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Monday, December 22nd, 2003

Subject:why do i have to enter name and password? I am signed in!
Time:8:54 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:Aaliyah: We need a resolution.
I still have a lot to finish on my aunts afghan for christmas I think I am maybe 1/4 of the way there and it took me 4 months to get there and i have like a day to finish it. I wish i wouldnt have gotten sick then I could have finished it, maybe, i am just trying to make excuses i guess.

Today David took me bowling and gave me a christmas card. That was really nice of him. Kind of made me feel bad though so I gave him a little teddy bear, heck why not? I really felt uncomfortable there without Brian and Jesse. I started getting distracted because David is thinking anything less than a strike is bad and I would hit like a 9 and he was like good effort, sad stuff man.

Melissa stopped by today and her shirt I got her fit her which was great, She is coming by tomorrow to give me her gift, sweet!

Liz called me before i went bowling today and told me of a dream she had. It really touched me and honored me that she would think of me to call and tell it to. She said she dreamt she was at the crucifiction and she saw Jesus and he was crying for her. Man, I really really appreciated her telling me that, so amazing what a little phone call can do right?

Tomorrow I am not doing anythign except waiting on Melissa, maybe finishing that blanket...heh.
Comments: 1 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Thursday, December 18th, 2003

Subject:Father I will always be...
Time:10:09 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:sup gangsta rap phsaw.
Comments: 2 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Tuesday, December 16th, 2003

Subject:Great stuff
Time:9:56 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:end of Charlies Angles Full Throttle.
The dance was tonight I was soo happy that Brian Jesse Stephen Alex Jamie Chris and Ashleigh all came when I invited them it was great stuff i was soo happy. Mind you they didnt get to see my solo its ok. A girl passed out so we had a 30 minute intermission so people had to leave before we restarted the program. I hope she is ok but they said she was. I got a standing ovation for my Linkin Park dance. I was so happy it was the first time I had actually done choreography besides hip-hop and people loved it! A lot of people said that that piece was their favorite even dance teachers i was like yes score! only down part in dancing i found was when we were dancing to In flames and the cd started skipping, it was great! I love dance I think I am leaning more towards being a dance teacher even though dance teachers dont make that much money. Its cool and people keep influencing me so maybe.

Hmm tomorrow have a test in English and I also have my exam in Chorus I dunno how I am going to do with that but i dont care. Party in dance thats what i look forward to... plus I have to take a test during Lunch.
Comments: 2 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Monday, December 15th, 2003

Subject:I dont feel anything isnt that amazing
Time:6:26 pm.
Mood: calm.
Music:with my foot on your neck i finally have you.
I am trying to find a song to go with my solo dance, that way i can choreograph my solo dance. I told mrs. guffey that I would finish typing the program but I forgot to get it from her box. Danget i hope she doesnt get too mad I am going to try to be at school early so I can finish typing it then that way it will be all gravy.

Right now I am stuck between a song from the used or yellowcard. They have a lot of dynamic songs that i could really use. Hmm I need to work on my exam for mrs. earnhardt since it is due tomorrow. Oh well. and i have a test to take in earth science hopefully i will make all A's this semester. I made it into NHS isnt that nifty? most of my friends didnt make it in but it is cool that they congradulated me and all. There are dues that I must pay which stinks but i guess it is worth it. I am going to finish filling out my UNC Charlotte application tonight and try to send it off tomorrow or something.

Yeah I am going to go and start working on stuff i need to work onpeace!
Comments: 1 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Sunday, December 14th, 2003

Subject:Preowned Certified
Time:5:35 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:some movie stuff.
Its freaking freezing. And stacey's mom does NOT have it going on dispite what most people think. I went bowling twice this weekend. Once Friday after the game I danced at and that was cool and stuff. I have realized that no one at that game is looking at me so I just do what i came there to do and leave. It was cool, I went in my dance uniform and stuff kind of wierd because i got in a bad mood because a teacher at school was downing my religion and i asked him to stop and he wouldnt :(! That stuff stinks, but it was cooling hanging with Brian and Jesse.

