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Friday, May 28th, 2004
6:01 pm
Guess who's getting a RAISE?!! Me! Finally, haha. Well, we had a secret shopper come in a while ago, and I got a perfect score on it. My boss was raving at me today about how great I was and stuff, then I said, "I think you should reward me by giving me a raise." And then he was like, "I do, too!" haha, so he started the paperwork and everything today and said he was going to fax it in. :)

Otherwise, work sucked. So many dumbasses and rude people today, and it was so busy. But at least I'm home now.

Last night, James and I saw Troy. It was really good, but pretty sad. Brad Pitt was really good in the movie, and looked good. ;) I was looking forward to watching Orlando Blooom also, but unfortunately he played a huge pussy in this movie, haha.

Yesterday I got some new CDs, finally...I got Usher and a Keith Urban CD. I had been wanting both for a long time.

I think I start summer school next Tuesday, ugh, it's every day at 8am. I wonder if I need to buy books and stuff...? I already had to buy a damn parking pass. Those bastards are sucking my life dry.

Well, not much else is going on right now...just hanging out at the apartment.

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Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
8:47 am
I forgot to brother, Pat, called me yesterday to wish me happy birthday. He also told me he has an interview today with HEB for a computer systems job. He's been working at HEB since he was like 17, as a bagger, then has been a cashier ever since (he's like 23 now). I REALLY HOPE HE GETS IT!!!! The starting pay would be $11/hr, and he can advance to $18/hr...and there will most likely be significant overtime pay. He deserves this job. It took him 4 years to get his associates degree, but at least he finished, and he has been working with HEB forever, I think that should mean something to them. Pat is really good with computers, but just has never been great at actual school. I know he can do this...I just hope they give him a chance. I'm nervous for him. It would be so great if he would get this job. Higher status and higher pay for him. And it would give him more confidence, too. He would have a job he loved. :) He was sooo excited when he told me yesterday, it was so cute. The good news is that he submitted an application and actually got an interview, so that's a good sign. EVERYONE WISH GOOD LUCK TO PAT TODAY!!!

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8:46 am
So, yesterday was my birthday. I have to say it was a pretty good one. I woke up around 11:30, which was nice, that's the latest I have slept in as long as I can remember, haha. Once I got up, Shelby gave me her present. She gave me a huge purple and green beach towel (some of my favorite colors), a bath pillow (I take a lot of baths), a headband thingy you also wear in the bath, some purple soap for my bathroom, and a magazine to read when we went to the pool. So she and I got all ready to go hang out by the pool for the day. We got a cooler and poured smirnoff drinks into empty Propel (water) bottles, and kept four of those in a cooler, along with some soda. We stayed out by the pool for about three or four hours, haha. We read magazines, listened to music they played, swam, tanned, etc. Although I did feel woozy and naseous, I'm thinking the alcohol dehydrated me, since it was in the 90s yesterday. But it was still fun.

When we got home, Shelby and I ordered a pizza and had lots of fun just chilling out and eating, haha. The pizza was delish. After that, I got ready and went over to James' house. He gave me my birthday presents...he got me flowers! It was so cute, I really don't think I've ever gotten flowers. They were purple daisies. Very pretty. Also, he gave me three DVDs--Billy Madison, The Waterboy, and The Wedding Singer, a few of my all-time faves, since I'm obsessed with Adam Sandler. There was also a cute card that he gave me. He also got me a charm that said "Texas A&M" to put on my charm bracelet! Even though I don't wear it much anymore, it still has a lot of sentimental value to me. I was showing it to him the other day, and it was so cute that he thought of that for a gift. And now I have a memory from recent years to add to the bracelet. :) AND...he baked me a cake and decorated it by writing "happy birthday" on it. I thought that was so cute that he would bake a cake for me. :)
Here's a picture of the flowers, I love purple and pink!!!

Then we went bowling, and had a blast. I haven't had that much fun bowling in a long time. I'm normally really competitive and get pissed if I don't do very well, but this time I just had fun, and I didn't get out of hand like I normally do, haha. I even got a score of 111 (haha, that's HIGH for me). I beat him 2/3 times, which was cool since I never win. Even if me might have let me win a little bit. ;)

After that, we went out to dinner to El Chico. It was pretty good. I just got some tacos. I had a good time. Then we went back and ate some cake, then we watched Billy Madison at my house. It was as good as ever, I love that movie so much. When it was over, James and I pretty much stayed up all the rest of the night. Shelby worked overnight last night, so we had the apartment to ourselves. I am really glad he stayed over. We just spent a lot of time being close to each other...and James told me he loved me. I kind of knew it was coming, because I had been thinking about it a lot recently, but I was really afraid to say it. I know it seems really fast since Erick and I broke up...but it really does feel right. And it would be different if we had just met or something...but we have known each other since last August, and liked each other, and developed a really good friendship during that time, until about a month or two ago when we finally got together. So it really doesn't scare me as much, because a lot of what we have is based on a good friendship.

