don't..get..it...   
07:52am 05/04/2004
 
mood: dead
music: Blindside - All of us
I havn't talked about it.. because i've figured people who read this are sick of my break up entries. Amanda and i broke up like..fucking 2 weeks ago i guess? Cause of a damn letter... a fucking letter from..that guy.. And i just dont understand how she could do that i guess. How she could run back to..that. I just don't understand how she could say those sweet things and then beg for me to let her go.. I'm never in a great mood.. over the weekend i was at wade's..yeah it was as fun as it could be.. Infact it was one of my better weekends actually.. i got to see rachel and everything. I just make it miserable. I destroy it by thinking. Wade meant this great girl.. Seriously when he talks about it i get so envious us. It's weird. But am i mad at him? ..no. he deserves a great girl, and it sounds like he's getting one. So yeah, happy for Wade.. But dammit, i just dont understand. And i just can't help but caution wade into the bad things that can happen. Because damn..he's falling deep..he's starting to sound like me.. and thats no good. I told him that he has to risk getting hurt..badly. He says there is no way this girl could hurt him. I dont know. Hopefully things go good for him. Really. I just wish Amanda and i could just be together.. i really do.. it's so stupid though.. I'm so mad. I'm so mad at her, and I tell her I'm not. When she says she's sorry it just makes me feel more like hell. It makes me feel bad that I'm so miserable.. and she's actually..happy. And I'll i really wanted for her was to be happy.. and now she is. Jaynie and her are friends again and, she's seeing old friends.. Things are just brightening up for her again. She's beggining to be the stewie I meant again.. And i don't like it.. though that's why I liked her in the first place.. I hate this. I hate everything. I've been a dick since we broke up. I'm never in a good mood, and i've been getting pissed about the stupidist shit. I've been an ass hole. Rachel said the other night.. "I wanted to see Zach. I don't even know who the fuck you are." ..and rachel dosn't get mad at me. I don't know what is going on. I don't understand. Many people don't know what I've been thinking. Many think I'm okay. But then whn they get to me, i flip and then they know something is wrong.. I walked into english class this moring, and I guess i looked bummed.. My friend "turd"..yeah, we call him turd. He was just trying to cheer me up and he said "What's the matter zach? Little philly break your heart?" (you know.. the thing from dumb and dumber..) and i replied with "shut the fuck up", and I just sat there and everybody kind of glanced at me, then looked away.. Everybody just fucking look away before you burn your eyes.. I'm so sick of my pathetic self. I can't get over how fucking low i have gotten. I wish I could get back up again. Iv'e already gone through the denile stage.. where you tell yourself nothing is wrong.. I was doing that like last week or so I think.. I'd laugh and act retarded just to make myself think I was okay. But then I woke up again. I wish I could just stay in a slumber forever. I'm tired of being awake. I'm basically killing myself slowly by beating myself down all the time. I just can't help it. If I laugh, i tell myself. "wait, this isn't right.. You can't laugh, you hate yourself.." and I don't mean to. THere it literally this voice inside my had that tells me these things. If I laugh I snap back into reality and i hate everything again. I just wish I could be happy and stay that way. But no.. I can't..that's not me. Fate won't let that be me.
There's this roy guy who want's to kick my ass. He has a problem with me cause i'm a "bitch". He started harassing me when I was down town this weekend saying he's heard I've been talking shit and that I want to fight him. Yeah i DID want to fight him, and if I was myself.. I could take him.. I know i could have. People..just don't fight me.. they know that. And if they don't they soon do.. But I'm not me anymore.. so, now I'm scared to fight him.. because i don't think I can do it now.. Ask me that question a month ago, and i would have been like "hell yeah, he's gonna be fucking his ear when i get through with him." (and i've always kept my word.) But now.. I don't think I can. I feel so weak. I just wish i could go away.. I kind of hope roy just attacks me.. Because..I don't care. I just want somebody to beat the shit out of me. I 'm sick of being this way. Somebody shoot me, I'll leave the money for you on my dresser...		  
     

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05:20am 29/03/2004
 
mood: blah
music: Billy Talent - Standing in the rain
new layout....woohoo
umm..
woo..


..shit fuck!		  
     

