shit about me. Thats cool though because i am glad that i found out sooner than later about how you were a two faced back stabbing bitch...I only wonder who else you talk shit to about me but whatever what goes around comes around and you are sure to get ur's. But if this isn't something that you said then you should talk to your friends because they are some true friends if I have ever seen some. Neway thanks for making me realize the truth before it was too late. I am sorry that you feel that way about me but why am I apologizing, I did nothing wrong and I would never talk shit about you because I guess I am better than that so whatever makes you feel like the better person do it but we all know who that bigger person is gonna be in the end. I am really sorry that you have a problem with who I am, but you need to get over it because i am not gonna change just so you can feel better about yourself so just mind ur own business and stop tryin to be my friend because i want nothing to do with you and i am sorry that i forced you to talk to me on the net all the time. GROW UP!!!! Thats all I have to say.......

9:39am: What a Weekend!!!
I am so freakin tired....But at least I only work Mon- Wed then off to the dunes..... Neway this weekend was a blast except a few minor parts. Friday night was a crazii.. I ended up at like 4 different parties. First party we went to was crazii, it was at this huge house at lindsey & broadway and by the time we got there it was maxed out, so i called my friend who was in the party and he knew the owner so he went and got him and sent him out to let us in. The other people at the door were pissed it was so funny and then the guy was like this is my fuckin house you need to fucking leave and then he came up to me & my friends and was like go inside but the rest of you need to leave. They had 3 kegs but by like 11:30 the cops showed up and i didn't have a D-n-D so i just chilled with thme until like 1 then went to my house ad picked up one of my friends and we went to a party in chandler it was just a kick back but i was happy because i was doin mad shots of southern comfort 100 proof
then it was like 3:30 am so i went back to that other party and was drinkin with them until about 4:30am and then i was so hungry and ended up goin to del taco goin home and passin out. T-R-A-S-H-E-D is what i was. I have never been so messed in my life it was well worth it though, except I was up until 5:30am and then had to turn around and get up @ 9 because I had to get up and go to the gay truckin nationals show (major waste of money) but i didn't have to pay but for those of you who did u got ripped off. It was so freakin hot and there were only like 4 rows of trucks.....What a waste of my time...I could have been sleeping or something. Neway then we all went home and i took like an hour nap to get ready for the night ahead which i was not ready for. We all got ready and went to my friends house b/c he was having a kegger and there were a lot of freakin people it was so hard to move and the keg was tapped out by like 11pm so we moved on to the JD and coke. and man that was a mistake... We had been mixin pills, with jd and beer and i was feelin great. By 12pm the gettho bird was flyin around so everyone left the party and went back to my place. Well we were all cool until i looked @ my bf and he was sittin outside gettin ready to throw-up so i asked him if he was ok and then he said he was fine. So i invited some other friends over and then hung out for a little while and then i went to go to the bathroom and my bf was throwing up everywhere. I was so scared, because he was so pail and shivering but he was running a fever... He took a bunch of pills and i had no clue what in the fuck they were or how much he drank or what.....so i made him take a cold shower and laid him in bed. I keep wakin him up every hour to make sure he was still breathing and to drink some water and gatorade. I was so fucked up and i had to sit and freakin babysit my bf so that he wouldn't die while his friends continued to get drunk in my living room. I stayed up and watched him until 8am then he finally woke me up @ 10am when he got up. I was so pissed off @ him that i just told him to leave and I went back to bed until about 1pm and then got in the shower and got ready and went to Scottsdale Fashion Square to return a phone then went to truckin nationals to pick up my brother truck and then went home. Then last night I went to bed @ like 6pm to catch up on all my sleep.

8:27am: Can't WAIT!!!!!
I am ready for this weekend to get my drink on.....Tonight my friends are throwing a suprise party for my friend joe's 20th birthday party...Were gettin 3 kegs..YEAH!!!!! One filled with corona....Then tomorrow i will be recovering from tonight and then goin to truckin nationals to check out all the hotties & there badass trucks. We rented a hotel and bought a fuck load of alcohol so we can get drunk and fuck around.....Then Sunday well you know thats the day to sleep all your drunkness away so I can go back to work on Monday..... So anyway i am gonna have a blast this weekend and hope i don't drink to much and get sic or alcohol posioning. Well Peace out i got shit to do...........

8:18am: New Baby Cousin!!!
Yesterday I got a new baby cousin, Wallace (No middle name yet) Schafer.....He is gonna be a heart breaker just because he is cute and his family has the money $$$$$$, Just what i need another little cousin running around making that number 10. You'd think were mormon or something. Neway I am pround to announce that Wallace is a little badass......

8:26am: Eric Moreland Is A Fagget
Don't you hate those people that all they know how to do is lie.....yeah that is Eric Moreland for you that kid is the biggest complusive liar I have ever met. I hope someone beats the shit out of him maybe even end his life. This kid has been nothing but drama in my fucking life. He is gonna be a loser for as long as he lives as far as he has shown so far. So watch out for this kid because he is a fucking fagget who lies and steals shit so keep a close eye on him if you know him or he comes around.

