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got hacked. [09 Dec 2003|05:52pm] [ mood | sad ] [ music | Konstantine-Something Coporate ] i love you so much. like foreal i do. and you think im saying all this stuff that im not saying. haha. you sound mad, but yeah. i love you so much & i always will and you know that and please dont go to another school cuz id die because i love you so much & i never want you to leave me..i love you. Comment

[08 Nov 2003|06:21pm] [ mood | chilly ] [ music | [[Taking Back Sunday//Bike Scene]] ] I'm thinking about moving this journal over to Greatest Journal. More icons. Hi yay. And yeah, it will be great. Add me to your lists. xem0starx 2 Commented //++\\ Comment

.x. it's always you in my big dreams [08 Nov 2003|05:44pm] [ mood | emo ] [ music | [[Something Corporate//Globes & Maps]] ] Well yesterday at school: 1st//did some parade stuff & passed off parade music.. wee? 2nd//work 3rd//watched mr holland's opus 4th//test, i passed it. yay? Okay after school I went to Ashley's & her & Nicole & I went to the movies. We didn't see anything. There was these hot guys who looked like they were from Simple Plan.. haha & HOT GUY IN MY 3RD BLOCK CLASS WAS AT THE SHOE STORE & I SAW HIM DRIVE BY I ALMOST JIZZED IN MY PANTS! *blinks; cough* anyways.. Tony & Graham weren't there :( Drew & AV were there. Her twin has herpes. Brandon Johnson was there & he may look different, but he's still the same.. :( it hurts my feelings cuz we were like best friends :(... I met Devin & I think she didn't think I liked her.. or something. But I don't have a problem with her. Her friend Seantel is cool. Austin is an ass for doing what he did to her. I'm gonna tell him off maybe. If I feel bitch enough I will. I talked to Missy (Nicole's cousin or whatever) & she was like I don't like Nicole. & I was like.. okay. Why? & she was like cuz she don't like me & I was like why? & she was like, I DON'T KNOW HAHA! & i was like.. hmm. Well, I don't hate anyone but Rene Smith & Chrys Shaffers. Sorry guys, I don't like you. Fall down some stairs. Mal & Staci were there waiting on this guy. It was sad cuz he never came :( Wow, Joey is hot. :x He reminds me of Brian. :( I saw alot of depressing videos today. \= There's a lunar eclipse tonight. It's so pretty... *le sigh* I wish I could have a boy. :( whatever bye. DEPRESSING MUSIC HI! :( KILLS SELF. Comment

.x. she's beautiful [06 Nov 2003|08:38pm] [ mood | exhausted ] [ music | [[Something Corporate//I Want To Save You]] ] we worked parade stuff today at practice. i miss having football games. i miss competitions & the show already. i didn't cry this year though, well at least about that. which is an accomplishment. 2nd we did this stupid stuff about lines. i need to finish my homework.. i'm washing my clothes.. & i'm tired. i wanna go to bed, but i have to wait for the towels to dry & my clothes to get done washing. wow. 3rd we took a test. 4th we reviewed for a test; took notes.. etc. that's all. i'm tired. I HAVE THE HICCUPS. 4 Commented //++\\ Comment

[05 Nov 2003|04:31pm] I wrote a poem for the seniors. No one really acknowledged it but Bolack because I made him read it. And a few lower classmen. I think it was pretty good. I might post it in here later. I wrote a note to Savannah but she hasn't said anything to me lately so I don't know if she read it, or .. whatever. I need to get a video tape of 2001s show. Because HI EL TIGRE YAY! I'm not gonna make it because of Mr. Caldwell. I mean, I can already see it now, he's probably not gonna let any of the mellophones that are trying out make it because he's always wanted 6. And we might have 6 next year, but I'll be section leader whether Corey likes it or not. I mean Ashley has accepted the fact that I would be section leader. Corey is just like, well I don't think its fair that we're in the same grade but you've been a mellophone a year longer than me that you get to be section leader. & I was like well it is fair. Bye. \= Anyway, I bitched at Rene twice. I'm not a pussy like her, I can say stuff about people & say it to their face & not have people read it over the internet like some bitches. She fucked with the wrong juggalette. Alex, too. He's a pussy & says shit about people & then goes out with them & denies that he ever said that shit & then starts saying shit about me? He don't fucking know me. Fuck his ass. We signed up for Macy*s busses & Macy*s groups. I'm in a group w/Beth & Ashley & Ashley & Staci & some other kids. New paragraph. I don't like people who put one entire entry in one huge paragraph, or people who don't use punctuation. Let's try this, here's an example: omg today i was sitting on my front porch & there was this dog who ran up to me & knocked me out of my chair it was so scary then at lunch today i was eating a hot dog & i dropped it all over myself & i got ketchup on my white shirt i cried it was sad. [/end illiterary mode] Anyway, I'm done. Hi, Channy I love you. You will always be my Konstantine. Comment

