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random 12:26am update :P [25 Apr 2004|12:25am]

1. When did we first meet ?
2. What was your first impression of me ?
3. What qualities do you like about me ?
4. Are we friends ?
5. Have we ever kissed ?
6. Have you seen me cry ?
7. Ever fought ?
8. If you could give me a present what would it be ?
9. Is there anything you would like to say to me ?
10. What do you really think of me ?
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[22 Apr 2004|08:49pm]
i just found a whole lot of photos of me from year eight. fack. my god. he-zues. ha ha ha haha ha theyre so funny. im so fat! argh! i was massive!!!!!!!! (still am) but hey!

mums getting me a Les Paul copy for my birthday, its so sexual :| i love it muchly except dick keeps saying hes gonna bit on it (coz its on ebay) so he gets it so i love him more :P sorry dick not gonna happen, if u do get it all cry and never talk to u again...MINE!!!
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[22 Apr 2004|08:43pm]
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oh baby dont worry [14 Apr 2004|08:33pm]
[ mood | shattered ]
[ music | the tv, some lady crying about her dead kid- oh well! ]

To Laurra:

Dont worry about me baby (i love saying that), ill be fine. ive been emo a lot lately but now that me and richard have been talking (last night) we've worked things out.
The reason he wont go out with me is coz if we break up hes scared that we wont talk and he doesnt want to loose me as a friend. so now we are best friends. id like to be with him but *sigh* that wont happen i dont think.

i dont know about anything anymore, last night i went to the park and cried for an hour and a half on just...everything (mainly him). i now understand that any guy i get close to will fuck around with my emotions and it will only lead to another depressive state. the only problem this time is getting over sum1 that ive liked for over a year, the first time it was easy to get over because it wasnt physical but now because this time it was... i dont know. everything is shitful right now but dont worry about me ill be peachy withing a few days.

i love u laurra and i always will. im looking forward to a totally random pressy from you. can we still go 'shopping'? i want one with lots of eyeliner ;P ony you know what i mean

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MORE MEME'S!!!!! [13 Apr 2004|03:09pm]
Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
How will you commit suicide?You will slit your wrists
How many tries will it take?15
When will you commit suicide?September 3, 2026
What will your suicide note say?Now there's simply one less heart left to break
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

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floating in a sea of unseartanty [11 Apr 2004|07:46pm]
[ mood | depressed ]
[ music | slipknot- people = shit ]

another easter another 10 kg. i was looking at all the easter eggs and bunnies and stuff and my god. i think one easter bunny was over 35g of fat in it. "serves three" wtf? yes i can see it now:
"ok, u have the ears, ill have the face, you have the neck"

soooo stupid. and talking about stupid. the stupipd fuckers at work havent called me about work. they said they would call on wednesday, nope no they didnt, i called twice on friday so i could work on saturday, did they call back? no no they didnt. so now im in the possision where i could go to work tomorrow, if my name isnt on the list then i can go home again. waking up early and going to the city is not fun for me.

ive been so emo lately and its getting to me. i dont want to cry coz crying sucks.

slipknot arent heavy enough, neither is opeth or cradle of filth. whats wrong with me?

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im updating again :| i think im sick [09 Apr 2004|01:23pm]
[ mood | crushed ]
[ music | Alkaline Trio- We've Had Enough ]

Laurra, if u think ur sad or confused and want things to go back to how they were, think about me too! my god what i wouldnt give to just start this year over, even if that does mean loosing richard, something is happening behind my back and i think im going to have to go find out for myself if no1 will tell me. who knows i might even be paranoid, fun fun.

i realise that if i let my feelings out they will only be hurt, my little black heart cant take it much more. i have no idea what im going to do about richard, i love him so much but i cant help but think that something is happening behind my back, i dont like bing so paranoid about things. the only think that sorta reasurres me is that im not the only one that thinks or sees this. Ragdoll (kylie) sees the same, so does sarah.

