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Sorry I punched you in the face. :(
... anywho I quit my job. I don't want to do that anymore. I'll find a new one soon. But I'm not really looking. I still have enough money to not have to work for a little while.
I won two tickets to the bahamas. Someone put my name in for me and wallah I won. I had no freakin' idea I was even entered. At first I thought it was a joke cuz I know some people who say it happened to them, before and it was to get them to pay for timeshare or other retarted things. So after that I went crazy researching it and was happy to say that this one is not a scam. I got all the paperwork all I need to do is pick a date. I've never really been anywhere.
Of course I'm taking Paul lol. He's the one who entered my name.
Well I'm off to the gym. I've been going a lot. I would like to fix myself. And I feel so much better over-all. I go w/ lynn two sometimes. Yes that's her name. But I need someone to go with because she can't always go and she doesn't have a membership. I don't know.
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[20 Aug 2008|09:26pm] |
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I'm not over it yet.
Maybe you shouldn't have effed up in the first place.
Stop telling me to get over it. Do you want me to punch you in the face?!
I didn't think so.
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[19 Aug 2008|08:55pm] |
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wasted.
I hurt all over today. I couldn't do anything good today. I saw my uncle on the food detectives commercial. That was kinda cool. And I watched people make "balloons" out of mozzerella cheese on Iron Chef. I feel better now, but the day is over. Tomorrow will be better.
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[10 Aug 2008|12:41pm] |
Maybe I think too much.
I guess I do, but it makes up for the times when I don't think at all.
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[17 Jul 2008|04:35am] |
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after all... I guess u do give me inspiration. lmao
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[17 Jul 2008|04:32am] |
not awful. or is it?
I just hate how we seperate.
The things you say sometimes make me sick Thank god I'm not milk. Take ure vinegar tongue and force it down someone elses throat.
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[11 Jul 2008|06:49am] |
I feel awful.
There is no trust here.'
He came in and told me those things... maybe to hurt me, maybe to make me leave you, or maybe just because he's a dick.
I noticed that some of the things he was saying were lies. I had been there for the truth.
But not knowing for sure about the other things he mentioned (the things about you), made me feel uncomfortable, and kinda sick.
My stomache knotted. I hate feeling like that.
Oh and he's so clever. He disarmed me. Telling me so I'd tell you, then you'd call her, making me think you want her. Then I became vulnerable. He saw my face sadden. Then he tells me he wants me, and he'll be there for me in the end. Waiting. Waiting for you to screw it up, and he swears you will... That seals it for me. I think of leaving you. And in a way I am. I fall away from you mentally, and start to believe you don't really want me. That the only reason you came back was because she doesn't want you anymore. And he tells me that she does, but doesn't. And I am lost.
I rather be alone. I was fine alone.
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[06 Jul 2008|11:16pm] |
You Are a Chocolate Chip Cookie
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Traditional and conservative, most people find you comforting.
You're friendly and easy to get to know. This makes you very popular - without even trying!
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[29 Jun 2008|09:29pm] |
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Moving on... again.
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[28 Jun 2008|01:33pm] |
I want my house special!
Yummy. :)
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[24 Jun 2008|11:59am] |
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Beach day! :)
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[17 Jun 2008|06:01pm] |
feeling wonderful.
hee hee
Sorry to disappoint you all.
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[15 Jun 2008|08:55pm] |
I want him to just forget that I exist.
He means nothing to me now. I don't really even remember him. He's just a blur.
I'm happy. And I have this feeling that I won't be anymore if things were different and we were friends.
What's wrong with that?
Besides there is no room for that. My life has gone in a whole new direction. It's Better!
I just needed to vent. grrr lol
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[10 Jun 2008|10:14pm] |
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Yeah so... still happy! wee.
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[09 Jun 2008|03:03am] |
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it's like some part of you is being censored when you are in a relationship. There seems to be many parts of you that you feel the need to hide fromthat certain someone because you know that it would effect how they percieve you...
it makes u wonder who the fuck you are. I feel it.
But I'm happy with myself. I rather not be held back from happieness.
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[08 Jun 2008|08:27pm] |
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It took too long. But I finally got to take time out for myself.
It's comlicated. But I get it and that's all that matters.
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[08 Jun 2008|03:15pm] |
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Truley happy!
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[27 May 2008|12:08am] |
It'll all get better in time.
I hope you're happy.
And I wish I was.
You blame me for being right. Maybe ignorance really bliss.
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[22 May 2008|10:32pm] |
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And the days just keep on passing. And I'm starting to forget your face. It's only fair, since I'm sure you forgot mine.
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