WOW [31 Oct 2003|11:09pm] okay hi, i've neglected this lately & i think it's time for an update. i forgot where i left off. OH.. okay so nothing really happened that i can remember. but tonight sucked. yes we had a freaking game on halloween. fun times. i'm tired so i dont feel like typing about it. so i'll write about the competition tomorrow. we're going to gordo. i still have to write about the festival & hi wow, i'm getting my hair cut tomorrow morning. :) good bye. Comment

x. hi wow. [24 Oct 2003|06:15pm] i went to school monday. 1st//nothing happened. 2nd//nothing happened. 3rd//did work 4th//watched a movie i went to school for 1st block tuesday. NBC came to do a story on our band. woo hoo. then i checked out because i felt sick. went to the doctor. came home & slept a whole lot. i didn't go to school wednesday. i went to the doctor & slept a whole lot. i didn't go to school yesterday. i slept & watched a whole lot of TV. i missed the football game. today i went to school. 1st//FOX 6 came to do a story on our band. we did concert stuff. i have a ghetto french horn. 2nd//stupid stuff i cant do. 3rd//movie 4th//slept tomorrow we have a festival. i'm a band guide for Buckhorn HS. I never heard of it. I'm about to research them. :) Lauren is w/me & she's my friend YAY. 2 Commented //++\\ Comment

[21 Oct 2003|05:52pm] [ mood | sick ] [ music | [[tv]] ] hi, i'm sick. 2 Commented //++\\ Comment

.x. bored/survey [19 Oct 2003|12:48pm] [ music | time stands still... yes, still. :) ] . : This or that : . [ .142. ] rock or rap: both [ .143. ] rock or pop: mostly rock but i can handle pop [ .144. ] rock or r&b: rock [ .145. ] rock or metal: both [ .146. ] rap or pop: both [ .147. ] rap or r&b: rap [ .148. ] rap or metal: both [ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop [ .150. ] pop or metal: pop [ .151. ] r&b or metal: metal [ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: linkin park [ .153. ] tool or korn: tool [ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: neither [ .155. ] hot or cold: cold [ .156. ] winter or summer: winter [ .157. ] spring or fall: fall [ .158. ] christina or britney: christina [ .159. ] icp or eminem: icp [ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: marilyn manson [ .161. ] kittie or garbage: both [ .162. ] mtv or vh1: both [ .163. ] buffy or angel: neither [ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: neither [ .165. ] football or basketball: football [ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: neither [ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: i dont do either of those.. [ .168. ] rollarblading or skateboarding: skateboarding [ .169. ] black or white: black [ .170. ] orange or red: ORANGE OMFG ORANGE [ .171. ] yellow or green: yellow [ .172. ] purple or pink: pink [ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: angry music.. good for any occasion, both. [ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: both [ .175. ] inside or outside: inside [ .176. ] weed or alcohol: heh... heh.. both [ .177. ] cell phone or pager: cell phone [ .178. ] pen or pencil: pen [ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: neither [ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: neither [ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: neither [ .182. ] star wars or star trek: neither [ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: both [ .184. ] prep or punk: both [ .185. ] slut or whore: neither . : Private life : . [ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: i wish [ .187. ] do you have a crush: not really [ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: not really [ .189. ] have you ever been in love: i regret it [ .190. ] how many people have you kissed: like.. 7 [ .191. ] who was your first kiss: my first peck kiss was.. jared mills & my first kiss kiss was brian. *dies* [ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: i dont know [ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: plenty [ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: love is life, life isn't fair. (i made that up :D) [ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: i duno [ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: i duno [ .197. ] please post it if you do: [ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: ew, yah [ .199. ] please post it if you do: i did that a few entries back [ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: both [ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: i guess [ .202. ] are you still friends: i guess [ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: i have & i will again [ .204. ] do you smoke weed: i have & I will again [ .205. ] ever trip on acid: hah no [ .206. ] how about a little x : no [ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: no [ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: both [ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: ... shh, yeah lol [ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: yes, its yum [ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: i duno [ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: i duno [ .213. ] are you a virgin: yeppers [ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: -- . : Have you ever : . [ .258. ] flashed someone: haha.. yeah [ .259. ] told the person you liked how you felt: YES *dies* [ .260. ] been to michigan: my mommy was born there. [ .261. ] gotten really REALLY wasted: haha, no comment :X [ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: no [ .263. ] skateboarded: yeah [ .264. ] skinny dipped and if so with who: no [ .265. ] stolen anything: yes [ .266. ] wanted to kick my ass for making this so long: no, cuz i only got from 142 on.. :D [ .267. ] kicked someone's ass: nah, not physically. [ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: i duno [ .269. ] broke a beer bottle: yeah.. haha *THIS IS MY HOUSE.. ^breaks glass on the road^* [ .270. ] gotten into a bar: i guess [ .271. ] kissed someone of the same sex: yeah, but not passionately [ .273. ] gone on a road trip: i guess you could call it that [ .274. ] gone on vacation : no, i'm a hermit....*dies* yeah [ .275. ] been to a concert: mmhmm [ .276. ] been to another country: i wish [ .277. ] talked back to an adult: haha yes [ .278. ] got pulled over: don't drive. :( [ .279. ] got in a car accident: um, a BUS accident. [ .280. ] broke a law: ..shh [ .281. ] given money to a homeless person: i duno [ .282. ] tried to kill yourself: yeah [ .283. ] cried to get out of trouble: plenty of times [ .284. ] kissed a friend's brother or sister: um, i duno [ .285. ] kissed a brother or sister's friend: i dont have any of those [ .286. ] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking and let someone eat it: i duno, probably Comment

