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so today was the day i should've listened to myself and just stayed in bed. i got up, sent out an email saying pretty much the same as the entry below to the person who needed to know, then talked online to that person, and, as is par for the course, ended up feeling really shitty after the conversation. i showered, went out on a mission to go get a black skirt and blouse to wear to my grandmother's funeral this weekend but before i could get a hold of my friend i wanted to take with me to the mall, i came to the realization that my cell phone was completely non-functioning. so i decided that while i'm out getting gas, i'll stop by u.s. cellular to get that crap figgured out. after getting the gas and turning my phone on and off multiple times, i find that i have a missed call and a voice message. as it turned out, my friend had called and had already left for the mall with another person but at least the person he went with told me what was wrong with my cell phone (his brother works for u.s. cellular). apparantly a cable in the main tower in rockford had been damaged or cut. so, no longer needing to go to us cellular, i head home, my thoughts still stewing with all that upsets me in my current romantic relationship (and it doesn't even have to be that way...all i've ever done was love him and try to help him). then i noticed that my gas tank flap was still open, and then it hit me, i hadn't put the cap back in either. so i go home, tell my mom what had happened and then called my dad and he told me i needed to go find the old one or buy a new one, pronto. extremely tired from not getting into bed until 5:30 am, getting more frustrated and annoyed by the second (the humid heat not helping) i back track where i drove and didn't find it so i went to go buy a new one. auto zone was a mess. it took me waaaaaaay too long to get helped and checked out. again, not making me feel any less stressed. finally done with menial crap, i head out to rockford, alone. the first store i go into, marshall fields, i buy an attractive black skirt and tank top, both on sale, then i just shop around for a bit and head home. my cell phone works again by this point. the best part of my day was the return trip into the sun set with the full moon rising up in the dusk behind me. absolutely breathtaking. i'm still tired and feeling bummed out...great weekend for a funeral.
i miss you.
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