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Wednesday, April 6th, 2005
4:21 pm
Yesterday I went over to Sam's and helped her dye her hair. I haven't seen the final product yet because I had to go home early. But I missed her, we haven't hung out in like over a week and that's a long time for us, so that was cool. I also stayed after school and hung out with Mrs. Rosier with Ryry and Manda. It was cool, I still love Mrs. Rosier. We talked about sXe people and we got into a huge discussion and it was really cool.

Today nothing major happened. But tomorrow I'm going to see the musical with my bro and Rach to see Erica, Kelly, and Dan. So that should be cool, plus Bryan is in it and that damn neighbor will kill me if I don't go. He knows where I live, he can do it. Friday Teresa's comming over and we're watching massive amounts of Disney movies and gonna eat massive amounts of Burger King, yo.

I don't know what I'm going to be doing the rest of this weekend either, but I don't think I'm gonna do that much, I know Saturday night I'm going over to Scotty's to play poker. But that's the most I know. I have to get the purse I want, too. It's at H&M, so that should make Teresa proud.

My birthday's in 12 days. That makes me kinda happy, hopefully it'll be better then last year.

current mood: sore
current music: The Ellen Show

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Friday, March 25th, 2005
9:26 am
I can't believe I just woke up at 8am.
Anyways, yesterday after school, Manda, Sam and I hung out for a while. Then Manda and I left to go pick up my bros and her stuff, then we came back here. Gayle decided to come over too. Yea, didn't enjoy that too much. But anyways, so Manda and I talked, then my mom came home with Buger King which was really rad. Then we practically fell asleep, and when I say we I mean Manda.

Robbie came over for a while and we watched Saw. I thought it was a good movie, but I don't know, I just didn't like it too much. After that Robbie downloaded some stuff onto my laptop, and then he played guitar and decided not to dance for us. No fun.

Robbie left, then Sam came over at like 10, but Manda and I ended up passing out at like 11 so yea, we hardly got to spend time with her. :-(

Today I'm going over to Kelly's and I think we're going out to dinner, too. Atleast that's what Sandy (Kelly's mom) said when she called yesterday. And I think my mom and Sandy might be going out to dinner together, too. So that should be cool, Sandy always puts my mom in a good mood.

I woke up at 8am. WHAT THE FUCK?!? And ofcourse Manda's still sleeping. She sounds funny when she sleeps hehe, but I love her.

current mood: sleepy
current music: Manda snoring

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Saturday, March 19th, 2005
3:59 pm - The Sacrament is you.
Yesterday was so much fun, seriously, it was awesome.

Erica bus drove Manda, Leo, Sam and I over to Manda's and we hung out over there for a while and stuffed our faces. Then we decided to head over to the mall for a while and met up with Kim. I got a skirt for $5 and it was really fun, except at the end at Zumiez. We're sitting there waiting for Kim to try on her shirts and then the lady who works there comes over and says, "So where did you steal the shirt from?" and the four of us were like "Excuse me? Can you tell us what you're talking about?" because we seriously had no idea what in the world she was talking about, we didn't steal anything. Then she goes, "Well, I heard you girls talking about how you stole a shirt, I wanted to know if you stole it from my store." So we told her, "We didn't steal anything, I don't know what you think you heard but we didn't take anything. Check our bags if you want, because we did not take anything." And then she walked away. It was kind of pointless and stupid that she did that, and Manda's mom and my mom are going to write a complaint at Zumiez.com because we thought that was very disrespectful. So don't go to Zumiez because they think that everyone's stealing from there.

Anyways, after the mall, Manda, Leo and I went back over to Manda's and partied over there. It was so much fun, we had giant talks and then Jackie and his friends called so we talked to them for a while. Manda told Leo and I that if we fell asleep she would pour cold ass water on us... Leo found that out the hard way. Manda poured water all over Leo, so we went into the kitchen to try to dry her off and it turned into a giant Water War. We were throwing water all over eachother and got soaking wet, then Manda said we were gonna stop... and she poured water down my pants.

I woke up and my pants were still wet. Then we talked and ate, Manda and Leo got ready and took a little nap. Jackie, Roy, and Billy came over and then I left. Came back here and cleaned and blasted my HIM dvd and here I am.

I hadn't hung out with Leo and Manda together in forever and it was great. I love those two girls, they're really like 2 of my best friends.

current mood: drained
current music: HIM | The Sacrament

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Wednesday, March 16th, 2005
7:43 pm
Sam and Manda are over.

They're upstairs sleeping in my room. Weird kids. But I love them.

