i hate writing listy journal entries because i feel like it's cheating, like i should make the effort to connect everything in an epic narrative story. however, i'm going to cheat tonight, because i want to write about some things that have been on my mind lately, and i am far too tired to get all tolkien with the plot threads. so here they are.

• i was offered a full-time job at the capital. i declined it. they weren't going to give me a raise; they were going to keep me on the same hourly wage and simply give me 40 hours a week instead of 27. plus, it would be on nightside, which would mean working 3-11 p.m. on weekdays. i make more per hour at my other job, and i'd probably have to give that up to accept the full-time newspaper gig. i like having two part-time jobs because my work schedule is, for the most part, pretty flexible and undemanding. plus, i'd rather be writing, and i think it would be easier to transition over to editorial if i was only working part-time in advertising. perhaps it would be easier to move out sooner had i accepted the job, but when have i ever made anything easy for myself? i'm thinking long-term here. i just hope long-term is the right way to think.

• there are a couple brendan benson songs i've been listening to over and over at work. one is "jet lag," and the other is "alternative to love." good stuff. maybe i'll post the lyrics in here sometime soon.

• cute boy in editorial spoke to me today. he said "hey," but it was a bathroom situation; he was leaving as i was entering, and we kind of startled each other in opening the door. so maybe it was an obligatory "hey." you know, it just sort of slipped out. like i could've been hitler, and he still would've said "hey." regardless, i'm feeling more comfortable at work, so i mentioned to honey, suzanne, suzie and amanda about how i've been trying to figure out if he's gay or not. i suggested they use their wily womanly ways to find out for me. hell, i could remind tina she was supposed to find out for me about a month ago, but i think i haven't because i fear that she would tell me he is gay, and then, like, the pressure would be on. but i would probably still admire him from afar. it's pretty ridiculous. steph told me today that i've been acting like a teenage girl lately. i think i just proved her right. (actually, i never denied it.) i wonder if cute boy will ever find out i've devoted significant chunks of my journal to him. seriously.

• i am going to virginia in two days to see the rufus wainwright show at UVA with blake, but i'm still working out acommodations. because of a home football game at the university, all the charlottesville motels are completely booked. i have several alternatives. i could A) sleep in the empty bed in blake's dorm room that belonged to a roommate who recently moved out, B) bring my air mattress and sleep somewhere on the floor of blake's dorm room, C) attempt to procure a motel room somewhere else, or D) do the three-hour drive back to maryland after the show. D) is out of the question. because of too many reasons to list, i am leaning towards C). which means, of course, i'll end up with A) or B).

• my parents are going away for a few days at the end of october. i'm not sure if i should have a halloween party. i think i was invited to a halloween party not long ago, and i think i accepted because i think i would really like to go, but i'm not completely sure when that party is or if the invitation still stands or whatever. but i will hopefully engage in some sort of halloween-partying by the end of october. it might be fun.

• in closing, i'd like to poll the two or three people who read this journal. if a guy has a personal ad somewhere, and he says he's interested in meeting "men and women" for "friendship and dating," what exactly does that mean?