Samantha's Blurty

fucking junior banquet
so emily doesn't like how me and tom are going together. she says to him "i trust you, it'sjust i don't trust her.. i nkow she'll be all over you.." WHAT THE FUCK. oh yeah, no emily i never stole anyone from you. i never flirted with the kid you were seeing and told him that i liked him.. THAT WAS YOU. omg fuck that so much. fuck that times ten. she doesn't like how we hangout. she hates that he's getting a job at IHOP. who is she to say anything?! i've been friends w/tom since freaken 7th grade. how did you meet him emily? OH YEAH, BECAUSE HE WAS AT MY HOUSE. ugh. soooo fucking enraged right now. when they started going out i asked her "hey em, would you like to switch dates so YOU could go with YOUR BOYFRIEND?" reply: "oh no sam, it's fine, that'd be wrong, i want you to go with tom." fucking liar. UGH

tom and emily fucking piss me off. me and him hungout today - "see, you're cool.. you like hanging out on school days, you're down for all that shit.. why can't my girlfriend be more like you.." "it sucks that me and my girlfriend havent' even kissed yet" - okay tom!!! well you did breakup with me FOR HER.. so don't complain. omg i can't stand it. i had fun hanging out with him too. just little things like that piss me off so bad.

i don't feel weird about nicole anymore. if her and chris want to be whatever, then go ahead. everyone told me what happened friday night, how they "slept together' and shit. i told her i didn't want to know if anything happened b/w them, so i'm not mad at her for not telling me. am i mad at her for doing it? no.. not really. she needs some happiness in her life, even if it is on account of mine. i can't be selfish and think that he's "mine forever." i have to realize.. hi it ended almost 2 months ago, get over it. i hope he doesn't fuck with her like he did with me in the beginning of the year - she doesn't need that shit, especially after JJ. i know how scared chris is going into relationships, and i know he doesn't want anything serious with her.. i hope she realizes that too.

josh comes home soon. i thought i would be soo much more excited to see him.. but i'm really not. that's unfortunate, i love hanging out w/him. he's such a good friend to have. kelly's been talking to me more and more lately also. i think it might be because adam is home.. who knows

soo much work to do, i'm quitting school....yeah

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