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[24 Nov 2003|12:36pm] [ mood | cranky ] ONE MORE DAY!!!!!!!! in 24 hours i will be in a car on my way to the air port!! cant fucking wait man...whew...yay. anywho, i cant wait to get out of here because of some dumb ass bitches been pissing the fuck outa me. its insane...this girl carly...she thinks that shes so much higher than everyone and walks around with this condecending air thats just like "yall little people must groval at my feet" or some shit...like kiss my ass bitch. i fucking hate her she can go burn in hell. shes so fucking annoying. ok thats gotta be it for now cuz im out to make a mermaid!! woohoo!! peace yall love ya see you in a day!! say SOMETHING dammit

AHHHHHHHHHHH [12 Nov 2003|12:38pm] [ mood | high ] [ music | ugh, something on the radio...cant hear very well though... ] WOW i dont know if i can hate someone much more than i hate hayley right now. god that bitch is so fucking annoying she thinks shes soooo fucking cool and shes such a fricken looser. she doesnt get it!! bah...shes so stupid too. she doesnt fucking understand that she needs to shut her damn mouth and leave her mom the fuck alone if she ever wants to go home alomst EVER conversation she has with her mom is the same..."its your fault that im here i should be home it would be better that way i went through treatment and you still sent me away whats your fucking problem bla bla bla" god just fuck off!! GET A LIFE for christs sake...god damn. and ewwww today i was in movie club and she was like will you not put your bag so close to me i was like well cry me a fucking river and she kicked the bag and was all woops. i was about to twist her fucking ankle off. and her shoes are SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO UGLY ITS FUCKING amazing. and she thinks she has taste. god shes been chasing this steve faggot around trying to get laid and she doesnt get that he doesnt like her. ima get his sn and fuck with him saying im her and all that good stuff. i swear...im about to smack the shit out of her. shes sooooooooo god damn annoying. well off the bitch since ya know i hate her. mr zigler came back today for a while. hes comming back for good on monday i cant wait. hes so fucking skinny though...=( its sad. ::cries:: hes sooooooo the best fucking teacher ever. yeah thats enough ima stop talking now and bounce. peace say SOMETHING dammit

[10 Nov 2003|05:24pm] [ mood | awake ] [ music | stay tonight...fight the break of dawn...blah ] alrighty then...14days mother fucker. im definatly feeling bad for maddie i dont even know her parents and sorry hunnie...i dont like them. thats some fucked up shit to say...not gonna fly with me. no offence, but you need to throw them off a cliff. umm jk. righeo anywho...delias having fucked up dreams about this memory thats fucked with her head and im wicked worried about her. mm my baby deli. ha when we were younger we were thinking of nick names for eachother and she was all your cat and i was like hmmm...(and i swear i didnt know what this was) and i was like you can be DILDO!! and abi was like...umm no. how bout nooooo. bah it was so embaressing. right nothing to say im out, peace say SOMETHING dammit

alrighty then.. [09 Nov 2003|08:52am] [ mood | bored ] 16 days!! wheeeee i cant fucking wait. when i get there...hmm. i dunno what ima do. anywho, its finally getting cold here. its been so hott lately...and now its cold...i guess its good but its a lil too right now...i dont have a coat. blah, last night we had a umm...slumber party. its was alright. nothing special...well for here i guess it was. well we watched holes...bend it like beckham...and finding nemo. what fun. but i fell asleep. i couldnt see the rest of finding nemo. ew and last night caitlin was being all chill and today shes like...whoa. hmm nah jk definatly not like whoa. alright this is prolly the boringest entry i have ever done...oh well im bored. i cant think of anything to say. well...ima go back to sleep then alrighty peace say SOMETHING dammit