And I had also been scared because part of me was still hanging on to Erick. But I really feel I have mostly let him go. Especially after everything that happened the other day. He was so mean to me...and I'm not exaggerating. I got a lot out, a lot of things finally really hit me, and realized I couldn't keep doing this to myself. I said...some REALLY mean things to him (i.e. I wish I never met him, he ruined my life, I hate him for what happened, he is a loser for still working at Dominos, especially now that he's a certified EMT, (then he made fun of me for working at whataburger), then I said, at least I'm in college, at least I'll do something with my degree when I get it, told him that he's pathetic for being almost 30 and his main hobby is bar hopping, told him he was a spineless liar who made me sick, etc, etc, most of which, he deserved). Anyway, he apologized later, but that still won't make me forget how he has treated me recently.

So anyway, I felt so much more free the past few days after this has happened. I had been thinking about James a lot, and all that we had together, and I knew I didn't want to waste what we had because I was afraid. It's not fair to me or him to let an ex-boyfriend keep controlling my feelings and my life. I doubt I will even talk much to Erick anymore. I don't really have much to say to him.

I am just really glad with everything that's happened with James. He is wonderful. So sweet and kind, funny, goofy, smart, caring, open-minded, has religion in his life, he's so in tune with me and what I need, and we have such a good connection. He tries to put me first, and is always thoughtful. And, he plays guitar. So sexy. Hey, I can have one shallow vice.

So this morning we went and got Whataburger for breakfast. Yeah I'm a pig...I eat there way too much. But it is 1/2 off. Now I'm at home, trying to decide whether I should try and sleep a few hours, or just stay up the rest of the day. I'm not sure what I should do...I'll probably stay up, maybe nap later on. Well, I had an awesome birthday, I only wish I could have seen more of my friends that don't live in college station, but still it was a good birthday...and thanks to all for the good bday wishes! :)

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Monday, May 24th, 2004
6:27 pm
It's my birthday!!! Sorry I haven't been updating. I mostly write in LJ, although I might start copying some entires to this journal again, if anyone still actually reads it. Long story short update....Erick and I broke up, we are still friends....I'm still working at Whataburger, I got all A's this semester, I'm taking two classes in summer school....and I am dating my friend James (but it's not that serious). Other than that, life is pretty much the same. I'll try to update here more.

ANd today is my 20th birthday!!!!!!! :D

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Saturday, March 20th, 2004
8:40 pm
Stolen from mellyttu06
Mark "X" on the ones that are true.

(_) I never have been drunk
(_) I never have smoked pot
(_) I never have kissed a member of the opposite sex
(_) I never have kissed a member of the same sex
(X) I never crashed a friend's car
(X) I never have been to Japan
(X) I never have ridden in a taxi
(X) I never had anal sex
(_) I never have been in love
(_) I never had sex
(_) I never have had sex in public (in a car on the side of the road, does that count?)
(_) I never have been dumped
(_) I never shoplifted
(X I never have been fired
(X) I never have been in a fistfight
(X) I never had a threesome
(_) I never snuck out of my parents' house
(X) I never have been tied up (sexually)
(X) I never have been caught masturbating
(_) I never pissed on myself (as a baby we all did)
(X) I never pissed on someone else (Jellyfish stings)
(X) I never had sex with a member of the same sex
(_) I never have been arrested
(_) I never made out with a stranger
(_) I never stole something from my job (minor things--fries, etc)
(X) I never celebrated New Year's in Times Square
(_) I never went on a blind date
(_) I never lied to a friend
(X) I never had a crush on a teacher
(X) I never celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans
(X) I never have been to Europe
(_) I never skipped school
(_) I never slept with a co-worker (have slept in the same bed as one...and also Erick and I after I stopped working there)
(_) I never cut myself on purpose
(X) I never had sex at the office
(X) I've never been married
(X) I've never been divorced
(X) I never had sex with more than one person within the same week
(_) I never have posed nude
(_) I never got someone drunk just to have sex with them
(_) I never cheated on my significant other (when I was a freshman in hs..that barely counts)
(X) I never had sex with my boss
(X) I never have eaten snake meat
(X) I never jumped out of an airplane
(X) I have never been to a nudist event
(X) I never had a permanent residence outside of the state I was born in
(_) I never have ridden an elephant - the zoo
(_) I have never made out with someone whose name I did not know at the time
(_) I have never had intercourse (anal or vaginal) without a condom - safety first
(X) I never have smoked weed out of a beer can
(X) I never left someone at the altar
(X) I've never stalked someone
(X) I never tried to blind someone
(X) I have never stripped someone against their will and thrown them out into public
(_) I've never done a substance stronger than alchohol or weed (acid once)
(X) I've never killed an animal or person on purpose (do bugs count...if so, yes)
(X) I've never had phone sex

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Monday, March 8th, 2004
3:49 pm
Well Erick did get to come up this weekend, I was really glad. He cooked for me and Shelby Saturday night and it was sooo good! I am so glad he is suck a good cook...because I really suck.