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yesterday at lunch.   
02:11pm 16/03/2004
 
mood: blah
Baily: "THERE'S A PUBIC HAIR IN MY TACO"
teacher: "thats not good"
Eathan: "Oh my god!"
James: ::laughs::
Matt: ::laughs::
Me: :falls to the floor:: "holy shit!"



..that is all.		  
     

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I'm not dead yet, fuckers!   
10:12am 01/03/2004
 
mood: blah
music: Hatebreed - I Will Be Heard
It's been awhile. I've been busy.. I have a new girl, who has been a good friend and put up with me threw my bullshit, we are together now, and I'm happy about it.. very happy. I basically have a new life. The band is finally getting shit together. Shows are to come. 2 have been played well. I'll probably be working at Perkins. (I dont enjoy the thought of that very much) And blah.. I've been pissy though. Stewie (my new girl.. the friend who has put up with all my bullshit) has to go back to state college tomorrow. That sucks.. but oh well. I'll be seeing her tomorrow.. I'm not sure about this blurty thing anymore... I'ts a waste of time but.. eh.. we'll see.
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blah   
08:56am 09/02/2004
 
mood: blah
music: Coheed
Well, it's monday. Not much has been going on. Nothing good anyways.
We had a snow day on friday. It was nice. But this week is going to seem long. Very long.
Full days seem long.
um.
Yeah i have a new sn anyways.
It's MemoriesWounded.
I've had it for about a week or 2. for those who think i died, sorry for your false hopes.
Anyways.. blah

oh, i wish i knew who you are.		  
     

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They made the world so hard.   
04:03am 04/02/2004
 
mood: sad
music: (hed) P.E. - The Meadow
Sonday yesterday. I'm glad we had one. I probably wouldnt have made it through school. I found out 2 other guys i knew died in that crash as well. This kind of thing is uncalled for. It really is. Why they had to go is beyond me. They were awsome guys. The show that was supposed to be on March 13th has been cancelled, for they were putting it together. We will be dedicating are up and comming shows to them. RIP Ryan, Jeremiah, and john. You lived for the music, and died for it as well. Thanks for all the support you guys have givin my band, and we miss all of you.		  
     

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well..fuck   
10:40am 02/02/2004
 
mood: :shrugs::
Jeremiah, a friend of my band, and a member of a kick ass local band called Drop Dead fred has..past away. :'(
RIP my friend. God speed. We miss you...

::sigh::


this might be amusing to some... picture of me and other people
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circles   
08:58am 31/01/2004
 
mood: crushed
music: Posion the well - For a bandaged Iris
She did it again..



I should have listined 		 
     

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woop   
08:30am 29/01/2004
 
mood: accomplished
Look at my new layout.. it's pretty.
I basically stole all the html codes from jaynie and put my own shit in them. :-P

thank you Jaynie 		 
     

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god damn subject title.   
04:56am 28/01/2004
 
mood: blah
music: Poison the well - Peices of you in me
You are hardcore.
You are hardcore. When you're at a show people are
jumping away from you foot as you spin kick in
the pit. You probably love piercings and
tattos. Surely you know several uses for your
area code.


How Screamo are you?
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Woo.. i dont even have and piercings or tatoos :(
I'd like some though..

Anyways, we had school today after to snow days. We got a 2 hour delay. It was nice i guess. Got some extra sleep to make up for the hours i was up last night lying in bed with thoughts in my head. Don't even remember what half of them were. ANyways, yeah.. today semed long though. Oh well. I got a FUCKING 59% on my damn electronics midterm. I truely hate that class. I past the rest with points to spare. But that fucker. Fuck that fucking fucker...fuck!




.....burn down the building.		  
     

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snow day   
04:48am 26/01/2004
 
mood: confused
Yeah, tody was a snow day, I have a feeling we will be having some more. Went to Jaynie's on Saturday. It was fun. Kyle was there too. We watched The Anarchist Cookbook. It was neat. Then we played some games on the ps2. Um.. I got my hat back. Yay. We have some shows comming up. Check that shit out. http://www.societysdownfall.tk

..yeah, I'm confused.
..friends are confused.
everybody is fucking confused.





if you dont know what I am talking about, you are confused.
Sorry for letting you down.		  
     