righteo.. [06 Nov 2003|04:14pm] [ mood | bored ] [ music | blink ] alright so nothing has happened AT ALL and life is still boring as fuck. anywho, i dont know what the fuck to write about but ya know i have 45 minutes to fuck around so i gotta do something. im not gonna miss dinner again dammit. so right they tried to take aim off the academic computers for some fucked up reason and thats DEFINATLY not very cool cuz some people arent lucky enough to have a lab top. people like me. well im just cursed, im convinced. i wonder what its like to have a baby...it sounds shitty but it must be cool at least sometimes...that is if you love your baby and your a good mother. unlike some people i know of. have any of you seen a squished frog? it aint so pretty. it must have taken a lot to kill a frog. cuz ya know...they uh hop. some one must have been really pissed. thats ok tho, it was only a frog. im so tired of trying to pull everything off like im doing fine. im feeling so shitty. everytime i look at like any part of my body i can see a scar where i cut myself and it first of all makes me wanna do it more and it makes me feel even uglier than i already think i am. oh ha, and what is SO annoying is i have skinny room mates...well erica and kaitlin at least, i dont pay attention to jamie unless i have to. it takes too much energy. well anywho, my skinny room mates are always bitching about how they cant fit into size 0 jeans...like wtf. i cant fit into a 3. barely a 5. and i have wicked zits taking over my face, i have a pot belly, im hairy, my nose is tipped too far up, my chin and neck are connected, i have fat fingers, my feet are deformed, my whole body jiggles, argh. i could quite possibly go forever. worse...im itchy. i dont know why but im itchy as all get out and its pissing the fuck out of me. im not usualy one of those "lets-bitch-about-how-fat-and-ugly-we-are" people, but its just getting on my nerves. i talked to kyle the other day it was pretty cool. im kinda pissed tho cuz he always says hes gonna call me back but guess what he never does. yeah, i know that n. carolina is a bit away but its not as if first of all he cant afford it and second of all like it would hurt that bad to pick up a phone and dial 10 numbers. for real...ive known that kid since what? 1st grade? before that i think. for christs sake...well i talked to him last night online and i said hey me n delia are gonna go see the chainsaw movie wanna come and he said shure...alrighty sounds like fun. ha, i doubt he'll show tho, whaddya know...with my luck at least. im having some serious cravings for ciggerettes. its getting ridiculous. well...only 19 days till i get one. i dont know WHAT TO DOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO im sick of it all......so sick...sic. SIC. wanna know something kinda sad? i can only count like...7 people who are my real friends. ive never felt so pathetic. god damn. Sic Slipknot Enemy - show me what you wanna be I can handle anything Even if I can't handle you! Readily - either way it better be Dont you fuckin' pity me Get up, get off... What the hell am I sayin'? I don't know about malevolent Sure as hell decadent I want somebody to step up, step off Walls! Let me fall! Fuck you all! Get a grip, don't let me slip 'til I drop the ball! Fuck this shit, I'm sick of it You're goin down, this is a war! Who the fuck am I to criticize your twisted state of mind? Youre' leavin' me suspect, I'm leavin' you grotesque Feels like a burn from which you never learn Cause and effect, you jealous ass Press you face against the glass - suffer I've just begun Its about that time Gotta get mine You can't kill me Cuz I'm already Inside you SICK AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HEY someone is paler than i am!! thats a first im not like pasty. well molli and maddie tell me if im crazy but you know that ralph kid on the simpsons? ya know the funky one the kid of the cop? well yeah percy sounds JUST like him. thats really sad. oh! and ya know the guy from big fat lyer you know the guy named wolf and he stole the paper? well he looks like dr. summers. HAHAHAHAHA!! and my psychyatrist at nla looked like the MONOPOLY MAN!!! HHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA do not pass go do not collect 200 dollars...heh right DINNER TIME im out peace say SOMETHING dammit