TRIANGLE!!

current mood: confused
current music: Seinfield

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Saturday, March 12th, 2005
11:29 pm
Random Things You Probably Don't Need to Know )

current mood: bored
current music: On Fire | Switchfoot

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10:34 pm - Hit me, Knock me out.
Last night was very confusing.

I hung out at the high school with Teresa while I waited for my mom to pick me up. Then once my mom picked me up, I was home for a grand total of 5min. Then I was off to Victor's soccer game, I had fries while he played and yes, that was exciting for me. After Victor's game, I had to go to Willow Field to watch Elliot preform for something, but I found Kelly so I got to hang out with her for a while. At like 7 I left and went to coffeehouse.

Coffeehouse was pretty cool. I hung out with Manda, Elsa, and Dani for a while and we talked and had cookies. Peter, Mike and Zach played and they were really good, but only got to play like 3 songs. They recorded that day too, so I bought one of their CDs and they all signed it. Then some chick played "MMm Bop" and that was totally awesome. So for the last couple minutes I hung out in the hall with Robbie, Manda, Rach, Zach, Peter, Mike, Jill and some other people for a while. I hung out with Jill a lot and that was really cool cuz I love Jill.

Manda spent the night after, and we stopped at Burger King real quick and got fries. Freaking Gayle decided to hop along with my mom when she came to pick up Manda and I and that really pissed me off for some reason. She's following me around a lot now a days and it's pissing me off because she thinks that just because she's friends with me she can hang out with me and MY friends all the time. NO! You can't! Anyways, Manda and I had fun, we bitched a lot and actually stayed up till past 11:30 which was a huge accomplishment for us. We ended up waking up at like 9am which completly sucked. So then we got hungry and Manda had ice cream and we made pasta and mac and cheese while we watched Butterfly Effect. That's still an amazing movie but it makes me so sad every time I watch it.

After Manda left, I was just really anti social and just hung out around the house, got dressed, went out with my mom. When we got home I watched a movie and made food, and now here I am.

current mood: drained
current music: What I Want | Autopilot Off

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Thursday, March 10th, 2005
4:02 pm - show biotch
MATCHBOOK ROMANCE WAS AMAZING!

Oh man, I'm so happy I went. I'll start out with right after school, I hung out with Sam, Ryry, Tom and then met up with Carly a little later. My mom picked us up, dropped off Tom and Ryry, Carly and I got some kick ass cheesecake at BK. Then came home, Manda scared the crap outta us by jumping outta my closet when we didn't know she was there. Robbie came over, and then Ryry picked us up and Carly, Manda, Robbie, Ryry and I went off to the show.

Scatter the Ashes played 1st, they weren't very good, but the guitarist was the hottest man I think I've ever seen in my entire life. And I got a hug from him after and he gives the best hugs, like seriously, it was like Emaciated Boy hugs. Anyways, the From First to Last played and they kicked so much ass, it was great. In between bands Manda, Carly, Ryry and I started talking to this guy Ryan from Albany and he was really cool. Motion City Soundtrack was amazing, but Carly and I had to get outta the pit cause neither of us could breathe. So for their last two songs we were up on the deck with the people who never move, but whatever. MATCHBOOK ROMANCE was AMAZING! I think it was the best show I've gone to in such a long time, it was even better then Early November. They started out with My Eyes Burn, (which is Carly's song) and then played their good songs like Playing for Keeps, In Transit (for you), Your Stories My Alibis, Lovers and Liars, Greatest Fall of All Time, they even played Tiger Lily, and ended with Promise. I don't know if that's the right order, but it was awesome that they played Greatest Fall and Tiger Lily which are like my two favorite Matchbook Romance songs.

After the show I bought my brother the West for Wishing album and a Matchbook Romance shirt for his birthday. I also got him a Matchbook Romance poster autographed by the lead singer. I'm planning on stealing that shirt like every week though, so haha to him. I was so lazy, I didn't shower after the show and I didn't shower at all today. I don't care. Being clean is highly over-rated. Plus Manda and I got too dehydrated so when we drank a lot of water too quickly we ended up throwing it up.

current mood: sleepy
current music: My Eyes Burn | Matchbook Romance

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4:00 pm - show biotch
MATCHBOOK ROMANCE WAS AMAZING!

Oh man, I'm so happy I went. I'll start out with right after school, I hung out with Sam, Ryry, Tom and then met up with Carly a little later. My mom picked us up, dropped off Tom and Ryry, Carly and I got some kick ass cheesecake at BK. Then came home, Manda scared the crap outta us by jumping outta my closet when we didn't know she was there. Robbie came over, and then Ryry picked us up and Carly, Manda, Robbie, Ryry and I went off to the show.

