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[23 Aug 2004|07:41pm] boo 1 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

wow [23 Nov 2003|07:11pm] it's been a while... 4 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

[11 Jul 2003|10:40pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | the whir of my fan ] Well, I'm still alive. :) I'm going to be mocing again soon... yay.... I guess it's going to be ok though. We're moving to a bigger house, so the boys have more room to move around and such. I'm going to bed now. I'll try to post more tomorrow, cause there's a lot I need to get off of my chest... I'm just way too tired to do it all now... bye :) 1 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

Damn... it's been a while. [03 Jul 2003|02:02am] I know... you probably all thought I was dead... no such luck. :P well, I'm in better spirits, but I'm still REALLY tired. I think I have problems with low blood sugar and an iron deficiency. Yeah.. that's what happens when you try to raise twins on little sleep and lots of caffeine. **shrug** oh well. anyway. It's late and I need to try and go get some sleep. I'll probably just lay there for a few hours and mutter to myself, while the hubby kivks me and tells me to shutup... yay... isn't my life grand. 3 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

[25 May 2003|01:12am] I'm sorry I haven't posted in a while... I've been really tired lately. I'm kinda scared that I might be sick or something.. cause no matter how much sleep I get, I always feel tired, and sick to my stomach. I know i'm not pregnant, because I've had my period and I got my tubes tied.. I'm hoping I'll get out of this funk on my own, cause I don't have insurance or any money to go to the doctor... I'll try to post soon and keep you all updated. 10 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

happy mom's day to me :) [11 May 2003|08:49pm] [ mood | blah ] Today was ok... other than the boys being kinda fussy, life here was pretty uneventful. went over to granny's house and had a nice lunch/dinner. My in-laws were there as well, and for the first time we actually got along pretty well. The hubby was so cute. He got me a card, and signed it with his left hand, saying it was from the boys. LOL It's cheesy, I know. But it made me feel pretty good. tomorrow is a LONG day. I've got an appointment for kyrin at 9:15 AM and then another at 2 PM... and they both are at least a half an hour away... and it's like 90 degrees outside... this should be fun.. heh. ok.. I guess that's all for now.. maybe one day something exciting will happen and I'll have something better to post... yeah.. like that'll ever happen. LOL 3 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

holy shit, batman..... [10 May 2003|09:25pm] [ mood | tired ] I know, I know. Where have I been? I know, I know. You were so worried about me. I know, I know. I'm a horrible person.. blah blah blah. :P heheheh I'm sorry it's been so long since I have posted. Things have been REALLY hectic around here and I've been struggling to keep up. I've been having to take Kyrin to the doctor a lot. He's not sick or anything, his neck muscles are really tight on one side and it's made him have a lopsided head because of it, cause he's always laying on the other side. So, he had to get a helmet for a little while (prolly only for a month or so, cause his head has basically fixed itself) and he has to go to physical therapy twice a week (also for only about a month) until his neck loosens up a bit. So, needless to say, I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off. And then, after all of this stuff, I still get no sleep. I've been staying up WAY too late. Last nite, I went to bed at 11 PM...and that's the earliest my head has hit the pillow in months. Mostly I've been staying up and going out with a few friends...and staying out till at least 2 am... stupid starrz. lol It's been good for me though. I've gotten to talk a lot of shit out, and get in a few good laughs, which I desperately needed. OK, I'm gonna head out now... and I promise, I'll try not to wait so long to post again. :) 3 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

[25 Apr 2003|12:34am] and yet another day of absolutely nothing happening. turns out I can't get my tattoo tomorrow.. we don't haev the money, so I have to wait until we get our tax return. :( made a new website m o o n a n d s t a r r z Other than that, not much else is new.. other than being kidna bummed out.... ahh the joys of manic depression.. sorry I'm so boring. 9 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

open to the public [24 Apr 2003|12:05am] [ mood | blah ] Well, I decided to go ahead and make my journal public again. Why, you ask??? I have no clue. Just felt like it. So, here I am. Another night of just sitting here on my ass, and bored out of my mind, and reminiscing about times gone by... I've been thinking about when I lived in Sebring. The place is a shithole, but at times I really miss it. I miss my best friend `Lady. and i miss hanging out with my mom and step-dad. But the thing I miss the most is hanging out with my buddy, Joe. No matter how shitty I felt, he could always make me smile. We used to go for long drives, all over town, and at all times of the night. We'd just drive and talk, and get out all of the shit that was bothering us. I REALLY miss that, and I REALLY miss him. I get to talk to him online, but it's not the same kind of talking as on our drives. I kinda had a thing for him for a while, but I never told him. (surprise Joe, if you're reading this). **wipes a tear away** anyway.... I've been trying to get myself out of this funk kinda mood I'm in. Going and getting my tattoo should help. Hell, just thinking about it makes me feel a little better. oh well.... gonna try and catch up on my commenting now. laters. 3 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