[05 Nov 2003|10:20am] [ mood | numb ] [ music | pennyroyal tea- nirvana ] welp...im a 2a. now aint that special. my word is carefree...i dont know if thats good or bad. well im proud i guess but i always want more i want to be in 2b now and then 3 and then 4...god. mr zigler came back today for the ceremony. i almost started crying. hes my favorite staff here and if i leave i think id be missing him pretty bad. he looks so skinny...like hes about to fall over. im really scared. i hope hes ok. ok well this emmalee and morgan bisness is really starting to get to me. the thing that pisses me off the most is their making fun of lisa and saying that shes fat and thats not cool. and shes not fat. fat people look like this http://images.google.com/imgres?imgurl=www.kenkuhl.com/fastfood/xenical/fat.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.kenkuhl.com/fastfood/xenical/&h=173&w=179&prev=/images%3Fq%3Doverweight%2B%26start%3D20%26svnum%3D10%26hl%3Den%26lr%3D%26ie%3DUTF-8%26oe%3DUTF-8%26sa%3DN and lisa is definatly not like that. not in the slightest. i dont give a shit if people talk shit to me and make fun of me but its different when its to my friends. especialy when their not fat!! i mean for real. dont let them get to you lisa, their just stoopid immature cunt rags who are definatly not gonna go anywhere in their life at this rate. your one of my best friends lisa, you delia maya and AB. and to be honest, dont tell her, but im not so sure about me and alex cuz we never talk anymore and when we do its not like it used to be. but i still love her as much as i always did and im still here for here as much as i always was and thats not gonna falter at all...im just worried about her. im comming out there in december for graduation. and ima stay with you my mom and dad said yes. i think im out of this shit hole on the 14 or 15 and leaving on the 20 or 21...my dads being stingy. but ima go to your house for longer when i can. for as long as i can. heh...lisa its our song...its been stuck in my head for so long... I'm on my time with everyone I have very bad posture Sit and drink Pennyroyal Tea Distill the life that's inside of me Sit and drink Pennyroyal tea I'm anemic royalty Give me a Leonard Cohen afterworld So I can sigh eternally I'm so tired I can't sleep I'm a liar and a thief Sit and drink pennyroyal Tea I'm anemic royalty I'm on warm milk and laxatives Cherry-flavored antacids fuck this, im out. P E A C E L O V E E M P A T H Y -caitlin say SOMETHING dammit

EMMALEE [04 Nov 2003|12:51pm] [ mood | infuriated ] since you cant handle getting shit back from other people ill just put it into my journal. oh and btw, your being quite the hypocrite now with being able to give shit but not take it, bitch. so heres to your lovely little entry~ FYI lisa doesnt need morgan or you for shitand she doesnt want me to go live with her so she can have me fight for her, even though i would be more than happy to, but because un like you and your little posse i know how to be a friend to her and she to me. also, im in this boarding school because my parents actualy care about my well being. such a shame that other people dont obtain that luxery isnt it?? oh and on that topic, you need to learn how to respect your mother shes your flesh and blood you cant go treat her like shit. but who am i to tell you how to live right? i only went to the lenient rock mesa new leaf academy and by golly i learned something from that place. and for the record its no more lenient then it was for you its gotten a shit load harder. maybe youd beable to see that if you would step off your throne and pay attention to things that are important in life. maybe lisa didnt get that morgan turned bitchy because she saw something in her that obviously wasnt there and that was what? she thought that morgan was a genuine real person and could possible be a friend? well she was wrong. what a shame. i feel so bad for those little people in life who think that their so important to anothers well being and think that they are oh so cool. the fact is hunny, both you and morgan arent even shit on my shoe. its funny to me how you try to compare lisa with your mom because lisa has everything to back her mouth up with. give me a good example where she hasnt. of all the people i know shes probably one of the smartest ones with the most logic in her head. she didnt go tattle to me at all. shes a big girl now and can take care of herself. she doesnt need her friend in north carolina to help her out. but again, because, you know how im a real friend, i decided to back her up because ::gasp:: i love her. shes a good fucking person and its your loss that you couldnt see that from the position your head is in so far up your ass. and oh that sumo wrestler come back was great. it scared me stiff it was so hostile. well...is that the best you can come up with?? ha...that says a lot about you. what the fuck does size have to do with anything anyways, its not like she has a dick. im happy she stretched out the graphics. like that brand is so cool right? ha posers and losers shop there because they feel so insecure about themselves that they feel like they have to spend loads of money on clothes to make themselves look special. fuck that. shit, im a size 5 and i wear pajama pants that are large too their comfertable. shes healthy. at least shes not some skinny ass bitch who thinks that money can buy anything in life cuz it cant. you cant offer sevices like giving money out and lending rides to people and not expect people to take advantage of it. get a life and stop bitching about your problems. suck it up. and a taste of her own medicine?? whoa dont contradict yourself. you might get confused. we cant have that because when we look at your intellegence level we can clearly see that anything interfering with common sense will probably put your brain on over drive. so dont try to think too hard. we dont want you to get hurt =) fuck off and leave lisa alone. she doesnt deserve this shit and you shouldnt be getting off by being a bitch. say SOMETHING dammit