I really am starting to hate Whataburger. It just sucks so much. I hate most of my managers, I hate most of my coworkers, and I hate most of the customers. I am just surrounded by dumbasses all day long and it sucks! But I don't know where else to work. I guess I should just apply at a lot of different places, but I don't want to leave the conviencence of my job at whataburger (good schedule, managers like me, I know how to do everything) to start all over at another job that I will eventually hate. But now that I have a car I have more options...and I guess it would be stupid to not take advantage of that.

I had a quiz today in Finance, and I know I didn't do well...I didn't have the updated syllabus, so I had no idea there was a quiz until I got to class. But we get a 40 for just being there, and our lowest 3 quizzes get dropped, so I'm not really concerned. We had a quiz in INFO today and I got a 100. I have two tests Wednesday: Finance and INFO. I also have a marketing test on Thursday. I'm going to try to get all my finance HW finished tonight, and read two chapters in marketing, and I should be in really good shape for studying. Then tomorrow do practice exams for Finance, and read more for marketing. And I really need to NOT procrastinate this time or else I will be screwed because I need to make really good grades on these tests. Hopefully I will.

I bought two months of a paid account for livejournal. I have had a free account for about two years now, and there just seems to be a lot of cool stuff that paid accounts can polls and stuff. So I'm going to try it out.

I think I might try to start babysitting for extra money. I just need to find some customers. I mean, I remember when I was younger I used to babysit all the time and it was easy money. Sure, there are some wild kids, but most of the time I recall getting paid to watch TV and eat pizza that the parents ordered. It has been a while but it would be nice for some extra cash.

I can't believe how fast this semester has gone by...I can hardly believe it. The past year even. I'm glad it's going by fast...then the sooner I can get out of here...

Well I can't tink of anything else to write. I feel like my life has been pretty boring lately. Oh well. :)

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Sunday, February 29th, 2004
4:38 pm
Well Erick came up to College Station yesterday. :)
He got here while I was still at work, and when I got home he was sleeping on my bed, all curled up in a blanket, it was sooo cute.

Anyway, we went to get his car inspection done, and after that we went to eat at Chili's. It was really good and we had some really good conversations, which was nice. And after that, we went to Wal-mart to get him a copy of the apartment key...since he will be moving in here in less than a month. After we did that, we went to Bed, Bath, and Beyond and browsed for a while.

There is so much cool stuff in there, I love that place. Erick loves it, too...which is funny. He's all like, "ooh...300 count Egyptian cotton!" Shelby and I make fun of him because he is such a girl sometimes. He really fits into that "metrosexual" catagory. He is a normal guy who loves sports, cars, etc...but then he also loves to cook, clean, and likes stylish things, especially household stuff.

Anyway, then Erick and I went bowling. It was pretty fun, but we both kind of got irritated because we couldn't find any balls that were the right size. But we still had fun anyway. Then we just went home and chilled at the apartment.

He had to leave around one this afternoon, and I was disappointed we didn't get to spend more time together, but at least we did get to see each other. I don't know when is the next time I will see him, hopefully next weekend, but if not then, I won't see him until his graduation (march 25). I think around march 13th everyone in the same school as him in the military are "going into the field" for a week. He sort of described it as them pretending like they are in a real life situation but it's kind of like camping. Anyway, I won't be able to have any contact with him whatsoever during that week, which will be really weird. So I hope I do get to see him once more before then. Even if I don't, at least he is moving in here in less than a month now. And we won't have to go through this bullshit for six months...I can't wait!

I have a test tomorrow in running...basically like a test in health classes you took in high school. I also have a management test on I really need to start getting my act together for my classes. Ugh stupid school, haha.

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Thursday, February 26th, 2004
11:36 pm
Well James finally called me today. I was at work when I missed his call, and I was relieved and nervous at the same time. I called him when I got off work, and we went to eat at Taco Cabana. He said that since he got fired from his job he just felt antisocial...and didn't want to hang out with me because I would know he was pissed off (?). But then he was like, "Kristen, you're like my best friend in College Station..." Yeah I felt kind of dumb after that. He did say he was avoiding me because he knew I was pissed off at him, which I was. haha, well I guess I'm just glad everything is ok and that he wasn't mad at me or anything.

I am starting to apply for interships...or at least looking for them. I applied to Dell...and I also applied for this marketing job at Whataburger. It's not an internship, but a real job, and I just thought it would be funny if I applied. I highly doubt I will get it, but since I already worked there, I thought what the never know. Yeah but I forgot how much filling out applications sucks. I hope something turns out this summer because I am so tired of working at Whataburger.

Anyway, not much else going on. I am just a bum lately. I'm soooo sore from running yesterday, it's insane. I wish I had gone out tonight but I am just so tired. Hope everyone has a good night!

