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(For This I Gave Up Trying) Muffin [03 Mar 2003|11:12pm] [ mood X bored all to hell ] [ music X No Excuses -Alice In Chains ] Yeah so here I am, another fun filled evening by myself and Letterman at home in the basement, talking to random people on the internet to help alleviate this painful painful boredom. And it doesnt even help that much. Sorry, random people. I did a really stupid thing tonight. It was so dumb, I was at a friends house for all of ten minutes and I was just being an idiot. Anyway I started jumping on her bed, right? SUE ME, its fun, good god. Anyway I forgot how low her ceiling was (she had stepped out to get a drink) and I banged my head on the ceiling. I immediately fell to the bed and started screaming my head off. (no pun intended) And I was rolling around holding my head shrieking and making an idiot of myself and my friend comes in while I'm right in the middle of what looks like it could be an orgasmic fit of some kind. It really wasn't, it just looked like it could have been. So that was the high point of my evening. I think the next high point will be this next joke Letterman cracks. Yeeeehaw. *sigh* I can almost here the announcer sitting in the back saying "Mari Gregora, This Is Your Life!"

(For This I Gave Up Trying) Trust No One [02 Mar 2003|01:17am] [ mood X cranky ] [ music X Cold Reader -Stonesour ] Ok well yeah. . .I know I havent updated in months but I geuss I've never been a journally type of person, even if Ive wanted a thing like this for ages. Ok lots of things have happened, like my mom got remarried (again) and lots more things that are just a bunch of shit. I've also been sick for the past week or so. Lots of lovely things involving vomit and cold medicine. Errrgh, this is why I hate life. Being sick is so horrible, its like your own body is turning against you. Same with nightmares. Think about it. When you dream, its all from your head, right? I mean, it might be influenced by something you saw that day or heard, or a memory or whatever, but its all just in your head. It isnt real. Its really not! And when you have a nightmare, all that comes from you, and you wake up terrified, and its no ones fault but yours! All that horror came from your own head, and your soul put it together into this horrific vision. You can't even trust yourself. Anyway, I really should update more, if for no other reason than to (its late, my grammer is slipping) remember what has happened in the past when I come back and read this later. In other news I'm still as bored as hell. Any other questions? *crabby* There is absolutely NOTHING to do here! Grrrr. . .its so boring, especially in the winter! *roars* Nothing to do. . .I'm going to go do what I've done for the past four days. Sleep. Goodnight.

(1 Slid Further Down the Spiral | For This I Gave Up Trying) um. . .breakfast! [04 Jan 2003|01:54pm] [ mood X crazy ] [ music X Head Like a Hole -Nine Inch Nails ] I need to make a symbol thingie of the four elements for my art project. Curse us and bites us preciouss, we hates art! WE HATES IT FOREVER!! I mean, I love art, I'm just really bad at it so I'm cheating and doing it in photoshop. She didnt say it had to be totally original or um er. . .*guilty look* Hey I'm happy! I have a new friend named Breeee!! *hugs bree* Hey Bree we can be "Mari and Bree, the dynamic, Avril-wannabee strangling duo"!! *starts a new world order* Oh yeah I also hate school, but I love saturdays! *loves saturdays* I slept in until noon today it was so wonderful. I should probably eat my breakfast soon. My clothes are starting to get eaten off my back. I do HATE sewing too so I must be off. Hey Bree AIM me sometime xsweetnsassgurlx!! Ok I'm calling it here, see you later internet audiance!

