Oh yeah!!   
06:56pm 03/07/2003
mood: happy
music: Oasis - Live Forever
I have the whole house to myself for 3 whole days. Well until Sunday.. that's 3 days isn't it. Yeah, I think so.

Drunken fun tonight! Hopefully. Then a whole weekend of being lazy and just hanging around. Which the 2 go hand in hand.

dammit all to hell.   
06:36am 03/07/2003
mood: annoyed
music: Boy George - Karma Chameleon
Earlier this morning about 1am, I spilt my ashtray on the floor along with water. So it all got mixed together. Now there is a ash stain on the carpet, which I must take care of before 2pm today. Or else I'm in big big trouble. See I'm not suppose to smoke any where in the house. Except for my room, and the bathroom. That's it. And this happened in the living room. I better get on it. Even though I have 7 1/2 hours to go.

I think I killed my sister in my dream yesterday. And just cos she borrowed some clothes of mine. That's just wrong. But kind of interesting.

It's suppose to storm all day here today. And plus some of tomorrow. What a great 4th of July. Well not that I really care it being the 4th and all. But it always storms on the 4th. Bloody 'ell. Oh well, I'll live.

There has been 10 arson fires here in the past 5 weeks. It's all garage fires. Some idiot keeps doing. Ok, you got your little stunt televised and everyone is out looking for you. There is your 15 minutes of fame, retard.
Some peoples' children.

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This could be entitled amazing.   
06:41am 02/07/2003
mood: confused
music: King's X - American Cheese
For once in a long time, I'm bloody freezing. It's amazing. For the past few weeks it's been bloody humid, ok minus the middle of last week 'til now. But it was still really hot those day. Wait last Thursday was pretty cold. I remember I wore a jacket cos it was going to be a cold night. Yeah!

So my birthday is not this Saturday but the next (the 12th). I don't want to be 22, I really don't. I mean I know it's just a number and all. But damn, I'm getting up in my years. I could use that if I was turning let's say 50. I feel like I haven't done enough yet. So could I by chance delay my birthday, by about 10 years. Hell, I'm going to sit at home and do nothing. That's for sure!

John Cusack is such a hottie. I've been watching a lot of his movies lately. Just cos of him. But I saw the movie Max the other day. It was bloody fucking brilliant! Art + Politics = POWER! That's what it says on the cover of the DVD. It's about Hitler and Max Rothman. Max was in WWI as well as Hitler. But Max lost an arm, and his painting career cos of the loss. Hitler came back to nothing, and Rothman came back to everything. He meets Hitler, they talk about art.. Hitler gets into the socialist scene. Rothman is a jew none the less (totally ironic). They're really close too. i don't want to give it away though. Just incase someone stumbles upon this entry and is like ooo interesting movie. Blah blah..

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Forever and a day, here I am again.   
09:00am 01/07/2003
mood: drained
music: King's X - The Difference
Wow it's been forever since I've updated. Then again, I don't come online too much anymore. So that would be one of the obvious reasons.

Derrick and I are doing so well. He told me he loved me and all the good gushy stuff. He's in the hospital for a few days now, he gets to go home today. Which I'm happy about. Though he said he'll be hopped up on drugs and more than likely won't be able to talk. He's getting all 4 of his wisdom teeth pulled after being sick for over 3 weeks, and the doctor just found this out last Friday. I'm going through Derrick withdrawls heh. Or just being overly mushy.. I'll stop myself.

I've been contemplating taking some ballet lessons. Something to get me into dance/theatre what not. I think I'd do pretty good at it. I'll have to stop at the ballet school on one of my free days to see how much it cost, and all the little shite that goes with it.

I also haven't been getting any sleep lately. I think yesterday was the first day I got more than 4 hours of sleep. And I think that's just cos I came home drunk Monday morning. Then slept the whole day so I wouldn't have to deal with the demon spawn! I made it 'til about 9:30pm, then they were both sleeping anyways. So it made for a nice night.

Bloody 'ell haven't written in forever and I still have nadda to say.

I'm so neglectful.   
04:21pm 11/05/2003
mood: awake
music: And I ran, I ran so far awayy... (don't know the band/song)
This whole blacking out whilst drinking thing, is really starting to get on me nerves! Overly much so. I guess I'm going to have to calm it down a bit, and drink A LOT less when I go out. Maybe one or two or three. That's it. No more.