.x. Smashd n2 Pieces [19 Oct 2003|12:30am] [[Silverstein//Smashed Into Pieces]] Never Again. I'll slit my throat with the knife I pulled out of my spine. Maybe when you find out that I'm dead, you'll realize what you did to me. [Chorus] And if my lungs still let me breathe, would you breath air for me. If I can make myself believe, I'll give you back what you took away. No, I won't let it go. Douse myself in gasoline. So don't save me when you come into the fire. I'd rather die than have to see your smile. You made me swear [x2]. I can't sleep. Realize all the things that you took from me. Smash my heart (you made me swear) into dust.(you made me swear) Suffocate my mind.(you made me swear) Tear at me from inside.(you made me swear) Smash apart what you created. How can i ever stop you from crushing my soul? It was yours to begin with. Comment

.x. Your own Disaster [19 Oct 2003|12:27am] [[Taking Back Sunday//Your Own Disaster]] Just think of this and me as just a few of many things to lie around to clutter up your shelves And I wish you weren't worth the wait because there's some thing's I'd like to say to you... I don't think that you know what you've been missing Cuz I don't think that you know what you've been missing I dare you to forget those marks you left across my neck from those nights when we were both found at our best I could make this obvious, and in one breath you could shrug me off your shoulders... I don't think that you know what you've been missing Cuz I don't think that you know what you've been missing Hey, lush, have fun It's the weekend Hey, lush, have fun Hey, lush, have fun It's the weekend Hey, lush, have fun I don't think that you know what you've been missing I don't think that you know what you've been missing Just forget me it's that simple Just forget me it's that simple Comment

.x. Bike Scene [19 Oct 2003|12:26am] [[Taking Back Sunday//Bike Scene]] I'll leave the lights down low so she knows I mean business And maybe we could talk this over Cause I could be your best bet Let alone your worst ex And let alone your worst... I wanna hate you so bad But I can't (but I can't) stop this anymore than you can So honestly, how could you say those things when you know they don't mean anything And you know very well that I can't keep my hands to myself, hands to myself I wanna hate you so bad But I can't (but I can't) stop this anymore than you can This is all wrong and it shows There's certain things I promised not to let you know, (I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the edge of my seat, I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the...) not to let you know I never let you, never let you, never... You've got this silly way of keeping me on the edge of my seat But you're only counting the clock against the train And I'm miserable, oh (I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the edge of my seat, I've got a silly way of keepin you up on the...) And you're just getting started I'm miserable, oh And you're just getting started You've got me right where you want me (let's never talk) Let's never talk, let's never, let's never talk about this again because... I didn't want it to mean that much to me I didn't want it to mean that much to me I didn't want it to mean that much to me I didn't want it to mean that much to me Anyway... yeah Comment