YOU OWE ME YOUR LIFE YOU FUCKING FAGGET >>>>>>>> ERIC MORELAND

9:50am: I LUV KYLE SO MUCH!!!!
Last night me & Kyle went to dinner for our anniversary and it was so nice. Last week Kyle asked me what my favorite resturant was so i told hima nd he had no clue where it was so he called around and finally found it and made us reservations i was so happy. I luv him to death because he will do anythign for me, unlike someone else i knew. Then we went home and watched bost trip.... That is the funniest movie i have ever seen...... It is a must see... Neway i luv KYLE so MUCH....

8:06am: It's Gonna Be A Long Day!!!!!
It's Monday @ only 8am and I am already bored out of my mind. I can tell that today is gonna go by sooooooooo SLOW, and that it won't be long before i fall asleep. Don't worry i know your anxious to know more about my day so i will keep you updated...........

3:31pm: Another Boring Night!!!!
Didn't do to much last night just went to the pavillions to go to the car show, it was alright but it's always the same cars every weekend so nothing new. Then we went down to mill and went to dinner @ hooters that suxed because the food was gross and the server was FAT. Then we were on our way home and saw a bunch of black people fightin in front of Jack N the Box and this kid alex that was with us was yellin like nigga and all this racist stuff ad kyle told him to stop and he wouldn't listen so they started arguing and Alex metioned something that made Kyle come unglued and he was pissed off. I thought he was gonna pull over and beat his ass but instead he was driving like a crazy fuck... I really thought i was goin to die:( Anyway we finally got home and everyone left and went there own ways so me & frankie went to a party to get away from the drama that the boys create. When we got there, there weren't to many people there so we jsut played asshole and drank. Then about 3 i left and went to losbetos and got some kick ass mexican food b/c i was starvin and then i took frankie home so i could go home and pass out....... Another fucking phone call @ 6:30am woke my ass up again... I am gonna start turning my fucking phone off so no one can call me.....

Then my asshole roommate just got hme like 2 hours ago and she is a fucking BITCH..... It was so nice when she was on vacation for a fucking week but thats okay because on tuesday my boyfriends parents are goin out of town so i get to stay at his house until friday......YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

1:25pm: What a boring night!!!
Last night was a drama filled boring night. Well to start off everyone came over ot my place and we bought 2- 30 packs which disappeared in like 30 mins, between 5 people. Everyone was mad at Trevor because he didn't pay for any of the beer and seemed to drink it all so everyone was bitching about him and they were wanting to fight and i was goin crazy so i said fuck this and we all went to the oktoberfest on mill. When we got there and they were all drunk and there were cops everywhere and they were trippin over nothin because they all saw cops. Then Clint & Derek were still mad about the whole fucking beer incident so they took off by themselves and i got stuck with this kid trevor who never shuts the fuck up!!!!! So then i took all them to my place and we sat there for like 30 mins bord out of our minds then trevor went to bed and derek & clint left to a gurls house, so then me & frankie went to a party. where of course i can't go anywhere w/o someone wanting to fight me so i said lets go b/c there were NO hot guys and the girls were ALL fuckin ditzy bitches so we left. Then this dumb bitch ASHLEY SOMMERS wanted to fight me because i got with her EX so she was like flipping out because i was there hanging out with him so i just left and went back to my place and soon to follow was her EX to come chill with us at my house I think she got a little mad but oh well........she brought it upon herself. Then we drank & chilled and went to bed.. This morning i think i am gonna kill someone.....I hate on the weekends when you try to sleep in and then your phone rings at like fucking 8 in the morning and u can't go back to sleep. Yeah thats what happened to me this morning so i am still tired and a little cranky for some dumb ass callin and waking me up.......

5:41pm: 5 whole minutes!!!!
I went to my interview and arrived about 10 minutes early so i went in and waited for Susy to see me. We went into this conference room and we sat there and talked about what the job intailed and pay and that was it 5 WHOLE MINUTES. So i am kinda worried about what that means if she is interested in my and think i know what to do becasue i have so much experience or that i was just wasting her time???? Who knows but hopefully i find out really soon. If you guys know of any jobs that are open hit me up!!!!!!!!

9:03am: My Horoscope for TODAY:::::::::::
End on a high note. You're not sure what next week brings, but that uncertainty has no place in this moment of good will. Carry many extra copies of your business card when you go out in the world.

Maybe this is a good sign that many will be interested in me for there new employee. Hopefully thats what it means!!!

7:20am: Tired
I am so tired.....Last night I couldn't sleep because I sat up anxious for today to come...Guess what! It's here and i don't think i am gonna make it through the day. I just hope i have a good interview and get hired so I can stop looking for a new job. Finally if i get this i will be so dam happy. NEway as long as I make it until 4pm then go home and sleep it'll be wonderful. Then time to party for all the hard work i did this week and all the hell i was put through. Wish me good luck at my interview today!!!!!!! I am so ready for this kick ass weekend.