WooHoo! [23 Apr 2003|06:17pm] [ mood | happy ] I'm getting my tattoo on Friday!! **does her "I'm getting a new tattoo" dance of joy. the hubby works right next door to a tattoo shop, and we've become pretty good friends with the guy that runs the place. So I was talking to him the other day, telling him that I want to get a Grateful Dead acid bear between my shoulders. So, I asked him how much he would charge me and he said "Well, our minimum is $45, but I'll do it for ya for $30." I told him as soon as we got our tax return that I'd be in to get it done. Then the hubby was talking to him about it today and asked him how long it would take and to make sure that it was $30 an hour. So Mike (tattoo guy) said to him "Ahh, it won't take long at all, maybe an hour and a half, and tell Jen that I'll only charge her $25 total. WOOHOO! So, I'm gonna have Granny watch the boys for me on Friday, and I'm gonna go with the hubby to work so I can get it done! YAY YAY YAY! heheheh damn, the littlest things make me happy. LOL Anyway, the boys are 6 months old today! I can't believe it. They are getting so big! I love it! that's Kyrin. :) and that's Timmy :) ok, I'm guess that's all for now. I'll try to post more later when I can sit down for a bit. 7 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

[21 Apr 2003|03:13am] [ mood | tired ] I do this to myself every time. I go to bed early, trying to catch up on my sleep, and I ALWAYS wake up at 2 or 3 in the morning and can't get back to sleep. so.... here I am now. Wide awake and eating easter dinner leftovers. I'd eat easter candy, but apparently I'm "an adult now and don't need an easter basket". .... damn easter candy nazis. Granny came over today and had easter dinner with us...and of course, as soon as dinner was ready, the boys woke up and decided that they wanted to eat as well.... Let me forewarn all of you first time mothers to be out there - be prepared to eat cold food, cause you will never eat a hot meal again...unless it was warmed back up in the microwave 2 hours after everyone else finishes eating.... I bitch about stuff like that, but it really doesn't bother me....more of a slight annoyance than anything else. Anyway, other than all of that, today was a rather uneventful day. The boys went to sleep, rather easily oddly enough, and then I passed out - which now brings us back to the beginning of my post. damn...... I'm boring. oh - and I wanted to apologize to all you here. I've been kinda slacking in commenting to you all and reading your journals. I'm kinda out of it lately and have been kinda busy with the twins. I PROMISE that I'll sit down here within the next couple of days and catch up. LOVE YOU ALL! 3..2..1..let's jam

damn you, comcast..... [19 Apr 2003|12:51pm] [ mood | tired ] Ahh...blessed sweet internet...how I have missed you. Comcast sucks. We have cable internet through them and they blow chucks. I've been without TV or internet for a week because the people at comcast are morons. We didn't get a bill for last month, so we didn't know it was late.... next thing you know, the cable guy is here shutting everything off. Now, you're supposed to be able to pay him when he gets here to keep everything connected...but that's kind of hard to do when the guy doesn't speak english and can only say "I here to turn off TV" and then shrug at you when you try to tell him to give you 5 minutes and you can have the money for the bill in his hand. GRRRRRRRRRRR Anyway. Not much else is going on. The boys are doing great and growing like weeds. They both are rolling over now, and making attempts at breaking my toes by running into tehm with the walker. But it's hard to get mad at them for it, because they look up at me afterwards, smile, giggle, and then reach out for me. I'm such a sucker. The hubby and I went to the LAN party last night and we had a BLAST! We had to leave earlier than we would have liked, because the guy with the switch had to go. So, we ended up getting Taco Bell and relaxing at our house sans twin sons. That was kinda nice. OK, now I am off to get my 'net fix. I'm sure I'll probably post more later. 5 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

