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A little help! [01 Dec 2008|08:03am] thinandhealthy [ohaiyogozaimasu] Since we're doing the activity challenge this week, does anyone know of any good articles about what to eat post workout? I've been finding a lot of mismatching info on the internet. Thanks! [2]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

Activity Challenge! [30 Nov 2008|06:57pm] thinandhealthy [healthy] [ mood | chipper ] The holiday season is officially upon us! While that means fun, friends, and family, it also poses a bit of a challenge to those who are actively trying to lose weight or maintain a healthy weight. Even the most disciplined person sometimes has an extra helping of Aunt Ruth's famous pie or over indulges at the buffet at the company holiday party, and that....is precisely what this challenge is all about! This week's challenge is to get 30 minutes of activity, 5 days a week. Staying active will help to burn those extra calories and will help to reduce holiday stress. The rules are simple....it can be any kind of activity, whether it be something that is technically exercise like running, walking, lifting, pilates, or it can be something like cleaning the house. It can be all at once, or it can be accumulated throughout the day. Write it down to make sure you get your time in! Here are some suggestions to get you started: -Do toning moves during commercial breaks... given that there are so many commercials, that time really adds up! -Park far away while you do your holiday shopping. -Take a walk during lunch. -Take the stairs instead of the elevator. -Take your dog for an extra loop on your walk. The challenge starts tomorrow and will last for one week (unless the participants would like it to go for two weeks). Who's in???? [6]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

Yay! [30 Nov 2008|01:23pm] thinandhealthy [secrethoughts] [ mood | excited ] I bought a treadmill!! I'm obviously super excited because my treadmill is the cornerstone of my post-baby weight loss plan. Where I live, the weather is cold and unhospitable, and I figure it will be hard to get to the gym with the baby....so....enter treadmill. It gets delivered on Tuesday, and I'm very psyched! It has all these pre-programed workouts; I'll be sure to post them and let everyone know how it's going/working.. [5]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

fear [27 Nov 2008|11:09pm] blurtysecret [__iloveyou__] [ mood | awake ] I have horrible thoughts when i wake up, when i go to bed, when i see the people i love. I see them dying, i see myself hurting their feelings, i see them feeling sad cause of what i said. I see them hating me. I feel bad when people eat food. I feel bad for people i don't know. I see horrible things happening to me. I see myself ripping my ribs out because they are so close to my skin, I see myself killing people, I see myself hurting my cat, i see myself acting out on impulse, i see myself screaming, i get angry out of no where, I'm annoyed to the point i want to scream and punch someone in the face. I always want to punch someone in the face. I see people being cut, i see people being shot, i see people dying. I'm always in pain. My knees hurt, my neck hurts, my head hurts, my abdominal and stomach always hurt, my back hurts, i get shooting pains up my arms. It hurts to pee, it hurts to have sex, i have a bump inside of me. I wake up some mornings so sensitive that i can barely touch my stomach or rub my hands over my arms. I live a life full of pain. I beg my mom for pain killers, i beg for any kind of relief from the pain. I take muscle relaxers every night to stop the pain and to stop the thoughts. I get so angry all the time, I get so mad that i can barely stand to be awake, i shake with anger and i want to hit the person near me. I cant stand how people act, i dont want to be around immature or dumb people. I don't' want to be talked to like im a 5 year old. When i was a kid i use to put red paint on me and tell my mom i was hurt to see if she would believe me, she never did. I don't know why i did it. I get so happy at one moment, and so sad or angry at the next. I cry and then i get annoyed if someone else cries. I would rather be alone at school then be with people. i am fully happy with my life, and who i am. I have a boyfriend, I have a family, and I have a bestfriend. I don't want to die. I don't want to hurt anyone. i am happy, I'm not sucidal, i've been having these thoughts as long as i remeber. but i don't want to live like this forever. it feels like I'm living a life in a movie when it happens. Because it doesn't actually happen for real. [2]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

[26 Nov 2008|05:18pm] blurtysecret [stainedkiss] I have a crush on one of my friends for more than 3 yrs, but I was in a relationship for 2 of the years, which ended 2 months ago. I see him nearly everyday cause we work closeby, and the mroe I see him, the more I fall for him. His cousin told me he said he likes me, and I think I have made it obvious to him how I feel. I just wish he would tell ME how he feels, cause not knowing is dirving me insane, and he is so hard to read sometimes. Last week we went partying and when he dropped me home I grabbed him and kissed him ... now I am just waiting for him to make the next move & I hope it is one that makes us both happy. StArBrOkEn

[25 Nov 2008|04:58pm] blurtysecret [deepxtrouble] [6]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