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woop   
10:25am 21/01/2004
 
mood: cheerful
Well.... Jaynie is MINE, and I'm just thrilled and excited by it. Blah, i don't know what to say. Um.. ::dances::

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::sigh::   
08:29am 20/01/2004
 
mood: depressed/curious/confused/ect
I am so confused and lost about everything..
Backstabbed and then apologized to that quickly just dosn't sink in very well. Though I'd like to just forget about the things they said but i can't. I don't know what to think about anything anymore. I talked to jaynie on the phone some. I wish i could just get inside her head and see what she is thinking. I wish i knew how she really felt about me, and if she really wants to hook up or whatever. I'm Just really confused. She's so beautiful and I'm so..blah. I don't see how I really have a shot i mean..geeze. I just want her so fucking much. God dammit I hate writing about this stupid romantic sad shit so much.. But I do want her.. I read her cute little comments, and some of the things she says. I just want to know if it's all true. And i want to know, if we get back together that she wont hurt me again. I never stayed hooked to one girl this long, that must mean something, right? One girl could never make me feel so happy and sad at the same time. Sad being I don't think I really have much of a chance. And if she was mine, I would be so happy.. We say we love each other and damn, it's just really confusing. I wish I could know.. Let me know.


*you* let me know, beautiful..






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We dance to all the wrong songs..   
02:09am 18/01/2004
 
mood: curious
music: Refused - New Noise
I went to Jaynie's yesterday. They were having a welcome home party for her uncle. Lot of people were there.. But it was fun. Getting attacked by her younger relitives. Didn't really get much time to like talk and hang out alone really. But when I left I kissed her so..yeah. I saw her thinking a lot. I wonder what she was thinking of. I've been wondering since I got home last night. It's hard to say. We'll see, I guess.

ho hum..		  
     

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wow..just..wow   
10:32am 14/01/2004
 
mood: loved
music: Jaynie's voice saying "I still love you" in my head...
"i think, that...okay, wait. no. i know, that i still love zach. i keep thinking about him. i couldnt quit watching him at the show. when he sang to me i almost cried. i miss him..."

that is straight from Jaynie's Dead Journal... I am shocked... So refreshingly shocked. Is refreshingly a word? It is now. I'm gonna see her saturday. Going to see Supergirl Saturday. I cant wait.. Im just so fucking thrilled, blah. Beyond words this is.. Hell, when i called her she said her and her sister were just talking about me. I feel...happy, and plus a 2 hour delay tomorrow. Couldnt get any better. (unless of coarse we got off) But damn.. so thrilled. I havn't hung up with somebody on the phone, dropped to the floor, covering my mouth with my pillow and screaming of joy into it, well... ever.





WOOOOOO!!!
::dances::		  
     

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wee   
01:08am 10/01/2004
 
mood: sore
music: Society's Downfall - Window
The show last night was grand. Jaynie was there, that made me happy by a lot. I was actually kinda suprised she was there.. Thanks to everybody who showed up. Thanks to Mel for having us. SHout outs to Seth and Bam for helping us out. It was really a beautiful thing. Pics should be on the site soon. Thanks again.		  
     

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dbfvchdisajfb   
09:57am 06/01/2004
 
mood: annoyed
music: Sublime
well, practice went ok.. until i came home, went to carry my amp upstairs, tripped with the amp, smacked my chin off the damn thing, then got upstairs to see the 2 of my pedals are gone. SO shit. Tonight was the first practice with seth. It went ok. It was a lot of fun playing with him. But he's just gonna play with us until friday. He's busy with Final Notice and that's understandable. I think my pedals may have fallen out of my amp into his brother's trunk of his car. So i need to look into that. I hope we do alright on friday. I'm kinda worried. We may be able to practice again Thursday. Hopefully we do. We could use it. We started working on "Slice Paper Wrist" but didn't get very far. We didn't even touch "Daughter" I wanted to. Kinda forgot i guess. But we went over some originals. We kinda need to decide when to end the songs.

Anyways, Come to the show on friday. Charter school in sugar valley. 6:00 -9:30?
well, just be there. Or I will be sad.. and wont play.. yes you be there....










