Oh the sadness...   
11:56pm 30/11/2004
 
mood: depressed
I feel really lonely right now. Something's not right with me. I feel like I could cry, but the tears won't come.

I told my room mate about leaving and her reaction was a lot better than I thought it would be. She is now worried about getting a freak for a replacement, but that's not my problem any more. Now I'm wondering if I made the right decision about leaving. I'm not sure that I want to come back home after all. I've been free of parental authority for so long now...it's not going to be easy adjusting to rules again. I'm very stubborn and I could see what some one telling me no could lead to. I also ran into a guy I graduated with at Hastings earlier. He's going to the school I'm transferring to. He also told me that a lot of people that I absolutely hate and wanted to get away from the most are going to the same school. That is already starting to bother me.
I'm so confused. I hated RVille because it's just a sad lonely town and I wasn't happy. I don't think coming back home is going to make me happy either....I don't know what to do. I'm so confused about everything. I wish I could disappear from life long enough for everything to fix itself so I don't have to deal with it....and so I don't have to feel the way I do now.
I'm scared all of my friends at RVille are going to forget about me. I don't want this to happen. And I'm scared that something will happen to my relationship with Wes...everything's going to great with us and I know it's too good to be true. I've never had any luck in this area.
I wish I could snap my fingers and make everything better.
 
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