[25 Nov 2008|11:29am] thinandhealthy [1cigarrette] well.. i have my first appointment for therapy on saturday... im extremely unsure how that's going to go... specially since i wanted it to be a male, and its a female... but they say she's good... must be... at aprox 70usd x session.. eek... is that normal? anyways... what i wanted to ask is for some tips and motivation or something what to ask, say, not say... whatever... plz?! thanx [3]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

[25 Nov 2008|10:29am] blurtysecret [violentred] I can always rely on my yahoo comics to put a smile on my face every morning, even if only for a few seconds.... StArBrOkEn

[21 Nov 2008|01:44am] blurtysecret [missyouloveyou] [3]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

Articles! [20 Nov 2008|11:07am] thinandhealthy [secrethoughts] How to Diet on the Down Low....or how to diet during the holidays without ticking everyone off! Diet Friendly Holiday Meals- Now is the time to start collecting and trying healthy meals for your upcoming holiday get-togethers! Secret Power Foods- Stress is a killer...it causes people to overeat, and it causes the release of cortisol, both of which can make you gain weight! Check out these healthy foods to help you beat stress! The Holiday Feast Fat-Burn Plan- More on how to avoid holiday collateral damage. Whittle While You Work- Some great tips on how to lose weight at work. [5]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

ridiculous need for advice. [19 Nov 2008|04:27pm] thinandhealthy [mumblebee] okay, here's the thing: i need to find some way to do yoga/work out first thing in the morning, the way i used to do when i lived alone. it used to really help me out a lot, and i've missed doing it regularly, and not only that, but it had a huge impact on my fitness, how i look, and how i've felt about my body. without doing it every day, i don't even want to look at my body or admit what its size is now, because i can't handle it. i've been living with my b. for about 2 years, and my morning routine slowly dwindled away over that period of time, because.. i don't know - i STILL haven't found a way to feel comfortable with making a rule, or whatever, that i need to have my own time every day to stretch with the door closed.. it feels like i have to announce it, or ask permission or something, and that's weird, and interferes with the privacy and peace of it, if you know what i mean. i'm an extremely silly person, it seems. or at least shy. so anyway, NOW the situation is that the two of us have moved in with another couple, so privacy is even less these days, and it's just that much harder for me to start doing it -- again, for no good reason, but somehow i always just wind up doing what b. is doing and hanging around with everyone else in the house, etc.. i don't really know what kind of advice i'm after, here, actually. maybe i just needed to complain about how silly my problem is so that i could see how silly it is. (?). i guess all i need to do is to tell b. that every day after we're up, i need a certain amount of time alone to stretch. and then i just need to stop caring that there are people right outside the door, and to stop caring if they can hear me, because someone's always going to be hanging around near the door (our bedroom is right by the kitchen, after all). or something. it's normal to stretch, i shouldn't get so weirded out about it. blargh! [4]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

Our community has been vandalized [19 Nov 2008|06:54am] thinandhealthy [healthy] [ mood | angry ] You probably noticed the annoying commercial posts. We are trying to erase them all & we are really surprised blurty allows this kind of thing. Looking into it. Healthy [3]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

[18 Nov 2008|08:43pm] blurtysecret [unodosthrice] That's how I run from my problems. [6]StArBrOkEnStArBrOkEn

Oh. [18 Nov 2008|02:34pm] jack_0ff_jill [disembowel] I FUCKING LOVE JACK OFF JILL. Why is this community dead? Well. Fuck it. I still love you, Jessicka. StArBrOkEn

[18 Nov 2008|12:53pm] unsent [disembowel] To the cold fingers that used to trace up my spine-- You are connected to the hands that hurt, the hands that held, the hands that are attached to the devil himself. It was never enough, but you fed me more and more chemicals and sedatives and numbness that I gladly accepted. I broke down the same way your bones broke on my skull. And I still can't believe I stayed with you through the hospital run. I should have wrapped the belt tighter around your throat, I shouldn't have asked for the favor back, but you were willing and I was desperate. The hands that hurt, the hands that held... release. Those weren't conversations, they were manifestations, you swore you heard demons and they were demanding death upon me. You really wanted to kill me. I said, "Go ahead and just fucking do it." You were close, I know, I couldn't breathe, I couldn't see, I couldn't hear. You were close. I remember one night a companion's voice fluttered through the phone line, behind the voice with the summer sky eyes, "Maybe she likes it." Cold fingers, you really fucked me up, I think. The last snow fall held your deathbed, yet your murderous breath still tickles my nape and whispers degrading stories of disgusting love. I hope you're rotting into a shade of red and brown. -- spine. StArBrOkEn

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