12:41pm: Hey, Hey, Hey
Today was kind of exciting because at lunch i got a phone call from an employer that i turned in my resume and I scored an interview tomorrow @ 2!!!! YEAH!!! Can't wait because then if i get it i will be makin the big bucks!!! Neway I am also excited because i get to go shopping for a new outfit to wear tomorrow.

Last night i had a blast!! We went to wendy's and omfg....they are so dumb there. First we ordered a double stack without cheese and pickles, so when our order came up it had cheese and pickles so we gave it back and said NO cheese & NO pickles, then we get it back again and it is a SINGLE stack burger without cheese or pickles so we give it back again and said DOUBLE stack, NO cheese & NO pickles. Finally they give us the double stack WITH cheese & pickles.....so then we got really mad and threw the cheese and pickles at the windows(LOL) thats what they get and to make things even worse, I ordered a chicken sandwhich and they said go sit down and we will bring it to you, so then the people behind me ordered and the dumb people @ wendys gave them my sandwhich so i had to wait even longer.... DUMB ASS WEDNY WORKERS.

Then i went to TARGET and bought the new movie 2 Fast 2 Furious watched and went to bed . (exciting, huh, don't worry i know your jealous of my fun filled life)

2:31pm: Better 'N' Better
This day just keeps gettin better 'n' better. I just got done takin my roommate to the airport so she could go to New york for the week. YEAH!!!! After that i went to lunch with my boyfriend (Kyle) & our friend (Clint), and had pizza at Pizza Mart (OK food but great price) neway by the time i got there they had already finished a whole pizza so me & clint bought another one and kyle bought an ice cream cone. Well i have the brainy idea to hit the cone when kyle was putting it in his mouth and i missed b/c the cone hit his cheek and didn't get any ice cream on his face. So then Clint wanted a bite so Kyle was gonna give him one and when he went to do it i bumped his arm to hit Clints face and then he swung it around and hit me in my face i had ice cream all over my face.....Finally we got our pizza and Clint is a retard but funny unscrewed the cap to the sprikle cheese and kyle went to go and put it on his pizza and wound up with the whole thing on it. LOL......... So when we were done we went outside and were talkin and we were on Main st and there was this weird guy walking down the street dancing and makes signs and all this crazy shit and we were laughin at him b/c we couldn't help it, so he got a little mad and started sayin that we were ignorant and all kinds of stuff as we still just sat there and laughed but then he finally left but came running and said he was sorry and that he was just tryin to have a good time and said god bless jesus luvs you.......What a crazy man!!!!!! So i kinda had one hell of an exciting lunch break!!!!!!!!

9:11am: Morning Sunshine!!!!
I am so Hyper Right now and i don't know why.......Maybe it's because my roommate is leaving for a week and I'll have the house to myself for a week. YEAH!!!! Or maybe becaus ei get ot spend some time with my baby because he doesn't have to work. I don't know what it is but i am having a wonderful day so far.....And it's Wednesday so that means i am already half way through the work week to the weekend to party and drink. DOUBLE YEAH!!!!!!!!!

8:19pm: What a Day
Today was filled with drama.....Work was boring as usual and my friend Ryan decided to cheer me up by sending me flowers and guess what.....It worked for about an hour but then everything went back to normal. Then me & my boyfriend i feel are growing apart because i work when he is at school then when he gets out of school he goes to work because he started a new job. So we have spent little time together like an hour at lunch and then maybe 2 hrs @ night ....I am starting to miss him. Before he started working we spent everyday together from like 4-11 or 12 now it's not the same. And his mom got him on this crazy medicine so he's not the same person anymore, he is always quiet and tired :( ................ Then earlier i went and picked up some stuff from a friend and mean while he was talking to me about my ex- boyfriend so i listened to him and then told him what i thought and of course he goes back and tells my ex everythign i said and he tells me to stop talking shit to his friends. So i was gonna tell him that his friends were talking shit too but then decided not to get into it so i just blew it off and acted like nothing even happened. ( I basically said he was a lying, cheating, stealing kid thats gonna be a loser all his life) and thats mainly what his "so called friend" said to me first. but i am bigger than that and I am just gonna drop it. So i have put up with much drama today with my current and ex-boyfriend. I think i might be better off without one but then i would just spend my time looking for another one so it's a lose- lose situation.

3:09pm: I am just gonna kill myself
If I died, would you even know?
Just one little bullet, one single blow.

What am I to you, except a pain.
If I were dead, you would probably gain.

Am I the only one who feels this way?
Should I go on to see another day?

I'm confused, my life's a mess.
With death, comes no stress.

Would anyone even cry?
I bet all eyes would stay dry.

Sometimes I wish I could end it-
If death was meant for me...
I wish God would send it.
---Cherish what you have, cause before you know it...it could be gone---

I think that explains everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!