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Wednesday, February 25th, 2004
3:20 pm
Well I feel like shit. I had running class today...but since it was raining, we ran up and down stairs in G.Rollie for class. It sucked!! I thought I was going to die...after a while my muscles literally were giving out on me, it's not that I was just "tired." Afterwards my legs were shaking uncontrollably, ugh it sucked so much. I had trouble driving my car home, since it's a standard, pushing the clutch pedal in and trying to keep the right amount of strain while releasing it would make my leg tremble so bad and I could barely hold the pedal where I needed it.

Also, I started my period this morning. Enough said.

James still hasn't called me at all. What the fuck is up with that? I want to find out what is up but I don't want to seem like a psycho by calling all the time or anything. I'm just one of those people who isn't satisfied until they know WHY something happens...and I just can't help myself from trying to find out. Damnit what did I do?!!

I have one more class today and then I'm done, thank God. I hate this last class. It is too goes from 4:10-5:25.

I seriously need to join a club or something and find some friends. Too bad it's too late to join all the clubs. That's so dumb...I guess I'll have to wait until next semester to find some friends, haha. How do you meet people here? I mean do you just go to the bar or pool hall and try to coerce someone into hanging out with you? That's practically the only thing to do here. My classes are so big it's hard to meet people in them, too.

Oh well...I guess I will just try to be happy with being a loner for now...especially since the friends I do make eventually blow me off for no apparent reason and never tell me why...I guess something or someone better comes along...which sucks, I wish it wasn't like that. But I don't know what I can do about it. I can't force someone to be friends with me when they don't want to.

Hope everyone's day is going better than mine.

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Tuesday, February 24th, 2004
11:29 am
I feel like James has been avoiding me. I haven't hung out with him in almost two weeks. He hasn't called me to hang out...and I have called him several times over the past few days and he doesn't answer and never calls me back. This is very unlike him...he used to ALWAYS call me back whenever I called. When I talked to him last Friday I asked him to come over and he never came. And I went over to his house just now to ask him about this and he never answered the door or phone and I know he was there. I just don't get it. I just want to know what's going on. This is so weird and he hasn't ever acted like this before. He is like one of my only real friends here in College Station. Maybe he got a girlfriend? Maybe he feels like I'm a bad influence on him? Maybe he's just busy? I just want to know why.

This kind of thing seems to happen to me every once in a while. I get to be decently good friends with someone...and eventually, all of a sudden, they want nothing to do with me. It's wrong not to at least tell me or let my know why. It really hurts my feelings. Or maybe I'm just imagining things...I don't know. I thought him and I were good friends...I doubt he even reads this thing anymore, but if so...James, just let me know what the hell is going on.

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Monday, February 23rd, 2004
3:36 pm
Well, Shelby officially said that she agreed to Erick moving in last night. She had a few reservations though...basically, I'll be handling all the financial information and bills, she said this cannot be permanent (it's not, he will be starting school in September), and here is the big one...I have to let her get a cat!! I hate most cats, and I am allergic to them. I mean, of course I'm going to agree, but I didn't see this coming. Smart of her though, to throw that in.

We both agreed it has to be short-haired, not shed a lot, and she wants to get it fairly young so she can still mold it's household behavior (not a mean cat, stay off kitchen counters, etc). I don't think it will be that big of deal having a cat. I really don't mind them I guess, I just don't like them. As long as it doesn't agrrevate my allergies I'm ok with it. And since Shelby loves to clean, I don't think it will be a problem...and I am just really glad she officially said yes!

I had a quiz today in Finance, I think it went pretty well.

Erick and I had a really good phone conversation last night...we talked for two hours, and there was nothing close to an argument, which was sooo nice. We spent a lot of time recalling memories and how we got together and stuff...and telling each other what we were really thinking in certain situations...and he was just saying the sweetest things. It was so nice.

Friday night me, Shelby, and Lacy saw that Miracle was pretty good, I liked it a lot.

Yeah so a few weeks ago I applied for a gas card for Exxon...and they rejected me!!! I was like, what the hell. They said something about a problem with my local phone number...I don't know if I forgot to put one down or if my cell phone doesn't work (it isn't local for where I live). What bullshit. But anyway, I was pissed. I applied to Shell and Chevron, and damnit, they better give me a gas card!!! I have had a credit card for a year and a half and I know I have good credit. I have a Victoria's Secret credit card, too, that has good credit. Damn exxon...see if they get my business from now on.

