| Umm.. it's my name.. | ||||
| 07:29am 22/12/2003 | ||||
A - You can be very quiet when you have something on your mind. C - You definitely have a partier side in you, dont be shy to show it. H - You are not judgemental. ..i got the name thing from Rynnay.. thank you rynnay. Tom was here last night. That was neat. Him, I, and his girlfriend saw The new Lord of the Rings movie... I seriously dont get the hype, i thought it was boring and annoying. It never fucking ended. And i was girlfriendless what fun is that? Everybody has a damn make out party and I sit there half asleep with a box half full of milkduds, and a soda.. I went to the bathroom cause i thought I was gonna freak out because I was so nerveracked..blah. That's it. I <3 you. god dammit. |
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restless| yayaya | ||||
| 02:40am 20/12/2003 | ||||
I sat close to her on the chair and I just wanted to grab her and Kiss her. It's like fucking cold turky. Anyways, I guess thats about it. Thanks again, Ryan for taking me. |
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indescribable| holiday burnout | ||||
| 10:27am 16/12/2003 | ||||
The show was ok i guess. Atherton did pretty good. I wasnt paying much attention to the other acts.. I was spacing out a lot thinking about things, people, life, and shit like that. The one guy fucking played forever...but it was pretty funny when his drinks kicked in, yes. But i dont know. I'm becomming impatient with a lot of things. I really want my band to play a show, and I'm tired of, well, myself. I saw Adam tonight. It was good to see him again. So, is there anything else I want to get off my chest? Probably...but why should i tell you bastards? hum.. |
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lonely| so... | ||||
| 08:10am 14/12/2003 | ||||
Show on tuesday at pizza city in Lock Haven if things go smoothly...go to it Then a show at the charter school in SUgar Valley ..go to that too. Asa has been sick.. Hopefully we can practice tomorrow. He has gotten better but he gets tired quickly if he's too active... and he gets to be very active on the set. But hopefully we can have stuff together for Tuesday. It's just a small show in a small place, but i want it to be good. ..I've been thinking a lot. I don't like this fighting..It's not even amusing anymore. It's just becomming old and I'm tired of it... Stew if you were my true friend, you'd support me in whatever I do.. I support you.. though I may not like what you are doing. But think of this stew.. If you and Jaynie were not in this war.. would you be as pissed for me liking her? Seriouly, I dont want to fight with you and it seems this is the only way I can say these things without you stopping me..Maybe you will read this. Maybe not.. then I guess I wrote this for nothing. But I'm really tired of all this, and I can't help the way I feel. I've tried to get over it, though you say I didn't. But you wouldnt know, because you are not me. You don't have my feelings..you don't know. Stew and Jaynie, I love you both. Stewie, you and I have always had a rough relationship.. but I still think of you as a great friend. And Jaynie, you were everything I wanted and still do. Nobody made me feel like you did. And stew.. I met you when I met Jaynie, back when you two were best friends.. ..don't you miss being best friends?? ...just a little bit. I do.. I love you two. :'( ..Ok now that I got that out...shoot me, please. |
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gloomy| Stewie's always there to understand...... | ||||
| 05:05am 10/12/2003 | ||||
This is out of the blue hell... Lolita X Core: so i heard you wanted to go back out with jaynie? SuperNever13: ::shrugs:: SuperNever13: im sure youve heard a lot of things. Lolita X Core: yeah i know. Lolita X Core: like, how she was telling you that thane was beating her? Lolita X Core: and how her and jeremy are a joke? SuperNever13: she didnt say "beating" SuperNever13: i know there not a joke SuperNever13: she told me Lolita X Core: OH so she finally fixed a lie? Lolita X Core: WHOA. SuperNever13: she told me a while ago. Lolita X Core: and how when she cheated on you with skinny dan, that she told me that he raped her and that was never true? SuperNever13: i know. Lolita X Core: and how it was to cover up cheating on you? SuperNever13: she eventually told me this all. Lolita X Core: oh EVENTUALLY?!?! SuperNever13: yeah.. like the day later Lolita X Core: doesn't count. SuperNever13: after i found out Lolita X Core: