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[05 May 2005|03:21pm] |
I'm back at home for the summer. I moved out of the dorm yesterday. It's really kind of sad. I knew it would be sad moving out and leaving and blah blah, but I really think I'm going to miss Boone so much this summer. Freshman year definately had it's up's and down's, BUT it was so much fun. I really hope that next semester is as much or more fun...we'll see, I guess.
Anyways, no need to dwell on that sad situation..
I still have no idea what is going on for the summer. I am going to call dad tonight and maybe have another talk about it. I got my GPA up, so I'm definately getting the jeep. Everyone jump up and down and celebrate with me..
I think that it will be fun living in wilmington for the summer, but I'm going to miss back home so much, ya know? There's the obvious of missing the bestest and my mom and blarg...I dont know. I wish I could just make up my mind on what I would be most happiest doing.
Sooo Ais and I need to hurry up and hang out because I'm missing her like, whoa annnnd nick needs to come home so I have another buddy to hang out with! im bored here, guys.♥.
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| nothing interesting----or worthwhile---just something I want to remember. |
[23 Apr 2005|10:33am] |
crazy stuff's been happening...crazy stuff, I tell ya!
Thursday night Carrie and I got all kinds of drunk and headed out to see The Juliana Theory. For the time that we were there, it was cool...Carrie was cracking me up like no other. I think after the 1st or 2nd song into juliana theory we had to leave and take Carrie back =/ I went back to the show and then to some apartment and then got no sleep but it's alright. no mindings over here. is that a word? mindings...oh well, I guess I just made it up.
yesterday was effing awesome, as well. A bunch of us lovelies went to parthenon for about 2 hours and then we got the bright idea to go play football since it had been raining all day. That turned into a mud fight which was interesting--mud in the mouth is not cool. then we got another bright idea to go jump off the dam...it was so cold--not a smart idea to jump off the dam when you can see your breath outside. oh well, it was fun. ♥
Not sure what im getting into today--maybe a trip to charlotte or something, who knows. bye kids♥
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[21 Apr 2005|12:06pm] |
after much stressing over my grades slipping...I think I have a hold on most of them. I guess we will see...I need an effing car, damnit!
so. yah. jess is leaving for a few days so who wants to be my friend for the weekend? I love you long time...
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[19 Apr 2005|03:19pm] |
yess! Look at my lovely layout. Thank you, thank you. It took me forever and its finally done. And yes, I'm a huge dork...
On another note, I need someone to live with me in wilmington this summer so I can get my own place! C'mon kids..I'll love you forever♥
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[17 Apr 2005|09:11pm] |
Ive been finding a lot of new amazing bands lately and I'm pretty attatched to Cursive at the moment. So this is just a quick entry to post some lyrics:
Cursive::Diftwood: A fairy Tale
He swam steadily for most of the day.
Suddenly he found himself approaching an enormous floating cavern.
Could it be an island?
Pinocchio looked closer and he saw two huge rows of sharp,
yellow teeth and he realized his mistake.
So he would sulk and drink and mope
and cross his arms and hope to die.
And then a fairy came one night
to bring this sorry boy to life.
She pulled some strings
and spun him about.
That boy sprang up
and began to shout,
"My arms, my legs, my heart, my face they're alive!"
And she would cry, "Liar, liar!
What have I done?
You're no lover, and I'm no fighter."
(The story goes on)
So he would buy her things and kiss her hair
to show he was for real.
And she would take those gifts and kisses
though just stringing him along.
She knew about those wooden boys-
it's an empty love to fill the void.
"Pinocchio! Oh boy, how your nose has grown!"
So he would cry, "Liar, liar!
I'll prove it to you!"
But then it grew
He had grown tired of her
So it was true
He left her apartment
And he walked all night long
'til he was stopped by the shore of the ocean.
But still he walked on, amongst the whales
and the waves, and screamed
"Liar, liar!"
And his wooden body floated away.
He just drifed away.
And now I wonder how i was made...
my arms, my legs, my heart, my face,
my name is Driftwood.