Well, I guess that's about it for now. I have one more class today and then I'm free!!! woohoo. :)

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Friday, February 20th, 2004
2:06 pm
It has been one magical month since I bought my car. Car, I love you. soooo much! I have never been more satisfied with driving. You ended my nine months of no-car hell. Therefore, I celebrate my love!!!! hahhaa. These pictures aren't the best quality, but they get the point across...I have been wanting to post pictures forever.
Tribute to car )

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1:23 pm
Well...I talked to Shelby. Things went a LOT better than I thought they would!!! She said she kind of expected this was coming, and that she really didn't have a problem with it, except that she knows if her parents ever find out they would cut her off(they are really strict--we're not even supposed to have guys EVER spend the night at our place--even on the couch). And she said she would feel guilty taking their money when she would be saving so much. I really don't think she should feel guilty about the money thing, because what they give her now doesn't even cover all her bills. But I told her I understood how she felt about her parents, and we talked about it for a while. We both agreed that since his bed/dresser/clothes/movies and stuff are already here while he lives on base, there really wouldn't be that much of a difference between if her parents saw that now or later. And we could tell them that he's just storing his stuff here.

But anyway, her parents have never even seen what's in my room, so they probably wouldn't even suspect anything was different anyway. I told her I would work with her on everything if she agreed to the arangement. We both think that it is extremely unlikely that her parents would EVER find out, unless they just show up without telling us...but since they have only been here once and didn't even look into either of our bedrooms, and they really have no desire to come up here and visit anyway, I highly doubt they would find out.

I told her she should just take her time and think about it...and then she said, "I'll probably say yes...I mean, what else am I going to say?" I thought for sure she would say no. But she was really cool about the whole thing...even if she still says no, the conversation went a lot smoother than I expected and I feel great just to have everything off my chest. I have literally gotten a knot in my stomach the past few days EVERY time I have thought about the impending conversation, so thank God it went well.

Shelby and I went to this Aggie Women in Leadership thingy after we talked, and it was pretty good. The main thing we talked about was how while we are in college we should try to get an internship, study abroad, or both...and how it is important to go out of your comfort zone. I really, really want to get an internship and I know I need to start looking now for some good stuff.

Today I think I am skipping class. One of them was cancelled, and the other class is a I think I'm not going to go. I got to sleep in today--until 10:30. It felt soooo good you have no idea. I never get to sleep in so I really enjoyed it.

Not much else to write about today...I am just really happy about how it went with Shelby! woohoo! Everyone have a great day!

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Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
6:54 pm
I haven't been updating as much on here as my lj...blurty is always so hard to get into and so slow. If you have an lj, let me know.

Well I got a few more grades back. I got a 91 on my management test, and a 100 on my INFO (statistics) class! woohoo I am pretty happy about these grades. Running class today wasn't bad, I didn't collapse, haha. My teacher even said I could still turn in a doctor's note for my absences last week and the week before. That would be awesome.

Today I went and watched part of an A&M softball game between classes. They seem pretty good, although I didn't stay for the whole game, but in all reality they don't seem that much better than teams I have seen and faced while playing club softball. Which is kind of strange, because I figured with all the competition they would be way better than any teams I've seen. But maybe I am making this judgement too prematurely. I plan on going to more games this season since I have an all-sports pass that I've already paid I might as well get my money's worth.

I have to convince Shelby to let Erick move into our apartment. I am really scared to ask...I just have a feeling she won't be thrilled with the idea. But he has a break between his school ending late March, and the next one starts in November. I might get an internship this summer where I won't be living in College Station so we would be able to live together then definetly. I just really don't want to deal with the long distance any more than I have to. And Erick can't afford to get his own apartment here, most likely, because it would be a lot cheaper to split bills three way at our apartment, or to just live with his sister and her boyfriend in San Antonio.

I have come up with a list of advantages that I am going to present to her, probably within the next few days. She is a really factual/suspicious person, so I'm hoping this type of format will appeal to her. I also made a spreadsheet on Excel with all the financial information. I also know that she is anal and stubborn and it is hard to change her mind. Any other suggestions regarding this will be GLADLY appreciated.

  • By splitting the bills, she would save $137.50 a month, and $962.50 over the seven month period

  • I might get an internship, if so, about three months he won't live there, and she would still save $550 total over four months, which is less, but she will also be less inconvenienced.

  • Erick would also split grocery bills with us

  • Erick would cook for us on a regular basis(he went to cullinary school, Shelby and I suck at cooking)

  • Erick is a neat freak and cleans the apartment whenever he is there, Shelby is also a neat freak but doesn't always have time to clean, so she would appreciate the apartment always looking nice.

  • There would be an extra car around for transporting stuff/shopping/borrowing, etc.

  • He won't be in the way, because he will have a full time job, working 40+ hours a week

  • He would be gone 2 weeks in the summer for vacation while still paying bills

  • Shelby and him have common Lord of the Rings obsessions and obsessions with cars, both of which I hate, that they could talk about, etc.

  • She already likes him

  • Erick would be bringing two TV's to the apartment, one for my room and a small one for Shelby's room. If she wanted to watch something else or be by herself, she would have her own TV. If she wanted to study or read (which she ALWAYS does at the kitchen table or on the couch), Erick could watch TV in our room so he wouldn't disturb her.