There's this guy Derrick, I've been speaking to him for the past month or so [I believe]. He's amazing, like fucking 'ell. He seems to get better as a person everytime I talk to him. I never know if I should put these things down or not. Cos it's like now I'm going to hate him. Or something like that. He's a DJ's at some radio station. He calls me every night Monday thru Friday (if I'm home), whilst he's working. To just chat. We talk for like 3 hours a night. Seriously how the fuck is it possible for people to talk for 3 hours - 5 nights a week? I guess it's possible since I do it. And there isn't any of those weird awkward pauses of silence either. He thinks I'm intelligent and hot, beautiful, an amazing person all together. I don't believe it of course. But that's just angst, beyond angst. I'm always thinking how the hell can someone think like this of me?

It's so obvious! Cos that's what I am. haha.

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I'm so estatic!   
08:30am 29/04/2003
mood: happy
music: The Beatles - Sgt Peppers Lonley Hearts Club Band
My friend Kim is coming home soon! I'm so happy. She's in the air force and has been gone for a while now. Stationed over in Turkey. I'm glad she's coming home. Not like she had to fight or anything, but it's just better knowing she's safe over here for the time being. Plus I miss her loads.

I got 3 new books at the library yesterday. The Encyclopedia of Phobias, Fears, and Anxieties. Making Monsters: False Memories, Psychotherpary, and Sexual Hysteria. And The Sky is Falling. I read most of the Sky is Falling. Pretty good. It's detailed stories about people with Phobias, panic, and obsessive compulsive disorders. Then goes into detailed reasoning as to why they do it, and how they recovered. Even has a little chapter that states if you have one of the 5 problems listed you should read the book, and try to help yourself get better: By of course reading the book.

Kinda of good laugh.

Now I must go pull me plum for a while. (no that isn't some sexual lingo!)

07:57am 28/04/2003
mood: lazy
music: U2 - Sunday Bloody Sunday
I am so dead to the world.

And bored out of my mind.

I know I should be doing something productive right now. But don't feel like it.

This constitutes for a lazy arse day!

And I will surely make it one.

I love U2.
Don't even bother.   
07:48pm 25/04/2003
mood: angry
music: Chipper Son of a Bitch - Noel Gallagher
Some bloody people anger me to no ends.

This may be a stupid reason, but it happens a whole hell of a lot more than it seems.

My mum goes to Subway for some subs. All well and good. I'll take one. (I was sleeping when she went - so no one was able to ask what I want on it) So I look in the fridge here is my sub. What is on it:
Banana Peppers
Green Peppers

Hmm. Is it that hard to get what kind of sub I like down in your fucking head?! We go like maybe twice a month. I hate Onions, I hate Olives, I hate cucumbers! But yet these items seem to just fall on there. Not to mention you forgot tomatoes! Fucking daft cunt.

And how many fucking times do I need to mention I'm VEGAN! Cheese and Mayo aren't vegan friendly dumbarse.

I swear this woman has nothing better to do than try and sabotoge my cause.

She's like that isn't mayo it's honey mustard.. And that's better? But it was mayo I smelt it. Regular mustard will do me fine.

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I thought it had been longer.   
04:28am 25/04/2003
mood: awake
music: Cats in the Cradle [oldies version]
I have a black eye. The things that happen to me. DOH! I woke up, and hit my eye or by my eye. Stupid bed. I'm gonna throw it away.

Along with my stereo. Stupid piece of shite never wants to work for me.

I talked to hot old man. I feel so proud of myself. Makes me feel special.

This weekend is drunken fest! And I don't care who joins me. Or where I end up on Sunday or Monday. Whenever the weekend decides to end. Since I'm skipping work on Monday.

I never want to work ever again. For the rest of my life. Unless, it's something I want to do. And enjoy going to. But I promise I'm going to work next week!
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03:58pm 12/04/2003
  A tree stabbed me.

My finger is also has puss oozing out of it.

Thanks to said tree.
03:54pm 12/04/2003
mood: hot
music: Me n' Julio
HAHAH! My horoscope says I need to go out and do something that will spark my enthusiasm... All I could think of was:

DRINK! alcohol that is.


I have a sunburn only on my face.. Even though other skin was being shown. My body, is fucked up.
jolly good day, sir!   
09:18am 02/04/2003
mood: amused
music: the news
I'm baking a cake. Actually, it's already done baking. It's cooling.. for the ultimate frosting process. Mind you, I'm not going to eat it. I'm just making it, for others to enjoy - and get fat on. HAHHAHA. My mean streak, strikes again. I always do this. I like to get other people fat.

