mooja!   
11:10pm 01/03/2004
 
mood: tired/cranky/moody/happy?
music: Corrosion of Conformity - Clean My Wounds!
hola mi amigos con queso! haha, yeh, i guess that you could tell that suddenly muh life's gettin better. i guess im the only one it was really 'bad' to to begin with!! :) anywho, i'm a LOT closer to charlie now....once more, and i've decided that i REALLY DO believe that we'll be gettin back together soon. I really dont think he cares much for Courtney anylonger and he tells me he's falling in love with me once more so i hope it's for the best! he already cheats on courtney with me, so i don't think our relationship would be much different than we are now if we did get back together, i'd just be able to publicly say that we were together without having to worry about one of his friend finding out about us and telling courtney and wooha wooooha wooooooha! lol, eh, i've made a new friend also! His name is Eric Eisenman, and although he's kinda younger than me, he's one cool fucker! he's in the eighth grade and i'ma Sophomore, but there's no law anywhere saying that we can't hang out, eh? he's super cool, you should speak with him some time! well, i must go now, i already get like NO sleep and im SOOOO tired and it's like 11:15, so to bed i must go! farewell bitta
 
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friends!!   
11:15am 28/02/2004
  these are mine and brooka's friends from tha punk show the other night!


this is Kenny and Steven...steven's really horny! lol


this is Jordan, he's one of the singers of one of the bands


this is Geoffrey, he sprained his wrist lol


this be horny steven showing EVERYONE his nipples...he asked us if we wanted to lick them also.

that be all for now, maybe ill show you more some other time!
later, bitta
 
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life sucks.   
03:53pm 07/02/2004
 
mood: worried
music: 3 Days Grace
so life is an up and down road. i was going up it for a while and just now my ass turned around real fast and now i'm going down. My best fuckin friend just totalled his car. it's REALLY bad. my ass is really fuckin lucky because this is like the 1st damn time that i wasn't with him. its fuckin crazy as hell. he seems to be okay but he was limpin really badly so he's gonna go to the hospital. i was so fuckin scared when brookes mom told me that he was in a wreck...i almost died. god i'm so fuckin happy he's okay. if you wanted to know...it was Dustin-lama.
lata
bitta
 
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left out anyone?   
10:02pm 30/01/2004
 
mood: depressed
music: none
Man, i've never felt so left out in my life. i dunno why, just all of a sudden all kinds of emotions are takin over my crazy ass! i've never been so aggressive, moody, emo, bitchy, "if you fuck with me, you're dead" in my life. Dude, i've even gotten to the point where i WANNA go to councelling to see what works out with me. All of my "friends" are out partying right now and didn't even bother to invite me. Of course i couldn't go with my situation and all....but they still could have had the decency to at least invite my ass. I do have to give credit to my "friend" lindsey...she invited me to Robert's house with her....but other than that, nope. Me and Brooke were supposed to chill with Dustinlama tonight, but she hadda go get her hair redone because it was seriously looking like shit, lol. The roots were all black and shit and the rest of her hair wasn't? lol. anywho...Me, Brooka, and Dustinlama are going to see The Cat In The Hat tomorrow at the dollar theatres. See what kind of people us three are? we can have fun with basically nothing. Dude, we walked around Wal-Mart the other night for 2 hours and had one of the funnest nights of the month in there! it was great. I dont getta chill with those two fockers much anymore with all the trouble and supervision and all, but it's cool...i'll take what i get. Charlie's starting to feel a little more distant to me. Yeah, we still call each other ALL the damn time and be like "oh my god, where have you been sweetie!?" but i dunno...it just seems to me like he's got a lot more going on that's more important to him. He knows damn well that i don't like his focking girlfriend so he doesn't even mention her to me anymore thank god. Last time he mentioned her i made a really big focking hole in my wall and i no longer have a guitar. You see what i mean by me being super emotional lately? I dunno why it's all coming on me like this either! it's pissing me off. Well...i'm into drugs. Some of them. Mainly Coke and Pot. that's all. I can't smoke weed anymore because my supervisors can tell when i'm stoned so i'm sticking to the coke for a while until the parentals can trust me again. Hopefully that'll be soon cuz i don't wanna get addicted to that shit althought i think i already am. Last time me and dustinlama did it...mayne you shoulda seen us! we were licking the bag, and the counters, and the glass we did it on...we looked pathetic. Oh well. We know how to have fun. THe thing with our nicknames...i dunno how they came about...most of mine brooke made up while i was passed out on Morphine. I made up Brooka's by accidentally calling her "Brooka" one day instead of "brooke." I dunno why it stuck. Dustinlama's is "dustinlama' because for some reason unknown he's obsessed with lamas. Me and Brooka also call him "Ptera-dustin-saurus-rex" because we always compare people to animals and we happen to think that he looks like a dinosaur. I guess it's just the profiling of his face? Who knows? I'm totally sure that you guys now know more about me and my real friends than you'd like to know. When i'm telling stories, i just wanted you all to know who they are. Here's the rest of the list and these ones are my "friends", not friends. *Trent*-he's a pretty good friend, never betrayed me...we just dont chill much anymore...he's one of the biggest potheads in my town and if ANYONE wants to get some weed or alcohol, just go to him. He also buys me my ciggarettes because for some reason, he can buy them at the local store. He's only 16 years old, same as me. *Robert*-he's cool as fuck. He came from the Virgin Islands last year so we pick on him and call him an imigrant. He's not really one tho. He's really cool, we just dont hang out much either...never betrayed me or lied to me. *Lindsey*-yeah. she's the one where it hits hardest and she's the one that makes me not be able to trust people. She's betrayed me and lied to me so many different times it's crazy of me to try to count them. All she does is start shit with me and she's gotta be the most jealous person in the world. *Kayla*-she's cool...but she's like me...her Aunt and Uncle are really strict cuz she got in a lot of trouble this summer and can't chill much either. Never betrayed me though...we're just not close. *Cody*-he just kinda hangs around our group at school. *Danielle*-she's robert's girlfriend. She's not really a druggie or anything...she just hangs around cuz she's an old friend of half the group from back when none of us did drugs. that's it for ya. If there's any added in there, i'll help ya out, no worries hit meh up if you wanna lataaa Barbitta
 