Scatter the Ashes played 1st, they weren't very good, but the guitarist was the hottest man I think I've ever seen in my entire life. And I got a hug from him after and he gives the best hugs, like seriously, it was like Emaciated Boy hugs. Anyways, the From First to Last played and they kicked so much ass, it was great. In between bands Manda, Carly, Ryry and I started talking to this guy Ryan from Albany and he was really cool. Motion City Soundtrack was amazing, but Carly and I had to get outta the pit cause neither of us could breathe. So for their last two songs we were up on the deck with the people who never move, but whatever. MATCHBOOK ROMANCE was AMAZING! I think it was the best show I've gone to in such a long time, it was even better then Early November. They started out with My Eyes Burn, (which is Carly's song) and then played their good songs like Playing for Keeps, In Transit (for you), Your Stories My Alibis, Lovers and Liars, Greatest Fall of All Time, they even played Tiger Lily, and ended with Promise. I don't know if that's the right order, but it was awesome that they played Greatest Fall and Tiger Lily which are like my two favorite Matchbook Romance songs.

After the show I bought my brother the West for Wishing album and a Matchbook Romance shirt for his birthday. I also got him a Matchbook Romance poster autographed by the lead singer. I'm planning on stealing that shirt like every week though, so haha to him. I was so lazy, I didn't shower after the show and I didn't shower at all today. I don't care. Being clean is highly over-rated. Plus Manda and I got too dehydrated so when we drank a lot of water too quickly we ended up throwing it up.

current mood: sleepy
current music: My Eyes Burn

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Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
3:42 pm
Sunday- The show was awesome! I even ran into Pat from swim and met his friend Nick (who was really cute) and hung out with jim z and a bunch of other people. It was great, I actually got into the pit and everything, it was crazy and hot as a mother. Justin Deery (sp?) was really cool too, I talked to him a lot. He poured water on me and it was great cuz I was sweating bullets. After the show, Dad took Sam, Ryry, Jim W and I to McDonnald's for a little. That was fun too. Got home and went to bed.

Monday- I was sore all day, my shoulders and knees killed from the pit. And I realized that was the reason I never went into pits before. It kills with my fucking injuries. Anyway, Manda came over and we hung out and laughed our asses off. I didn't hang out with her all weekend and I missed her... yes, for the 2 days I was without her, I missed her.

Today- only 1/2 way through the day so I dont know yet. But my shoulders and knees are sore as hell.

MATCHBOOK ROMANCE TOMORROW NIGHT!!!

I'm so excited :-D

current mood: cold
current music: Hanging By a Moment | Lifehouse

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3:42 pm - this is a call to arms...
Sunday- The show was awesome! I even ran into Pat from swim and met his friend Nick (who was really cute) and hung out with jim z and a bunch of other people. It was great, I actually got into the pit and everything, it was crazy and hot as a mother. Justin Deery (sp?) was really cool too, I talked to him a lot. He poured water on me and it was great cuz I was sweating bullets. After the show, Dad took Sam, Ryry, Jim W and I to McDonnald's for a little. That was fun too. Got home and went to bed.

Monday- I was sore all day, my shoulders and knees killed from the pit. And I realized that was the reason I never went into pits before. It kills with my fucking injuries. Anyway, Manda came over and we hung out and laughed our asses off. I didn't hang out with her all weekend and I missed her... yes, for the 2 days I was without her, I missed her.

Today- only 1/2 way through the day so I dont know yet. But my shoulders and knees are sore as hell.

MATCHBOOK ROMANCE TOMORROW NIGHT!!!

I'm so excited :-D

current mood: cold
current music: Hanging By a Moment | Lifehouse

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Saturday, March 5th, 2005
9:07 pm - I love Sam and Erica
Last night Teresa and Kristina came over. it was so much fun, when Teresa got here we went to burger king and then came back here, ate, then Kristina got here. talked with her, then Andy and Stacey came by and we talked to them for a while. I kinda missed talking to them and hanging out the huge group of us like it was back when Steve and i were together. But anyways, so we talked some more after Andy and Stacey left, and i made Kristina a Myspace. haha, it was funny, and then we talked to people [like Jim] on-line and then went downstairs and watched the HIM dvd. Which is always great because it's HIM and Ville Valo is God. We went to bed at like 2am, then we woke up at like 12:30, Kristina left, Teresa and i made noodles, watched Secret Window, checked our myspaces, then she left. I started getting ready, got ready, went over to Sam's, then off to Mike Vanbencoten's surprise party.