  • Erick could do a lot of mechanical work around the apartment or on our cars (he already does whenever he is here)...fixing things/building things, etc.

  • There will be added safety with a man around

  • Shelby could work less with the money she saves, or use the money to buy car speakers, clothes, or something else she wants or needs without it being an extra burden.

Can anyone else think of ANYTHING, no matter how trivial or small, that I can add to this? I am serious, EVERYONE PLEASE COMMENT IF POSSIBLE. I need to make it as convincing as possible. Keep in mind what type of person she is. Truthfully, I wouldn't give a shit if she had asked if her ex-boyfriend could move in. The money saved would get my vote in half a second. I really, really hope this works out.

Also, if anyone is going to comment about how I need to be "careful" about living with my boyfriend, I am aware of the changes and problems that will inevitable occur. But I feel like we know each other well enough, both the good AND the bad, that we will be able to deal with it. We have gotten to know each other's little idiosyncracies (sp?) over time (even the annoying how he moves my stuff when he cleans my room and I can't find anything). So although I appreciate the concern, I really don't feel I need any types of lectures/warnings. Sorry for sounding bitter, but I have heard this many times. :)

I guess that's about it for now...I am soooo nervous about talking to Shelby. It is pathetic that I am afraid of her like's just that at times she can be such a dictator/gastapo. She won't even let Kate come visit me because she doesn't want to have Kate's dog in our apartment (which is gay, but that's another story).

Hope everyone else is having a great night, and wish me good luck on my talk with Shelby in the near future...and don't forget to comment!

p.s. I got a response letter from Cox but I will post about that later.

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Monday, February 9th, 2004
6:24 pm

1. A movie.

2. A book.

3. A musical artist, song, or album.

4. A Livejournal user not on my friends list.

Copy and paste into your own journal.

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3:49 pm
So I had a quiz today in finance which I think I got a 100 on, and I turned in some Info HW that I think I got a 100 on, which is good. I have a Finance test and a management test on Wednesday so I will have to study for those the next few days. :(

Other than that, I am getting Erick's Valentine's/birthday day present together.

I bought this so I could be his main present...haha he has always said that all he wanted was me in a little bow.

I'm also sort of putting together a little gift basket because, since he lives in the barracks, he doesn't really have much room for a scrapbook, photo album, or anything like that like I wanted to make him. So far I have gotten him a few usable things that I know he loves: gecko decorations for his car (steering wheel cover, trash bag thingy, and lisence plate cover), a book of those "love coupons," a small bottle of mountain dew and mountain dew code red (which he is obsessed with), almond joy candy bar, some of those candy hearts, some "bionicle" lego-ish toy thing he is obsessed with, and I am going to bake him some heart-shaped cookies. I am also going to put in a wallet-sized picture of me since he still doesn't have one for his wallet. Other possible things I might include are a car magazine and a mixed CD of romantic type songs that we both like or remind me of him, and a sentimental list of quotes or reasons why I love him. I am also hand-making his card, with my own little poetic message that I am going to put on it.

I want to make this a really good gift since it is his birthday AND valentine's day...and I want to make it stuff that he will like that is realistic. Like there is no point in me buying him insence/candles, a framed photo or other household stuff since he has nowhere to put it. So I hope what I have come up with is good. Thanks to anyone who has given me input...tell me what you guys think of this stuff...and any other suggestions to easy/cheap things I could add to this...and also especially MEN on my friends lists, let me know what you think about this kind of stuff.

Well, it's about time for me to go to yet another I guess I will update later with more news about my boring life. :) Everyone have a great day.

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3:48 pm - saturday
Well I had my first successful cooking session today. James came over and helped me though. We made friend chicken, baked potatoes, beans, and corn on the cob. Not really that complicated, but I was still proud. I didn't know what to do with all the oil when I was done though, because James said I shouldn't pour it down the sink, so I just poured it over the edge of my balcony. haha, I kept thinking someone might walk out and it would be poured on them, but considering the area where I was, it was extremely unlikely.

I went shopping at HEB today, too. I don't know why the hell I have been going to Kroger all this time, HEB is way better. The have a huge selection, more types of items available, and it is generally cheaper. I am never going back to Kroger unless I just need like one or two things.

I really don't want to go to work tomorrow. My eye has really been bothering me while I'm there. And it is actually pretty embarassing. Today some stupid lady asked me if I had pinkeye. Just because my eyes are red doesn't mean I have pinkeye. I probably also look like a drug addict. I hope this gets better soon.

Goodnight, everyone!

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3:46 pm
So last night I drove to Waco to visit Kate. :)
I'm glad I went, it was cool just to hang out and stuff. I wished we lived a little closer, it was nice to hang out with someone cool and normal for once and getting to relive inside jokes and funny movies. We went and visited Jon at his new job at this restaurant and have him serve us. Then we went to Jon's apartment and made fun of his freaky roomate. I can't tell if this guy is gay or a mama's boy or what. But he has little "checklists" for Jon's "chores" and he buys noriche yoplait shakes. What guy buys those? He also has a fake plant on his porch. Anyway, so we also spent some time snooping through his room to see what we could find. There was a lot of semi-interesting stuff--this guy is such a weirdo, haha.