(2 Slid Further Down the Spiral | For This I Gave Up Trying) Stolen from Bree's blurty [29 Dec 2002|08:55am] [ mood X bored ] [ music X Lithium -Nirvana ] 1. First Name: Mari 2. Middle Name: Gregora 3. Last Name: %%$*(@ (hmm. . .paranoid are we?) 4. Nicknames: Firebird, Squee G.(thank you random person on the internet) Fidget, Fidge, Fudge, Gidget 5. State/Province: Michagen 6. Age: 17 7. Sex: Female 8. Birthday: Ocotber 31 1985 9. Astro Sign: Scorpio 10. Siblings: only child but Matt my cousin is almost a bro 11. Pets: Cat the dog, (i do not lie) and Bark the cat, (I was on a roll) and Yung Mi the gerbil 12. Hair Color: Black (no really, its black, moms asian) 13. EyeColor: Green 14. Shoe Size: 6 1/2 --* R e l a t i o n s h i p s *-- 15. Do you have a crush?: yeah but fading fast 16. If So, What is their name? NOT TELLING *glare* 17: How Long Have you Liked them? I really dont keep track of these things 18. Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: mmph, no god no 19. If So, What is there name? i said no dammit 21. Did you send this to your crush?: not sending it 22. Are you a nerd?: lol yes 24. Do you think your fashion is cool?: I dunno, cool is irrelevant, but I like it 25. Do you have anything pierced?: yes 26. If not, what do you want? uum 27: If you do, do you want more?: naw, I'm good. four 28. Do you do drugs? when the mood strikes 29. Do you smoke? once, thought I was going to die so I stopped that 30. Who are your Bestfriends?: They're all my best friends. . .I either have best friends or enemies 31. Who are your good friends? I only have bad friends ;) 32. What kind of Shampoo do u use?: Herbal Essence 33.What do you dislike the most?: stupid people 34. What are you most scared of? Being happy all the time, just think about how horrible that would be. Ugh! 36. How many TV's do you have in your house?: 6 37. What are you listening to right now?: Nirvana 38. Talking to right now?: Jen 39. What time is it? 8:55 a.m 40. Do you have your own line? ___________ there it is 41.my own cell count?? what? (I failed biology) 42. Do you shave?: Of course! 43. What do you sleep in? Rats nest. . .well no. My bed, doi 46. Who is the last person who called you? Aaron 47. Where do you want to get married?: In a cathedral with pillars 48: What brand stereo?: Sony 49. Who is your hottest friend?: none of em are hot 50. Who is your ugliest friend? : none of em are ugly 52. Color: Black and deep maroon and deep blue, I also like blood red 53. Number: I think you asked this already, but thats what I get for starting from the bottom 54. Band: Dont get me started, its too early 56. Food: All of it 57. Snack: CHOCCIE 58. TV show: Simpsons 59. Hang out: Wendys 60.Restaurant?: Wendys (cmon, I work there) 61. Girl Names: Serena 62. Boy Names: dunno...I like the name Luke 63. Nail polish color: Mighnight Rush 64. Subject in school: Algebra 65. Good Number?: what? <--slow today 66. CD or Tape: CD 68. Animal: Cat 71. Ice Cream Flavor: Chocolate Strawberry 72. Game (if any): Twister (I rock at it) --* Have You Ever? *-- 73: Pissed Someone Off: HELL YES MY ENTIRE HIGH SCHOOL 74: Drank: yes 75: Had Sex: no 76: Fuked (yes there IS a diff): no 77: killed someone: no 78. Bungee Jumped: I wanna 79. Went movie hopping: 80. Broke the law?: Yes 81. Ran from the cops?: yep *evil grin* well ok mall security but whatever 82. Thought about being gay? Sure 83. Stole Something?: Where do you think I get all my cds? 84. Had a weird dream?: Always 85. Tried to kill yourself?: Yeah but chickened out at the last second besides Danny tied me to a chair. . .little bastard 86. Made yourself throwup?: No. . .see, my metabolism is through the roof. If I dont eat large amounts and do it constantly my body eats all the fat in my body and starts burning through the clothes on my back. I'm missing a bra. 87. Gone skinny dipping?: Heck yes 88. Been In Love?: Not for a week or so --* 1st Thing That Comes To Mind about *-- 90. Red: Blood 91. Cow: Aliens 92. Pig: oink! 93. marilyn manson: Choccie! 94. Socks: Nirvana 95. Mirror: Angel 96. Cowboy: Yes. Cowboys are sexy. 97. Where do you picture yourself in a year?: College 98. What are your favorite love songs?: Love songs? wha..? 99. Do you have any talents: Uuum. . .I can cross my legs over my head. . .that sounds akward but it looks crazy

(1 Slid Further Down the Spiral | For This I Gave Up Trying) Twas a few days after Christmas [29 Dec 2002|08:23am] [ mood X lazy ] [ music X Negative Creep -Nirvana ] At last, Christmas is over! I can finally write again. . . here I have a nice connection and I don't even update! I'm sorry Blurty! *bows down* Christmas is always very busy in my "blended" family. . .all four of them. *scoffs* What am I doing up this early? Its Christmas vacation. I should be sleeping until at LEAST noon, but here I am, up before nine. Ok it looks like having four families is good this time of year. I got a truck load of presents! Here's a list. Moms fam: -Makeup cases(yay!) -Art box -The Crow (dvd) -Nightmare Before Christmas (vhs) -Nirvana: Nirvana (cd) -Resident Evil (PS2) Dad's fam: -Nintendo Gamecube (!!!!!) -Medal Of Honor (gamecube) -Lord of the Rings (game: pc) -Lord of the Rings (extended version dvd) -Shiner: The Egg (cd) -Black nail polish and makeup set(yay!) Tammy's fam: -Warcraft Vol. 1 & 2 (from Bill. . .awww) -Hair stuff (thank you hair gods! DETANGLER!) -Nine Inch Nails: And All That Could Have Been (cds) -TTT 2002 calender -PS2 controllers Richard's fam: -LOTR chess set (v. cool) -Dream journal & Beginner's Approach to Dreamwork (from Shana) -Leather bracelet -Designer pens -Jelly Bellys (*drool*) -a whopping 2 pound bag of M&Ms -Hair brush (its a special kind thats supposed to be gentle on the hair. . .) Presents from Friends -Wire and glass necklaces (made by Mark. . awww) -Black boots (from Chelle wooo!) -Theives and Liars (cd comp from Aaron) -Sound Forge 4.0 (copy of it. . .but its cool, from Christie) -Spiked collar (haha :-/ . . .from daniel) Well thats it!!! Lotta stuff, huh? I feel like such a greedy little bitch. But its ok, I gave as good as I got, dont worry! Every one of those people who gave me all those nice things got great stuff in return, so I dont want to hear anything about me being a spoiled little brat (even though I am, lol) Need food. . .ugh, the kitchen is a mess. I geuss I'll have to clean it. . .meh.