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[14 Apr 2005|02:54pm] |
Things are going pretty well. Im sad the semester is coming to a rapid end...but that just means that next semester will be here that much sooner. I miss Ais so much...and Im sure that it gets annoying when I call just to bitch about things, I just need her right now...but Ais, I hope that you know im thinking about you all the time and I miss you and I love you ohhh so much.♥
pointless rant:
Blah, if you lead a fake life or if you just put on a big facade for everyone...please go away. Me and probably everyone else in the universe (and yes, that is a lot of damn people...but its true) knows about it--so just be who you are and not who you think you should be to people's faces. Its not cute. at all. Come to find out...it is cool to be yourself. wow! amazing! gosh! yah...
Also...last night I went to this extra credit lecture about the attacks in Darfur.. I couldnt really understand the people who were discussing it but I got the main points. It's pretty much a genocide going on over there with innocent civilians being killed either by forces or through hunger since they cant get any aid and their rations have been cut. SO if your life isnt this bad...please stop complaining. I love listening to my friends or anyone in general and helping them out with their problems, so Im not talking about yall. Im talking about the people that think they have true problems when in reality, they dont. kthxbye.
On a side note...I love some of yall ♥
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[08 Apr 2005|09:55pm] |
humph..new shatty background...maybe ill spruce it up some later, but doubtful. I need to do something with my entry boxes and make it all purty and not fucked up, but I really dont have time for it.
So its 10, and I still duno what im doing tonight...first saturday I havent gone out in a while..oh, nevermind, jess is getting directions for a party at this very instant..so nevermind. hah.
Tomorrow I miiight be going to charlotte to go shopping since I have all this cash on my hands, haha I will probably never see it agan in my life and im going to blow it all in one day--yes, im a very smart creature.
so my life at the moment(and keep in mind..stress is due to procrastination which I cant seem to moderate):
stress, stress, mascarra, stress, straightening iron, hairspray, stress, friends, blistex, friends,mascarra.
so as you can tell there's no work going on...shucks..i should get to that, eh?
okay going to see whats up for tonight...good friends=love..be my friend? ;]
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| sup april blizzard. |
[03 Apr 2005|12:09pm] |
the past week has been pretty chill...chopped off all of my hair, met a few cool kids..
I think I'm starting to get sick again and I blame it all on me stressing out about all this shiz that I have to do before the end of the semester--problem is, I'm too lazy to start any of it. I think I need a swift kick to the ass to gear me up for it all...so feel free...I won't kick back.
...or I could blame feeling like shit to the BLIZZARD we had yesterday. Snowed all Fuckskdfaksjdfkjding day and night with hella wind speeds. weird seeing is how it was 75 just a few days prior. neat.
Alright, I need to go jump around or SLEEP preferably. I don't know what is wrong with me, but this whole weekend I've had NO sleep. I stayed out late on thursday and had to wake up early for a quiz in the morning....I think I maybe got one hour of consecutive sleep friday night....and then last night I was in bed for about 6 hours, but I didn't sleep over half of that time. I need to get tired real soon.
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| EASTER BREAK |
[30 Mar 2005|02:16pm] |
twas a good time...went down to wilmington and charleston to see dad and some family. Matties 1 year birthday was this weekend..she's so cute. I got to take care of her while I was there. I'll post some pictures when my gram sends them to me.
anyways...
today is the most beautiful day. Everyone is outside and having a grand ol' time...I hope the weather keeps up (even though it wont later on this week..but that's okay). That's all I have to say about that..
I talked to dad about summer plans and I'm almost positive that I will be staying in wilmington for the majority of the summer. I'm either living with dad or getting a townhome with this one chick...either way sounds good to me. Plus, dad is working on an internship for me with his company so I'll be making some mad cash money (haha not my gangsterness...). It should be a fun time, especially if some lovelies come visit me like every day *cough*cough*.
Okay, well more updates later..I have to go outside and play now..bye kids
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[21 Mar 2005|09:20am] |
I know spring break is very much over, but I just have to say that it was great just chilling with Ais the whole time♥ Also, *EXCITING NEWS* that she will officially be transfering to appstate in the fall. :]. I miss you, love!
This past week has been dubbed "the week of intoxication" and it could quite possibly be the stupidest thing I've ever done. However, it brought in some good laughs and memories. (Just too much for one week, except for Saturday night because well, there was no intoxication.)
Besides that, nothing too exciting is going on. Met some new awesome people this week, went to a party and a good show. :]. I might be heading down to wilmington for easter, but I guess we'll see on that...