Tell me your sins, chylde. [11 Apr 2003|11:51pm] LMAO I'm a minister! ROFLMAO Become a Minister of the Universal Church of Life for FREE! I'm going to hell... LOL 2 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

damn....i'm bored. [11 Apr 2003|12:09pm] [ mood | bored ] I have been really bored lately. My computer has decided to give direct3D and now OpenGL the finger, so I can't play any games on it. Lo and behold, someone sends me some links to quizzes. I've been saving all the results, and keep forgetting to drop them in here. So now, here you go. A whole page full of Quiz-laden goodness. All the taste, less filling...yaddy yaddy yaddy blah blah blah. I really need a life.... My Quizes! 1 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

[10 Apr 2003|10:17pm] well, I finally talked N into going into rehab and dumping that useless lump of flesh she called a boyfriend. Her daughter is going to stay with a friend of hers, and she's checking herself in for alcohol, coke, and xanax. I'm really proud of her. Hopefully this will take care of things and she will be able to move on with her life. other than that, my life is kinda boring. My best friend wants me to come up for the weekend so we can go out and have a good time, and I'd really like to go, but I don't think I have the money to. The boys would stay with Granny, so that wouldn't be a problem, but I'm REALLY low on cash. Maybe I can borrow some funds from my mom when I get into town, or may my best friend `Lady can lend me the cash. I may not go at all if she's not feeling better. Almost everyone in her house has sinus infections, and the last thing I need is to bring that home to the boys. ok, I think I'm done for now. :) 3 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

I'm so silly :) [09 Apr 2003|11:08pm] Ok, I know this is kinda silly, but I'm happy about it, so the rest of the world can kiss my ass. :) I got an e-mail from RuPaul! :) I am a big fan of his/hers, and have been for years (I have a big love for drag queens - somewhat unhealthy at times heheheh). So, I was poking around his/her website and found out he/she has a blog! So, I started reading it, and got addicted. So, I shot off a quick e-mail, saying how much he/she ROCKS, and I got one back. heheheh anyway. :) I'm done for now. I'll write more later :) 5 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

more fucking drama [08 Apr 2003|01:09am] [ mood | pissed off ] well, more shit with my neighbor. (I'll just call her N from now on). I tried to go to bed a little early tonite, about 11:30. So, I'm all cuddled up with my hubby, when my neighbor pulls in next door. (Apparently she has worked something out with the landlord so she can stay for 1 week to clean the place up and find somewhere new.) She turns on her outside light, and has her headlights shining right into my bedroom window. So I call her to ask her to turn the lights off, and when she answers, I hear she's crying. I ask her what's wrong, and all that she says is that she'll call me back. So I got really worried about her. I know she's had problems with her boyfriend in the past hitting her, and I just had one of my gut feelings. So I throw on some clothes, grab the cell phone, and head over there. N is sitting in her truck, balling her eyes out and yelling at her boyfriend on the phone. Her boyfriend's cousin is going off. "I'll kill that mother fucker. You don't fucking do that to a woman. He's my blood and all that shit, but that is just fucking wrong" apparently my instincts were right. In between racking sobs, I get the whole story. N called her bf earlier tonite and told him she was gonna come over. He told her to make sure she called before she got there. N forgot to call, and when she got there she heard her bf talking bad about her and things that have happened in her family. So she went inside and told him that talking about her like that was wrong and that it really hurt her. So he starts yelling at her for not calling and she says that's not the point. Next thing she knows is he's choking her.... hard...holding her up against the wall by her throat. One of his buddies pulls him off of her and she bolts. She picks up one of her friends, her bf's cousin, and comes back to the house. and this is where I began my story. So now N is over there freaking out. Her daughter is crying and all scared and N is self-medicating with xanax and crown royal. I told her to call the cops, and she won't. She's paranoid that they'll come and take her daughter away. then she starts yelling at her daughter, cause she's high and thinks DK (her little girl) is just using all of this as an excuse to stay up. Now, all I wanna do is go and get DK and have her stay here until N sobers up and calms down. I don't know what to do. My hubby says we should call the cops, but I CAN'T do that. they all know I am the only person who could or would call the cops. Her boyfriend knows me. If I call the cops, I will be on his hit list, and I spend most of my time here all alone with my sons. N just called me and she sounds like she's calmed down some. This time she was crying because she was yelling at DK. She realized what she was doing and apologized to her. I offered to let DK stay over here for the night until this all blows over, but she said she'd rather have her there with her. ..........fuck.......... someone, please...... the next time I have one of those "feelings", remind me to tell my gut to shut the fuck up and then send my ass back to bed. 1 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

