Kitten's Journal

4:31PM

yep. you are a vampire. You live on the dark side,
fancy violence and destruction, and are quite
powerful over others, yet have some weaknesses.
Your heart may be cold, but can be thawed out
by few..but very rarely. You love the night,
and that bass-heavy music pounding through your
head. Good job.


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4:04PM

Well I am going up to the mall on Saturdai. Caryn, Tim, Rachel, Josh, and I are all going to go see a movie together. Hopefully Will will come. I'll be all alone if he doesn't. Oh well, I'll just be normal. We're going pretty late now that I think of it. Oh well. Day sucks night rules. May the shadows of hell be with you. Heh. I'm atheist what the hell am I doing talking about hell. Oh well. Heh this music is strange. Wonder where I found it. Who knows. Anyway I am going to go now. Later.

6:38PM - Stupid thing

x The story behind your user name? I wish I belonged to someone
x Are you a lesbian? No, maybe bi though
x Where do you live? Virginia, US
x 4 words that sum you up? Suicidal, depressed, physcotic, strange

DESCRIBE YOUR -
x Wallet? Black
x Hairbrush? Black
x Toothbrush? Black
x Jewelry worn daily? Balls, Chain
x Pillow cover? Black
x Blanket? Black
x Coffee cup? I don't drink it
x Sunglasses? Black
x Underwear? Black Velvet
x Shoes? Tall boots with spikes
x Handbag? Don't own one
x Favorite top? Not wearing one
x Cologne/Perfume? That shit is disgusting
x CD in stereo right now? Burned mix of Jack Off Jill
x Tattoos? Don't really want one
x Piercings? Want my lip done
x What you are wearing now? Tight black shirt and Kik wear black pants
x Hair? 3 to 4 feet and black
x Makeup? Black lipstick, eyeliner, and nailpolish

WHO or WHAT (was/is/are) -
x In my mouth? Gum
x In my head? Voices
x Wishing? I had my Little Froggy
x After this? Um... I have no idea
x Talking to? Those weird people
x Eating? Gum
x Fetishes? Many things
x If you could get away with it and murder anyone, who and for what reason? Lauran and Andrew because they fucked up my life
x Person you wish you could see right now? Little Froggy
x Is next to you? Spikes
x Some of your favorite movies? Horror
x Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month? Nothing
x The last thing you ate? Nothing
x Something that you are deathly afraid of? People
x Do you like candles? Who doesnt
x Do you like hot wax? Feels good
x Do you like incense? Yes
x Do you like the taste of blood? Turns me on very much
x Do you believe in love? A little but I'll never get it
x Do you believe in soul mates? Yes, I won't get mine
x Do you believe in love at first sight? Depends
x Do you believe in Heaven? No
x Do you believe in forgiveness? Depends
x Do you believe in God? No
x What do you want done with your body when you die? Put in a vamperic coffin and hidden
x Who is your worst enemy? Don't have one
x If you could have any animal for a pet? A MONKEY!!!
x What is the latest you've ever stayed up? A week 3 days and 17 hours
x Ever been to Belgium? I wish
x Can you eat with chopsticks? Damn Straight
x What's your favorite coin? Ones not from the U.S.
x What are 5 cities you wouldn't mind relocating to? Anything in Germany
x What are some of your favorite pig out foods? CHINESSE!!!
x What's something that you wish people would understand? Me
x What's something you wish you could understand better? People
x Anyone you miss that you haven't seen in a long time? Little Froggy
x What's one thing you want to make happen for tomorrow? It won't happen

6:36PM

Death Obsession


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Yes, this is true. Not so much my own death though. Ones of those who have crossed me or my friends.

9:40PM

The Little Froggy is most likely leaving. I finally cryed again because I found that out. I really don't want him to leave. Specially when he is leaving for a war that is not worth his life. He is a great person anddoesnt deserve this kind of shit he deserves better. I just wish I could convince him to stay. I pissed Josh off. I also walked out the front door to my classroom and left. Didn't even get yelled at for that or cursing out the teacher. Fuck'em all. If Little Froggy is leaving then I have no reason to fake that I am happy nor be good because I don't have to work towards seeing him. I wish he could understand how I feel about it. I guess he can't but thats ok in the end it is his decision. I'll miss him dearly if he chooses to leave, I miss him anyway right now. I just hope he doesn't go and die if he chooses to go. I know I wouldn't be bable to bear the lose of him after everything else. My one little goal and push may leave me unbalanced and tumbling.