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[10 Mar 2005|03:58pm] |
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Just a quick little post to say that last night's festivities were verryyyy very interesting. "hmm..not so much" ;-) <*inside joke*> (sorry).
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[07 Mar 2005|10:16am] |
I ruined my hair! For the moment anyways. Im not too worried about it...it just looks really funny and I have a grand ol' time laughing at myself whenever I pass by my reflection.
Ais came over yesterday for a day of hair dye extravaganzas and it was a big mess. I totally did something funky with these white streak things that turned orange and the dye that ais used didnt even change her hair...but after try #2 and a new batch of hair dye, she got it all worked out. And we made a chocolate cake..my fav. (besides funfetti..duh)♥
Speaking of ais and her wonderfulness...she will officially be attending App state in the fall! (even though I knew your transfer would work out all along!). yesss!. So happy =) so two cheers for ais and next semester!
Next semester..doesnt that seem crazy? Half a semester left until the end of my first year of college. Ah. Too fast. Everything needs to slow down. I think about that daily...how I wish that my days would just slow down. It's been harder since it's been cold..but once it starts to warm up I definately need to make better time of my days. Even though next semester is scary to think about, I'm pretty excited. I loved app in the fall. The atmosphere, the weather, my mood...everything seemed better then.
Anyways, time to go attempt to make pancakes....♥
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[04 Mar 2005|09:06pm] |
It's good to be home.
It was good to have a home cooked meal. MmM to grilled eggplant and a nice green salad with my favorite spinach leaves :] No more gross school food for a week! yes!
Nick (my step-brother) will not be here this weekend...and I think that it is a big relief for mom and paul. After his running away incident and other 500 situations, I think they could use a weekend off. Im just glad to being able to spend time with moms. I miss her so much when I'm at school and I dont think that I realize it until I come back home.
Again I still dont know what Im doing for spring break...Ais and I have been brainstorming some about visits to the beach or snowboarding...but we'll see what all plays out. Im just looking forward to spending good times with the bestest and dying my hair =p
I should get going...bye kiddies.♥
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[28 Feb 2005|01:41pm] |
Spring break is almost here! I still have no idea what I'm doing...the plans for wilmington fell through (surprise, surprise for my luck....) so I just don't know. I guess we will see where it all goes...
This weekend was alright. Saturday was soo pretty outside so me, jess, and ashley went to the rock colony. It's so pretty out there! I split my pants (haha) and by the end of the day the rip went from my zipper to my knee! It's hilarious. Not to mention some other hilarious moments like jessica and her wild monkey number she pulled. I cant wait to go back when it's warmer.
I dont really remember the purpose for this update...but, on an ending note, its a snow day today (didnt think those happened at App) so I think I should fill my day making a snowman....or maybe a calc project...we'll see...♥
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[21 Feb 2005|09:22pm] |
It was a pretty chill weekend...nothing too exciting to report about..
I got to talk to Ais on the phone today, and it helped me out with so much. It's good to know who your true friends are and be able to seperate them from the people you thought were your friends and acquaintances.
I also got my housing all done for next semester, today. Kate and I will be living in Bowie next year...room 601, so write it down! haha. I won't mind being on the west side of campus again and I've never really minded the small rooms, so it should be good. Ah...I wish I didnt already have to worry about things for my sophomore year! College is already going by way too fast. At least I'm having some good times and memories as the time flies and I'm not filling up my days with regret and boredom.
Speaking of time flying...spring break is right around the corner. Hopefully it will be a relaxing time with the bestest and maybe Nick and hopefully be at the beach. I dont need to go anywhere fancy for spring break I guess...I think it will be nice just to chill out with some good people and maybe get a tan. I've learned (the hard way) that expecting for paradise isnt the best idea...It usually will only let you down...or that's how it has been in the past..
Hm, hm...I guess there's not much more I can say openly...I'll save the juice for Ais (lucky girl haha). ♥♥
"Home is where you make it, Love
Don't get yourself confused
Besides what's it to you?