I had to drive home early this morning to go to work, which sucked. But I got to leave early because my eyes were really hurting. I don't know if I have written about this in here, but I have an infection in my eyes and it is not really going away, even though I've already been to the doctor. If it is not significantly better by monday, I am going to go back to the doctor.

I don't know what I'm going to do tonight. I think I am going to spend part of my time working on Erick's Valentine's day/birthday present. I have two tests next week so I want to get most of his stuff done tonight so I can spend the rest of this week studying.

I don't know what it is, but I am going through one of those periods where every single thing my roomate does annoys me. So I'm going to bitch about it. So she is getting ready for work and she starts complaining about how this tank top she is wearing under her shirt is too short and how it keeps shrinking every time she washes it. I have told her over and over again that since that shirt has spandex, she needs to wash it in cold water, with delicates, or both, and that she needs to hang dry it. She continues to put it in the dryer. Use some common sense, I worked at the dry cleaners for two years so take my advice. Spandex+water+heat=shrink. And I tell her this all the time and she just doesn't listen.

Then she always goes on and on about how her pants are "way too loose," (which they AREN'T, believe me), and how they always fall down when she wears them. This is your own stupid fault because she refuses to wear a belt. She complains they fall, I tell her to wear a belt, then she either says that she doesn't want to wear a belt or that the ones she has do not "match." Stop being a cheapscate and buy one at wal-mart for $7.

I am so tired of her complaining about everything all the time, especially when it is her own damn fault. I don't want to hear about it. Anyway, I'm done bitching. Sorry ya'll had to suffer through my bitterness. :)

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Tuesday, February 3rd, 2004
12:23 am
Lord my roomate Shelby has been getting on my nerves lately. She is always fucking complaining about her car. Her parents bought her a 2002 Mustang over the winter break, and I swear it seems like she never has anything positive to say about it. She says things like, "well, the GALANT (her old car) never did never sounded like this...the Galant didn't have problems driving in the rain like this car...this car is so hard to park...I really wanted a Mazda 6 instead of this...this car really isn't as fast as these new Galants coming out...the speakers in this car aren't good, they are a lot worse than the ones in the Galant...I'm so pissed about that...I can't see out of the back window of this car..." and on, and on, and on she goes. I just want to fucking scream SHUT THE HELL UP!!!

She doesn't know how lucky she is to have that car. That Mustang is a way better car than her '94 piece of shit Galant anyway, I really don't see why the fuck she is complaining all the time. And her parents freaking bought both of those cars for her. Sure, she chips in $50 a month sometimes to help pay, but that's nothing considering how much it costs. It would take her three years and eight months at that rate to spend as much money as I just spent buying my car...and although I love my new car, I would love to have a mustang like that, and it sure is in better condition, is worth a lot more, and will last a lot longer than my car.

I'm not saying that I deserve her car...I don't, I wrecked my '97 mustang and it was my fault that I didn't have a car for almost nine months. But she has no right to fucking complain when she has her parents handing over a practically new car that is really nice. It pisses me off so much. Some people are just not thankful for anything and act in such a snobby way, and are always wanting more. Does she not realize how fucking easy she has it compared to other people? There are some kids whose parents can't afford to buy them ANY car at all, and much less a virtually new car that is far from a piece of shit.

And once again I am becoming highly irritated with her blatant racism. I mean, just today when we were coming back from the store, she was making fun of me because I was buying fruit juice...and then she was like, "I don't buy 'jungle juice,'" insinuating that only black people drink juice...and going on and on about how black people drink lots of kool-aid because they are poor and how in her small town there was this one brand of juice that only black people buy. I mean, lots of people make jokes and shit but there is a line that she always crosses into just plain ignorance and close-mindedness and it pisses me off to no end.

She also makes fun of hispanic people ("mexicans") constantly. She is pissed off because there are Durango commercials in Spanish. Today I asked her why it pissed her off so much, and she said that if the commercial is in Spanish, then it is being marketed towards hispanics. And if a $30,000+ car is being marketed towards "mexicans," then that is just "wrong," because all mexicans are poor and too poor to buy that car. And I was like, "Shelby, just because someone is hispanic does not mean they are poor." And then she was like, "yeah, that's true's because they are all illegals and they don't have to pay taxes."

Like I said before, there are a lot of racial jokes and stereotypes in this world, but how the fuck can someone truly and honestly fully believe her way of thinking? I cannot comprehend some people's complete lack of common sense and the posession of such backward thinking. The sad part is, she's not the only one. Now I'm not a liberal or a democrat or anything, I just think it is wrong to discriminate on any basis...whether that is race, gender, sexual preference, or anything like that.