still doesn't count. Lolita X Core: and this is whie i get pissed at you for even TALKING TO HER. SuperNever13: ..where the fuck did this come from? Lolita X Core: oh ive been thinking about it, and i figured that you should know cuz you wonder whie i get mad at you, so yeah figured i'd tell ya now before you im me and i just bitch at you anyways. Lolita X Core: that and i talked to someone last night about stuff, and yeah it was a final straw when i heard that you wanted her back...pathetic. Lolita X Core: so yeah zach, if you wanna ruin yer life again, go ahead...you wanna be looking for something you can trust, not a lieing piece of shit. SuperNever13: you have a few corpses yourself stew. Lolita X Core: yeah so? Lolita X Core: i dont' wanna sit here and listen to you bitch when you do fuck yerself oevr again SuperNever13: well i wont. Lolita X Core: yeah well ive never lied about something as serious as being raped. Lolita X Core: ha, my ass you won't zach. SuperNever13: and i dont even know what to do, im about to walk off the earth because im sick of everybody SuperNever13: and i cant get away with murder on somebody else. Lolita X Core: well you know how to fix it, yer just scared of what people think. SuperNever13: where the hell did that come from? Lolita X Core: it came from me dipshit! Lolita X Core: anyways, im going over there. SuperNever13: how can you say im scared of what people think? Lolita X Core: im done talkign anyways SuperNever13: no.. Lolita X Core: Ugh, yeah i am. SuperNever13: your gonna explain yourself SuperNever13: no SuperNever13: your not going to bitch me out and run Lolita X Core: um, im not running. SuperNever13: ..where are you going? Lolita X Core: you do care what people think zach, thats whie yer shy about shit, and you don't make decisions SuperNever13: lock haven? Lolita X Core: um, no. Lolita X Core: im gonna clean my house fuckwad/ Lolita X Core: i'll talk to you later. Lolita X Core: maybe. SuperNever13: ok, prick SuperNever13: go Lolita X Core: yeah fuck off Lolita X Core signed off at 5:35:40 PM. ..my friend stewie would never hurt me. She's so understanding.. |
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angry| damn snow | ||||
| 08:32am 05/12/2003 | ||||
::smacks head of desk:: |
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aggravated| confused. | ||||
| 09:05am 03/12/2003 | ||||
..blah! |
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confused| humm.. | ||||
| 02:13am 02/12/2003 | ||||
Last night was confusing. Stewy hates me..again. umm... Jaynie and i are.. well.. i have no clue. we are getting a long finally. And uh... I don't know what's going to happen. But um.... yeah.... feelings are strong :/ ...pork |
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| happy thanksgiving? | ||||
| 12:36pm 27/11/2003 | ||||
It was kind of funny. I talked to some new people. I talked with one of the guys who runs Fast Action Records. He said whenever we have a demo.. send it. So that's cool. I basically just hung out with random people. It was fun. ...But there is some sad news.. Dwayne passed away yesterday. Everybody was crushed. It's really a sad thing. David is going to be crushed when he finds out he died. He's going to fell responsible because he was the driver.. It's terrible. David was fucking awsome and this is going to change him forever..It turns out he CAN see! (stupid fucking rumors) Thanksgiving sucks. Boo. |
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blah| Best friends DOSN"T mean friends forever. | ||||
| 10:06am 24/11/2003 | ||||
Kelly hates me. She thinks i tried to change her. I dont like her pot smokin' jigga boo ass crack boyfriend.. and she thinks if I dont like him, it mean we can't be friend. Well god dammit, we were best friends before they happend, so she just wrote me off for her fucking boyfriend. Shows how much she really cares, right? Anyways yeah.. I've just been sad and shit today.. Back to David.. I think he is going to be ok.. He is responding to some things. When his girlfriend's name is mentioned around him he moves a bit.. I plan to see him soon. It's going to be weird for me.. I've never visited anybody in a coma before.. anyways.. bye |
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sad| by goerge, he's got it! | ||||
| 10:49am 19/11/2003 | ||||
 You are an Official Punk Rocker! You love to go to shows, get bruised and cut, and love every minute of it. >>Your True Music Image<<(punkrocker? thug? diva-licious,emo-kid,Metal head,indie rocker?) brought to you by Quizilla ..yay ::devil horns:: ..today sucked... i got in fights... blah. ..i dont like fighting, really, i dont.. |
