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Monday, April 28th, 2003
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2:13 pm - A long long time ago...
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Well its been a while since I've entered my life into this electronic record... heh... what a life its been. the semester is almost over, and I am extremely grateful and looking forward to not having school for a while. Things are finally falling into place, and I wouldn't have expected to be able to have finished as well as I have considering how rocky things started out.
I wonder how things manage to smooth themselves out when I just let go and allow myself to relax, set deadlines, and work carefully to keep them.
current mood:  chipper
current music: Sugar Cult-- Bouncing off the walls Again
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| Thursday, March 20th, 2003
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12:23 pm - After the Storm
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Well.. spiffiness envelops me. Today is a wonderful day, with the sun shining, and all things running smoothly. Which is much better than yesterday, can you say tornadoes? I knew that you could. ;o) Yeah, classes were periodically cancelled, and then others continued.
Other storms include:
Continuation of frumpiness/fighting w/love. I always feel like a idiot after those.
War-- what's it good for? absolutely nothing? I am not sure whether or not that is the truth, but apparently bush doesn't agree.
Math contest tonight... where each student dreams of carrying back a giant cardboard check. I just have nightmares of making a fool of myself. Speaking of making a fool of myself, I do believe its time to study....
Now I'm just waiting on the sunny day.
current mood: jubilant
current music: To You I Bestow -- Mundy
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| Tuesday, March 18th, 2003
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11:08 am - The Joys of Having One to Love
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good morning world! Its been a lovely day, and I'm currently being attacked by a very handsome young man. Not that I'm complaining or anything though. ;o)
I don't know what to say, other than I love him, and I guess that's it.
current mood: loved
current music: Bouncing off the Walls-- Sugar Cult
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| Monday, March 17th, 2003
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4:27 pm
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well.. I've been on spring break, breaking from everything. I feel the most rested that I have felt in months, and that is a very very nice feeling.
I've learned a little about things, well myself and relationships mainly. learned that I take too much and give too little. and I don't mean that I take to much crap from people, I mean that I feel now that I have been taking others for granted. so if you are one of those people, I hope the ones of you will know who you are by my changed attitude and behavior... well if you are one of those people, I'm am honestly sorry.
current mood:  peaceful
current music: Say Anything-- Good Charlotte
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| Wednesday, March 5th, 2003
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2:47 pm
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12:33 pm
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so now I feel like I have no clue what's going on. I'm on this amusement park ride, and it makes me sad, loose sleep, and all... but I don't want off... b/c when its not making me feel like I want to puke my guts out, it is the best ride of my life. so I'm down to trying to figure out whether or not its all worth it, and that's a decision I need to make on my own. yet I wonder if I've gotten on this ride for.... I have no idea...
current mood:  distressed
current music: creep--stp
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| Tuesday, March 4th, 2003
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7:00 pm
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I feeeeeeeel so sleepy. I wonder what is more important sometimes, the crazy things I try to finish in too little time, or the sleep I miss because of them... Today, the sun came out. It was wonderful. Birdman almost let us go out and to do our calc but we never quite convinced him, to my dismay. I had almost forgotten what the sun felt like on my skin.
Still groggy... I face a great challenge, how to get over my "don't touch me" mood, before my sweetie pouts too much. Maybe I'll figure it out, or maybe I'll just get disgusted by the pouting. Who knows... I dunno maybe the shadow, he knows what evil lurks in the hearts of men, he should know more than that too. I mean, just how much good can it do you to know what evil lurks in the hearts of men anyways?
current mood:  groggy
current music: Sleep (?) --Barenaked Ladies
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| Friday, February 28th, 2003
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9:42 am
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Going home... gonna miss my sweetie, happy to see my buddies back home, and my family. It will all be okey dokey.
current mood:  awake
current music: Motivate Me--Good Charlotte
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| Thursday, February 27th, 2003
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7:49 pm
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I'm alive and well today, and that's enough. I don't have anything interesting or even amusing to share, so I'll just say that I'm going home tomorrow, with mixed emotions, but I guess that's to be expected.
current mood: amused
current music: Consider the Lilies
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| Monday, February 24th, 2003
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6:49 pm
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So... its been a bit. Not that I mind too much. I've been gone for the weekend. v. nice actually... I went and visited jason's family. very spiffy
at this point i beginning to wonder about the true value of stress, or being open about how much stress affects me. so my new goal is to be unaffected [on the outside] by the events that freak me out the most.
well i guess that's it for now
current mood: mellow
current music: Epidermis Girl--Bleach
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| Wednesday, February 19th, 2003
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9:47 pm
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Amazingly enough I am still alive. Tomorrow I have two rather large exams, and several stacks of homework due in the near future. But, I'm still alive and kicking.... Feeling rather proud of myself just for getting all this stuff done without exploding from the stress. He he he... Yay! Jason is the most awesome love of my life. The past few days I have been a real pain, but he's still right by my side, trying to keep me calm. This only confirms that he's a keeper :o)
current mood: exhausted
current music: Everything is Gonna Be Okay -- Riddlin Kids
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| Tuesday, February 18th, 2003
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11:04 pm
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Well... from the previous entries, a reader might get the impression that I am slightly depressed, this however, is not the case at all... Today has been an amazing day so after all the crazy whining that I've done over the past few days this is a great change. A very wonderful change for those who have to deal w/me all the time... Like Jason and Jenny.
More and More Homework sadly.... Later Lovelies
The song is an inside joke :0)
current mood: chipper
current music: Wonderwall-- Oasis [doug remix]
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| Monday, February 17th, 2003
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2:49 pm
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I wonder sometimes why I bother to wake up in the mornings... I can't seem to say the right things, and piss people off often. Maybe one day I'll learn to leave well enough alone. I do believe that is my new personal goal. As of now though, I will enjoy the beginnings of snow. --the cold icy rain[reign] of my heart
Later i guess.... as for now i have some more hw and a little bit of work.
current mood:  gloomy
current music: Bathwater -- No Doubt
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| Sunday, February 16th, 2003
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9:47 pm - Hm....
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I deeply wonder about family... What makes it tick, and why is mine the way it is. I do my best to deal, but sometimes... even though I've known the people my whole life, something comes around and jerks the rug out from under my feet. Then I'm back on my butt again... Wondering how it happens, as I am now.
One day I might be able to deal... Jason is a big help. He hugs me and holds me whilst I cry, and somehow it means more to me that he doesn't watch me cry than that he holds me while I cry. I wonder why that is too... So many questions of which I can't figure out the answers.
Guess I'm done for the evening...
current mood:  pensive
current music: Am I Not Pretty Enough -- ?[can't remember]
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| Thursday, February 13th, 2003
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5:42 pm - Hello, My name is Tessa, and I am a first time web journal user
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Well, Hello there world! This is the first time that I have ever written in an online journal, and I find it slightly amusing. I'm not sure whether it makes me feel better, but at the point when i focused myself on a whimsical thought such as, "why not have a web-journal?" . I made it a prize for studying for my Physics Exam. Now, after studying.... I better enjoy this ... Yeah... That makes sense.
Well... I'm being told my Calculus is WRONG! So, I guess I had better go and defend it for the evening
current mood: amused
current music: Punk Rock Princess -- Something Corporate
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