9:02PM

Heh... Little voices inside angering me. I can't kill them either, I would have to kill myself. Wait that is a good idea. Hmph. Everyone is being very annoying. Bringing me into their little pathetic fights about a chat room. It is so fucking annoying. I mean damn it is a fuckign chat room. I think friendship is worth a lot more. And now they are all worried bout I am mad. Ugh... Other than that I am doing good. I got to talk to Justin todai. I haven't talked to him in at least a good four or five months. God I miss that anorexic guy. I still got his guitar pick. I was playing with it when I was talking to him. I got his yahoo screen name but cam wasn't working so that pissed me off too. But that is ok because I got to talk to him. That retard forgot my name but remembers everything I have evere told him. It is amazing. He also still likes me, I still like him too. I miss him so much, I am probaly goign out there for summer to go and visit him. Pop-up at his door-step and he won't recognize me so I can just stand/sit there and laugh at him. That will be entertaining. He doesn't skateboard anymore which is really strange for him because he was obsessed with it. And his girlfriend broke up with him in the worst way possible. That pissed me off, he gave me permission to kill him though. I am going to get going, how bout you? Later.

7:46PM - Yesterdai

Melonie's hair is gone. Haha. Her sister gave her a make over now I get to laugh in her face. She also stole her cell phone last night and Melonie hit her in the eye on accident so she didn't give it back. It was a phunni show to watch. Well I got a new phone number also. Some guy kept following me around saying he wanted to be with me until he finally figured out I was not open to him. Only one person.... You know who you are... Wonder if you even read this... Anywayz. The guys number I got had the kewlest hair I swear. He had it in little tiny pony tails it was maybe and inch inch and a half long and he put gel on it so it spiked up. the top was bleached. It was fucking awesome. I got a whole bunch of hugs. Curly was both high and drunk. Bad Curly. Cept I forgot to punch him in his stomach. I was allowed too. Damn me being so forgetful. I went into 579 but I couldnt stand it so I didtched my friend in there. Saw Mike. He keeps complaining that I pop out of no where and it scares him. He also said he was going to callo me todai and he didn't. Stupid asshole. LoL. Oh well. I made a few people mad at me and I feel realy bad about that. Unfournately I can't apologize because they aren't home. Ugh... Nobody is ever home when I need to apologize. Well I am going to go back to singing. Later.

11:53PM - ...

I really do give up. On every guy and everything and everyone. They can't understand nor do they have the will power to take the tyme to learn how to. It is really sad but I understand it. Nobody really cares that much about me to do that for me so oh well. What's new? I really want this one guy but I am helpign him get someone else. I don't know why I want him but for some strange reason I keep telling him things I would never tell anyone else. It is almost like I trust him but I don't know why. It's so ocnfusing. I wish I could understand it. I guess it will take awhile. I am bored. Oh well. Tyme to do something stupid. I wonder what it is for todai? Do you know?

11:48PM

Vampire Goth -- Perhaps the closest to the
"lolo goth," you are morbid and
dreary. You like to make people feel
uncomfortable around you, and you're happiest
when going to a highly public place with enough
friends who share your interests to make
massive crowds shifty. You have an unusual
liking to blood.


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10:10PM

May the pain I feel
Cure you
The suffering I recieve
Revive you
Find your lost soul
So I can leave

8:44PM - ????