I traded my conscience for your
For your confidence"
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[16 Feb 2005|03:56pm] |
last was was awesome =)
I had a really good dinner with Nick at outback, which was needed from monday night and everything else in the past couple of months. So that was nice. And then later on in the night I heard a knock on the door and figuring it was leah or someone I just said "come in" and to my surprise it was kyle!!!! We have been talking and he keeps talking about me visiting him and I said he should come visit here, but I didnt know he would! So we got to hang out for a little bit, and maybe I'll see him again tonight when he gets back from charlotte. It was very awesome =)
That's my little update for now...♥
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[14 Feb 2005|09:04pm] |
today sucked...and that's all there is to it. Well, with the exception of dinner with jess at broyhill..it was yummy. But other than that, today sucked life.
that's all.
♥
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[13 Feb 2005|11:20pm] |
Back in boone! It was very good to see mom and maggie but, I missed Boone so much. Friday night me, jess, and chris went to the Brewery in Raleigh to see Defending Brooklyn and we saw most of Forever Changed...very fun time :]
After we left we went to Player's in Chapel Hill (some club) and I was miserable. It was not my scene...at all. Way too many people, too many sketches, too many people that thought they were better than everyone else..just eh! I ended up just sitting on some bench in there for the most part thinking about how I would give anything to be back in boone. Sucks.
I also chopped off all my hair this weekend. Not all of it...but I did get short sweeping bang things and a lot of the length cut off. Im not too sure how I feel about it...but, I do think I'm going to dye it for the first time...something darker. I dont know.
Anyways, enough about my hair...even though, I know how exciting it is to hear about...
I should be going...Night kids.♥
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[11 Feb 2005|12:31am] |
I just got back from seeing the Saw...scary..kind of. I've seen it before but I forgot how the acting is kind of humorous at times. A good plot, at least. At least I did something tonight....i'm not used to just being chill on a thursday, but it's relaxing. I dont think that I need to be partying it up too hardy with still being sick and all. Speaking of being sick...im getting better...just to curb all of your worries! haha.
I talked to Ais today on the phone, and it was JUST what I needed. I know I shouldn't talk to people in my journal (it's not a message board) BUT...love, I miss you so much! Of course I missed you last semester but everything was so crazy that I didn't think too much about anything. This semester, however, I realize how much I value your friendship and how much I need you with me! I know, sounds like I'm talking to my lover, but seriously...i dont know. I just can't wait for next semester. I know everything will work out! Keep on keepin' on and rocking that moose..heh. ♥ ♥
speaking of missing people..I miss Kyle, too! We talked tonight...I think he should come visit seeing is how I can't go visit him. Everything will be okay, promise.
I'm going home this weekend, and im stoked. I know, I know...I've never said that. BUT, it's time to go home for a little bit. I will miss App, tons, though. I'm excited to go to the Defending Brooklyn show. I think I'm going with Chris and Jess and then hanging out afterwards so that should be fun! Haven't seen Chris in ages, so we need to catch up!
On an ending note...I know I've said this before, but some people just aren't who you once precieved them to be. I know people change, but sometime's its not just that....I think people should just be upfront and be themselves in the beginning....then I wont make the mistake of getting to know someone that really isn't worth my time and who is just going to hurt me. I guess it's those mistakes that shape you for the next experience, right? I dont know. It's frustrating. Some people are such tools...
Valentines day is coming up. I'm just going to the broyhill with jess and whoever else wants to join. Such an awful day. One day to show someone how much you care about them? What kind of crap is that? If you truly care about someone, you shouldn't have to buy them anything to show them...they should already know by the way you act and just how you are together. It's all crap...crap, I tell ya! Maybe I'm just hostile..who knows.
I'm going to go converse with my two favorite friends...Ben and his mate, Jerry...and their lovely invention of Cherry Garcia Frozen yogurt. Yes, it is a big girl thing....embrace it. ♥
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[08 Feb 2005|04:16pm] |
I hate being sick.
Yesterday morning I woke up and could barely get out of bed and just felt horrible, so I went to the infirmary. Ugh! I had to get blood drawn and pee in that damn little cup. It was awful. Reminds me of why I hate the doctors. Anyways, I was diagnosed with 3 different things...sinus infection, respiratory something something, and mild bronchitis.Lovely.
Im feeling a bit better now...maybe because I have 4 different kinds of meds in me, who knows. Im just worried about classes, seeing is how I've missed 2 days and a test (luckily I can make that up).
I'm going home this weekend, so that will give me some rest time, as well. I don't really have any plans except for going to a show on friday, so maybe I'll get all better then if I don't sooner.
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