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Tuesday, July 22nd, 2003
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1:36 am - I'm a geek
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Oh man when I get an email from Jason I get all giddy. and then when i read it i cry cause i miss him sooo much. If he goes to the merchant marines academy and I go to Hofstra we'll be half an hour away from each other. God I hope I get into there. Thats my dream school.
I think around beg. of December Im gonna have surgery on my knees. cause by then I'll be 18 for a while and I can do it without my sister's permission. and then Jason can come visit me. and then when i have the other one done he can come visit me again. lol. but that would be in like June and he can just go visit his grandparents...oh I don't know. whatever. too far ahead.
Well going to WALMART tomorrow!! oh yea score!! hahaha!!
good night.
current mood:  jubilant
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| Saturday, July 19th, 2003
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11:07 pm - Bi-polar is bad!
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Jason left...he's back home now...that's sad. cause I really miss him.
Dude, Jason's grandmother's friend has bi-polar and she wigged me out. She got real bitch at me a few different times. I didn't even really do anything. Oh well whatever.
I've saved a bunch of money for vacation. I'm so hyped up for this vacation. I need one. I've never really been on vacation before. It's gonna be great!!
I don't wanna work tomorrow. 6-10. Shitty. And I never work during the week. It's like...what's the point? but whatever. I just gotta find stuff to do during the week. I'll start chillin with Kim. She's cool.
Oh well...I miss Jason, and i'm gonna for a long time...sadly.
current mood: chipper
current music: Train Hopping In Dixieland by Northstar
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| Thursday, July 10th, 2003
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12:36 am - Oh man
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Hahaha...tonite was wonderful...expect for not. My bor-in-law came in my room when me and Jason were messin around and Jason like flipped when he had no reason to so now they supect stuff. They wer asking me all these questions and I was like..."Nothing happened!!" HAHAHA
Yesh...so it's been fun these like last 2 weeks. I'm glad that I got Jason to be with...hahaha.
"Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you." That should be my motto from now on.
Wisdom teeth suck. Ouch. They are cutting my poor gums...I feel so sick to my stomach. Ewwie....
I'm watching UnFaithful. yay. Not really but whatever.
I like Jason. (Even though he's from Oregon...ouch that hurts.) He's a nice kid...easy to be with, fun, sweet...oh man...hehehe!!
current mood:  horny
current music: HAHAHA Coldplay-The Scientist
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| Sunday, June 29th, 2003
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10:33 pm - Wellll....
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Oh man. I can't belive myself. I am stuck on Brian so much. I've tried to attempt to like other guys that like me this week. But I really can't. There is just no way. I don't know what I'm gonna do.
I'm so tired I think I'm gonna pass out.
I don't know what I'm gonna do this week. Attempt to get things situated maybe? I don't know. Ugh.
Heeeeeellllpppp me.
current mood:  exhausted
current music: Allister - Better Late Than Never
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| Tuesday, June 24th, 2003
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9:14 pm - Uh huh....
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Yea my fucking cat peed on my sandal!! AARRGGGHHHH! She should die.
Today was a good day. Nice and sunny. I went outside and went swimming layed out in the sun for a while. Practiced till I was qrotesquely (spelling?!?!? hahah!) sweaty. But hell, I'm tanner I dont care.
So Brian is in FL. I didn't know that he left till I tried calling him and his dad picked up and was like "He's in FL". Im kinda mad that he didn't even bother to call me and tell me, even though he has been really "busy".
I don't like Karis too much after what she said to me last night. She asked me about Brian and then she was like "Oh well it's ok, I doubt his GF back at school with care." Well she doesn't know him, doesn't know whither or not he still has a GF back at school, and she knew that was gonna piss me off. And it really did. I cried for half an hour because of her. I thought things that I shouldn't have thought and then I realized that Brian would have told me something important like that, you know? Geezums. I just don't get her at all. So why bother?
I love Sarah Bogue. She can bring me up from anything! I mean I was kinda pissed about what Karis said and she just reassured me that everything is ok cause she talked to him and he only said the best things about me. But I just need to talk to him about everything.
I can't wait to go to Maryland.
I wish that Brian was here now. I hate when I can't solve things.
I love The Ataris songs, I.O.U. One Galaxy... and ... I Won't Spend Another Night Alone.
"I think I'd be good for you, and you'd be good for me."
You know what? Summer sucks when your not away, or don't have a car, or live in the woods, or you have suckie friends. I havn't done anything since school got out. Besides work. Yippie...
Ryan loves Dashboard Confessional too. EEEE. he's on my happy list. He's a pretty cool kid.
Don't you hate it when your hair is half dry and half wet?? UGH it bothers me soo much!! LOL wow i am a loser.