..JAYNIE, BE THERE!!!!		  
     

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gaahhhhddd   
06:52am 04/01/2004
 
mood: bored
music: The used - It could be a good excuse
1. What brand of toothpaste? Crust..Crest?
2. Shampoo Conditioner in one or separate? in one..its all my mother buys. like once a month when i actually wash it.
3. What Brands? Head and Sholders.
4. Do spiders scare you? if they are bigger whan my fist than yes.
5. Do you roll your socks or pull them up? pull up
6. What is your favorite comic (like in the paper!)? Zits
7. Do you know Donald Duck's middle name? Donald IS his middle name.. it's the first name nobody knows, you blind fool.
8. Favorite colour? Black
9. Summer footwear: shooes
10. Apples, oranges, or bananas? oranges
11. Lefty or righty? righty
12. Glass is half-empty or half-full? i have a can of pepsi..
13. Bleh or blah? blah
14. What do you like about yourself? I'm the insane one of the group. (unless with tom..he takes the cake)
15. Would you ever wear Taz boxers? yeah
16. Do you sing in the shower? some..
17. Do you talk to your pet? "you fat ass cat!"
18. Do you talk to yourself? I answer myself too
19. Do you have a secret crush on your dentist? uh.. no
20. Do you know your mailman/woman's name? no
21. Do you give your mailman/woman a gift on Xmas? no
22. Do you have 11 toes? no
23. What is the lamest pick up line you've ever used? "will you go to the movies with me and make out the whole time infront of the old couple?" (and it worked) didnt even know the girl..
24. Would you ever buy/use a pink pen? i guess....
25. Would you ever buy ANYTHING pink? i guess?
26. Mickey Mouse or Bugs Bunny? bugs
27. Do you think Daffy Duck is hot? he spits to much..
28. Would you ever recite poetry to a girl? sure..
29. What color nail polish/lipstick would you wear? no lipstick..but black nail polish
30. Do you bite your lip when you're nervous? sometimes.
31. Would you skip school if you had a huge zit between your eyes on picture day? Id pop that fucker.
32. Did you ever eat crayons when you were little? when i heard they were not toxic i went crazy..
33. How do you take mascara off? I stick my face down your shirt!
34. Would a girl wearing blue/green mascara turn you on? it depends..
35. What is your favorite holiday? Halloween
36. Would you ever wear lip gloss? no
37. What's better: gummi sweettarts or sweettart gum? sweettarts
38. M&MS or Skittles? both
39. Do you go to public places with your mom, and actually TALK to her? Only when i tell her to buy me things..
40. What is 1+1? Two ones
41. Pick one: RuPaul or Dennis Rodman: Rupal, you have to have balls to get youre junk removed to be a girl (get it..haha..::sigh::)
42. How old are you? 16
43. How old do you WANT to be? 21
44. Where do you live? Where do yoouu live?
45. Where do you want to go? ..Tennessee, yes TN.. sentamental memories
46. Who do you want to meet? You, so i can madly make love to you on your kitchen table.. do you have a kitchen table.. i don't.
47. Do you like Kool-Aid? yes
48. Does pine-sol smell good? makes my head hurt.
49. What are your favorite pizza toppings?pepperonie and mushrooms
50. Do you like toast? sure
51. Do you still carve pumpkins? I've lways sucked t that..
52. Do you still leave cookies & milk out for Santa? no.
53. Have you lost all your (baby) teeth? yeah..
54. Have your wisdom teeth seen light yet? I doubt they ever will go all the wy though.. probabaly just bug me all my life, it runs in the family
55. Clear or colored? you can see yourself in action when it's clear (im so sick)
56. When your dentist asked, what flavor fluoride did you pick? "none please!" ::gags::
57. Where is your hand right NOW? ::moves to keyboard:: KEYBOARD!
58. What is better: your right ear or left pinky? right ear?
59. Okay or O'tay? mkay
60. French poodle or french kiss? tounge!! french poodles are whores like their owners
61. Are 2 x 4s really 2 inches by 4 inches? nah.
62. Do you have a 2 x 4 or a 1 x 2? you must see a lot of wood.
63. Do you know your parents' birthdays/ages? uh.
64. Do you know your siblings birthdays/ages? yeah
65. Does your grandma tell you she is 29? no
66. Have you ever used colored white-out? I cross shit out with my pen.
67. What do you think of Smurfette? I don't like much sea food
68. What is your favorite book? I read this really good and inspiring book about this little engine..that could.
69. How does a cabin far, far away, with a fire, candles, and the one you love sound? Like that would happen..
70. Salmon or Cod? fish is icky..
71. Crab or Lobster? Crab.. havnt had lobster in so long..dont really remember what it tastes like.
72. What sounds better: up or down? um.. down? ::points up::
