| Catching my breath |
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| 11:16am 19/04/2006 |
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I am so busy...so much to do...I should be in class right now, but I'm still not-quite-better from the bad cold/sore throat/sinus whatever-it-is I came down with over the weekend, so I decided to take the morning off, because I don't have a choice about this afternoon. Oh, back-to-back tech weeks. Ew.
I also have a paper journal that I usually write in about 4 times as often and as much as I write in anything online, but I've been so busy I haven't had time to write in it in about a month, and it's frustrating because all of those thoughts are still floating around in my mind and I want to get them down on paper because they're important.
I'm dancing a lot, I'm getting a lot of positive feedback on my dancing and my choreography, I have amazing teachers, I like my classes, and while I've stayed around 130 lbs. since January, I've managed to continue to lose fat and become more streamlined. My breasts just shrunk back down to a C-cup and I'm thrilled about that. I'm just doing so much it's exhausting. I hate to say that I'm doing too much, because I love all of it. It's just wearing me out.
S. is wonderful. When I started to break down last week, and felt like all of it was just too much pressure and too much responsibility, he showed up at the theater with this gorgeous stem of huge white orchids. I love orchids, and nobody ever bothers to get them for me because the really nice ones always cost more than roses...Anyway, I just mean to say that it really meant a lot to me, because he's almost as busy as I am these days.
I love him so much. Even when there are problems to work out, our relationship is so important to me, so special, that I'll put up with the frustration of dealing with it.
Oh, and my roommate this year is wonderful, and I'm overjoyed that she wants to live together next year too.
I'm still worried about affording this summer, and really bummed at the prospect of not having the $$ to go to Burning Man, but generally I'm too busy right now to give any of that much thought. Which is not a horrible thing, really...
So basically the only major body issues I have left are my thighs and my skin. If I could lose about 5 lbs. of fat off my thighs and finally really have clear skin for a substantial amount of time, then I'd be alright. Not perfect, mind you, but I think I'd be okay with it. |
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