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[23 Jun 2004|01:51pm] |
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wow. hello blurty. it's been a while, hasn't it? & during that while, i'm safe to say i've changed quite a bit. things have happened in my life that i never thought possible. but i stay strong, and will continue to do so because i am strong.
i could sit here and update about my life, but i honestly don't want to. it would probably bore you (whomever "you" may be - if anyone reads this anymore, anyway) to death.
for the first time in my (soon to be) 17 years of living, i can honestly say that i'm in love. funny how that feeling can make you feel extremely amazing & absolutely horrific at the same time. but i like it, & i'm content right now.
lately i've been dreaming a lot of him, & it breaks my heart to know that he can't always be around. but soon... things will hopefully change; & when they do, that's when i'll feel complete.
excuse my rambling, it's been a while. i'm not sure if anyone comes around here anymore, i don't blame them if they don't. i haven't updated in almost a year. but it's alright. this is my journal; where i express my feelings even if no one wants to read them.
maybe i should start writing in here more. maybe... who knows?
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| new journal. |
[30 Nov 2003|01:18pm] |
okay guys, i'm getting pretty sick of this journal, i'm not diggin the name anymore, so i made a new on.
new name ; beep_
so, if you want to be added or something, comment on that and i'll add you again. i just don't feel like going through the whole list right now and adding everyone.
bye!
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| uh huh, i sure am. |
[27 Nov 2003|02:07pm] |
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I'm thankful for a few things;; I'm thankful for becca because she's been there for me these past months. the only person who's been there for me. and i love her for that. I'm thankful for drea for coming back into my life and not hating me. I'm thankful for my mom for being so fucking cool (sometimes) we never fight anymore, and she doesn't let me do everything i want, but at least she's fun to be around. I'm thankful for my dad for working his fucking ass off every day just to support all of us. I'm thankful for peter, nick, & spiro even though they can be fucking cockheads sometimes, peter has his moments and i still love him, nick's fucking cool & never rats me out, & spiro, well he's spiro, he'll mature some day... I'm thankful for jordan for being so fucking wonderful. i love you! I'm thankful everyone else that gives a fuck about me, & that's not too many people. For everyone, online or off, who makes me feel like a better person just by talking to me. thank you so much, you all mean so much to me. If i missed you, it's probably because you hate me or vice versa.
happy mother fucking thanksgiving, bitches i love you all.
dina xx
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[08 Nov 2003|12:27pm] |
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it is snowing. <3 [& it makes me think of Jordan. bad dina, bad!]
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[06 Nov 2003|11:16pm] |
i hate the fucking internet. i hate getting on here. it's stupid. it wastes my fucking time. i seriously hate it. but i can't do anything right now because i have NOTHING to do.
i wish i had a book to read. i finish my books too fast. i should take my time on them, but i can't. give me a book and some coffee and i'm settled. speaking of which, i would love a frappe right now.
i'm watching seinfeld. i can't stop coughing. my mom has bronchitis, maybe i have bronchitis too. nah.
so kolten is with that slut. fucking whore. stupid fucking whore. she's fucking 14 and has probably fucked more guys than i have ever even came in contact with. god i fucking hate this shit. i'm just being stupid and jealous because i need someone. but i fucking care about kolten. it's not about jealousy anymore, it's that shes gonna like give him some std's or some shit. god. ew ew ew ew ew.
in other news. i'm hungry.
i'm going to end this entry now and stop my fucking bitching. later, kids.
dinasaur.
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[05 Nov 2003|11:54pm] |
i'm cold. & i'm stressed. why am i stressed? i've decided since becca is going to be writing in here alot when she moves, i should start writing in here too.
i'll miss her. :\
time for reading & sleep. hello again children, & goodnight.
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| hey man; shut ur face. |
[17 Sep 2003|11:52pm] |
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i just IMed karl.
that
was
horrible.
i don't know what the fuck i want from him. he's right. i don't know what i want. a friendship? what kind of fucking friendship. i don't even see him. which is why we aren't together anymore. i guess i just needed to get all that shit off my chest. and i did. whatever. i think this is the end for dina and karl's "friendship" forever. i think this is the end for my friendship with a lot of people. i hate fake friends...
i hate this. i hate everything. i have some major fucking pms issues today.
what the fuck do i want? why can't i fucking make up my mind.
i want presents. for my birthday. that's what i want. i want people to remember me, and make me feel good that i exist... i wanna feel loved.
oh fuck me. i'm so fucking emo. im too hardcore to be emo. FUCK YOOUUUUU.
i need to get some sleep. :\
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[15 Sep 2003|12:02am] |
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so. becca's like.. moving probably. this depresses me. i dunno how i'm going to deal wih it. she's my best friend and i'm going to miss her alot. i've known her since i was in like 3rd grade. grrrr! this sucks so much ass. shes my only 'real' friend. everyone else is so fake towards me... either that or they dont need me anymore. so did i mention i'm going to miss her alot? well i am. yeah. uughhh. well i don't know.. maybe this is good for her... starting over... making new friends.. all that good stuff. just as long as she comes to visit. *pretends to be happy~~!!* (that one was for you bexinator <3)
anyway, this is going to royally suck, and i hope it doesn't happen any time soon. hell, i hope it doesn't happen at all. but i guess i dont always get what i wish for. well i never get what i was for. because if i did, i'd be in calgary right now. but that's a totally different story. bah!!
it's 12 am and i have school tomorrow. i also have a test in french. but yeah, i don't care... i'm just sitting here thinking how far away i am (or am going to be) from the two people i love the most. and i hate it. i'm so alone... whatever...
on a happier note. my birthday is in 10 days. i'm sure no one will remember it. and i'm sure my ex boyfriend wont get the balls to even IM me to say happy birthday, considering he hasn't talked to me since we broke up. thats pretty weak, and immature. but whatever, i'm so fucking sick of being nice. i tried man, i really did.
anyway. yeah. wee.. the big 1 6. whatever man. another year and i havn't accomplished anything at all. life blows.
anyway; on that note, i'm out for tonight. i'll try and update more often; k? i know how much you guys missed me. heh <3 kay. later kids.
<3 dinaki
(ps it's so nice to know that someone thinks about you before they go to sleep everynight...
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[05 Aug 2003|06:02am] |
i havent updated in a while. so i got my internet back for a while, wow, this summer was truly awesome. where we went to stay for a month, i met alot of new people and made a bunch of new friends. i miss them but ill be writing to most of them. i also met this guy there and i really like him. were together for now i guess, i dunno its confusing, actually i wasnt going to hook up with him for a certain reason, but as of a few days ago that certain reason is... over and now im with him. its not even a relationship, just a summer thingy. i just need someone right now. anyway hes really sweet and hes 18 and hes from florida, but hes greek like me. ahhh anyway.
i miss drea. i called her a few times while i was over at that place. ill call you again soon hot stuff.
anyway i miss you all too. ahh my tumy hurts. i need to poddy... comment!!!
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