"Let me go in her room."   
08:55pm 03/01/2004
mood: chipper
music: Blink
This is one is for Andrea.
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"Lord only knows."   
01:08pm 01/01/2004
mood: exhausted
music: John Mayer
I like this place, but I miss you.
"You're already the voice inside my head."   
03:27pm 22/12/2003
mood: contemplative
music: Alicia Keys
Sometimes things get so fuzzy inside my head, and I can't explain to anyone exactly how I feel. All thoughts and emotions are trapped inside of me. I want to get away, I want to escape all of the drama and bull shit. I want to go somewhere where no one knows me, and I can start all over. Truly escaping from the person I was. That would be nice, but sadly, I know, it will always be just a dream.
White Rice   
06:43pm 10/12/2003
mood: blank
music: Blink
"Sometimes I wish I was brave
I wish I could feel no pain
I wish I was young
I wish I was shy
I wish I was honest
I wish I was you not I

Sometimes I wish I was smart
I wish I made cures for how people are.
I wish I had power
I wish I could change the world for you and me.

I feel so mad,
I feel so angry
I feel so lost, confused.
I feel so cheap, used, unfaithful."
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08:32pm 09/12/2003
mood: artistic
"Do you care if I don't know what to say?
Will you sleep tonight?
Will you think of me?
Will I shake this off, pretend it's all ok?
Is there someone out there who feels just like me?
There is."
"I miss you"   
01:36pm 27/11/2003
mood: loved
music: I won't admit
I'm thankful for my family.
"Show me the way you move."   
07:32pm 25/11/2003
mood: artistic
Sometimes I wish I was a kid again, and life was simple, no worries, no responsiblites, care free. That would be nice.
"My baby don't mess around."   
07:09pm 02/11/2003
mood: thoughtful
music: Pretty Girls Make Graves
-My neighbor is a stalker.

-I had fun last night.

-'SPIN' magazine has a very good article on The Strokes.

-Brody Armstrong is fucking amazing.

-Sometimes I get scared that someones gunna stab me in the back with a knife.

-Boys suck.

-"I've heard this life is overrated, but I hope it get's better as we go."

-I need to take a shower.

-Sleep is good.
"And if you should ever leave me, I shall crumble."   
07:44pm 28/10/2003
mood: excited
music: Mike Vogel
I can't wait to cut/dye my hair. Also, Halloween is in 3 days.
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"When it's all said and done."   
06:17pm 26/10/2003
mood: lonely
music: Pretty Girls Make Graves
Some people have all the luck, and some have none. I'm beginning to think I'm one of the people that has none.
But then again...I don't think luck has anything to do with it, or at least you say so.
"See I refuse to believe that my lifes gunna be just some string of imcomplete."   
09:34am 26/10/2003
mood: contemplative
music: The Distillers
Shopping today.

Why does everyone live in New York?
03:12pm 25/10/2003
mood: amused
"Talk to me now I'm older
Your friend told you 'cause I told her
Friday nights have been lonely
Change your plans and then phone me.

We could go and get 40's
Fuck goin' to that party.
Oh really, your folks are away now?
Alright, let's go, you convinced me.

The world is shutting out...for us.
We were tense for sure,
But we was confident...

Kiss me now that I'm older.
I won't try to control you.
Friday nights have been lonely,
Take it slow but don't warn me.

We'd go out and get 40s
Then we'd go to some party,
Oh really, your folks are away now?
Alright I'm coming...

I'll be right there."

The Strokes
"Another day, staring at the ceiling."   
06:39pm 12/10/2003
mood: sad
Putting on a smile everyday is getting harder and harder. It's hard work to keep myself from slipping back to my old ways. Sometimes I just want to be alone, but no one understands that. I can't be miss suzy sunshine everyday of my life. I've never felt this alone before. I just want someone special, I don't think that's too much to ask.
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"Who ya with?"   
03:42pm 02/10/2003
mood: hopeful

You are a Total Romantic

For you, love is like a fairy tale.

Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie.

Problem is, you sort of want all three.

You bring the spark in the relationship

In turn, you expect your guy to keep the fire burning

Not a bad deal, as long as you find the right Prince.

Are You Romantic or Realistic? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.
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"I searched for joy."   
04:39pm 01/10/2003
  I'm sick of listening to people, and hearing what they have to say about my life. I wish I could make a decsion without someone else. I can't be and "adult" with someone constantly looking over my shoulder. Cut the strings and let me go, it'll be alright, I promise.
Sometimes I just want to be alone. No body bugging me to do something for them, or telling me what needs to be done. I know my priorities, and they'll get done, when I'm ready. Just let me be.
No one knows what's best for me. I know myself, and I know what I need to do to be happy.
"Can't find a friend around."   
12:00am 28/09/2003
mood: creative
music: John Mayer
"Somethig's Missin', and I don't know how to fix it." I wish....I wish...
"Rain drops keep fallin on my head."   
04:00pm 22/09/2003
mood: lonely
music: John Mayer
Who am I kidding...yes it is!

"I'm tired of being alone, so hurry up and get here.
Searching all my days just to find you.
I'm not sure who I'm lookin for,
I'll know it when I see you.
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom.
Staying up all night to write a love song for no one."
"Some days you shine."   
06:17pm 20/09/2003
mood: contemplative
"My lonliness aint killin me no more."
"I will crumble."   
10:14pm 19/09/2003
mood: mellow
Tonight was good. Got to hang out with Kelli, did some fun stuff, came home. And now I'm gunna go to bed early and read my new book.
"Why do people break up, then turn around and make up?"   
06:35pm 18/09/2003
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