73. What sounds better: sideways or sidewards? sideways
74. Ok, NOW where is your hand? Sidewards
75. Describe the best day of your life. ::sigh:: when i was at Knoables with jaynie...
76. Broom or mop? broom
77. What is your favorite word? poop.
78. Free! Don't have to answer this since there is no question. mop
79. What is your full name? Zach Michael Spotts
80. What do you wish your name was? steve is a cool name..
81. Describe your most embarrassing moment. umm.. doing this quiz.
82. What is the weirdest middle name you've ever heard? dunno.
83. Are your feet the same size? i think..
84. Cassettes or CDs? CDs
85. Is watching "How The Grinch Stole Christmas" a tradition in your home? no
86. What are your Christmas traditions? Presents, Maryland, family, and depression.
87. How do you open your envelopes: tear or cut? tear
88. Are you bored? yes.
89. Do you like onions? Onion rings..
90. What would you name your band, if you had one? I'm in a band called Society's Downfall.
91. Have you ever worn a dress? ..yes
92. Did you know that if you talk into a vent, someone in a nearby room will hear you? It works when you belch and blow through one too.
93. Frogs or toads? uh.. i dont care
94. Do you believe in making a wish at 11:11? um.. no?
95. 8 or 3? 8..i guess?
96. How long can you hula-hoop for? almost a second
97. Did you know Dave is AWESOME? yeah?
98. Do you love me now? I want you.
99. On your last birthday, what did you wish for? uh.. nothing?
100. Do you know all the words to the National Anthem? no.
101. Is watching the Superbowl a party in your house? I hate football
102. Are you going to name your son Elvis? no.
103. If not, what? no.
104. What about your daughter? no.
105. Do you read tabloids? Michael Jackson is married to a muslim!!
106. If I give you a piece of paper, what are the odds of you not eating it? ::shrugs::
107. Do you like cotton candy? yes but no..
108. Favorite food? ramen noodles!
109. What would be the first thing you would do if you won the lottery? Buy a car, a few guitars, buy a ring for that someone.. live it up
110. Ribbed or plain? i dont care.
111. "Lala" or "Skittle de bop du wop"? ribbed
112. apple pie or cherry pie? no.
113. Pepsi or Coke? Coke
114. Strawberry or Vanilla? both
115. Favourite movie? SLC Punk.
116. Favourite Actor? dunno.
117. Favourite Actress? ::shrugs::
118. Cheerios or corn flakes? frosted cheerios!
119. Panty hose or thigh-highs? uh.
120. Do you shave your legs? panty hose
121. Midnight or mid-day? midnight
122. Hope or Billy? Billy Hope
123. Cottonball or Q-tip? Q-Tip
124. Dry or lubricated? lubed
125. Fast or slow? depends..
126. Hard or soft? hard
127. Yogurt or ice-cream? ice cream
128. Spoon or fork? spork
129. Are you crying right now? no
130. Tootsie pops or blowpops? you said blowpops! ::snickers::
131. Look at your middle finger, on your right hand, what do you see? my middle finger on the right hand..
132. Look to your left, what do you see? a window.
133. Look to your right, what do you see? my acoustic
134. Who is at your house right now? me & my dad
135. Are your legs crossed right now? that hurts.
136. Do a few twirls, are you dizzy now? are you high?
137. Favorite song? none really.
138. Boxers or briefs? boxers. (pink thong once for katie) haha
139. Big Red, Juicy Fruit, or Doublemint? Juicy red and double fruit.
140. Do you like to fish? no
141. Is your grandpa cool? um..
142. Does your grandpa bore you with long stories? the one on my mothers side, yes
143. Do you snore? I guess
144. Describe how your breath smells right now. nothing really.
145. If you were a girl, would you rather be "Matilda" or "Alexis." Steve
146. Does it taste good? yes
147. Do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge? lick
148. Do you chew on pens/pencils? yeah
149. Acting class or class act? Alexis
150. Upside-down or downside-up? upside down
151. What's up? my dad just shat himself.. ::dies laughing::
152. What does "GROWL TIGER" make you think of? a growling tiger.
153. What does this -> .dm,'fglkserhngjkqb; make you think of? touretts
154. Blondes or brunettes? blondes with brunette streaks or vice versa really tickles my pickle.
155. Push or pull? You're a kinky little fucker, arent you?
156. If a door says pull, do you automatically push? ::dives to ground, rolls and kicks door open::
157. Do you even read those door things? no
158. What does? push
159. Did you know I was scared of FROGS when I was a baby? i was too!
160. What was your first word? I don't know
161. What was your first phrase? I don't know
162. What can you not pronounce? ::shrugs::
163. Did you know my phone just rang? yes, it was me
164. Is your phone ringing? i only have one phone line..
165. What's your phone number? 9-113-598-2335