EMMALEE [04 Nov 2003|12:49pm] since you cant handle getting shit back from other people ill just put it into my journal. oh and btw, your being quite the hypocrite now with being able to give shit but not take it, bitch. so heres to your lovely little entry~ FYI lisa doesnt need morgan or you for shitand she doesnt want me to go live with her so she can have me fight for her, even though i would be more than happy to, but because un like you and your little posse i know how to be a friend to her and she to me. also, im in this boarding school because my parents actualy care about my well being. such a shame that other people dont obtain that luxery isnt it?? oh and on that topic, you need to learn how to respect your mother shes your flesh and blood you cant go treat her like shit. but who am i to tell you how to live right? i only went to the lenient rock mesa new leaf academy and by golly i learned something from that place. and for the record its no more lenient then it was for you its gotten a shit load harder. maybe youd beable to see that if you would step off your throne and pay attention to things that are important in life. maybe lisa didnt get that morgan turned bitchy because she saw something in her that obviously wasnt there and that was what? she thought that morgan was a genuine real person and could possible be a friend? well she was wrong. what a shame. i feel so bad for those little people in life who think that their so important to anothers well being and think that they are oh so cool. the fact is hunny, both you and morgan arent even shit on my shoe. its funny to me how you try to compare lisa with your mom because lisa has everything to back her mouth up with. give me a good example where she hasnt. of all the people i know shes probably one of the smartest ones with the most logic in her head. she didnt go tattle to me at all. shes a big girl now and can take care of herself. she doesnt need her friend in north carolina to help her out. but again, because, you know how im a real friend, i decided to back her up because ::gasp:: i love her. shes a good fucking person and its your loss that you couldnt see that from the position your head is in so far up your ass. and oh that sumo wrestler come back was great. it scared me stiff it was so hostile. well...is that the best you can come up with?? ha...that says a lot about you. what the fuck does size have to do with anything anyways, its not like she has a dick. im happy she stretched out the graphics. like that brand is so cool right? ha posers and losers shop there because they feel so insecure about themselves that they feel like they have to spend loads of money on clothes to make themselves look special. fuck that. shit, im a size 5 and i wear pajama pants that are large too their comfertable. shes healthy. at least shes not some skinny ass bitch who thinks that money can buy anything in life cuz it cant. you cant offer sevices like giving money out and lending rides to people and not expect people to take advantage of it. get a life and stop bitching about your problems. suck it up. and a taste of her own medicine?? whoa dont contradict yourself. you might get confused. we cant have that because when we look at your intellegence level we can clearly see that anything interfering with common sense will probably put your brain on over drive. so dont try to think too hard. we dont want you to get hurt =) fuck off and leave lisa alone. she doesnt deserve this shit and you shouldnt be getting off by being a bitch. say SOMETHING dammit

[03 Nov 2003|12:37pm] [ mood | lonely ] i dont know what to do...im so sick of people comming to me and telling me that their my friend and shit and telling me that they know how i feel and that i can go and talk to them and everything...but then like...ditching me. all the time. i dont fucking get it. i start walking with someone...say in the mall. all of a sudden i look up and their not there and instead their walking with other people and lo and behold caitlins alone once again. this is unbelievable. i cant fucking take this. no, im not trying to guilt trip you molly or maddi, im just sick of being told that basicly im cool enough to chill with yall but then you hardly include mein anything yall do. im always chasing you down and going to your room just to be left there. im always walking with someone just to be ditched. im sick of it. tell me straight up whats going on, i dont want any bullshitting i want the truth. i dont care if im not "in" enough for any of you and not a teeny bopper and i know you dont like my music...sorry i do like marilyn manson i do like all that "scary music" and "freaks" and believe it or not i am one of those "freaks". i dont know if you guys are doing this intentionaly or not i dont know anything but i do know that i dont deserve it. friendship isnt a game. it goes two ways. i dont think its fair for you to say that no one understands when you dont give them a chance cuz actualy i have a pretty good insight on a lot of shit no one here knows jack shit about me ive probably been through more shit then a lot of people here and no one sees that. im not stupid. i know when people are playing games and i see that in a whole lot of people. and thats definatly not a cool thing to do. i dont know, maybe im just jumping to conclusions and assuming things but its been almost 3 months that ive been here that ive been blown off by almost everyone here and im not going to take it much longer. seems to me that the only person who cares here is caitlin boyd and erica...and i dont even know that. like i said, i have been through shit and that leaves me very skeptical...what ever. im not gonna belittle you or put up a condesending air...i definatly know reality from emotions...look. just tell me the truth. im just about to say fuck it and let all of this go but i like some people here a lot and im not really up for being a loner but im also not up for being used like i have been. i already said this, friendship goes both ways. im not going to do all the work and be nice at your conveniance, i expect something in return. fuck it, im not going to open up anymore to people who dont care. i aint talking about you lisa...you delia alex and maya are the only ones who do understand. whatever. peace. (2)FUCKERS spoke say SOMETHING dammit