Saturday i went shooping and finished most of my christmas shopping all i have left is Kelsy and Blaire. Do I have money to get them anything? barely. I still have to find that darn library book stoopid bowling alley said that they seen it thursday but they didnt see it that day so they would give me a call. Hung out with Ashes a while and then she let Jesse go with us to bowling it was so freaking hilarious. Jesse was really embarassed because me and ashes were beating him. I was rolling because my freaking ball kept getting stuck. I got over 100!! yes i cheated a little bit because when i threw a ball down to get my ball out it knocked over some pins that werent supposed to be knocked over but even if you took those points off i still would have over 100.

Jesse came over my house afterwards and played guitar. It was great. we played some video games and stuff. I tried to teach him drums lol .... just yeah that was fun as crap. We talk a lot about the bible together which I like but we havent done that in person sounds like something to work up to. I have so much fun hanging with him i think that all my friends should come bowl with us sometime because bowling is so great and enteraining.

Got my hair cut good stuff. kinda looks crappy so i think i may play with it a bit to see how it works just a few inches shorter nothing dramatic. Bill is trying to watch a movie so i think i may go upstairs.. love yall peace
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Friday, December 12th, 2003

Subject:Breath of heaven!
Time:7:33 am.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:duh.
Lord of all creations
water earth and sky
the heavens are your tabernacle
glory to the Lord on high

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
you are holy holy
the universe declares your majesty
you are holy holy
Lord of Heaven and earth
Lord of Heaven and earth

Early in the morning
I will celebrate the light
when i stumble in the darkness
I will call your name by night

God of wonders beyond our galaxy
you are holy holy
the universe declares your majesty
you are holy holy
Lord of Heaven and earth
Lord of heaven and earth

Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth
Hallelujah to the Lord of heaven and earth


I love that song...

good stuff just learned it on guitar i hope that i can play it for the spring chorus concert I think I am going to see if Justin will sing it with me and I can do the harmonies while he sings lead.
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Wednesday, December 10th, 2003

Subject:all nighter..
Time:5:15 am.
Mood: blah.
Music:hey!.
Stayed up all night reading Frankenstein and I daydreamed too much. Started reading at 7:30 and now at 5:15 I am done... did I actually read the whole book? no... at 4:45 i was on page 130 out of 207 i realized that it just wasnt going to happen plus I had to write journal entries and crap... ekk! so i went to pink monkey and i read the reviews and commentaries hopefully that is enough i read about 2/3 of it so yeah.. cross your fingers///

I am a wee bit tired. lol i was reading and MTV news comes on and he said." If you are watching this you're probably a senior who has been procrastinating..." my heart jumped in my throat I am like holly fishsticks can he see me?!?! am i dreaming?!?!? but he was actually talking about a new democratic presidential canidate whom is passing some tuition for college thing if he gets elected ok i am going to throw up i need food bye..
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Sunday, December 7th, 2003

Subject:I am supposed to be doing homework...
Time:12:53 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:Thursday: signals over the air (i think thats the name).
Lazy butt so I am going to fill out a survey woot woot!

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had*
1. Closer relationship with God
2. Inspirational lyrics
3. Band to praise God
4. A Best Friend in the flesh

*Name Four Scents You Love*
1. Adidas MOVES for men.. cologne!
2. Rain
3. Apple Cinnamin
4. Fall

*Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now*
1. Thursday (the band) dunno why
2. God
3. Stress and busy schedule
4. Jesse

*Name Four Things That You Have Done Today*
1. Eaten
2. Went to Church
3. Wrote some journal entries
4. Checked my email

*Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought*
1. Shirt for secret Santa
2. Shirt for ashes xmas (she picked it out)
3. Drink at BK
4. #11 at Mc Donalds... try it out its the shiz!

*Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Don't Know You Like*
1. Mariah Carey
2. NSync
3. Yellowcard
4. Underoath (no one really knows the bands i like ever)

*Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink*
1. WATER!
2. Fruit 2 O
3. Orange Juice
4. Sprite/clear soda