i remember back 2 weeks, he would always be saying "do u still love me?" and i would always say "yes of course i still love you". he was so worried that i would loose interest in him. now, less that 2 weeks later he doesnt say that anymore, he doesnt ask me anything. why do i feel like shit about this? y do i always get so attached to people, fuck i dont even know if we're going out. FUCK!!!!! i hate confusion.

oh god im turned into the complaining skank that i promised myself i would never be. please hurt me.

for anyone still reading this crap im having my 16th party next saturday (last saturday of the holidays) which is the 17th of April. i know that some of u are thinking "that the greasy poop? her bday isnt until the 23rd!!!" well my mother has nicely booked up that weekend without me knowing so this is the only chance i get.

call me for info, cant be fucked typin it all out::::: 0421 523 438

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trying to finish it off somehow, needs more work me thinks [09 Apr 2004|12:25am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Blink 182 - Asthenia ]

The saliva dries but you can still taste the sweetness
Eyes gazing and long paths for your hands to follow
I feel your gaze on me, shattered crystal against the magma
broken up words and indescribable feelings
i feel it change in you and you turn away
left once more in the oblivion of unknowing confussion

i feel like crying so i think i will, this will be my last post for a weeks or 2, maybe it wont be, im not sure.... fuck you

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Comment and tell me what u think [09 Apr 2004|12:20am]
My eyes are dimmed once again
In the light of on going pain
It’s playing unfair games of depression
Forcing razors edge closer to my fate
Complete and bleeding are we
Who live under lies, under false impressions
Damned and dishonoured are we
Who care only for glory over all existence
Not people nor animal should feel the wrath
Of its own kind’s planning and deceit
Human is a disease that’s infected our planet
Mauling and ravaging at anything living
Only death will follow in our wake
Only those who dare to dream can see it
But those who don’t live a life worth questioning
I’m broken between worlds of animal and man
Only shards of transparent lies
Are left of my shattered existence
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i find amusement in this [04 Apr 2004|12:45am]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | Brand New- Sic Transit Gloria... Glory Fades ]

Who will you be stuck with at end of time? by chi_a_baidh
Your name is
Your sex is
Your favorite color is
You are stuck there becauseyou were dead, but then you weren't.. Look at that...
For _____ years15
He/She will think you arebeautiful
You willkill him/her
Created with quill18's MemeGen 3.0!

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:| im updating once more [16 Mar 2004|05:42pm]
[ mood | discombobulated ]
[ music | Three Days Grace- Wake Up ]

so i said "zoe its time to update your journal"

and i did
where u expecting more? yes you say? well fuck off i aint gonna tell you that ive been having the time of my life because im lazy.

for sum reason im listening to weird al yankovic doing a parody on 'beat it' by mike jackson .
"eat it, eat it, if its getting cold re-heat it. have a big dinner, have a light snack, if you dont like it you cant send it back" damn thats a catchy song.

i guess ill be putting up all my poems and shit for the world to see, theyve gotten really good and every1 likes them so im finally doing sumthing right for a change.

im writing this sentence without looking at the keyboard. im so cool.

ivitations are going round soon :D its party time kiddies :P:P

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im updating! [14 Mar 2004|09:07pm]

oh wow i havent done this in a while. whoa.
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i cant be fucked updating about whats actually been happening so this will do [28 Jan 2004|02:59pm]
Fun Things For Non-Christians To Do In Church

Pull aside an unruly child in a pre-school Sunday School class and say: "If you're bad in here, you'll go to Hell."

Put stray dogs in coat closets.

Un-tune the piano.

Replace the pianist's sheet music with "Stairway to Heaven".

Going through all the hymnals, mark song 666.

Find an empty seat, and ask the person next to it: "Is this seat SAVED?"

Toss around a giant beach ball before service, like at Grateful Dead concerts.

Ten minutes before it starts, find a kid in the front rows, hand him a dollar, and tell him to ask the preacher: "Would you rather be stoned or crucified?"

Hide copies of Hustler inside the pulpit. Point them out.

Start a wave.

