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AHHHH! im tired, i fell asleep at 6:00 in the morning, you proble asking your self why...........hehe i talked to michelle from 11:30 to 6:00 hehehe .....................we had a very good coversation hehehehe........................ GOD i want to be with her right now..........(oh and michelle i know you love to tease me)oh but i feel good because she's going to mikes party saterday (hehehe ower coversation last night will come into play hehehehe) and ill be there.................well michelle went home yesterday........waaaaaa! i didnt get to kiss her! mike and his family were around every 10 SECONDS! but i am going to at the party............i know today will be a good day because its raining.......i love the rain.............calms me down................oh yeah i have a few 7"th grade stalkers michelle is gunna kick there ass when she finds out who they are..........hahaha ok i have to pack for my dads......till later....................... peace out (i love you michelle)
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[17 Jul 2003|08:49pm] |
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i feel loved, michelle walked 2hours from mikes to my house just to talk to me...........fell the love..............heh heh yeah i owe her my life now.................... and cant believe mikes lil sis talked her into going the long way.....................aaahhh anyway michelle went home today.......::tear::........i want her to stay longer but what can i do.............im going to my dads tomorrow (parents are divoced for people who dont know) i dunno what he has planed for this weekend......ahh we'll see though...till later.........peace out
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[16 Jul 2003|07:44pm] |
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today was another good day..................wow two good days in a row whats wrong! heh heh but anyways i got to spend the day with michelle(WOOOHOOO) we cuddled for a while on mikes bed..............but mike and his lil sister came barging in every 10 min.................i was like WHAT THE FUCK! i wan to spend time with michelle not you mike, we can chill at any other time!.....................man i want to spend the night at mikes(michelles there) but mikes mom dosent trust ME! WHAT THE FUCK AGAIN! and she trusts mike! how the hell is she going to trust me when she dosent give me a chance( anyway what makes her think i would do anything bad? ).........ahh oh well, michelle i love you and i had a great day today( wahhh! shes going home tomorrow.....tear......)..............hey mike hows the lipstick? heh heh........................peace out
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[15 Jul 2003|10:49pm] |
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ahh to day was a good day, i got to see michelle and i did alot of hard labor, man i feel good, but i know it wont last because i know me i dont stay happy for long................sigh.......................but i get to spend the day with michelle tomorrow! wooohooo! and i have to help mike dig a hole in the ground for his pool.....woooohooo...*sarcasim*.....but i get to spend the day with michelle! YAY!..................michelle acually came in my room......im surprized that the "thing" living in my room didnt eat her......heh heh....................thats how bad my room is.....................and my mom HOLY SHIT! CAN MY MOM BE ANY MORE OF A DUESH BAG! GOD! ahhh but oh well i got a hug from michelle so im happy.................till later..................peace out
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[15 Jul 2003|03:22am] |
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how sad is this.....................i cant even cry...............im pathetic........................i dont deserve michelle.........................i dont deserve to live.........................why should i be alive right now............i have nothing to live for
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[15 Jul 2003|03:19am] |
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how sad is this.....................i cant even cry...............im pathetic........................i dont deserve michelle.........................i dont deserve to live.........................why should i be alive right now............i have nothing to live for
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[15 Jul 2003|02:54am] |
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i cant say anything......i just cant...........michelle you get me to love you and tell me that i cant be with you..................it hurts so much to hear that.....................you know i love you, i always will......................please dont do this to me.........................i dont think i could live with the thought of you not trusting me......................it hurts........................i dont know why im alive right now.................i dont think i should be alive................i can even get someone to love me.....................am i really that hard to belive that i would be honest to you? i love you remeber that
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[14 Jul 2003|01:07pm] |
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I HATE MY PARENTS! i had a chance to go see michelle and i have to call my mom every time i want to go somewhere, SHE WASNT IN! and she yells at me for leaving without telling her! so mike at this time is going to mass to see michelle..............THIS FUCKING WORLD SUCKS DICK! FUCK MY PARENTS! I DONT NEED THEM I DONT NEED ANYONE! I CAN SURVIVE ON MY OWN!......................well i do need michelle, but other than that EVERY ONE CAN JUST SUCK MY DICK! I HATE EVERY ONE, EVERY ONE SUCKS! by the way im sorry michelle for the fight last night, ill try to agree with you more often ok? now im going to go and destroy some shit to calm me down...............peace out
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[13 Jul 2003|09:16pm] |
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YEAH! im home! OH GOD im glad to be back home, and guess what! michelle is comeing up thursday! wait? whats this! she can! NOOOOOOOOOOOOO! WWWHAAAAAAAAAA! its not fair! DAMN THIS WORLD! DAMN YOU BERGER KING< MAKING MY GIRL WORK AT THIS TIME! AAGGGHHH!................................................i have to calm down.................hhhhhheeeeeee...................whooooooooooooo.............heeeeeee......whoooooo............ok im gunna do now.........................and take a cold shower.............peace out
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[10 Jul 2003|02:38pm] |
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i need coments people comeon give me sumthin!