*First Grade Teacher's Name? - Mrs. ??? dont remember
*Last Words You Said: - "Nope"
*Last Song You Sang? - Taking Back Sunday: *dont know the name*
*Last Person You Hugged? - Jennifer as I saw her off to work
*Last Thing You Laughed At? - Myself
*Last Time You Cried? - man i had a big one Friday night
*What's In Your CD Player? - Jesse's cd he burned for me
*What Color Socks Are You Wearing? - one with holly and the other a sport white sock
*What's Under Your Bed? - i have draws under my bed with stockings and socks
*What Time Did You Wake Up Today? - almost 8
*Current Taste? - i was biting my fingernails... ek!
*Current Hair? - curly from last night
*Current Clothes? - black pants (ashes) black tank with GW shirt and Army camo jacket
*Current Annoyance? - nothing
*Current Longing? - Presence with God as always
*Current Desktop Picture? - Adrienne buying tickets at the Fair its cool yo
*Current Worry? - Auditions for the play when are they?!?!
*Current Hate? - nothing
*Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex? - smile/eyes... its a debate
*Last CD You Bought? - i think it was NSync's no strings attached i burn my cds.. i stink
*Favorite Place To Be? - Church
*Least Favorite Place? - the world
*Time You Wake Up In The Morning? - around 5:30-6
*If You Could Play An Instrument? - I love Cello
*Favorite Color? - Green
*How Tall Are You? - 5'8"
*Current Favorite Word/Saying? - Holly fishsticks
*Favorite Season? - Autumn
*One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: Hien
*Favorite Day? - everyday
*Where Would You Like To Go? - Everywhere
*What Is Your Career Going To Be Like? - full of glorifying God the best way possible
*How Many Kids Do You Want? - at least one adopted and one from birth
*Favorite Car? - fav car probably a Hemi not good with years though kiss my grits
*A Random Lyric: - "I dont want to feel this way forever"

[info]
full name: SylviA Elizabeth Dawn Beaver
nicknames: Shanana, Big Mama, Syl, Sylvania, Syliva, Mrs. Beaver, Waffle Maker
birth date: 7-1-86
zodiac sign: Cancer
birthplace: Winston-Salem
current location: Kernersville.
eye color: Green Blue forgot what you call that
hair color: Golden Brown with lots of other colors
height: 5'8''
right or left handed: Right

[random]
most overused online phrase: brb
weakness: sin
fears: hell
first thought this morning: what do i wear?
perfect pizza: brocolli and cheese from Elizabeth's
best physical feature: eyes or hair so I am told
bed time: 10-11-12 somewhere

[this or that]
Pepsi or Coke: Cherry Coke, pepsi products though
McDonald's or Burger King: Wendys
single or group dates: group
sweetened or unsweetened tea: sweet
chocolate or vanilla: chocolate sometimes depends on mood
cappuccino or coffee: frappucino

[yes or no]
smoke: no
drink: no
cuss: no
sing: yes
take a shower daily: yes
have a crush: yes
been in love: yes
want to go to college: yes
want to get married: yes
believe in yourself: no
get motion sickness: reading in the car when someone is driving
think you're attractive: yes
think you're a health freak: yes
get along with your parents: yes when i hold my tongue
like thunderstorms: yes
play an instrument: drums, bass, guitar, piano (i can read music), violin, viola

[in the past year]
drank alcohol: i dont think so
smoked: yes
done a drug: MIDOL!
had sex: no
made out: yes
gone on a date: define date? dont believe so no
gone to the mall: yes
eat sushi: thought about it does that count?
been on stage: yes
gone skating: nope trying to though
gone skinny dipping: no
dyed your hair: yes
stolen anything: no

[hopes and dreams]
age to be married: before 25
number of children: 2
names of children: Gabreille, Saria
cause of death: Old Age
college and/or career: Teacher in all forms

[in a mate]
best eye color: Hazel
best hair color: Dark
short or long hair: short
height: taller
age: older
Comments: 3 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Saturday, December 6th, 2003

Subject:new layout...
Time:10:49 am.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:underoath: when the sun sleeps.
It really isnt new just a different background and it is kind of cool that i can switch them interchangeably because of the colors they give off. It is now blindside in the background... i did my solo dance last semester to their song caught a glimpse... they totally rock you guys should check them out and people looking to get me anything for christmas i really want their cd.... :hint: they have 3 out so anyone of those would be cool... or underoath cd which i can not find anywheres... going to go shop talk to youlater.. so excited must take a crap,, and yes you needed to know that
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Thursday, December 4th, 2003

Subject:LOL this is really freaky
Time:12:17 pm.
Korey plays counterstrike all the time that is just weird...

lol and I put syl because i was thinking of what daniel bryan calls me

Your horoscope... by spiralinghalo
Name:
Zodiac sign:
You will realize:you have been violated.
You should avoid:playing Mah Jongg (I don't know what it is either).
Your new love interest:an Asian trasnfer student, who enjoys HTML, cellphones and counterstrike.
Created with quill18's MemeGen!
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Subject:I know we aint got much to say before I let you get away!
Time:12:04 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Music:some Tu-Pac video on MTV.
ICE DAY! lol people here are so stupid we could have went to school today but no... no complaint here just that I needed to finish choreographing my dance and teaching people but that isnt going to work out. See i really dont want to go to school tomorrow because of the first game and all I dont want to dance plus I have to buy black dance pants which I dont have the $ for stupid dance team..

