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today was the best day of my life...i went to see michelle at her house..........oh yeah! i talked my mom into takin me hehe im so good hahaha i scare my self..........anyway other than michelles friends who came over michelle and i made out for what seam like a few minutes ( you know how when you do something and it felt like it took you like 2 minutes and it turns out to be like 5 hours......yeah thats what happen to me and michelle) hehe but i cant lie........i loved every second of it hehehe.....sigh i just wish i could stay with here........oh yeah we did some other things to up stairs but yeah im not going to get into that hehe we also went to go see nin it was fun i got to see monkeys hehehe..........sigh i miss her already........i love her so much...hehe i just wish she was here now.........hehe i think i should go cuz im exciting myself haha till later............. i love you michelle.....................peace
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i thought today was gonig to be a good day........i went to the beach with michelle and mike.....we spent the whole day there..............but when we went to drop them off .................yeah........mikes sis said they were up last night fighting about me.........cource i know it was about mike asking michelle her weight and all this other stuff happend with michelles mom not wanting her to spend all her time with me and mike being a imature lil bitch cuz michelle can talk to me about stuff more than him.........but it hurt me to see michelle cry..........i just wanted to beat the shit out of everyone cuz of it.....but...i dunno.............i told my mom everything........how i shut people out............how ive been alone for all this time.........and how i love michelle.......i just wanna leave.......just go away to somewhere far away......and if michelle wants ill take her with me........till next time............i love you michelle and i always will..............peace
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[20 Aug 2003|12:23am] |
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hey me, michelle, mike, and abby went to go see s.w.a.t......yeah it was a good movie............grrr i wanted to kiss michelle but my GOD DAMN SHYNESS GOT IN THE WAY!!!! sigh but i did kiss her neck hehe i just want to be alone with michelle for 10 minutes! thats all i need..............i would have kissed her during the movie but i felt like people were watchen me............i just wish i could see her every day........then i could feel loved in this world..............(sigh) now i think i wont beable to see her cuz my mom has the week off and wants me to help clean the house all day for like intill thursday..........its like people are tryin to keep us apart......ill never let that happen...ill see her one way or another.............i love you michelle.....................till next time......peace
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hey sry i havent updated my thingy (like anyone really reads this anyway) i was in texas for a week..........i fried like a chicken at KFC......im so sore from walking on 100 degree pavment sunburnt on my back and sholders and sore arms from swimming but anyway i miss my cookie! waaaaa! i want you here! oy i hurt my self im gunna go lye down till later peace
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im in pain...my whole back and left arm hurts i dunno why but anyway............i talked to michelle taday.....grrr i want to be with her...........im bord nuthin much to talk about..........oh yeah im going to texas to visit a friend this sunday.................im worried though.....ive never been on a plane..............let alone travel anywere alone...........man wish i could go with michelle to vigina that would be great.......but anyways till next time.....peace
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yawn........no sleep last night................grrr......tired..................went to mikes today...................mom found out.........................and im gunna get my ass kicked............................i want my cookie.............i want to be with her for a day or two is that so much to ask?...................sum times i think gods doing this to me and just lafghing at me cuz of my despair..........................sigh..........till next time................i love you michelle.........................peace
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YAWN..............grrr for the past week ive been bord out of my mind! i really wish michelle was here she would give me somethin to do........hehehehe..............................(sigh)......anyway i got back from my dads today just a sec ago......................my dads cool but hes sick and i dont want to feel all depressed about it cuz it hurts................and if you really dont know me then im not going to go into details of why.................................i dunno what im going to do tomorrow......maybe mike and i can go see michelle................i dunno i depends on how much of an ass mike will be about it..................anyway he owes me :)........................yawn......anyway im going to go watch t.v. cuz i have nuthin beter to do........till later.................peace
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yawn im bord..................i did nothing today........me and michelle worked things out and everythings alright now and in sry michelle for saying that........damn i wish michelle was here then i could be doin something hehehe.....................but grrr im bord and lonely......................i love you michelle
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I HATE ME I REALLY REALLY DO! GOd DAMN IT! im so stupid! im a complete fuck up! i dont desurve michelle shes to good for me! i miss her.........i really do....................i need to controle me emotions better i think stupid thoughts when im depressed im extreamly positivly sorry michelle! i didnt mean to say that................i guess mike was right..............i am a fuck up
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michelle i really need to see you..................i need your help............get me out of this place!
