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Monday, May 2nd, 2005

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    12:12a
    *What You See Is Not What You Get*
    It is funny how things turn out...I mean your heart tells you something and usually that is how it should be...People really think I am dumb and I think it is funny bc I am not...I may act it sometimes like my blonde shows through but I have common sense...a lot of it too...my vibes I get from people ARE right...No one will disrespect me and try and tell me how something is when you are so fucking wrong it is funny...I mean I cry from laughing so hard...someone that thinks they can make me feel lower to higher themselves fuck you...I am so far gone you will never see me again...this is the last time I ever go against what my heart says to me...I mean this whole entire relationship was based on me not wanting to be alone...how wrong was that...I mean really I lied to myself and everyone else...that is bad but really it is true...i tired to make it work soooo many freaking times to try and prove a point..why would I ever want to be with someone who does not care about me yet says he does...I am sorry but I have friends that care more for me then a boyfriend...ex...wait...maybe he was never a boyfriend lol...who knows...not I...I have this awesome friend that will swing with me on swings and take me to a zoo or to a farm so I can play with the pigs...that sees ME...not someone who will not call or show up late or not hang out with me or not want to be with me...who will just be a loser...sorry...I mean I do not hate anyone...still dont...but maybe I am disappointed?...who knows...but this time..for the first time...I am happy with everything around me...I do not need someone to make me feel low...when I know how great I really am...i am not stupid...I saw through you...i am typing like I am typing to him..not sure why...but no I see through people...I can see who they really are and I knew from the start but wanted to fix it...it was the idea of liking them...and wanting to be with them...if only I opened my mouth sooner..and bit the bullet and just took being alone for a while...instead of trying to make something work that obviously was not working the 2nd or the 3rd or the 4th or the 5th time!

    Just know everytime someone talks about you they laugh...hard



    Okee enough of that retarded stuff...life is good and has been for a while actually

    Current Mood: rejuvenated
    11:47a
    *Tear*
    "'Cause in the end you always turn back to who was there at the beginning.” ~Dawson’s Creek

    "It's weird as it happens, isn't it? You still love the person, but you just stop needing them like you used to."~ Dawson’s Creek

    "Growing up sucks. Not all kisses are magic, and most boys do not live up to your expectations, but there are those times when everything, I mean love, romance, relationships, it all falls together perfectly and it's incredible." ~ Dawson’s Creek

    "If we weren't so afraid to let go, we wouldn't feel so free when we finally did" ~ Dawson's Creek

    "And that 1st kiss its the passionate one. It's the one filled by desire and attraction and all that while the 2nd kiss is rational. You got time to think about it, worry and ever-analyze. And most women they prefer that 1st kiss but I'm partial to the 2nd one cause its about something more. You'll get that 2nd kiss and when you do it'll be great it'll be real, it'll be meaningful." ~ Dawson's Creek

    "We're really young and we're gonna screw up a lot and you know we're gonna keep changing our minds and our hearts and through all that the only real thing we could offer each other is forgiveness. Don't let yourself get so angry that you stop loving because one day you'll wake up from that anger and the person you love will be gone"~ Dawson's Creek

    "To continue to love someone when there's no promise of that love ever thriving, now that's true romance." ~ Dawson's Creek

    "Faith is believing in things when common sense tells you not to." ~ Dawson's Creek

    "Did it ever occur to you that you're so caught up in trying to make the right choice that you've never stopped to consider the possibility that there may not be a right choice, or a wrong choice, just a bunch of choices? All the really exciting things in life require more courage than we currently have, a deep breath and a leap. The kind of fear you're talking about... sometimes it's how you know what's worthwhile." ~ Dawson's Creek

    "Letting go isn't a one time thing, its something you do everyday, over and over again." ~ Dawson's Creek

    "Ever have one of those days you wish you could start all over again?" ~ Dawson's Creek

    "How can you simply be friends with someone when every time you look at them all you think about is how much more you really want them?" ~ Dawson's Creek

    "You know you love someone when you can spend the entire evening sitting by the fire watching them sleep." ~ Dawson's Creek

    “You don't come across that many people that give you butterflies, you just don’t” ~Dawson’s Creek

    “I didn't ask for it to be over, but then again, I never asked for it to begin. For that is the way it is with life, as some of the most beautiful days come completely by chance. But even the most beautiful days eventually have their sunsets. Everything changes eventually, that's just the way life is and you have no control over it. Like, suddenly, people who you think are always going to be there, they disappear. You know, people die and they move away and they grow up" ~Dawson’s Creek

    “You know, I’ve been thinking about what you guys were saying earlier, about boys being twits. And I think you’re right... but there’s more to it than that. ‘Cause, you know... sometimes all they have to do is just look at you, with that certain look, that look that says that you are exactly where they want to be... and you feel it too, for them... and you just melt, like a big blob of ice cream. Even when you don’t want to.” ~Dawson’s creek

    "No matter where you go or who you go there with, you'll always have a piece of my heart." ~Dawson's Creek

    "Goodnight little star. Maybe tonight is the night that my wish will come true. Sleep tight little star, I'll be dreaming of you. And if I wake up tomorrow and he's still just my friend, then I'll see you tomorrow little star, to try this wish again." ~Dawson’s Creek

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