this is so pathetic [03 Nov 2003|12:26pm] [ mood | bitchy ] is it selfish of me to want to... i guess...satisfy my ocd shit...i cant help it. theres this seat at the table that i like and bitches keep taking it and sometimes i ask hey can you possible move over a seat and today lesley was all "no i dont wanna move blah blah im a bitch" god shes 18 and shes selfish stubborn lazy immature annoying vain and a fucking NIMROD god i hate her. well today at least. fuck it, shes not worth it...ill just have to...be a bitch...mm nice i like doing this. say SOMETHING dammit

what a great day... [01 Nov 2003|05:29pm] [ mood | blah ] [ music | i wanna rock and roll all night, and party every day... ] well starting with yesterday...halloween. its a pretty cool holiday right? wrong. the last real halloween i had was three fucking years ago. i cant believe it im such a loser. humph...2 years ago i was at suws...the next year at nla...heh...i was chad bond 003 1/2. creative eh? my buddy alex was brad bond. anywho...this year i was a jail bird. the costume was madd comfy though, so whatever. all i have to say is that i better be home next year or ima kill someone. no joke. im sick of being an outcast. me and caitlin watched house on haunted hill. i almost shat myself today. we had to do community service like usual...except this time we had to walk around streets and pick up nasty trash. it was so sick. but we were provided with some entertainment. first: watching ms rush get the van stuck in the mud. that was great second: ralphy totaly bitched out allison. she said what was on everyone elses mind. it felt so good to hear it. god...shes such a bitch and i love it. shes almost as good as erica. third: ralphy bitched and tryed to take on mary...mary tried to hit ralphy...hmm ralphy's about what? 6 feet tall and marys..hmm...5 feet tall? it was so funny. it was so hard not to laugh. went to build a bear..that was cool. i made abi a pig and when you sqeeze its hand it says your the best sister i love you. he has a leather jacket on. its cute. then i got back and i ate dinner and im here and i have no fucking life. welcome to my world. (2)FUCKERS spoke say SOMETHING dammit

this is almost funny... [31 Oct 2003|05:26pm] [ mood | amused ] [ music | stupid girl ] alright...i know it sucks for people to be away from home and everything i mean it is for me to. but when people are only away for a month and then bitch about being soooooo homesick and their missing sooooooo much at home....live it up man. they dont realize that they have it easy. i was in IDAHO for 41 days and then in OREGON for 387 days before going home. this girl here is all bitching like "i went to suws for an entire month only to come here to know that my friends are doing stuff without me!!"for real...it cant be that bad. lisa...you understand right?? of course you do. well anywho...i want them to go through what we went through before bitching like that. cuz i really dont like a bunch of pussys. it pisses the hell outa me. AND JESSICA LIVES IN CHAPEL HILL and she saw her friends like not even a week after she got here in town. whatever i aint gonna sweat it its her problem. so anywho...its halloween. fun times man. well for yall not for me. LISA YOU FINALLY GET A REAL HALLOWEEN!! HOW DOES IT FEEL?!?! A FEW WORDS FOR THE PRESS PLEASE. damn your lucky. ha last year i was at nla the year before that suws and the year before that...with my Boi =( damn i miss him. well i talked to becca. shes home for good. lucky bitch. yeah shes getting blazed tomorrow i told her to blow a shottie my way. so thats cool. anywho...im out. gonna play on the internet. peace and much love to my doggs yo. mm if i went into da hood id get shot. i better keep my fucking mouth shut. say SOMETHING dammit