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sigh....................i wanna die that way i can leave this hell hole of a place they call earth...............................i commited my first act of murder today.................i killed a squirl..................mwhahahaha!......................sigh i have a boring life...........i wish michelle was here that way i can be with her and feel wanted in this world.......but i have no way to get there..............i need help........i dunno what to do......i wanna die and ive tried to kill my self almost did to but the wound wasnt bad enough..............through out my life ive tried to kill my self over 139 times.........sad isnt it.................i dunno whats keeping me here..............it could be the little hope i have left in my life that keeps me alive..........heh what am i thinking theres no one in my life that loves me that even cares for me...............im just another person in this world.......i mean what do i have to live for...my family? ha yeah right my family isnt a family ive been alone for almost 9 years now.............ive been lied to all my life...... i dont even really think michelle loves me cuz every time someone says that to me its a lie.........ive been hurt to much in my life.....i need someone......i have michelle.....but i cant see her so theres no one for me................i just dont know what to do
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(yawn) just woke up, im bord....................theres no one on aim.............michelles grounded................so is mike............................and i shot a squril today.....................man im bord............................I NEED SOMETHING OR SOMEONE TO DO! hahahaha.......................yawn..................................(slams head against table).............................till next time peace our
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yawn..............(rubs eye)....................yeah.........................grrr michelle i wanna talk to you! its been too long! you have to tell me what you did cuz i wanna know now........................yawn.............im tired.............................(streches) im going to acually sleep tonight!
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oh yeah! oh michelle what did you do!? hahaha its been eating a hole in me not to talk to you ether ( i can only imagin what you did..........hehehehe) oh well atleast i know your ok.........i love you michelle...........oh and try to behave...................till next time................peace out
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oh yeah! oh michelle what did you do!? hahaha its been eating a hole in me not to talk to you ether ( i can only imagin what you did..........hehehehe) oh well atleast i know your ok.........i love you michelle...........oh and try to behave...................till next time................peace out
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grrr im bord................i have good and bad news.......................bad news first ill be gone for a week some time in aug., good news is its to go see my friend who lives in texas (wooohoooo i get to visit my punching bag!........na na jp jp)any ways i get to be hero to him cuz he's got some people he wants taken out.........(if you know what i mean hehehehe) any ways i get to spend a week kick'n ass an taking names........this is going to be fun
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[25 Jul 2003|01:17pm] |
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grrr its been two days and i havent herd from michelle..............eh she probly went somewhere........ill just talk to her when she gets back.............(sigh)...............my lifes boring me i need to do something........................oh well till next time.............peace out
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oy, i just got back from mikes...............fun fun fun.................grrrrr i wanted to stay home but nnooooooooo i went over for the night i wanted to just stay home that night! was that so much to ask! grrrr...........anyways im bord i wanna talk to michelle but shes not on........hmmm maybe i should call her eh i dunno........till next time...................peace out
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grrr i feel bad but in a way i feel good to, cuz i just talked to michelle about my past and my dad (wich i dont talk to anyone else about) and i realized that im alone in this world and shes the only one whos been there for me and i love her for that, i just wish i lived closer to her......i just wanna say thank you michelle you've been there for me, i love you, i dont know where i would be with out you right now........thankyou
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sup people i got home last night from my dads (parents are divorced) and it was a great weekend for me, i got to spend time with my dad and i got to go to mikes cook out.......hehehe michelle was there another reason i went, at the cook out me and mike played a game of paintball................of cource i lost (whips gun against floor) damn unaccurate pile of shit.............ah hem any ways we went bck to mikes and michelle and i watched legaly blond.........hehehe michelle was sitting on my lap i started to draw my finger up and down her leg and her side and int the center of her hand i almost got her neck but she wouldnt let me (cuz she'll go crazy if i did hehehehe) but anyways i love being with her ahhhhh! why do i have to live so far away! (sigh) oh well but next time shes up we have to have "us" time hehehe well i have work to do so im gunna go and get started till later................peace out (i love you michelle)
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