.x. The best song of all time. [18 Oct 2003|11:55pm] [[Konstantine//Something Corporate]] I can't imagine all the people that you know and the places that you go when the lights are turned down low and I don't understand all the things you've seen but i'm slipping inbetween you and your big dreams it's always you in my big dreams and you tell me that it's over wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clovers and your restless, and i'm naked you've gotta get out you can't stand to see me shaking no could you let me go? I didn't think so and you don't wanna be here in the future so you say the present's just a pleasent interruption to the past and you don't wanna look much closer cuz your afraid to find out all this hope you had sent into the sky by now had crashed and it did because of me and then you bring me home afraid to find out that you're alone and i'm sleeping in your living room but we don't have much room to live I had these dreams that i learned to play guitar maybe cross the country become a rock star and there was hope in me that i could take you there but dammit you're so young well i don't think i care and if i hurt you then i'm sorry please don't think that this was easy then you bring me home cuz we both know what it's like to be alone and i'm dreaming in your living room but we don't have much room to live and konstantine is walking down the stairs doesn't she look good standing in her underwear and i was thinking what i was thinking we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere my Konstantine came walking down the stairs and all that i could do is touch her long blonde hair and i've been thinking it hurts me thinking that these nights when we were drinking no they never got us anywhere no this is because i can spell konfusion with a k and i like it it's to dying in another's arms and why I had to try it it's to jimmy eat world and those nights in my car when the first star you see may not be a star I'm not your star isn't that what you said what you thought this song meant and if this is what it takes just to lie in my mistakes and live with what i did to you and all the hell I put you through I always catch the clock it's 11:11 and now you want to talk it's not hard to dream you'll always be my konstantine konstantine, they'll never hurt you like i do no they'll never hurt you like i do no, no, no no no no no no this is to a girl who got into my head with all the pretty things she did hey you know you keep me up in bed this is to a girl who got into my head with all the fucked up things i did hey maybe baby you could keep me up in bed my Konstantine spin around me like a dream we played out on this movie screen and i said did you know i missed you? [x7] oh god i miss you and then you bring me home and we'll go to sleep, but this time, not alone, no no and you'll kiss me in your living room i know you'll miss me in your living room cuz these nights i think maybe that i'll miss you in my living room we don't have much room i said does anybody need that room? because we all need a little more room to live my Konstantine This song is seriously, honestly the most depressing song, ever written. The music even makes me want to kill myself. Comment