I wanna get the new Brand New cd. But its hard to cause I live in the middle of nowhere. THere are no ccool stores around here. SOooo i have to wait till I travel long distance to a cool store.
Hmmm...more gibberish I suppose. I wrote some good stuff these past weeks. I shall qoute some of it...
"Those nights on the phone showed you more than anyone knows. My confessions lie with me tonight."
"And these nights escalate to the point where I break down. Lonilness takes the toll and I just can't handle it all. I picture you laying there all alone just like me, and all I think of is how to make this pain go away..."
yea...no more...its secret stuff. the only person that has read some of it is Amy.
current mood:  hot
current music: The Juliana Theory - August In Bethany
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| Sunday, June 22nd, 2003
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10:25 pm - I hate everything
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FUCK YOU
current mood:  angry
current music: Out of Reach- The Get-Up Kids
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9:53 pm - Uhh...
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current mood: chipper
current music: Making me a cd....
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| Friday, June 13th, 2003
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12:33 pm - Loooong time
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I've been grounded....fucking shit. But i'm at school...last day of classes...yes!!
I have to work...
I love Brian..he's the fucking shitness!
<3
Crystal
current mood:  anxious
current music: Brand New-I will Play My Game Beneath The Spin Light
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| Monday, May 26th, 2003
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8:11 pm - Heehee
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I had THE best time at Larissa's house Sat night. I met Brian. He is such a sweetie!! We stayed up alllll night...like NO sleep at all. hehe, I'm happy.
Work was fun...didnt have to work today cause it was raining.
I can't wait till summer!!!!!!
I am soo happy, for once.
*I'd give anything just to be with you tonite*
*You don't do it on purpose you make me shake*
*Please don't leave me without saying goodbye, let's travel back in time*
*Love is a bond without reason, a cry for connection, a light in your eyes*
*You remind me of a secret I was never supposed to tell*
current mood:  giddy
current music: Cold- Stupid Girl
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| Friday, May 23rd, 2003
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9:22 pm - Games
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Well...we had two games today...we lost both but played really good. I scored 3 really good goals.
Tomorrow I start working...and I'm gonna go to Larissa's house...cause its a get together for Eric and Kate's bdays. Amy's finally gonna hang out with her friends.
Prom is next week, senior pics the week after. Exams are coming up soon not really kinda...school ends in like 4 weeks or 16-ish days.
Im not going to camp just to make sure i dont kill my knees anymore...:( oh well...
Going to bed now...I'm soooo beat.
current mood: exhausted
current music: Star Trek Nemisis (or something like that)
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| Saturday, May 17th, 2003
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9:58 pm - Riiight...
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Yea so I get too confused about my friend's love lives...so I'm just gonna not try to understand any of it anymore.
I don't know what is gonna happen anymore. All I know is that I'm starting work next weekend. And I'm supposed to go to prom...getting my nails done...yippie. I'm dying my hair back to "medium blonde". Yea. Senior pictures are like 2 weeks away...I have 2 games this up coming week. And an orthopedic appointment on Tues. Finally. My ankle is messed up too...ugh. I don't know.
Seniors leave next week...I need to get film so i can take pictures of my friends that are leaving...it's gonna be soo weird. And I don't even know if we are really moving...like I don't want to cause it's gonna be my senior year..and I'll just have to make new friends alll over again..I'd be more about it if I was gonna be a junior, but nope...i really don't know what is gonna happen with anything anymore. I'm soo confused!! UGH. how come shit has to happen to me? i mean im almost done with school and now my sister wants to move to MD...sooo far from the friends i just made. so i'm kinda real sketchy about it. i mean seriously...wouldn't you be pissed if you've moved twice already and your in your 3rd high school. and if you were to move be in the 4th school for the last year of school. UGH. wtf. Sorry im just venting. I feel bad...I vented real bad on Amy last night on the way to my house...about how my sister can be a tyrant bitch. and i can't stand how she thinks that she is like God or something..she needs to get put in her place. and i can't do it cause im just a teenage younger sister. i dont know what's right for my well being. FUCK HER. i want to go to college and thats all i have to think about right now. so what the hell....at least im not my mother. so she can shut up.
Adam is so cool. lol
current mood:  grumpy
current music: Stand Up and State Your Name- Orange Island
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9:19 pm - Took a quiz...
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current mood:  accomplished
current music: I wont spend another nite alone-The Ataris
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| Thursday, May 15th, 2003
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9:34 pm - What a day...
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Yea tomorrow is the spring concert..hahaha what a joke. also i have practice and there is a track meet. so i think that im gonna watch the track meet, change, go to practice, change again and go to the concert. ugh....cause i cant think of any other way to get to the concert....
