10:31pm 15/10/2003
mood: blah
music: "MORE TO LIFE" .. BY..Stacy Orrico
.. well i didnt write on tuesday but it was becuase i had a pretty bad day. Me and my boyfriend had a long talk about my past.. and i really hurt him alot. I didnt mean to but i just never had the guts to tell him about my past.. see i hate my past alot.. i regret alot of stuff and I had a pretty bad Childhood.I wish i would of met my boyfriend a long time ago becuase if i would of met him a while back then alot of stuff would not have happend. Anyways today me and my boyfriend talked everything out and everything is good. I love him so much becuase we could have a little fight or something and we always make up. We can never really stay mad at each other that long. Today also my mom and grandparents had court, they ended up canceling it which i was happy becuase i didnt want the family to be apart. I love them all so much but they all are hurting each other and putting me in the middle of everything. I am always crying to my boyfriend about all my family problems and he just tells me that everything will be OK. I hope so. anyways, today I didnt go to school.. we ended up sleeping late and I missed my 2nd period so i just didnt go at all. well i got to go for now.. ill tell you more about my day later.. *+*+toodles*+*+
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05:39pm 13/10/2003
mood: depressed
HEY WHATS UP?Well this is my 1st entry as you can see! Im here bored as can be. My boyfriend is at work! and well i hate being without him becuase he is the only person in my life that makes me so happy! My family is going through alot, and its tough to stay strong. I tell my boyfriend that sometimes i just feel like giving up. but he tells me that i can't because thats not the way i am. I dont give up he said to me.Its really hard to see your whole family cry to you but yet they are all hurting each other. I feel like im the one in middle of everything. So i try to stay away from all of them. I hate thinking about all this but for some reason it always seems to come up in my mind. It just doesnt go away.He tells me not to think about it, but its hard not to.