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[10 Jul 2003|02:30pm] |
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yeah i just got off the phone with michelle.....man it feels great to talk to her..............if it wasnt for her and my music i would have been dead along time ago.......and i love her for that.................god must she tease me by telling me shes in a hot tub every time i talk to her! heh but if she didnt i couldnt have naughty thoughts of her heh heh...........................my mom sucks shes dragging me up to maine again to help my grandma move to a new house.............I DONT WANNA GO! AAAHHHHHHHH but what can i do............oh well till next time............peace out
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[10 Jul 2003|12:47am] |
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Running out of ways to run
I can't see, I can't be
Over and over and under my skin
All this attention is DOING ME IN!
FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!
Picking through the parts exposed
Taking shape, taking shag
Over and over and under my skin
All this momentum is DOING ME IN!
FUCK IT ALL! FUCK THIS WORLD!
FUCK EVERYTHING THAT YOU STAND FOR!
DON'T BELONG! DON'T EXIST!
DON'T GIVE A SHIT!
DON'T EVER JUDGE ME!
You got all my love, livin' in your own hate
Drippin' hole man, hard step, no fate
Show you nuthin', but I ain't holdin' back
Every damn word I say is a sneak attack
When I get my hands on you
Ain't a fuck thing you can do
Get this cuz you're never gonna get me
I am the very disease you pretend to be
I am the push that makes you move
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| NO LIFE |
[10 Jul 2003|12:43am] |
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My freedom is best
Whole country's on house arrest
And everyone's a suspect
You can't feel the flow because you died
Face down on a "suicide"
The muthafucker's on self-destruct
Nobody guardin' your back, it's all a front
SAVE THIS! MY RAGE IS BLISS!
I'M TAKIN' NAMES AND GETTIN' PISSED!
Where's Chuck D when ya need him?
You ain't shit, just a puddle on the
Bed spread
The maniac psycho
Cool j screamed the shit
But I still can't believe it
Man, it's funny that you scare me so
Just enough to fuck me up again and again
Hard life is hard as hell
Better back the fuck on up
Cuz this is...
No kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(I've got to get out!)
It's no kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(You can't blame me!)
Can't be real no more - Your mask is skin and bone
Savor every flavor you want cuz it's not your own
Bad-ass at bat, man
Forget about the battle, it's the war we gotta win
Breathe! Amer-cult, Breathe! On more - Seethe!
Freak like you gotta pair
Won't be my fault
When you're painted in the corner of a no-good life
This is...
No kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(I've got to get out!)
It's no kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(You can't blame me!)
I can't remember, I don't understand,
Is it malice that makes you this way?
Carry it with you 'til someone forgives you
I laugh cuz there's nothing to say
YOU CAN'T BEGIN TO CONSIDER THE
PALPABLE HATE IN THE AIR WHEN YOU'RE HERE
None of us wonder what weather you're under
You're making it perfectly clear!
Lights ain't on - shit ain't right
Never had peace so I had to fight
Can you look in my eyes when my back's against
The wall, slash at my eyes, surprise, you'll never get me
You're all reality and sound bites
And the freedom is never in plain sight
The feelings, the question, the price is too
Human, for fucking sake - This is...
No kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(I've got to get out!)
It's no kind of life! This is no kind of life!
(You can't blame me!)
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[09 Jul 2003|11:51am] |
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im alone................no ones here...................by my self.......................alone..........................depressed.....................and alone.....................my life sucks
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[09 Jul 2003|02:24am] |
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yeah i can sleep................i go threw cycles were i can and cant sleep and this is one of those times where i cant...........mike and michelle tried to call my house at 12:30 and 1:00 but my mom (whos a bitch and a half) told them to go to bed.............god i hate my mom..............i wish i could live with my dad but thats just going to make me feel depressed to see him like that ( he has many problems with his lungs and heart)................i want my own place so i can do what i want and not listen to anyone (or i can go live with michelle :) )...............i mean michelle is the only good thing that happend to me in my life, i dont want to lose her( another thing for people who dont know me, ive had bad relationships and ive been hurt for life........i can even smile anymore without thinking of something bad about my life)
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[08 Jul 2003|05:43pm] |
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im an idoit i made two entrys of the same thing heh heh
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[08 Jul 2003|05:42pm] |
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AAAHHH i feel like beating the shit out of someone! (yea for people who dont know me i tend to get angry alot at little things)but i promised michelle i wouldnt hurt anyone.............great now i have to try and calm down wich is hard for me.............but oh well................peace out
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[08 Jul 2003|05:38pm] |
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AAAHHH i feel like beating the shit out of someone! (yea for people who dont know me i tend to get angry alot at little things)but i promised michelle i wouldnt hurt anyone.............great now i have to try and calm down wich is hard for me.............but oh well................peace out
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sup everyone, ive been in maine for a few days so sorry for not informing you on my boring life. First off let me just say that the trip sucked, i have no reason to tell you why so im not going to say. DAMN i miss michelle, shes in arizona i wish i could be with her right now, but what can i do.................(sigh) well im off to go get the mail ill write soon peace out
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yay! michelle likes me WWWWWOOOOOOOHHHHOOOOOOOO! im happy, me seth happy for once in his life! its a miricle, oh god todays the best day of my life
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