Yea so I took pictures for the yearbook this week..tennis, yippie. i hate tennis haha but i dont hate Ned even though he plays.
So lately I've been going to Dawn's gym class during study hall cause well...study hall sucks. and the other day we were looking at my yearbook and this real annoying kid charlie was asking me and dawn (and freddie) who was hott in our little ass school. so he points to his picture and i started laughing soooo hard...and freddie almost died laughing! haha and dawn was like "noo, you're not that bad..." hahaha! and i pointed to freddie's picture and i was like "oh yea he's really hott" and i like "giggled" but i really ment it...but i didn't want him to think anything to big about it...although i realized today that i have a crush on him...yea...but i didnt say that
I have a game on next tuesday and another on next friday although i dont think that i can go to the one on next friday cause i think i have to work...but i dont know yet..i hope not. but senior pictures are coming up...and prom before them...i have to dye my hair again tooo....
i think im gonna go to bed....im a tired little freak that scares boys away..lol
current mood:  bouncy
current music: Lazy- NOFX
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| Sunday, May 11th, 2003
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7:42 pm - Big game!
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Mt.Greylock...big game...we lost by only a couple last time we play...it's revenge! We have to win. And I am seriously pissed off at my ankle...it won't stop swelling up UGH. And if someone trips me again tomorrow, I'm gonna kill them. They are gonna be on my hit list. Yea...
I miss Jeff...haha! Good old days...well I'm thinking of going to Quinnipiac...close to Jeff....and they have lacrosse and athletic training/sports medicine...which is awsome! So...i can't wait till next school year. It's gonna be sooo easy.
I wonder when I get my results back from the SAT's...hmm...another thing to look up! haha!
Time to research...
"To sit alone with my conscience will be judgement enough for me." Charles William Stubbs
current mood:  full
current music: Guernica- Brand New
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| Saturday, May 10th, 2003
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10:44 pm - Long time no talk...
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OmG, I just talked to Jeff...I haven't like talked/seen him in forever...like sence i first moved...damn. I miss that kid! I always realize who I miss after I talk to them after like a year! I'm gonna call him soon.
So today i didnt do much...went outside and threw the ball against the board thingy hangin up in the tennis courts...went to Katie's General Store got ice cream, saw the cute guy that works there (his name is Tim), and then came home...ate ice cream...and dinner of course..then came online. painted my nails, downloaded some songs..and thats about all so far.... oh well.
Think it's time to send Dawn the convo I had with a stupid freshman...haha
nite
current mood: cheerful
current music: Linkin Park- My December
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| Thursday, May 8th, 2003
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9:08 pm - Hehaha yea!
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The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Eigth Level of Hell - the Malebolge!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test
current mood:  amused
current music: Am I Wrong?-Brand New
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8:42 pm - Died
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We lost..it was like 3-8 in the end...ugh.
I fell again...yea that hurt too. So many bad calls...illegal game play...omg i wanna fall apart.
Senior picture sign ups are next week. Picture in begininning of June. yearbook on sale next week...start working soon too. Monday we have another game against Greylock and Tuesday I have to take pictures of the boys' tennis matches...yay. and prom may 30th for yearbook! goin for free!! oh yea!
Peace..time for sleepies!
current mood:  blah
current music: Orange Island-Late Night Crew
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| Wednesday, May 7th, 2003
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9:04 pm - Eww
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EWWW Katie Shook? why? he could be obsessed with a better person.
current mood: aggravated
current music: The Juliana Theory-White Days
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7:48 pm - Wow...
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According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You? Test...
Ohhh yea, game tomorrow...track meet was fun...umm...yearbook meeting today, im in charge of taking pictures of boys' tennis yay! and well senior picutres are coming up (way to early) and ALSO im in charge of taking some pictures at prom! yay even though i didn't get asked...oh well.
current mood:  sleepy
current music: watching "Two Weeks Notice"
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| Monday, May 5th, 2003
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8:13 pm - Tired...
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I'm so pissed that my knee is still retardid. I want it to go away. But we still won without me playing...it was 7-2. I hope to be better by Thursday so that I can play. I heard that baseball has a home game...but that can't be cause we play on the field that is like mostly their outfield...UGH i hate my school sometimes..alright a lot of times.
Today in woodworking (yea i take woodworking, im a loser!) Adam took a wet towel and put it on the iron (it gets the dents out of the wood) and he put it on my sunburnt arm. OMG it was SO fucking hot! He's a little bitch! HAHA, and he kept hitting me on the head with the scraps of wood. lol. damn him!
I'm so tired. I wanna sleep forever.
current mood: tired
current music: Brand New- MIx Tape
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