Church was cool last night Jesse came. He said he liked it too. To be honest it was probably the only one I have liked that Scott didnt teach and we didnt have the normal worship band, I think I am becoming more aware of the purpose of things and not how much they do or dont affect me. Its sleeting now outside woohoo good times. I think I am just going to play bass in justins band or jam people whatever you call them we dont know what we are doing or anything but who cares. Just havent played with a band in forever I am getting ancy and I miss it a lot but shhh dont tell anyone. Jon came over the other night and showed me drum skills and stuff he game me a book and I am checking it out it is called drumming for dummies... good stuff..


I have been searching the music channels this morning to see Evanescences My immortal video to maybe get some ideas for my solo dance I am choreographing. If anyone wants to chill today with me I am up for it, this is some great stuff let me tell you oh yeah!
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Tuesday, December 2nd, 2003

Subject:yeppers
Time:12:40 am.
Mood: content.
Music:Jesse's cd.
I found this verse and it seemed to fit what was going on right now and for anyone who ever blames peoples deaths on anyone(its just stupid)

Philipeans:
29 For unto you it is given in the behalf of Christ, not only to believe on him, but also to suffer for his sake; 30 Having the same conflict which ye saw in me, and now hear to be in me.


funeral tomorrow... argh.. mom is out and she is going to be all crying i dunno what to do... pray for me people love you much and will miss you tomorrow.
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Sunday, November 30th, 2003

Subject:something to do
Time:11:49 pm.
yeppers up tonight so looking for stuff to do...


A is for - Age: 17
B is for - Beverage of choice: Code red Mountain Dew, Starrbucks Fraps, cherry coke... etc.
C is for - Career in future: Musician
D is for - Dad's name: stepdad - Bill real dad: Blake
E is for - Essential item to bring to a party: The Fetus dance courtesy of A-Lo
F is for - Favorite song at the moment: Yellowcard: only one
G is for - Guy/Girls you've kissed: hmm everyone else put one person that meant something to them... ek have no one to put here sorry guys just wasnt that special :(
H is for - Hometown: Winston Salem yeah baby
I is for - Instrument you play: Violin for 6 years.. for about 3-4 months drums 6 months guitar still suck though and just recently picking up Bass. I can play piano too just because i can read music.
J is for - Job title: Dance instructor/ kid watcher-after-er
K is for - Kids: hmm everyone because I is Big mama
L is for - Living arrangement: With the Goga's and Adam's
M is for - Mom's name: stepmom- Kathleen mom: Josie
N is for - Number of people you've slept with: lots of people just depends when I have sleep overs
O is for - Overnight hospital stays: none.. went once for food poisoning though and stayed all day
P is for - Phobia[s]: going to hell #1 and heights, not being cared for
Q is for - Quote you like: Forgive me Jesus this time i cry, destroy the me that lives inside
R is for - Relationship that lasted the longest: James on and off for 5 months that was craziness
S is for - Sexual position: the one that makes babies?
T is for - Time you wake up: TRY to at 5:30 if not then by 6:30
U is for - Unique trait(s): extraordinary large hips
V is for - Virgin: Virgin mobile phone? no Virgin as in sex? yes
W is for - Worst habit: Lust and being boy crazy
X is for - X-rays you've had: none... just ones at the dentist
Y is for - Yummy food you make: i make really good oodles and noodles and green bean casserole
Z is for - Zodiac sign: Cancer
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Subject:i surrender
Time:3:33 pm.
Mood: confused.
Music:Did0- white flag.

I am probably the most emotional person I know yet I have no compassion over whether someone dies or not. Up until today I have never had anyone in my intermediate life pass away and now that it has happened I feel different and stuff but I dont feel the need to cry about it, I honestly DONT want to talk about it, and I guess thats how I deal.