NOT cool... [31 Oct 2003|09:52am] [ mood | enraged ] i dont know how much more i can take with james. yall cant tell people this cuz im not suposed to go "broadcasting" or whatever but oh well yall aint ever gonna meet him...lisa you will though..whatever. ok well after the credit card i thought...heh, thats fucking huge and big enough to teach him a fucking lesson. but nooooo then he takes moms car down to crocker to play basketball with music...dumbass. so he said hell clean up his act. so he looked for a job everywhere and all this good shit i thought he was being good. well except for the fact that he wont leave abi alone cuz she has a life that doesnt revolve around him...whatever hes too jealous and their not even going out. anywho...hes suposed to be saving up for an apartment and a ticket to florida to see abi. the other day he came home with another fucking tattoo...and those arnt cheap. like 200 dollars. and apparently its pretty big with water and fire around it. where the fuck did he get the money? hes poor as fuck. he only has food stamps. i dont know anymore. i love him like a brother he might as well be since he lives with us. were like his only family except for his crackhead bitch ass mom and his dad who ran away to florida...god i feel so bad for him. when will he cut the shit?? even if he had the money it should have gone to a ticket or apartment. mom and dad are kicking him out in 2 weeks...where he gonna go? with boi prolly. he doesnt have a job and its gonna be hellux hard to get one with his record. damn his record is bad i cant stand it. i want him to be ok. im scared that my dads gonna like disown him. he cant do that...james is like his son. and i know mom wont. hes not even listening to abi anymore. i dont understand how he can look into my moms face...into her eyes...and tell her a bold face lie. it makes me sick. hes lied to my face, abis face, moms face, dads face, bois face, vals face, everyone else. i wish i could make him see...this is insane. hes alomst 20. no job, no house, nothing. wtf will get to him?? hes been to jail...he lost his girlfriend...the one he loved more than anything...he hurt his family...hes gotten his ass beat...hes dealt with dissapointment...what will it take? jesus...i just want him to be ok. this isnt cool...i cant stand it. well im not gonna give up on him. ever. ill stay with him till the end if he needs it...if no one else will. ill find him a job. i just dont get it. and im letting it get to me so bad...im gonna like kill myself worrying for him. what do i do...? lisa i need you here so bad!! i miss you like NO OTHER your the only one who knows me for me...ive been here for almost 3months...and i dont have any helluv close friends. i need to go live with you. ima try and convine my parents...i cant stand this place. come get me. well go to london and live amongst the british punks =) i talked to abi for like an hour yesterday. it was so nice. no one was bitching about the phone so i finaly had a REAL conversation with her. shes so lucky. i wish i could be her. ok its MORNING MEETING HOORAY WOOT WOOT whatever peace say SOMETHING dammit

blech [30 Oct 2003|10:09am] [ mood | helpless ] i hate this place. im seriously about to give up. i cant handle it much longer. (2)FUCKERS spoke say SOMETHING dammit

[29 Oct 2003|01:05pm] [ mood | accomplished ] oh yeah anyone who cares or reads this i got a livejournal just for hahas its more easier to do and shit...its ahhh mindlessem0tion the same as the other blurty one that i dont use but whatever. i got it tight looking...check it out say SOMETHING dammit

blech [29 Oct 2003|12:52pm] [ mood | devious ] HAYLEY MUST DIE say SOMETHING dammit

god dammit...this is definatly enough... [25 Oct 2003|08:56am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | the drugs, they say, are made in california... ] do i smell?? am i diseased?? why the fuck dont people wanna be around me without feeling bad for me?? i totaly thought that sarah was cool but no. shes a bitch. she like...pretended to be my "friend" kinda but then she wouldnt even stand next to me n shit. what crawled up her ass and died?? bitch. thats not fair. i didnt do anything. say SOMETHING dammit

