*The Stars Will Cry The Blackest Tears Tonight*'s Blurty

*In Slow Motion, I Sit To Feel I Am Still Alive*
Today was such an awesome day. Days like this I do not know how people could be depressed or rude or mean. A day like this makes your problems seem so tiny and tedious...I got up and cleaned and that felt good lol...thought maybe they might call me into work but they didnt so I headed to Dirk's after that and I wanted to go to the mall but it hit me "BEACH"...so I called Mike up and he skipped work and we headed to the beach....I was in the mood to sit on the beach and eat a hot dog loaded with chillie and cheese lol and that I did...except we found a random curb and ate it there....then stupid seagulls wanted our food...then we walked some. It felt just like a spring day. So nice. So content. So free. It reminded me of so much. Then we went to jungle golf and played some pool and air hockey. After the beach I wanted to hit some softballs so we ventured to the batting cages...it was alright...not my best but oh well...then ventured back to Dirk's and we decided to go on a bike ride...I dont think I have been on a bike ride since Prom night...that was fun...good times those were...we rode to the lake near their house and just sat for a while..I..watching the sun reflect off the water and took pictures...they were good lol.... wanted so badly for it to be warmer and for there to be a rope swing for me to swing into the water...I could have sat there for hours...I did not want the day to end bc I know I will not feel the way I did today for a long time now. I will not have content feelings nor feeling of youth for a while. It saddens me. After we got back Dave called and went to his house to talk to him bc I left him so many voice messages while he was gone and I needed to talk to him..so that helped me...I still get scared. Now I am here bored...I guess no movie night...oh well....

I want more days like today where I am free

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