*The Stars Will Cry The Blackest Tears Tonight*'s Blurty

*Say Hello To Goodbye*
I love wacthing movies that make me think of my child hood...when my life was perfect. I had no worries...The feeling is indescribable...in a good way. I can feel the warm air and feel the sun on my face. I can taste it, and yet it is gone. In My Girl one of the boys asked what heaven was like and the girl answered "You ride horses and eat marshmellows and everyone is best friends with each other" I wish heaven would be like that. Where everyone is nice to each other. Or you were like 10 again when you died, and all you felt was the warm air and the sun on your face. I miss the times where I would wake up and smell that spring air and go outside and ride bikes with my brother and be free. Played all day and got dirty and did not care. I miss those times more than anything. I think everyone was happier then? It is so bitter out now. No one is happy really. I mean people can seem happy but when you are half asleep but wake enough to hear the truth..you know everyone is not happy with their life. I wish I could change things for people. Make them happy. Maybe my attitude does not help matters. What would it take to make her happy? I would do anything to make my mother happy again...or just happy.

I feel like one part of me is happy with what is going on in my life right now...I feel like I couldnt get anymore happier...then I think about other parts of it and want to cry

Current Mood: nostalgic
Current Music: Movie: My Girl