I haven't anything worth while in here for awhile so I might as well do it todai I got the cutest teddi bear from Michael. He's old but means so much more than a new teddi bear ever could. I made him into a punk. He's got a pike necklace around his neck and little black 69 bracelets around his feet. I met a really sweet guy named Josh last Fridai. He's a junior at Potomac. The police wouldn't let me and him stand in front of the mall and wait for our rides(his was the bus to fairfax and i tohught it came again but never did so now I feel bad) so they told us to take a walk. I was walking around with him for fifteen minutes before my ride came. I got his number after that and talked to him for four hours on the phone on Mondai. I really like him. But he broke up with his girlfriend not to long ago on a Saturdai. So I don't really want to do anything with him right now because he's on rebound and that is wrong. I also don't think he likes me so that's alright. But now I've got aplace to go if I ever need to get away from here and a movie buddy. Neither of us really have people to go out and watch movies with so we agreeed we would be movie buddies. Which is awesome because now I can go see movies. We pretty much just talked about everyone and everything. It was really nice. Never done that before. So I felt special, though I was freezing at the tyme. Caryn has got a new boyfriend his name is Tim, he is a curly fry(not a food fry) but that is ok, curly fries are awesome(not a food fry). Rachel's got a new boyfriend too I just don't know who it is or the name I forgot it. Poor Patrick is still all alone. Maybe I should laugh in his face. I probaly will soon enough for one reason or another. Me and Caryn seriously injured Josh at school. He was limping and it was hilarious to watch him walk down the halls. We also made David hop around the halls. They were making phun of curly frys(not the food) and us. I felt so unloved so I kicked'em. I need some steel toed boots then they will know real pain. MWA HA HA HA. Hey I just relized something, I am in a good mood. Itz a miracle. Probaly end soon but itz good while it lasts. I want someone to cuddle with. Curly is getting amancipated from his family which kind of sucks but is kind of good. Itz not going to be as easy as he thinks but he is going to have to find out on his own. MMMMM...green...tea...confused...happy...good...strange...I don't know why I was doing that. Oh well. Ok well I am going to go to something stupid and pointless. Buh Bye.

3:20PM - Bored

I am going out soon. YAY~!

4:31PM - Hehe

schizoid


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4:37PM - Depressed

I got an Invader Zim poster and as my friend calls them Wicked With of the West socks(knee length black and white striped socks) on Saturdai.Everyone is getting mad at me. Some of them I don't even knwo why. I can't believe Matt didn't tell me he was jumped. Jonas is just being an ass and talking about what my bro and Robert think of me which really hurts. They think I am a whore and a slut. Just like my dad. Guess it happens. Caryn is just being a bitch she went off on me for no reason at all. I just miss being myself without all these friends. Hiding in the corners with no one to notice thers somethnig wrong. I am going to start keeping to myself again and hiding from everyone like I used too. I'll be a lot better off. And only talkign to peopel when they talk to me. Aside from a few people (two or three) I am going to do that. Time to go back to hiding in a little shell and letting no one in. I wish my step-brother wsn't so annoying he's standing in the background bitching bout everything. Stupid motherfucking asshole. Well I got busy last Sundai so I didn't get to get my lip pierced but I am doing it this Sundai. I got the best little teddi bear in the world from Micheal. I kinda accidently stabbed myself weith a needle while trying to sew and kinda ruined the fabric. Well back to my little shell in which I shall hide. Bye whoever actually reads this.

6:28PM

Your magical style is Witch.

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6:21PM

You are a vampire.

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5:58PM - Boredom

Insanity

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Damnit!








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5:50PM - Tests yet again

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Head Vampire

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5:37PM - Tests

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	High
Schizoid:	High
Schizotypal:	Very High
Antisocial:	High
Borderline:	Very High
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Low
Avoidant:	Moderate
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	High
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You heart is black. You don't let people in, you don't want to let people in, in fact you hate all humans. Your heart is dead and you know what?! Either you or someone who was clase to you killed it...and you really don't give a shit either way.

I feel so special. Both of these are very true. Oh well. Lates

5:21PM

Hey. I am so angry. I called off my plans with Will AND Micheal. Now Micheal is mad at em and I feel really bad about it. Though I did tell him "Fuck you" but he keeps saying things that arent true which is really rude and i dont like it. But that really isn't much of an excuse is it. I sure as hell dont think so. I really wish I hadn't said it. I am just really fucking up badly lately. And a lot of my bad habits are getting worse which isnt good at all. But it's my fault and I need to get over it. I am going to have to hand wash my stuffed monkey later which really sucks. It takes froever to do it and forever to dry them. But he's getting nasty so I guess its ok to do it this tyme. I already did it to one of me older ones and that took long enough and he was also smaller. But thats ok they are always seen when someone walks in my room so they must be clean. They hangs on my walls. I'm getting a huge collection of random alchol bottles that will nicely decorate my room. It is so going to be so strange yet cool. Oh well. I don't really know much of what I am doing anymore. Maybe I'll find out a different. I have been drawing and writing a lot lately because I am depressed. I just wish I had someone to go to. This little journal; shit only helps a little I can't write what I truely feel because it may be read by people i dont want to(nto that this isn't true just the rest). I would kill if some people found out certain facts. Myself that is. Well I am going to go work on my useless shit (drawings,poems,writing.etc...) Later