Do cool things with the lighting.

When attendance is taken, sign on fake names like "Hugh G. Rection" and "Oliver Klozoff".

Wear an ankh or a new-age crystal pendant.

When the choir sings, roll your eyes and grumble: "Oh, Christ! Are they gonna do another SONG?"

Make up your own words to the songs.

Twenty minutes into the service, look at your watch, stand up, and say: "Oh shit. This isn't the wedding!" Run out quickly.

Eat dry Cap'n Crunch through the entire service.

If there is a crying baby, go over and tell the mother: "IF YOU DON'T SHUT THAT FUCKING THING UP SO HELP ME GOD I'LL KILL IT!!!"

Dress all in black, or in camo.

Pierce the body of a tiny animal with stainless-steel wire. Wear it in your ear as jewellery. If you are male, wear two. Change sets for the evening service.

If it is an Easter service, wear a pastel jacket, tie, and matching shorts. If you are male, wear a floral-print dress instead.

At a church dinner, scoop up a forkful of mashed potatoes. Announce that you can see an image of Jesus.

Place blocks of dry ice near the air ducts. Take off your shoes and socks.

Hide near the baptismal pool with a block of sodium. At the first mention of "fire and brimstone", throw it in.

Inflate balloons, then send them off.

Mark places in the Bible or hymnal with religious-themed Far Side cartoons.

Turn in the Bible to the Ten Commandments (Exodus 20: 3-17). Draw in asterisks and write exceptions at the bottom of the page.

Make the sun reflect off your watch into the preacher's face.

Make calls to 900 numbers on the phone in the kitchen.

During the service, play with plastic dinosaurs. If someone asks what you're doing, tell them: "These are dinosaurs. They ruled the earth over 65 million years ago."

Discreetly position a number of bottle rockets on the floor. Discreetly light them.

Snicker every time the preacher talks about someone being stoned, especially Stephen.

Dip communion wafers in communion wine. Eat it and exaggerate on how good it is.

When they pass around the collection plate, drop in a piece of paper with Pat Robertson's MasterCard number.

Turn to your neighbour, whisper: "This do in remembrance of me" and lick them.

Fart, and have a friend shout: "Hark! An angel has spoken!"

Blow bubbles.

Fake a possession.

Distribute condoms.

Speak in tongues.

Ask where the nearest ashtray is.

Drool in the collection plate.

Ask someone what they think about the Book of Peleponnesians. After they tell you, inform them that there is no Book of Peleponnesians.

After a Catholic service, stand outside and tell Polish jokes. When someone points out that Pope John Paul II came from Poland, act embarrassed.

Show unusual interest in any reference to the word "Ministry".

At a church supper, bring a casserole with a ring or piece of a wristwatch embedded inside.

Overnight, have the stained-glass windows replaced with new ones depicting comical, erotic, or death-related imagery. Send the bill to the pastor.

Write on the bathroom wall: "The eyes of the LORD are upon you!!!"

Spread the word that there'll be a rave party at the address of the church next Saturday at midnight.
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[14 Jan 2004|09:27pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]
[ music | Dope- Sick ]


thats all i can say right now


i want to say sumthing to u but ur never listening
i want to tell u sumthing but ur never there
i want to see u but u never turn up
I WANT YOU but i dont know if u want me!


its so annoying- im even annoyed at myself! i want to tell him but i dont have enough courage- im always seconds away from saying it then i just- dont- im afraid that ill fuck everything up and u'll be scared off me and not want to see me (not that ive seen u in 3 weeks)

every1 wants to say it for me but i feel like i need to do it myself- i want to say "listen i really like u will you go out with me?" and then close the convo and turn off the computer so i dont have to hear the reply. its more fustrating than anything that i want to see u and u say that u will come down and then when i call u to see where u are u say "oh im blah blah blah and i wont be there till blah blah blah and i might not be able to come blah blah blah"