(1 Slid Further Down the Spiral | For This I Gave Up Trying) Subjects are for creative people [22 Dec 2002|04:02pm] [ mood X bored ] [ music X By The Way -Red Hot Chili Peppers ] Ergh, I'm bored. The wedding is at the end of January, ugh. They couldn't have it in some decent weather? Oh well. Do you know what I think I need? I think I need to be 24 and get married and have my husband go to work every day so I can take naps. But I have to get through high school first. Some other things on my to do list: -Put an end all homework To do that I need to do it, so I had better get to work -Go to college Need to finish high school first so. . . -Finish highschool Need to put an end to homework before I can do that. Its a vicious cycle. Help! *glomps george*

(For This I Gave Up Trying) Amusing quotes of George [21 Dec 2002|02:03pm] [ music X Creed something or other ] "Well, for one thing, I don't like you're tie." "I didn't encourage that wink." "Bad machine." "Hey, it's a thingy. A FIENDISH THINGY!" "I know we're here." "They won't disembowl us, you see, that's all gab, disembowling."

(For This I Gave Up Trying) what is life anyway? [21 Dec 2002|01:59am] [ mood X contemplative ] [ music X Emotionless -Good Charlotte ] What are we here for? What is my purpose? Do I have one? Am I fufilling it right now by typing in this little box on this little screen? Or is it something different? Is my purpose mucking out the horse stalls every morning? Going to school? Eating lunch by myself in the table in the corner? Ignoring the cat calls and insults and rejections of boys (and girls). Making an impact for. . .what? So I cause a fuss by dressing differently. That's just the way I am. So I don't conform? Is that bad? No, I don't think so. But does my life matter, or my thoughts? Who dictates all this anyway? Maybe I'll find out one of these days. I suppose its better in the long run that we didn't get together. I'm good friends with him and if we broke up I wouldn't know how to be friends with him again, and that would be sad. I'm glad I got it out in the open so now we are aware of how we feel. That way we can be as normal as we can, both of us knowing the truth. I suppose nothing will go back to the way it was. Ah well. Such is life I suppose, nothing will ever go back to the way it was yesterday, and there's nothing really I can do about it so I might as well accept it.

(For This I Gave Up Trying) Curse you pantene [19 Dec 2002|09:40pm] [ mood X cynical ] [ music X Winter -Tori Amos ] I ran out of shampoo. Must buy more. Other things to do before I bed tonight: -Write English paper -Knife portraits of Peter Jackson -Fold Laundry -Stalk Daniel -Finish Mom's Christmas present And now let us speak of the degradation of humanity! Hooray! A rant cometh! no. . .too tired. . .only had four hours of sleep. . . I found this background on some random site. Aren't you proud of me Daniel? I should probably make some friends and make them get these things so I have someone to add to my friends list.

(2 Slid Further Down the Spiral | For This I Gave Up Trying) Wretched [19 Dec 2002|06:12am] [ mood X exhausted ] [ music X Liberation Frequency -Refused ] Foolish was I to stay up until two in the morning. Now I have to go feed the horses, damn them to hell, and then I have school. Someday I'm going to take them all to the glue factory. The horses, that is. Or the fertalizor company, like on that one Twighlight Zone the other night. That was creepy. I just love that show. Ok, this will be a brief entry. I feel as if I am dead on my feet, and though I usually look the part, today I feel like a walking corpse. Damn those horses! Damn you Peter Jackson....your cast cannot act.

(For This I Gave Up Trying) Thought provoked [19 Dec 2002|02:13am] hmm. . .what I really wanted was a Dead Journal That's what I really wanted. Oh well, stuck with Blurty. I geuss it doesn't matter, it gets the job done, right?

(1 Slid Further Down the Spiral | For This I Gave Up Trying) someone needs help in the originality department [19 Dec 2002|02:00am] [ mood X cranky ] [ music X The Egg -Shiner ] Why do they call this place blurty? Someone had too many drinks or a very low grade point average in high school. Oh well. . .I'd rather have this than Live Journal because you don't have to know someone in here to get a journal. Hey, I don't have any friends here, I wonder if I can add myself to my friends list. That would be pretty sweet. *goes to try it* I have way too much time on my hands.

(For This I Gave Up Trying) So here I sit, come listen who will [19 Dec 2002|12:32am] [ mood X accomplished ] [ music X The Day The World Went Away -Nine Inch Nails ] This is a new experience for me. I've never had a journal online before. It's been fun so far, making it look all fancy and the like. This journal could one day rock the foundations of society, like the Diary of Anne Frank. (by the way, to anybody who cares, read the unabridged uncut version, its way better) Or maybe it will sit here, moldering on this server until the computers that run it are long rusted, read by no one. But that matters none, because it is still my journal, and I will write in it what I will. Be offended or not, I don't care, my thoughts are my own. Have a nice day, cyber dwellers. Or should I say. . night? My nocturnal ways will drive me mad one of these days/nights. . .

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