what have i been up to lately? hmm. let's see. in the past month i ...

... talked to steph for the first time since the "realization" and that went really really really well despite it being kinda weird at first and i made some new friends and i met one of them one afternoon and i don't think he's my friend anymore because i don't think it went well but you never know but then again it has been like a month and i finished seasons 3 and 4 of buffy and autumn came to town for a wedding and we hung out one afternoon and kicked it old school and i saw steph for the first time since the "realization" over dinner at friday's and i had a chicken finger club which was totally a break from the chicken finger platter i usually get but not quite since they were still fingers of the chicken and my car kinda broke down and it turns out that there were like five things wrong with it like the broken flux capacitator (???) and the bill came to over $1K and it cleaned out my savings account and my plans to move out at the first of the year were kinda dashed and i turned 25 and it was totally horrible because not many people remembered but blake sent me like 32 e-cards that played horrible top 40 songs and i totally give him props for selecting "mambo no. 5" by lou bega as the music for one and writing "too bad you don't like monica, erica, rita, tina, sandra, mary, or jessica" in it and my mom said to get used to it because "birthdays are not all about you" even though i always thought birthdays were all about you and i got stuck eating pizza alone that night while my parents were having this huge fight and my mom said she was leaving my dad and i left the house to go driving and/or soul-searching for a few hours and got stuck in some monsoon and had to seek sanctuary inside a walmart but i found some cool discount DVD titles and i made some more new friends and i met them both and there was a huge catharsis and i felt pretty great about that and i still do and i promise to write about it in a future journal entry because it was so damn big ...

... and that's pretty much it.