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| blah practice bummer, blah? | ||||
| 10:16am 11/11/2003 | ||||
On a lighter note... well, its not really light.. I'm no longer even in stewies life. Its all about edward fucking whatever his last name is... Im surprised she hasnt already taken her last name as her own.. hell she probably did. But we'll see how much i really mean to her.. Because im sick of fucking trying to keep myself in her life, when i know i havnt been for a long time.. Oh well, it was fun while it lasted...right. |
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annoyed| Ohio..just like Pennsylvania, only its... Ohio.. | ||||
| 10:40am 06/11/2003 | ||||
I'll be back Sunday night. buhbye. |
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| subject to change? | ||||
| 06:39am 02/11/2003 | ||||
I've kind of been thinking about things. Faith even. How I really don't feel it anymore. It kind of sucks just a bit.. I havn't heard from Abby since I left. So, thats a downfall. I havn't gotten email or anything.. I tried calling one night and the line was busy both times. Maybe I'll try tonight? I dunno, a lot of shit has been in my head. I don't enjoy myself much. I try to act like it. But its kind of... blah. numb? I dunno.. It's like I really feel I don't belong here. In the summer things were going great. Everything was looking up all the time. Then shit all happend at once and now I'm kind of at the bottom again. I got in a fight with Ryn last night.. This time I feel it was completly my fault. I was being a dick. I just got jelous.. I get jelous all the damn time, of everybody. Anybody that talks about there boyfriend or girlfriend I get pissy. Just because I'm jelous. I even got jelous of stewie. It's not that I don't care.. I do care. I'm just jelous. I'm the funny guy. I'm the good friend, the sweet guy, the guy who's always there. Well, where the fuck are you?? Though you were never really there. You were always in here.. |
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jealous| home.. | ||||
| 06:30am 27/10/2003 | ||||
I can't wait to go back. Anyways. School sucked.. Everybody has damn DVST stickers from the show. That just pissed me off. I mean, they're a good band and all but... yeah. History, memories, fuck. It just put me in a bad mood all together. Tobad I have to hate the band when they really are a good band.. It's just..that dammed bass player. anyways..umm... bye |
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| TN | ||||
| 10:31am 20/10/2003 | ||||
Im going to TN on Wed. I wont be back until Sunday around 12:00 in the morning. Im staying over at my nan and paps tomorrow and I'm leaving with them early in the morning. I'll be staying in my uncle's dorm room at the college while I'm there. It should be neat. I can't wait to see Abby. I cant wait to see any of 'em. I'll be seeing Kate. I havnt seen her since she moved. It should be cool. ..yes i dont miss my uncle so much. Ha. I mean. He comes back and visits so much, i forget he lives in TBN half the time. But damn.. Abby... Can't wait.... .yay |
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| "Bullets and KIsses" By, me.. | ||||
| 02:49am 11/10/2003 | ||||
I'll be watching you through the scope of a gun. And as you begin to laugh, I'll be cocked and loaded and ready to go. And as you begin to kiss, I'll pull the trigger and kill to birds with one shot. And as you both fall, you're blood quickly begins to mix with his! Oh, now you are both one. At least you died happy, not me. So, as I'm walking home from the scene of everything i ever had. I start to laugh. Then my laugher slowly turns to tears. Oh, God. What have I done? I raise the gun. The safety's off, I close my eyes and scream my last... ..some new twisted shit from me... tell me what you think. (note: Dont go calling the fucking officials on me, it's just a damn song!) |
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| its all gone. | ||||
| 09:42pm 09/10/2003 | ||||