ITS PISSING ME OFF- im pissing myself off

ill have to do it- i cant wait for u to flirt and not flirt anymore

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it may be a bit early but FUCK YEAH! [12 Jan 2004|05:16pm]
[ mood | excited ]
[ music | Dope- Now or Never ]

ok im getting too excited about this- my 16th birthday (23rd of April). 103 days till my birthday. it seems so long. 103 days till im legal for peircings without parents concent. 103 days until i can actually say "hey! i dont need to go to bed coz IM 16!" (i do that now anyways) and so on and so forth. ive already writen out a guest list- my god i never knew that i had that many friends- ive even had to scale it down and remove some off the list.

mum said im only alowed 15 people- psht, im down to 26. a lot of these people dont know that they are comming yet, some people that are friends of friends and i dont really know that well. oh well. i think ill write the list out for u to see (im bored) (if ur not on the list- leave a comment- i probly dont like u anyways)::::::

Anthea, Kylie
Kate b, Sarah
Richard, Shaun
Dave, Smiddy
Bea, Twiggy
Dwayne, Tatty
Megan, Mike
Milz, Greeno
Regan, Jody
Cram, Renee
Matt, Joanne
Hannah, Whitterz (coz she invited me to her party-ill tell her theres rock music then she wont come!)
Emily N, Laura (from work)

so that 26. ive included a couple of guys from school coz they invited me to theirs and yeah- its out of respect i guess. of course ive planned all the details already and if i give u an invitation, u better come, because sum1 lost the chance of being on that list because i wanted u to come and if u dont i will disown u. i dont care if ur gold fish died, ur uncle is sick in hospital with diarrhea, ur brother is getting married- your coming! (in ur pants HA)

there are rules. yes i know it sucks but its only fair. the rules are:
1. dont get TOO drunk- im not cleaning up ur vomit (if u must vomit then do it in the neighbours letterbox)
2. no smoking around my house- go down the street and do it if u have to
3. no going into bedrooms- use the laundry. (theres an interesting story with that....)
4. dont get too roudy coz i dont want the police coming to gatecrash my party. (plus if they see underage drinkers then im instanty in more crap than a kayaker in the Werribee river)

ps. the music will be turned down at 11pm so if u wanna play any cd's that u bring u better do it before then.

im a cheap bastard so BYO grog and cd's- im not paying for u to throw it back up again. it will probly be from 6pm to midnight so make sure u can get a ride home- ur not sleeping over (unless theres a major problem) in which case we can have fun and set up and tent outside and camp and tell stories around this bonfire thing we have and play "koombaiya my lord" on guitar.

party fun: going to Tysons house and trashing it with eggs! (yay! we hate u tyson!)

damn....now im all excited....

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[10 Jan 2004|06:59pm]
[ mood | hyper ]
[ music | Dope- Everything Sucks ]

im getting a long trench-coaty thing thats not a trench coat but servs the same purpose- yum! its gorgeous- and it looks wicked with my black pants (that anthea managed to rip a pocket off) and my new sunnies and my che guavara top (it has red on it to break up the black)- i sound really up myself dont i? well its because up until ive started wearing my hair down with my cat ears i havent really liked my appearance and now its like "wow that looks really cool on me!" so fuck up and if u dont like what im saying too bad...fucker...ha ha ha

hee hee i have johnny comics! i have number 2 and 3 and the 1st comic of fillerbunny. i was meant to be getting fillerbunny 2 and johnny 1 and 4 today but the shipping was delayed and they didnt get it and i waas like "u lieing bastards!"so yeh that was fun

i think im becoming a Dangerfield freak- im going there whenever im going to the city and i always buy sumthing dammit! wait- i lie- today i bought something- last time i put sumthing on layby.

maisy just ate a fly

Rolling Stone magazine is so great this month- its so sarcastic! *i love u sarcasm*

lydia made sushi- then made me eat it...twice. it was *ahem* delicious.

if u are reading this (coz i know u are) download this song: Dope- "you spin me round"- its a great cover song and it really makes me want to scream its that good- great song- great band- great cover.