NOBODY FUCK WITH MY MEESAH!! [25 Oct 2003|08:53am] [ mood | shocked ] [ music | the nobodys... ] HOW COULD YOU PEOPLE PULL THAT SHIT?? LISA IS DEFINATLY CAPABLE OF TAKING CARE OF HERSELF SHE DOESNT NEED ANYBODY TO DO IT FOR HER SO STOP TRYING TO TAKE CONTROL OF HER LIFE JUST CUZ YALLS SUCKS ASS...JUST FUCK OFF AND STAY AWAY BIOTCHES...FUCK YOU. I LOVE YOU MEESAH!!! peace ps meesah...can you make me a manson cd??? with good songs on it?? my mom doesnt like him =( (2)FUCKERS spoke say SOMETHING dammit

heh right [24 Oct 2003|11:47am] [ mood | horny ] [ music | blah...bitches voices...someone help me ] ha...umm its kinda weird cuz last night i was in a room with people and like...i was the only one who wasnt a virgin...umm it was kinda akward cuz i thought that everyone had done that by now...heh...not to be mean...but it kinda sucks for you. well if i hadnt had had that shit happen to me i prolly woulda waited too...so i shouldnt be aa bitch. but now...ah. i miss dick. thats ok. DELIA is so the coolest!! she wrote about me in her journal FINALY so thats definatly cool. hmm im kinda pissed cuz me n kenny used to talk mad amounts of time and like now...he like doesnt talk to me. well, he was a good kid. fuck him. he deserves shit. basterd. fucking horny ass goblin. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ASS GOBLIN!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! BEAVIS AND BUTTHEAD ROCK MY WORLD!!! WHEEEEEEEEEE IM GONNA MARRY THEM TOO!! and johnny depp and the guy who plays aragorn and eminem and billy joe and jimmy urine and who else...ah ha!! hmm thatll be fun. i had a dream about my dear CJ :( -cries- well i was on the phone in the mall talking to my dad and i saw cj and i was like hold on dad and like ran to him and he hugged me then was like i wanna kiss you so we like made out for like hours it was so great. hes the best kisser :) i wish i was still going out with him...god that boys fine...-drools- heh look lisa their growing on me with the -kdkdkdkd- shit...heh its kinda fun though. whatever. but anyone who sees cj would like beg at his feet...hes prolly the hottest guy i know. ima rape him next time i see him. i dont know anyone who doesnt agree. but nooooooo he had to go move to florida...basterd. mm i miss him. not that im obsessed or anything. *eeps*!! well alrighty i g2g to lunch ill prolly write more later CUZ I HAVE NO FUCKING LIFE HERE haha lol i love yall peace (7)FUCKERS spoke say SOMETHING dammit

blah... [24 Oct 2003|11:05am] [ mood | calm ] ok right i dont know about this shit. i thought those fucking meds were suposed to make me feel better?? whatever. i feel so helluv bad...alex is like NEVER fucking on so i never talk to her and i dont believe in email that much cuz i only use it to talk to a few people and read if anyone is nice enough to talk to me...whatever and i cant call her...jesus christ...what the fuck do i dol...shes my best friend...her lisa n delia...oh lisa...my mom said ill prolly have to wait till the fucking summer to go out there. shes gay. im not waiting that long. i been reading dianes journal n shit and ashleighs...god i wish i could like...be one of them...with friends....im so pathetic. im like...doing anything for a friend. which i dont have...bitches. i totaly thought that my room mate kaitlin was gonna be cool and she WAS but nooooo now shes all chill with other people and is too busy to chill with me. hmph...lifes a bitch eh? gotta love it. excitment: dyke buisness. this girl shana..shes a dyke and not afraid to admit it...ugh. dont understand. i dont have a problem with it but i still dont understand it. i think that some girls are hott but not in the oh i wanna fuck you so bad hott...just good looking. anyways, yesterday she came up with a hicky on her neck all saying "i was wrestling and i fell on te bed" yeah bitch you fell on the bed with terri's tongue on your neck. GROSS!! AND there was other people there in their little orgy!! AHH!! i dont know the whole story but its fucked up enough what i do know. yuck. not even going to think about it. mm were going to this haunted house tomorrow where some guy killed a bunch of people. fun fun. what else...HA oh yeah.. this is great. this girl allie like TOTALY spazed it was great. in our lovely nightly meeting she got pissed and flipped off ms mkay...eh not so bad whatever. then she was in the computer lab and ms mkay was like hey i need to talk to you outside and allie said no...then ms huisman came in and like ripped her off the chair and like threw her on the ground like all tiquando style...mm fun...allie jumped up and bitch slapped her. WOOHOO i love the excitment. hahahahahahaha....heh, its so great. shes suspended. how fun. grr i miss delia so much. like...its gay cuz i can never talk to her. whatever, im gonna see her in 31 days. mm i love her. fucking a. k im out. peace say SOMETHING dammit

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