I predicted this death also... a few days ago I made a choice not to go with my 'real' family to my aunts for Thanksgiving and in my head I was thinking this would be the last time I would be able to see my grandmother I should go, but I didnt. Then on thanksgiving I got this huge headache/slight fever and it didnt go away til today... kind of ironic dont you think?

When I found out the news Kathleen was balling. It made me cry seeing her cry. But I'm over it. I had to get out of the house for awhile so me and Acacia went and hung at the mall. Thought about Korey a LOT today got this cologne sample from Pacsun to see if he likes it. Smells great and I think its his 'style'. Saw Laura gave her huggles, she was working and she has the bestest hair! Saw Charlie, gave him huggles too he was working. I need to choreograph dances today... dont feel like it though but i dunno.... someone come talk to me..

bye
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Thursday, November 27th, 2003

Subject:Stolen
Time:3:17 pm.
Happy Turkey Day!... or chicken or ham whatever your eating

I am not with Korey anymore. Yesterday I had a talk with him and broke up with him. I told him exactly how I felt and although I really liked him I can not be with him. He asked me if I would consider being with him for awhile and I consented.... we should have done this in the first place....

<3 tear he cares for me a lot!

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:The Promise of the Rings
You sound like:Finch
You will be signed to:Warner Bros. Records
Your emo lyrics are:"I can't go on any longer, save me please before I suffocate to death without you"
Name:
Created with quill18's MemeGen!



that was cool but this one is the best///

What is your emo band name? by spiralinghalo
Your band name is:Glassteeth
You sound like:Alkaline Trio
You will be signed to:Equal Vision Records
Your emo lyrics are:"Don't make me hate you anymore than I can already"
Name:
Created with quill18's MemeGen!


hahah i have a lot of screen names

LOL this is freaking hilarious

Your Life: The Movie by mintyduck
Who will play you:Hilary Duff
Who will play your love interest:Janeane Garofalo
Weeks you will stay in the box office:13
Song that will play during your love scene:Madonna - Justify my Love
Song that will play during your death:REM - Try Not to Breathe
Your name:
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Who are your Celebrity Parents? by opp_girl_4_tp
Your Name
Your MomHilary Clinton
Your DadEminem
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Who are your Celebrity Parents? by opp_girl_4_tp
Your Name
Your MomChristina Agulera
Your DadOsama BinLaden
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LOL this is great

What will your Funeral be like? by rashock
Username
You will die by:You die in sweet bliss while having sex with your lover or partner. Seems they were so good your heart couldn't stand it and stopped. Talk about a heart breaker, but at least everyone sees you inyour casket with a smile of your face.
Death Date:February 11, 2008
Number attending your funeral?42
How much will you leave to friends and family?$1,448,737
Created with quill18's MemeGen!


Honestly this is soooo true...

What do people really think about you? by Raven319
Name
Age
favorite song
Parents thinkYou're an angel
Strangers thinkYou need a makeover
Friends thinkYou need a fuck buddy
Created with quill18's MemeGen!
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Saturday, November 22nd, 2003

Subject:ek
Time:6:03 pm.
Mood: chipper.
Music:matrix revolutions in the background.
Korey is great i posted a few pictures of him on my site.

I am not in a band, I am jaming with justin and jose but we arent technically a band.

Had fun today at the wrestling tournament. It was great to be in charge/ actually know what was going on. I loved it. Then i came home and jumped on the trampoline which i plan on doing again later if no one talks to me.

Life is great. No matter what. I like pain, i love love it makes me feel alive.

Everyone on my buddy list has their away message on. haha and its a lot of people like about 25-30. I'll get a best friend one day :(

everything that has a beginning has an end.
Comments: 2 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Friday, November 21st, 2003

Subject:eyes are growing heavy but they never seem to close
Time:4:19 pm.
Mood: cold.
Music:stab me again with the needle, i love to feel pain.
I am confused. all these people are saying one thing and doing another. someone tell me the truth please?! its quite frankly getting on my nerves.

stop equivocating danget... dont give me half the truth give it all.

.... i couldnt bare to hurt you but its all so different now, things that i was sure of then have filled me up with doubt.....