166. Do you eat your toe-nails? no
167. WalMart or Kmart? K-Mart
168. Jim Carrey or Mariah Carey? Jim.
169. How many REAL push-ups can you do? I get tired around 50..
170. How many fake push-ups can you do? a lot
171. Go run a mile. You have ten minutes. Are you tired now? about 300 fake push-ups.
172. Does your bike have 2 wheels? yeah
173. Are they flat? yes.
174. Can you do a hand-stand? kinda..
175. Front or back? front
176.Walk backwards for 5 steps. Stop. Turn around.
177.What time is it? what?? i can't see, im facing the other direction.
178.Are you on fire right now? ::pats arms and legs furiously:: no
178. Sprite or 7-up? 7-Up
179. Mug RootBeer or Dr. Pepper? Mug Rootbeer
180. Bambi or Thumper? Thumper kicks ass.
181. Do you think Flower is hot? hum?
182. If I told you to jump off a bridge, would you? money involved?
183. Would you lick Prince's feet for $5? no
184. Do you know there are people who would do that for free? sick people.
185. Umm. can you count how many questions are left? 3
186. Is your left pinky right-handed? ::looks at pinkies in confusion::
187. 5+7+8-1234569%555x3=? yeah..
188. If you had 5 dollars, went to the store to buy 1 apple for 50 cents, but they were out, how many apples would you have? I'd go to another store..		  
     

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My thoughts are beyond words...   
07:26am 02/01/2004
 
mood: predatory
music: Alexisonfire - The Kennedy Curse
Blackmailed by Jaynie's aunty.. What a great fucking thing to do.

...Try to black mail me again dammit!





Fuck!		  
     

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Maryland Self Indulgence.   
11:30am 26/12/2003
 
mood: blah
music: Billy Talent - Nothing to lose
Hope everybody had wonderul Christmas.. But we can not forget the true meaning of Christmas..That's right.. Commercialism. Ok, moving on. Yeah, I'm in Maryland. Gots money. Good thing. Uh. I'll be leaving here on Monday. I hope to go to the mall or something with Jaynie. I miss her. Stew of coarse is still not speaking to me. I can't please everybody. Hell, I'm trying to please myself right now, and that's enough for one decade. Yes, I'm bummed that stew shut me off from her world. A true friend would support and hope for the best, right? Even if they don't agree with what their friend is doing they should still support it, right? As long as your not blowing up a city...well..OK, with reason. Anyways, she should support me..but she dosn't. I've always supported her and half of the shit she was doing I hated. We were just starting to hang out again, then BOOM! OK, well later on Stewie. I wish you the best, good luck with Ed.. i mean that.
I'm going to focus on making things work with Jaynie and I.. If she really wants to. I do.
I'm sure there are poeple who think this is crazy, and some that think I should do this. I've seen both sides. I just really want this.. Do *you* really want this?
I love *you*




..shit, i sure sound EMO right now.. where is james anyways?		  
     

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