The party started out kinda eh, but then it was pretty cool. Erica showed up after a while so Sam and i talked to her alot and had fun. There were a bunch of lollipops and Sam, Erica and i ate so many of them, it was awesome. Mike, Adam, Peter and Pat spent a lot of the night jamming, which was pretty cool, and i met this cool girl Karen, and i talked to Diane a little. Sam, Erica and i had a craving for Dunkin Doughnuts so we decided to head over there and chill at Dunkin Doughnuts for about an hour. OH and in the car ride on the way home Celine Dion came on the radio and we all sung along. It was great, i really love those girls.

Tomorrow is the show at Tundra with NLB and Throwndown and some other bands. A bunch of people are going, and Brandon's going and i really am looking forward to seeing him.

current mood: crazy
current music: With this Tear | Celine Dion

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Friday, March 4th, 2005
1:20 pm - Chain me *awhooo* freeee
had socrates cafe yesterday. not fun.
we got into conversations about anorxia and bulimia. (i suck at spelling)
not a fun thing to talk about with ryan.

but then manda came over. we ate ramen noodles, whored ourselves for the camera, and talked about stuff. then we fell asleep for a while. that was fun.

i forgot to call kelly,kristina and teresa. but im pretty sure they're comming over tonight and sleeping over. i havent hung out with the 3 of them in a while. this should be fun :-P

current mood: tired
current music: Chain Me Free | The Matches

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Saturday, February 26th, 2005
5:04 pm - are you ashamed to say what you want to?
woke up
gayle got here
played a lil poker
gayle helped me clean
my two cousins and my uncle got here
hung out with them
got my cousin liking HIM :-D
watched some of the HIM DVD
had dinner
my cousin got me and MSN thing...
wow, that thing is just confussing.
ill stick with AIM.

current mood: confused
current music: The Union | Taking Back Sunday

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Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
8:07 pm - Power to easy bake ovens
today was just kinda out there.

i woke up and ofcourse sean was here. and then my mom, sean and my bros went up to the middle school to sort out t-shirt orders. so they left, and then i got my coffee, watched part of the HIM dvd and then i was online and so gayle and i decided to go up and help. so we walked up there, sorted the stuff and then i saw Mr. Russel, i love him. so i talked to him for a lil, then we finished and then decided to go out to lunch at 2 in the afternoon. so we went to Applebee's and gayle and i had chicken and laughed about the songs they played. when we got home, we decided to go to out again to kohl's and i got a candle.

when we got home my mom told me to go out and help her shovel the driveway. after i got my stuff on and came out side the 1st thing she said to me was, "cat, you're just about 16 and you need to hear this. i dont want you having sex until you're 18. but if you're going to, tell me if you think you're pregnant. i dont want you to have a kid yet, i just dont." and that honestly had to be one of the most random things my mom's ever said to me. so i stared at her for a second and she was like "you got that?!" and i was like "yea, but mom, do you know how fucking random that was?!" and she goes, "yea well i just saw ashley's sister and i dont want you to have a fucking kid, IM NOT READY FOR IT!" so that kinda made me laugh.

other then that we decided to go grocery shopping at 8 at night and listen to N'SYNC on the way. kinda out there too. but hey, what are you gonna do.

and whoever cares, i got really good cereal so that made my day.

current mood: creative
current music: Baby Blue | Early November

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Tuesday, February 22nd, 2005
9:28 pm
5
FROZEN QUEEN/ KING
You dont want love to come through to you. You like
it the way you are. To be unreachable, no need
to show feelings. Hiding everything inside you.
You are already used to it. You say yourself
that you dont need anyone, that you stand on
your own two feet or that you dont have time
for these things. But in reality you are scared
to get hurt. You feel save where you are: by
yourself, nobody can hurt you there. You
invent your own relationship in your dreams.
You just need to know that you COULD get a
partner.
Thats it.
PLEASE VOTE, I want to know what you think about my
quiz, I worked hard on it.You can always
message me or tell me how I can improve that
quiz. Ill sure write back.


~THE big LOVE TEST!! What do you need? With PICS! For girls and boys!~
brought to you by Quizilla

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Sunday, February 20th, 2005
4:51 pm - you are my good feeling
went to the mall with sam and manda for like an hour or so, it was fun.
and then i came back, had dinner, watched a movie, and here i am. and now i have time so im gonna post pics cuz yes, i like to take pics.