Survey [18 Oct 2003|10:34pm] [ Current Mood ] sickly feeling [ Current Music ] nothing.. unless you count the music in my head. [ Current Taste ] diet 7up [ Current Make-up ] nothing [ Current Hair ] up in a ball [ Current Annoyance ] my head hurts & there's goop in my eye [ Current Smell ] my house [ Current Favorite Artist ] artist... like musician? um.. john mayer? [ Current Desktop Picture ] Good Charlotte, but I'm about to change it to TBS. \= [ Current Favorite Group ] Taking Back Sunday [ Current Book you're reading ] nothing [ Current CD in CD Player] AAR/Rooney (mixed) [ Current Color Of Toenails ] pink [ Current Refreshment ] diet 7up [ Current Worry ] uh.. LAST PERSON... [ You Touched ] my mom? [ You Talked to ] online=ashley; irl=mom [ You Hugged ] channy? [ You Instant messaged ] ashley [ You Yelled At ] definitely channy [ You Kissed ] um, i think brad.. but nothing froo froo about that. FAVORITE... [ Food ] shrimp [ Drink ] diet sunkist/starbucks [ Color ] Orange [ Album ] meteora, the all american rejects, my emo cd, forrest gump soundtrack *don't shoot me* [ Shoes ] my chucks, THAT EVERYONE HAS & I WANT BACK :( [ Candy ] snickers almond/kit kat [ Animal ] white tiger [ TV Show ] camp jim [ Movie ] royal tenenbaums [ Dance ] wtf [ Song ] as of now, time stands still by aar [ Vegetable ] mm broccoli [ Fruit ] pineapples [ Cartoon ] i duno ARE YOU... [ Understanding ] somewhat [ Open-minded ] somewhat [ Arrogant ] um.. a little, not really [ Insecure ] pshyeah [ Interesting ] oh yes [ Random ] um, YEAH.. haha a whole lotta that goin on [ Hungry ] nope [ Friendly ] wow, i guess.. sometimes.. it depends on my mood [ Smart ] most of the time, i just don't show it [ Moody ] you'll find out [ Childish ] not really [ Independent ] no [ Hard working ] eh, for some things [ Organized ] holy hell, yes. i have to have everything like i want it or i'll die [ Emotionally Stable ] i wish [ Difficult ] somewhat [ Attractive ] i wish [ Bored Easily ] sometimes [ Messy ] nopers [ Thirsty ] i have a drink [ Responsible ] on some occasions [ Obsessed ] not really [ Angry ] no [ Sad ] a wee bit [ Happy ] if thats what you want [ Hyper ] 75% of the time [ Trusting ] yes [ Talkative ] no... gah i'm a liar WHO DO YOU WANT TO... [ Kill ] *cough* I don't WANNA kill anyone, but if I had to.. I'm not gonna say here. *coughwartasscough* haha, no just send her off somewhere where i don't have to see her or HEAR her.. [ Slap ] All the boys that hurt me :( [ Get Really Wasted With ] ashley, & ashley & drew.. haha [ Get High With ] same as above [ Look Like] PEOPLE have said that I look like: Julia Stiles, Kelly Osbourne & Reese Witherspoon? -W H O- [makes u laugh the most?] myself [makes you smile] Natalie & Ashley & chan [gives u a funny feeling when u see them] no one as of now [who do you have a crush on?] uh.. not really anyone [has a crush on u?] hell, no one. [is easiest to talk to] chan -D O. Y O U .E V E R- [sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. 1ou?] yeah right, someone special who? [save aol/aim conversations] pshyeah [Wish u were a member of the opposite sex] let's just say i'd flick it. [cried because of someone saying something to you] yeah all the time -H A V E .Y O U .E V E R- [fallen for your best friend] no comment [been rejected] EVERYDAY ALL THE TIME [rejected someone] maybe a couple of times [used someone] never in my life [been cheated on] hell yes [done something you regret] all the time.. -D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U- [smoke cigarettes] i have, i will again. [obsessive] sometimes [could u live without the computer?] hell no [color ur hair] i duno [ever get off the damn computer] hardly, only to sleep [habla espanol] um, hola mi amigos, como esta? muy bien.. i don't know what any of that means, i'm taking spanish next year [how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] 128 [drink alchohol?] i have & i will again [like watching sunrises or sunset] sunset [what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain] emotional -N U M B E R- [of times I have had my heart broken? ] 2 or 3 times [of hearts have broken? ] uh.. maybe one? of guys I have kissed?: 7? of girls I have kisseed?: if its just a peck then: 4 i think or 5 of cd's that I own?: a million of scars on my body?: a million of things in my past that I regret?: a million I KNOW: nothing I WANT: everything I HAVE: diet 7up I WISH: i was pretty I HATE: most things I MISS: i dont wanna talk about it I FEAR: nickels, spiders, squirrels, etc. I HEAR: me typing I SEARCH: no? I WONDER: about myself I REGRET: lotsa things I LOVE: some people I ACHE: my heart :( I CARE: about my friends & my mommy. I ALWAYS: have clothes on, unless i'm in the shower? I AM NOT: a boy I DANCE: never I SING: all the time I CRY: all the time I DO NOT ALWAYS: follow directions I FIGHT: with people i despise I WRITE: poems & sometimes stories I CONFUSE: myself I LISTEN: to my mixed cds that i cherish I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: on the computer, in bed or watching tv I NEED: i dont wanna talk about it I AM HAPPY: 30% of the time Comment

