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(yawn) just woke up, im bord....................theres no one on aim.............michelles grounded................so is mike............................and i shot a squril today.....................man im bord............................I NEED SOMETHING OR SOMEONE TO DO! hahahaha.......................yawn..................................(slams head against table).............................till next time peace our
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[28 Jul 2003|10:20pm] |
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sigh....................i wanna die that way i can leave this hell hole of a place they call earth...............................i commited my first act of murder today.................i killed a squirl..................mwhahahaha!......................sigh i have a boring life...........i wish michelle was here that way i can be with her and feel wanted in this world.......but i have no way to get there..............i need help........i dunno what to do......i wanna die and ive tried to kill my self almost did to but the wound wasnt bad enough..............through out my life ive tried to kill my self over 139 times.........sad isnt it.................i dunno whats keeping me here..............it could be the little hope i have left in my life that keeps me alive..........heh what am i thinking theres no one in my life that loves me that even cares for me...............im just another person in this world.......i mean what do i have to live for...my family? ha yeah right my family isnt a family ive been alone for almost 9 years now.............ive been lied to all my life...... i dont even really think michelle loves me cuz every time someone says that to me its a lie.........ive been hurt to much in my life.....i need someone......i have michelle.....but i cant see her so theres no one for me................i just dont know what to do
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