If that isn't a bit twisted, I don't know what is.

I want to invent a kids toy/cereal/something. That tastes awful, but parents have to buy it for them. C0os it's like that oh, I have to get my kid this - It's either good for them, or it's cheap. But mine wouldn't be all that cheap. Not like goodwill/wal-mart/generic brand cheap. More like, I bought this on sale at K-Mart cheap. Sometimes, I don't make sense - even to myself.

I guess that's enough for me. For I have to pee.
I find humour in this..   
11:04am 31/03/2003
mood: happy
music: keyboard noises.
There's these Chocolate covered pretzels on the coffee table. They're made by Toad-ally Snax[tm] that's not the funny part though. Here's the kicker: It says inbetween the Toad-ally and Snax .. SINCE 1983.

Seriously, when something is since 1983 it really can't be that great!

That's like putting after my name: SINCE 1981. Maybe I should start doing that..

Camille McFattay - since 1981 [tm]

McFattay is my new scottish last name. I made it up whilst on a coffee high the other day!
That's pretty.   
07:24am 31/03/2003
mood: awake
music: Zwan!!
I just noticed, that I have a bunch of bruises on my face. I'm probably the only one who can notice them though. There is one under each of my eyebrows.. I don't have bushy eyebrows mind you. But it's kind of small bruising. And you can see it under the arch of my eyebrow. Then on my forehead.. There's brusing on my hair line, well kind of around that general area. I kind of want to know how I got these bruises. Did I repeatedly bash my head on something, or what? 'Ell I get so many bruises, and I have no idea where they come from. It's hats for me, for the next few days.

I wonder if I'm able to wear a hat, whilst the dentist is working his magic on my tooth?! Yea.. Also I go to the dentist today. Fucking 'ell.

Chip-Chip cheeriO!
05:23am 31/03/2003
mood: blank
music: Caught by the Fuzz - Supergrass
My whole body hurts!

Thanks to a drunk filled weekend.

I can't remember what happened after I was in my driveway. I know I was talking to Jim.. And then what?! That scares me. Cos Jim can talk me into anything. Yes, he really can. Damn wanker!

I had fun though. I missed out on the stripper Saturday night. By about an hour. I knew I should have went out earlier.

Bloody buggery bollocks darling.


(I hate how people with southern accents or even northern accents say darling. But British people say it so beautifully.)

Speaking of the British. I want to become a mail-order bride. Only avalible to british men though. Can americans be mail-order brides? I always wanted to know. Everyone I've asked hasn't a clue. I should do research!
Is it allergy season already?   
06:56am 28/03/2003
mood: indifferent
music: Oasis - It's getting better man!
I hate the fact that I am not motivated to get a real job.

I sneezed for the millionth time today, and got snot all over my arm. Pleasent!

I'm so disgusting, for a girl who doesn't seem to be so disgusting. At least, everyone least expects these things from me. hahahahaha!

Anyone who reads this download the song 'Popsickle' (not sure if it's spelt that way or just popsicle). It's by the starlight mints. The song is hilarious. And the video is even better.

Yes, I do.   
12:26pm 27/03/2003
mood: horny
music: Starlight Mints - Popsickle.
I want to have mad-hot-british sex with Tony Blair. I wrote this in my other journal too. Cos it's so true.

I hate a lot of people today. Just like every other day. But today, I seem to be overly-verbal about it. I can't even come to think of how many times I've been called a bitch so far today. And the day isn't even half over. If that isn't awesome, I don't know what is!

Fuckin' A, man!

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11:12pm 26/03/2003
mood: sick
music: Y.M.C.A - The Village People
I had a dream, and in that dream, I died. No one cared either.

How strange!
Oh really?   
07:41am 25/03/2003
mood: awake
music: Zwan - not sure of the song at the moment.
I can see how some people in America could be called "Moronicans". But come on, not everyone here is.

I may be considered a moron sometimes. But not in this area.

I love the brits - but man, that tears me up inside! Ok, I just got overly pissed at some guy who hates all Americans whether or not this war was going on. I'm sure he'd love me though. HAHAHA

Right on.. Gotta go to work now. Woopie!

I almost put "I'm a wanker."   
01:43am 25/03/2003
mood: aggravated
music: nadda
Micheal Moore = extreme WANKER!

I don't see why Canadians are so rude to America. He had NO right to say those things - if he was an American, it wouldn't be right but semi-tolerable.

Republicans rock!

_signing off_

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