I don't know what to think about life anymore. I know it's just a girl. But it wasnt just a girl. She chaged my life. Good and bad. I can't just let this go. I've tried... So the night ends with blood...so may a friendship. JaynieShady: so since you are both pissed at me im going to go SuperNever13: what??? SuperNever13: who is "both" SuperNever13: ?? JaynieShady: who do you think? SuperNever13: what, your new toy? SuperNever13: fine. SuperNever13: just fucking go. JaynieShady: he is not a toy SuperNever13: im sick of fucking trying SuperNever13: yeah, you said the same thing to me JaynieShady: you werent a toy either SuperNever13: then what was i?? SuperNever13: what was i to you? SuperNever13: eh? JaynieShady: its bad enough you know, that i saw cheyenne today, that was hard...and now yur spazzing out on me JaynieShady: you were everything to me SuperNever13: THEN WHY THE HELL DID YOU KILL ME!? SuperNever13: i might as well be dead! SuperNever13: only reason i am alive right now is for the sake of my friends SuperNever13: i want to die SuperNever13: because of you! SuperNever13: sorry if that seems harsh but.... SuperNever13: its true. SuperNever13: im a walking bullet waiting to hit a target. SuperNever13: and blow.. JaynieShady: im going to go shower.... JaynieShady: i need something JaynieShady: really bad.... JaynieShady: goodbye zach SuperNever13: yeah well..... SuperNever13: . SuperNever13: bye jaynie.... SuperNever13: . SuperNever13: god. SuperNever13: sometimes i just think. SuperNever13: of like. SuperNever13: .. SuperNever13: things. SuperNever13: i cant explain. JaynieShady: just save yur breath, you know its a waste... SuperNever13: .. JaynieShady: im going to go shower and visit and old friend of mine that relieves stress JaynieShady: see you around SuperNever13: atleast you addmit your done and kicked me out of your life SuperNever13: no you wont. JaynieShady: i didnt say that JaynieShady: but i need to find my blades...good bye JaynieShady signed off at 9:30:55 PM. |
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| Soup with Ali | ||||
| 07:49am 07/10/2003 | ||||
SuperNever13: :-* ohh darling you: hehe SuperNever13: soup!!!! ohh darling you: lol SuperNever13: thats a funny word... ohh darling you: that reminds me of a time in 6th grade.. SuperNever13: ? ohh darling you: i was saying something about soup... ohh darling you: for a crossword puzzle ohh darling you: and britt thought i said ohh darling you: 'tit soup and dumplings' ohh darling you: HAHAHHA SuperNever13: lol ohh darling you: so we kept asking ppl if they wanted any SuperNever13: haha SuperNever13: grand ohh darling you: and chris asked the teacher what it was ohh darling you: because he had never heard of it SuperNever13: rofl.. ohh darling you: he asked right in the middle of social studies and britt and i died laughing ohh darling you: what an idiot ohh darling you: anyway brb lol SuperNever13: lol ok ohh darling you: the water has to boil ohh darling you: buhuh ohh darling you: i always burn myself with soup ohh darling you: im clumsy ohh darling you: i burned my tounge twice this weekend SuperNever13: burning soup SuperNever13: ouch ohh darling you: once on a slice of pizza and once on some hot cocoa ohh darling you: but with soup, i normally burn my skin ohh darling you: i like the way your tounge feels ohh darling you: when its burned ohh darling you: rofl SuperNever13: lol it feels cool.. ohh darling you: lol yeah SuperNever13: but then it sucks cause you cant taste for awhile ohh darling you: yeah but i never burn my whole tounge ohh darling you: see when i make soup ohh darling you: i always scald myself ohh darling you: when i pour it out ohh darling you: cuz ohh darling you: i only eat the noodles ohh darling you: not the broth ohh darling you: lol SuperNever13: haha SuperNever13: your like sitting me down and explaning you and soup SuperNever13: lol SuperNever13: "now see..." ohh darling you: rofl ohh darling you: yes ohh darling you: its very important that you know this ohh darling you: you may be tested on it later ohh darling you: take notes! ohh darling you: rofl ohh darling you: :-* SuperNever13: heh ohh darling you: lalala DUDE! SOUP! |
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amused| boogies | ||||
| 05:41pm 04/10/2003 | ||||
 Your supposed style is PUNK - deep down you know Avril's a poser, plaid is your best friend and you practically live in Hottopic. What's your supposed style? brought to you by Quizilla hum..... guhdammit, plaid is not my best friend... I just really like my plaid pants. and what the hell..... "poser" is spelled "POSUER" not "poser" ...you posuer. bahaha I called Jaynie today.. She couldnt come over. NO! We are not back together. We were just going to hang out. But whatever, maybe some other time. I saw Rachel and her friends....yeah. Anybody wanna do anything tonight? |
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