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lmfao...also....   
09:22pm 30/01/2004
  Hey, also don't worry about the "you wanna fuck" comment on there. I was just trying to figure stuff out and i say that often so i typed it. Sorry guys, that's not an offer. :D  
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ignore that   
08:59pm 30/01/2004
  Hey. Just ignore my stupidity. lol. i posted it twice. Only read one of them, if you read both, you'll pretty much get the same idea, twice even. lol.

lata, bitta
 
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ignore that   
08:59pm 30/01/2004
  Hey. Just ignore my stupidity. lol. i posted it twice. Only read one of them, if you read both, you'll pretty much get the same idea, twice even. lol.

lata, bitta
 
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what is even the point of a family?   
08:41pm 30/01/2004
  The number one question that i've been thinking for long since years is what is even the point of a family? yeah, they're supposed to be there to support you in your times and get you through school and help you start your own life, but the only thing my family has ever done for me is screw me over and completely ruin my good start at a good life. Right now i'm in trouble for a stolen gun that i'm not even at fault for. My father let his flavor of the week stay at his house one night and she jacked his gun, 30$, and my truck. My family has told me that they've completely lost trust in me, they won't let me hang out with my friends unless i'm under supervision of them, and they're pissing me off. They just don't understand the power that i have. I've got a horrible temper. It's terribly bad when i get mad. They're currently trying to send me to a mental institute for counselling to help me calm down because they think i've got problems because of my mother leaving me when i was 2. If that was going to bother me, i would have already bothered me. That's what i believe. I just don't know why they're so fucking stupid.

Also, i've currently found out that of all the people i've hung out with of late, i've only got 4 real friends. Thanks Brooke, Tahnee, Dustin and Charlie. you guys are the actual people who help me out with shit. I look at you guys as my true family. I love you guys!

this is all i shall be writing for tonight. i'm currently fighting with a "friend".

later, bitta
 
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what is even the point of a family?   
08:41pm 30/01/2004
 
mood: pensive
music: Dimmu Borgir "puritania"
The number one question that i've been thinking for long since years is what is even the point of a family? yeah, they're supposed to be there to support you in your times and get you through school and help you start your own life, but the only thing my family has ever done for me is screw me over and completely ruin my good start at a good life. Right now i'm in trouble for a stolen gun that i'm not even at fault for. My father let his flavor of the week stay at his house one night and she jacked his gun, 30$, and my truck. My family has told me that they've completely lost trust in me, they won't let me hang out with my friends unless i'm under supervision of them, and they're pissing me off. They just don't understand the power that i have. I've got a horrible temper. It's terribly bad when i get mad. They're currently trying to send me to a mental institute for counselling to help me calm down because they think i've got problems because of my mother leaving me when i was 2. If that was going to bother me, i would have already bothered me. That's what i believe. I just don't know why they're so fucking stupid.

Also, i've currently found out that of all the people i've hung out with of late, i've only got 4 real friends. Thanks Brooke, Tahnee, Dustin and Charlie. you guys are the actual people who help me out with shit. I look at you guys as my true family. I love you guys!

this is all i shall be writing for tonight. i'm currently fighting with a "friend".

later, bitta
 
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fuck   
09:21am 30/01/2004
  fuck? you wanna?  
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