...i love my girls... )

current mood: cold
current music: Senses Fail | Bloody Romance

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11:22 am - i knuckle youu
Friday- it had to be the greatest day in like such a long time. it was so much fun. after school the erica bus girls (erica, manda, sam, and i) went to chase picken to make an extra key for erica, then we went to dunkin doughnuts and ate... a lot. and while erica went to go ride her horse, sam, manda and i came back to my house and screamed our lungs out to pissed off TBS, Brand New and Senses Fail. it kicked ass. at like 6:30 we went to coffee house and manda and i hung out with cool ass people. then erica and sam picked manda and i up and we went to the movies with travis and one of his friends. it was pretty cool. then we all came back here and ran in the snow and ate... a lot. then we burned marshmallows and played with fire :-D

Saturday- after sam and erica left, manda and i ate some more, then she left and i took a nap on all of the millions of blankets that were chilling in my room. it was fun. then manda came back and we hung out till the wescott show. the show was ok, Anorexic Beauty Queen kicked ass, Punch Drunk, NBL and Today vs. Tomorrow were all pretty good too. no sXe showed up that wanted to "kick my ass and beat me to the ground" so it wasnt extremly exciting. so after the show, manda came back here, and we ate and bitched, and then we were passed out at like 11:30 cuz we're losers and sleep.

Today- manda woke me up with her typing, so then we came downstairs and ate some more. then we chilled until sam got here, and now manda's passed out on my knee with sam sleeping next to her.


i love sam, erica, and manda so fucking much. < 333


current mood: tired
current music: The Runaway- SoCo

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Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
2:59 pm - Shake down, you make me break.
ok, im gonna actually do an update.

Monday- it had to be one of the best Valentines day ever. after school erica, sam, manda and i were riding the erica bus home and then we started talking about condoms. so we go off to the drug store and pick up some condoms and bought ourselves boxes of chocolates. then we went to the taco bell parking lot and opened up one of those "pleasure pouch" condoms and it made us laugh really hard. then one of us said that condoms put us in the mood for tacos, so we erica, manda and sam got tacos, i got ice :-D. after that i went home cuz i couldnt go to the movies with all of them :-( so instead, i kept up the tradition of blasting "bloody valentine" and eating chocolates by myself.yea, if i do valentines day, i do it the fucking emo way.

Yesterday- went for a walk with gayle and sam came over. she worked on her powerpoint thing and then matt all of a sudden told us to call, so he's like "i got a ride over to your house." so as we gave them directions, they end up getting fucking LOST and then right when they almost get here, the cell phone looses battery. idiots, i swear. but they got here ok and sam got to see matt. im really happy for her. :-)

Today- rode erica bus home, worked on research paper (which im still not done with) and now here i am.

current mood: cold
current music: Hurricane | SoCo

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Friday, February 11th, 2005
8:07 pm - i know all that you need
holy shit. tonight was fun.

ok i got home from school and went over to sams. matt and billy were supposed to come hang out with us but they couldnt get a ride. but sam and i bitched, watched eminem and ZOOM (which is so stupid but funny as hell), and i bounced on her trampolen (spelling??). it was so much fun, then we decided to go to the mall.

at the mall we ended up meeting up with sam's friend nicole and her friend who was really cool too.

and then some dude and his friend came up to me and he handed me one of those huge ass valintines day cards and was like "my friend wanted me to give this to you, he's too shy to come over and give it to you." and i was like wtf? AWW, but then i looked at the card and it said i love you steph and i was like haha im not steph. and he was like OMG im soo sorry! but it was pretty cool. and this other really hot dude walked by me and i think was like "heyyy". IM NOT USED TO GUYS HITTING ON MEE!!!

but anyways, then we kept seing this huge group of guys so nicole (sams friend) was like HEYY! and so they came over and talked to us. it was pretty cool. then two of them brought in their acoustics and played a couple TBS songs and Brand New songs, so that kicked ass. then i saw manda and elsa and i freaked out and ran over to them. and then manda left. and then i thought about it for a sec and realized that one guys name was keith. then i figured out it was keith. and i went off to look for her but she left.

after another song or two we left and here i am. tomorrow i think im hanging out with manda and sam and having a giant emo party. cuz we havent had one of those in a while. and i love those girls < 3333

current mood: tired
current music: Come Back- Early November

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Tuesday, February 8th, 2005
11:10 am - Semi Formal Pics
i promised they would be on here, so here they are. SEMI FORMAL PICS!

xXx )

current mood: sick
current music: Celine Dion

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