.x. quizzes [18 Oct 2003|09:59pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | [[Cold//Cure My Tragedy]] (in my head) ] You're "You Know How I Do", you're always tired, upset or lying and you won't take anyone's crap. Which taking back sunday song are you? brought to you by Quizilla You're emo music! You like to hang out with friends and listen to sappy love songs, broken-hearted losers and talk shit about everyone else. Loosen up a little bit. What kind of music are you? brought to you by Quizilla that guy was scary Your: Wondering eyes. Your not quite focused and your quite the day dreamer. Your a bit odd and as many say "Your head is in the clouds." What type of eyes do you have? brought to you by Quizilla "When Doves Cry" (by Prince) How could you just leave me standing, Alone in a world so cold? Maybe you're just too demanding. Maybe I'm just like my father--too bold. Maybe you're just like my mother. She's never satisfied. Why do we scream at each other? This is what it sounds like, When doves cry. Which 80's Song Fits You? brought to you by Quizilla you are great romances of the 20th century..not the best song but good..any song with the word romance in it..can't be too good What Taking back sunday song are you? brought to you by Quizilla I am 74% Emo Well.. I've made the cut! Now I'll go buy some promise rings and knit myself a sweater. Take the Emo Test at fuali.com take the emo quiz.created by jessi bwee. Comment

.x. epitome of perfection [18 Oct 2003|07:51pm] [ music | [[AAR//Time Stands Still]] ] We lost the game, I do believe. I think we even lost last homecoming.. but I don't remember. The show was funny cuz I think it was. Homecoming court thing was HELL because it just was. It was funny, too. I laughed. We could possibly actually be going to Gordo Nov. 1st. I want to. Me & Chan went to get some movies & we got Wrong Turn & it was really stupid & we ate pizza & it took him like SERIOUSLY 2 hours to get me to go downstairs & go to sleep. I wanted to sleep in his room cuz I'm scared of sleeping downstairs. But I did & I finally went to sleep at like 3am. We had so much fun tho cuz *coughdie* It looks like a big taco. If you give a mouse a cookie.. he's gonna wanna sleep in your bed. You're a stubborn mule, NO I'M A MOUSE. :) That was great. Who made it so the world would spin? John Mayer is on my porch. That's a dog. I know, it's him. HEY JOHN. *dog tramples me* HAHA GREAT. I love you son. Anyways I got up at like 11.. and we watched Lion King & it was fun & they took me to AV's & I went & got my stuff from AA's & then I went to the grocery store & saw Joseph & got some dinner & then we went home & ate & then we went to get some movies & we got Bully, Stranded, & Anger Management. Anger Management was funny & I'm not watching Stranded, cuz I'm in here. :) I'm listening to AAR on repeat. :( This song is gr8. It hurts my heart though. I gotta go clean the kitchen. Bully is a good movie. I'll watch it tomorrow. EDIT: I forgot that I fell down the stairs & my ass hurts. Comment

Cold//Cure my Tragedy [18 Oct 2003|11:32am] [ mood | gloomy ] Remember all the times that we used to play? You were lost and I would save you I don't think those feelings will ever fade You were born a part of me I was never good at hiding anything My thoughts break me Do you understand what you mean to me? You are my faith [Chorus] Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2] Don't take her smile away from me She's broken and I'm far away Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2] if you make the world a stage for me then I hope that you can hear me scream Won't you cure my tragedy? When I sit and think of the days we shared and the nights you covered for me Every little thing that I ever did You would stand by me Everytime you cried it would take my wind My heart would break If I could be strong like you were for me You are my faith [Chorus] Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2] Don't take her smile away from me She's broken and I'm far away Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2] if you make the world a stage for me then I hope that you can hear me scream Won't you cure my tragedy? Can you hear me scream? [x2] [Chorus] Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2] Don't take her smile away from me She's broken and I'm far away Won't you cure my tragedy? [x2] if you make the world a stage for me then I hope that you can hear me scream Won't you cure my tragedy? I can't take this anymore I can't feel this anymore Won't take and give her pain to me 'Cause my whole life I've made mistakes Can you hear me scream? [x2] wee..what a great song. like whoa. 1 Commented //++\\ Comment