I just wish some people would open their eyes...and stop thinking so much about themselves. It is hard living with someone when all they do is complain and put others down when they have a pretty damn good life. Why spend your time always thinking that things are not good enough for you? Some people wish they just had the chance at be fucking grateful for your opportunities and position in life. It is not wrong to want to better your life, but don't complain when what you have is sufficient. We are in college for god's sake anyway...we're not supposed to have money.

I am glad now that my parents raised me to work for what I have. Even though they still want me to depend on them, and they do help me out with school and bills, they never just gave me a bunch of money and shit like all the damn sorority bitches and college kids who drive around jaguars. I'm glad now that I can see that at least I appreciate what I have even if it's not exactly what I want. Some people just need to grow the fuck up and take a visit to reality for a little while.

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Sunday, February 1st, 2004
9:38 pm
Friday I was a dumbass. I was running late to class, and I had a quiz that I really didn't want to I parked illegally in a staff parking lot outside Kleberg. I was like...I might get a ticket, but oh well. So after my class is done, I am leaving to go to my car, and I was like, "ok, I parked right here next to all of these bike racks." I am looking for my car, and I'm not seeing it. I remembered exactly where I parked and the lot, because it was distinctive. I parked next to a silver car...which was there, but my car wasn't.

So I start freaking out. I'm like..."oh shit, my car got towed!!" I was getting soo pissed, because I was only parked there for like an hour and a half. So I start walking across to Reed Arena, which is where they towed my car to last year, and I'm wandering around the parking lots to see if I see my car. And I don't. So I'm freaking out even more and I start crying. I just bought this car two weeks ago, and already something has happened to it.

So right at the moment where I don't know what I should do, James calls me to see if I want to go eat. I told him what was going on and he came and picked me up and then we drive around Reed parking lot looking for my car, which is nowhere to be found. Then James is like, "well, where did you park?" So I direct him to the lot where I was, and I was like, "see? no car!" Well, then we turned around the corner of this road....and there is an identical looking parking lot, with my car sitting right where I left it!

I felt like such and idiot. But I can't blame myself for assuming that it was the same parking lot, because they really did look alike. Both had a shitload of bike racks, and only one row for cars to park in between the bike racks and the road, both in a curved shape, the silver car I parked next to in the same spot, on the same side. But I can blame myself for not looking a little harder I guess. But at least everything is okay and now I have something to look back and laugh (really hard) about.

So Erick came up last night. He was supposed to be here pretty early, but of course the fucking military had to fuck everything up, once again. It has really been messing with my head lately. Every time we try to plan something or see each other, everything changes at the last minute. And for no good reason...the drill seargants (sp?) just want to be dicks because there are a lot of new kids with him in school, and just because they can. Anyway, it has been really hard for me lately because I am always in a constant state of not knowing anything.

It really is hurting me because it's not like the distance between us is hard enough...we have to deal with not knowing exactly when or if we will see each other. And lately I have been really cynical and untrusting because of this...because it's like nothing is solid or dependable...and I know Erick can't do anything about it, but I take it out on him because I don't know what else to do. I get mad and frustrated and there is nothing I can do about it. Lately I haven't been trusting him or our relationship because I always feel so decieved (even though it is not by him). It has been causing issues with me and all these things one after another have been hard to deal with.

But it was such a great thing that I got to see him last night. When he told me yesterday that he didn't know when they would let him go, he was like "I am coming up there regardless. I don't care what time it is...even if I drive up there and have to drive straight back...I am coming" So he came. He got here around 9:45. I was so glad and happy to see him...just being able to look into his face and tell him in person what has been weighing on my heart helped so much. And just by him holding me, I knew everything was going to be ok.

I am so happy that he came...and I really do know he would do anything for me...even driving three hours last night to see me and turning around this morning and driving three hours back. That's one thing that helped reinforce that he truly is a man who says what he means. I always knew he meant the things he said, but the fact that those words turned into actions really impressed me and made me feel so lucky to have him.

And he fixed my ghetto door on my car. No more crawling through the passenger side, woohoo! The door panel had started to come off, and when I closed my door, the bottom edge of the panel would get stuck on the inside of the car, so when you tried to open the door, it would start detatching and you could not open the door. So Erick bought some screw thingies that were worn out on my door and replaced them, and now it is just fine. So that is really good.

I probably won't see him again for another two weeks...on his birthday/valentine's day...which reminds me, I need to start getting some planning done for it.

I also got a lot of organizing done around the apartment today, which was needed. I have become a lot more organized since the beginning of this school year. I'm still messy of course, but I think I have come a long way...and I kind of like it.

hmm the superbowl just ended, Patriots won. I'm sure Erick is freaking out with excitement right now...that is his favorite team. I really could care less, but I watched a little of it and it was an exciting game.

Hope everyone has a good night!

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