Life is so confusing.... i was getting closer to God and now I am not so close anymore. Its my own fault, its like no one is here to help me I have to do it by myself but i am too emotional to go through a process by myself I always have to have someone with me... got saved with melissa, baptized with adrienne.... etc... i dont have anyone to worship God with or to discuss God with except Stephen and he isnt always open for me to talk to.... and plus I dont want to burden him all the time. I tried not talking to him and figuring out things myself but it doesnt work... slowly but surely i am slipping into the old me... God help me stay focused....
Comments: 7 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Subject:everytime i try to talk to you it comes out wrong and if it comes out right
Time:6:18 am.
Mood: chipper.
Music:santana and dude from the calling.
Tomorrow, and tomorrow, and tomorrow
creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
to the last syllable of recorded time;
and all our yesterdays have lighted fools
the way to dusty death. Out, out, breif candle!
Life's a walking shadow, a poor player
that struts and frets his hour upon the stage
and then is heard no more. It is a tale
told by an idiot, full of sound and fury
signifying nothing.


I had to memorize that this morning and it only took me like 20 minutes. I know you actresses are thinking thats a long time to memorize something that small but thats it... I memorized it audibly in 3 minutes but I have to be able to have it perfectly imprinted on my memory that i have to remember what goes in which line, where the commas go and periods what letters a capitalized and crap because we dont say this out loud we write it down which sucks because i want to act it out... i love shakespeare! WOO!

Wrote a song yesterday, and the day before yesterday, and the day before that. Its flowing out of me like wine. kind of like the blood that is going to come out of me today at 8:30 eh?? oh well. i hope i have enough sugar in my system because of being on this diet i dont eat too much sweet stuff except orange juice and the natural sugars in apples and vegetables. I have a lot to do today. i need to make a check list heh.

I was thinking about selling my drums because no one really wants me in a band if I am not that experienced and it will take me til the time i am in college to become half-way decent, but i think i am going to stick with it. Afterall my drums are like the only thing that i have physical worked my tail off to get. I had to save and work long hours and sweat and tears went into that, its not just something i am ready to toss aside because i cant find anyone who thinks I am good enough. screw people, ill get there. ;)!
Comments: 1 reflections - You're Beautiful.

Thursday, November 20th, 2003

Subject:tension released woah!
Time:6:36 am.
Mood: chipper.
Music:whitney houston: i wanna dance with somebody (so random).
I am probably the most open person in de world when it comes to emotions. I let everyone know all my business all the time... well just stephen, kayla, jennifer, melissa, acacia, shari, jose sometimes, and believe it or not Ms. Guffey is great to talk to. thats a lot of people dont you think? I used to tell mike and jamie a lot of stuff but i havent really sat down and talked to them in a while. I am starting to try to conceal some of my emotions, not bottle them up or anything just not let everyone know about it all the time. I bet that gets on peoples nerves because even if I am feeling an emotion for one sec they know about it and then when i change my mind a few sec later they know about that too and think wait a min you just said you were the opposite a little while ago? those kinds of things i need to leave to myself.

I woke up late this morning so i took a shower with not even half the hot water on so other people would be able to take hot showers, I was only in there 8-10 minutes so hopefully that didnt do much.

Dance is going well, I still dont get any compliments from Mrs. Mortimer. I may just talk with her about that, because I am not the only one who notices it. i dunno doesnt really bother me except right after practice when she gives everyone else compliments.

I hope it doesnt rain today I want to go outside and maybe teach some people their part in my linkin park dance. It wont take long. ok cant think of anything else going on peace izzle
Comments: You're Beautiful.

Wednesday, November 19th, 2003

Subject:picatures of hacky kids?!
Time:7:17 am.
Music:Three Days Grace; I hate everything.
Yesterday was interesting, got to do a little choreography on the dance team and I had already choreographed for my honors project so I taught Courtney and Sierra their part, now I gots to teach liz, justin, raquel, and acacia and shari if they still want to do it.

The band broke up because no one had time, or so i thought til i just read shari's journal apparently they just want to start over without me. Its ok, though because i told everyone who asked that the reason was because of time. If people really want to know why Jose said that its because he heard it from some girl, I am not saying who because i hate the drama and its just freaking ridiculous. blah blah :dies: dont care. ]

I have like this chunck of emotion and I cant seem to guide it anywhere, I guess it is just coming out in dance though, its all i ever do. I dunno I am mellow. i need to eat breakfast...
Comments: You're Beautiful.

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