ding dong the bitch is gone [07 Apr 2003|10:13pm] Well, I didn't need to say anything tot he landlord anyway. He kicked the bitch out this morning! So, while Granny was here, I went over there with the landlord to help him clean up a bit, and the place was a mess. She broke out 2 windows, the fridge was unplugged with food rotting inside of it, and at least 3 weeks worth of garbage in bags in the kitchen (not to mention the full industrial sized garbage can out side, filled to overflowing, and smelling like a great big bowl of smashed ass). After seeing all of this, the landlord said he was just going to call a cleaning company and pay them to do it, so he didn't have to and I was off the hook. **HUGE sigh of relief** This all kinda sucks though. When she first moved in there just after x-mas, we got along really well. She was my only friend in this town, other than my cousin. The she had to go all psycho-coke-fiend on me and think I'm screwing her boyfriend, then try hitting on my husband as a way to get me back. I still have the hubby, and he is a wonderful man, but I need a good friend here. Someone I can go out with from time to time and have some fun. Someone I can talk to. My best friend lives almost 3 hours away, so we don't get to see each other that often..... **shrug** Oh well..... guess I'm alone again :( 1 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

neighbors SUCK! [07 Apr 2003|01:28am] [ mood | pissed off ] I am so pissed I can't see straight!!! My stupid ass neighbor is all coked-up and paranoid. So now she swears up and down that she hears someone walking around outside her house. So she calls me, AT MIDNIGHT, WAKING UP MY KIDS, and asking me to turn off my porch light and listen to see if I can hear anything. I tell her that she doesn't need to be calling me at this hour, waking up the boys, just cause she's paranoid. all she can say is that she's scared. so, I give in, and listen. and guess what, I HEAR NOTHING. I called her back and told her that I didn't hear anything. So she calls me back AGAIN, after I told her not to, telling me that she still hears it and she's gonna call her boyfriend. Her boyfriend shows up, with 3 of his friends, all drunk as hell, and they proceed to walk all around the property, mine included, yelling at each other...waking up my kids YET AGAIN! I call her back, AGAIN, and tell her to tell her friends to shut up. Things finally quiet down and I get the boys back to sleep, someone starts banging on my door, of course, waking up the boys (cause they were barely asleep from the last time). So the hubby and I go over to the screen porch, and call out to whoever it is. Low and fucking behold, it's one of her boyfriends drunk friends, babbling about the noises my neighbor heard and telling us to call her if we hear anything. THIS IS BULLSHIT! I just called her back and told her that if one more person calls, knocks on my door, or so much as makes a fucking peep outside my house, I am coming over there and busting some fucking skulls. Normally, I wouldn't be so pissed. But this is the 3rd time she has done this. I am tired of all of this! I can't deal with this shit anymore. I am a very agreeable person, and I will put up with a lot, but not any more of this. I don't know what to do. Call the landlord tomorrow and tell him she's causing trouble? She's gonna get kicked out anyway for not paying her rent.... Or do I just deal with it myself... the only problem with that is if she does this shit again, I'll go to jail for kicking her ass. I really need to go get some sleep, but I am so livid, there's no way I'll be able to...and I have to get up by 8 am with the boys tomorrow. ........... fuck ............. 4 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

[06 Apr 2003|12:22am] I'm sorry I haven't been posting or commenting much lately. I've been EXTREMELY busy. I've been looking for a job, which kinda sucks cause I don't want to have to leave my boys with Granny, but I need to find work to help out around here until the computer store picks up some more business. Anyway... th boys spent the night with Granny last night so the hubby and I could have a well deserved break. It was pretty cool. We went out to the Clock for coffee (at midnight :) like we used to ) and sat up there for hours, just talking. we really needed that. We've been having a lot of issues lately and it was good for us to be able to sit down and talk them all out, and not have to keep eyeing the clock, knowing we'd have to get up with the boys in the morning. So, we stayed up till all hours, and stayed in bed most of the day today, snuggling and "other stuff". heheheh. well, I'm gonna go smoke a cig with my hubby and head off to bed. goodnight all! 7 blew this scene | 3..2..1..let's jam

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