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anthea told me to.... [09 Jan 2004|12:08am]
today was good. very good. i dont know y it was good- actually i think it was coz we were laughing a lot and doing really stupid stuff like that (as usuall wen me, anthea and kate get together lol)

at one point we were sitting on a bench eating and we hear this *CRUNCH* and we all turn around to see this pigeon on the road- half crushed from being run over by a car. it was horrible. u should have seen its eyes! it was so- argh it was in pain and u could tell and i love animals (u all should know) and i was like "arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! anthea!" i swear if it could have been saved i would have saved it. anyways the taxi saw what happened and swerved around it which was nice- then the next car went straight over its head. yup. all that effort for nuthing.

kate had a camera and we took cool pictures. we got them developed and some enlarged.

we now have a tradition that everytime we cross the road we scream "GREEN MAN! ITS STILL GREEN!!!!"

my butt is twiching- i think my butt's gone psycho

today when we were crossing a crossing section this guy looked at me (i had my cat ears on) and laughed 4 times really loud pretty much in my face and walked off again and i was like "omg i did not deserve that!-prick"

fun happened- dont wanna get into it- i like dave- dont wanna get into that either- i got a ring that doesnt fit my fingers and keeps sliding off- nope not gonna talk about that too- guy in allans music was flirting with me despite a 10 year age differnece and he was still trippin from the session he had the night before- i might wanna talk about that another day- bought a johnny comic and now i cant stop quoting from it- OH MY GOD SOMEBODY PUT SHIT IN MY PANTS!- dont ask- i have a wedgie- i wonder if i should pick it?- yeah - oh the relief- yes i wrote that to gross u out- did it work?- of course and dont deny it- i have a picture of kate barnaby pulling a weird face and im gonna use it for black mail- im so nice...................

anthea told me to update this- i hope ur happy lol
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It's time to talk about me (for once) [06 Jan 2004|08:08pm]
[ mood | pleased ]
[ music | the Strokes- 12:51 ]

i looked totally foxy today. (not trying to be modest). i was wearing my kitty ears (meow!) and my che guavara top with my $4 brown pants (from savers). i think the thing that made it all look good was that i was wearing my hair down. i dont do this coz as u all should know i have horrible regrowth that is actually starting to look quite awesome- soon it will look like i have black tips. i used a different eyeliner and it looked awesomely awesome.

im sorry but i never like the way i look normally so its time i actually said sumthing nice about me after giving myself shit for so long- im not normaly this modest

if u saw me today and thought i looked pretty post a comment! (u can also post improovements i can make too!)

now aproaching newport station. this train will be termanating at newpot. please change trains. thank you for travelling with M-train.
- sorry the urge was overwhelming (i really shouldnt know that announcement word for word)

this is Zowee- over and out!

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oh... [06 Jan 2004|07:38pm]
[ mood | discontent ]
[ music | Murderdolls- Lets Fuck ]

"anyways he at some point (when we were all there) was on his mobile to his friend and he was trying to flatter us by saying "i'm here with 4 hot girls" and he put me onto his friend for sum reason and im like "hello? hi im zoe- u dont know me and nor should u- you will never meet me either" "oh hi are u hot? maybe i will meet u. ya never know how these things work out" "um, no no i dont cya!"

^... needless to say- i did meet that guy.

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Song writing is fun [04 Jan 2004|01:42pm]
[ mood | apathetic ]
[ music | Vapors- Turning Japanese ]

Your World, Your mess

All I wish is to hold you by the neck
As my hate pours into my knife wielding hand
I want to see you by my feet, staring
As your empty eyes look up at your ignorance

I'm not scared of you
I'm not afraid anymore
Your looking for death in all the right places
One day you'll be my prisoner

How can you be so blind?
Your face taunts me as
I scratch my way out of your
World of perfect imperfections

I’m not scared of fate
I’m not afraid of killing
You’re looking for death in all the right places
One day you’ll be my victim.

(C) Zoe Kypros 2003

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