[15 Oct 2003|10:49pm] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | [[Hanson//Yearbook]](in my head) ] Yeah, I got ready at like 2 again today. We went shopping & I got some timberlands, a Pony Jacket (its so old school & I love it), an orange courderoy (sp?) purse, some powder, deoderant, shampoo, & mousse. It was fun. We went to like 6 shoe stores, Brookwood Village & Walmart. There was alot of hot guys & I saw this one guy in Foot Locker walking out of there & I glanced at him & looked away real fast cuz he looked SOOOO familiar & when I looked at him I felt like I knew him forever & it felt so weird. When I got in the car I realized who it could have been. I think it was Josh, our old church youth guy. I could be wrong, but I think it was him. There was this guy at Walmart, okay & 1st off.. I don't like walking through stores by myself cuz when I notice a guy staring at me, I don't look cuz it scares me & this one guy did & I didn't look at him at all & when he passed me he got really close & was like... hmm. & I was like wtf, you wish. My hair is getting thin. Not thin thin, but thin for me. My hair used to be hella thick, I guess sinced I brushed it out yesterday, it feels thinner cuz all the tangles are out of it. Don't think I'm gross cuz I don't brush my hair often; It's REALLY curly & extremely long. (I am not exaggerating, it is like almost to my butt.. it's right past my belt line) I only need to brush it like once a week or it'll fall out & get REALLY frizzy & I don't wanna be like Rene.. *COUGHDIE* Okay.. I have some things I wanna say... but I don't really wanna say them here.. or anywhere for that matter, so I might make an entry where only I can see it.. \= Comment

playmash.com [15 Oct 2003|12:30pm] [ mood | amused ] You will live in Mansion. You will drive a red Eclipse. You will marry Blake and have 0 kids. You will be a Actress in Canada. playmash.com Remember MASH? That little game you used to play when you were a kid? To find out who you would marry & crap? It's fun. Not real, but fun. :) My favorite # is 72, so it took like 5 minutes for them to give me the answers. 2 Commented //++\\ Comment

[15 Oct 2003|11:42am] [ mood | awake ] [ music | [[slingblade on TV]] ] I got a comment on my last entry... well rather ranting entry.. & I suppose it was from one of the band parents or something. But thanks to whoever it was. I'm sorry for sounding so mean & stuff.. I wasn't trying to come off that way at all.. it just hurt my feelings. But, yeah. I hope that we can look back on this & laugh, like Savannah said. Because I think it's kinda funny, as of now. :) I love all the band people & the parents cuz yall are like my family & I don't want anyone to hate me or be mad at me for something like this .. I even forgot what it was, but yeah. Anyway, I had fun yesterday..I got ready at like 2 o'clock cuz we were gonna go somewhere when my mom came home. (Which is like 5, but we didn't end up going until like 6) I was excited cuz I haven't been OUT out in a long time. The only places I've been lately is the gas station, school, and with band people. So I was excited. Call me a dork, but I don't care. :) We went to Kohl's on 280 & it wasn't all that great, I got me a cute hat thing & a scarf for NY because.. it's gonna be like really cold. Haha. I did have some cute black glittery gloves picked out but, I dropped them in the store somewhere w/o notice & I ended up not getting them. We went to the grocery store & didn't get much cuz Winn Dixie sucks. :) We're probably gonna go to another store tonight. Yay, excitement. I told my mom before we walked into Kohl's that I was excited & I felt like I was on House Arrest. It was funny. But really, cuz I'm not doing anything this Fall Break... just sitting on the computer, watching tv, & sleeping. I'm thinking about going to Sloss (I call it Slapp, for some reason) Furnace w/Ashley today or tomorrow.. & spending the rest of the week w/her. Friday I have a cute little date thing w/Channy. :) I duno what we're doing.. I REALLY NEED TO GET SOMETHING TO WEAR cuz I don't wanna wear school clothes.. I wanna look pretty for one day. But yeah, I'm gonna spend some time w/Ashley cuz I love her & she's my best friend & I haven't spent the night at her house since Jamboree. So I'll probably spend tomorrow night, Friday night & Saturday night & most of Sunday cuz my mom is going fishing. :) haha. Okay wow, this is a huge paragraph so, I'm done with this paragraph. Chan is at the viewing thing today, I duno when the funeral is. :( I love you! I want him to hurry up & get back so I can talk to him. It's so cool, we've been friends since like 8th grade & we've had like a million ups & downs but like, now we're gr8 & we love each other & we're best friends. Haha. I can talk to him online for like ever & not get bored cuz I'm always rambling about stupid stuff & just being stupid. He tells me everything & thats great. & I tell him ... stuff. I tell him basically everything. I don't tell him stuff that Ashley doesn't want me to tell anyone. And I don't tell Ashley stuff that he doesn't want me to tell anyone. But it's hardly about him, it's about other people & he don't want them to get their feelings hurt if it goes around too much. WOW this is a big entry. bye. Comment

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