I am updating this ya happy Froggy? I have been to busy later to bother with it. My friends girlfriend is dying which really sucks becuase she is the only one who can make him smile. I am trying to think of a way to save her. I lost pretty much all my friends. Then again I never had that much to begin with so ti doesn't matter. Everybody's got somebody and I am all alone. It sucks but I've gotten used to it. I am working on my website but it is far from finished. I have a horrible sun burn and my ankle is fucked up badly. It is severly sprained and the side of my hand is bruised so it hurts when I move it. I am jsut full of injuries. I have stopped cutting though on account of a deal. I drew some huge poster with both forms GIR form Invader Zim and Gaz. Heh my favorite cartoon charaters. Well Ima go later.
Dark Waver/ New Waver, you are the most traditional
goth music, and the most dancy. you know your
80s music, you are into probably all other
types of goth music. your hair is probably the
most uinque other than the horror punks. you
may very well have a mohawk too!
What genre of gothic music do you fit in best?
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Lets seee. I have been realy sick. I could barely walk for awhile. So I missed a lot of my exams and my concert. Which really sucks because that is going to bring my grade down dramatically. Oh well fuck it that teacher is a fucking bitch anyway. I am going to try and go up to the mall on Friday. If I do I am going to have sooooo much phun. Hehe. This is going to be strange for anyone who actually knows me because I stopped wearing skirts when I was six years old. And plus the fact I have shorth air which I have never had in my entire life. So I am ggoing to have lots of phun with that. Hehe. Well I gotta do other things now. Later.
I am bored...
Well lets see many things have happened since I last wrote in here. I found out people actually read this thing so I guess its different now. LoL. Well I went over to Mel's all the weekends I have not written. Let's see I got to stab to Mexicans becuase they were going to rape me and Mel, I GOT TO SEE JOSH!!!! YAY!!! MIRACLE!!!!, I got in a huge fight with my parents which caused my step-dad to attempt to kill me by pushing me down a flight of stairs. Hmmm what else... I pissed off Josh, My entire family, and Will. I am sorry to Will and Josh but fuck my family they don't give a flying fuck about me. So my dad called up to see if I was pregnent yet. What a nice Dad. I felt so glad I'd stabbed him right then. I cursed him out and hung up the phone. I got to get a piggy back ride from Josh, finally gets Jakes number after knowing him since August I believe. ITZ MIRACLE!!! Now Melanies dad expects me to clean up their house which is a bunch of bull. My chorus got first place in comptetition(we are a show chrous cant spell the other word). I almost killed myself, Caryn, and Rachel. God I hate them so much, they afraid to get near me now, they send messengers stupid preps(no offense to anyone). My door is busted and I busted a few objects myself. I got a new monkey at comptetion. We went to Kings Dominion after the competeion and hung out for bout 8 or 9 hours til teh awards ceremony in which tyme I bought a stone with I *heart* you engraved in it for someone, got a new monkey that a different Josh bought me, took pictures of people posing for the cam(some hilarious pictures there too, wish i had a scanner), got to play with this jelly ball ill call it(it was green and mushy and for those dirty minded pervs THATS NASTY), and ate some awesome food. But it was fucking expensive.
Aren't I nice?
The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
|Purgatory (Repenting Believers)||Very Low|
|Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)||Very Low|
|Level 2 (Lustful)||High|
|Level 3 (Gluttonous)||Moderate|
|Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)||High|
|Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)||Extreme|
|Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)||Very High|
|Level 7 (Violent)||Extreme|
|Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)||Extreme|
|Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)||Very High|
Sorry I haven't updated in a while. I've been busy or out. Last weekend I almost killed Caryn and Rachel. Stupid bitches deserve to die. Say getting raped is my fault and I deserved it and they're proud... Ok but anyway. I went up to the mall on Friday and Will blew me off because he said it didn't feel right, I forgive him but I am still a little pissed about it. I started cutting my hand while I was waiting. It is cut to little shreds now. So beautful. I got three new shiny razors to "play" with. So thats good. Melonie came up around 8 so we hung out and yelled random things again. It is so entertaining. People will give you the strangest reactions. I found out Phillip is on the run for 1 1/2 years so he doesn't get locked up and the chrges will be dropped. I cuddled up with him. I hadn't seen him for a long time because he's been in and out of jail. We went back to her place and her and her stupid fat ass tipped the recliner back more than twenty times. I had nothing to do with it she weighs bout thirty pounds more than me I only weigh ninety-four... I am REALLY small. Then we went outside to jump on her two trampolines. Since it was raining the trampolines were soaking wet. Not to mention we were both wearing white shirts with no bras just to fuck with those Mexicans. It was fucking entertaining. Heh.... Then we jumped in the hott tub with our clothes on. When we got out we had to peel the clothes off and run down the house naked to get our towels. LoL. melonie attempted to cook bacon which when she dropped a piece shattered into a million pieces on the floor. Needless to say we didn't eat it. Though we ate the rest she hadn't cooked raw. Yummi (I love raw meat). We went to sleep late. We woke up to find Ricky and Sean at the doorstep hitting the little door ring button(forgot what they are called). We opened the door and we had fallen asleep in our towels so we ran to find something to wear. We brought the little kittens out and I hit Ricky a couple of times for abusing the little kitten that he nicknamed Tanya(my name, the real name of it is Doorknob). Poor kittens names are Doorknob, Doorstep, and Cabinet. I swear they are gonna go vicious. Ricky batted a rock in Seans head and one into the Mexicans car. We went up to the mall later that night. Well Josh blew me off that time. I won't ever ask him to go anywhere with me anymore. It was rude. So I cursed him out and well.... Anyways we saw Stefan making out with some girl that wasn't Melonie so he got it. We just ditched him and walked up to Spencers. We bought glow in the dark cum looking gunk. I almost bought Rachel a sign that said 'Free Dick Rides'. She really is a whore. She prolly has AIDS. She has had sex with over 5 guys in a year. i mean really now. Stupid little whore. LoL. And we bought some pop-rocks. I also bought some silver hair dye and put some streaks in my hair. It looked fucking awesome. So when we left we walked down to Highs/7-11. When we were leaving with out candy and shit these Mexicans started following us. We told them to leave us alone but they were intent on raping us. They tried to follow us to her house. But I pulled out a knife. Held it up and said "I am a crazy white bitch, keep following us and I'll stab you." LoL. It worked to... We went back and ate our food. Then watched movies and fell asleep. On Sunday we wento ut on the boat. On the wakes and waves the boat flew up twelve feet(are friends in the boat over told us). I kept tumbling forward into the cocpit bed thing. I have a huge bruises now. Thank god I didn't tan. I woulda been so angry. We pushed Elizabeth(who had Jeans and a White wife beater on) in to the water. When she got up we gave her a towel then pushed her back in again. It was so much fun. Poor little Elizabeth. So we pointed and laughed. Those people finally figured out I cut becuase all the scars on me. We went up to Tim's and ate. I GOT SOME CRABBY!!!!!! This little girl was playing on the floating dock and she fell in the water. She was maybe 4. Well the online reason she lived is because the rope she grabbed onto. Elizabeth went over and took the kid back to her parents. Herp arents started screming aat her acting like it was her fault for falling in. So elizabeth yelled something along the lines of its your fault you guys were drunk and werent watching your fucking kid. They continued to yell at the little girl so Elizabeth punched the mom in the face and left. We quickly left the restaurant thing. I also got drunk off the bicardi and other liquors they put in the sprites. We left the boat and I went home. So now I am here typing this for no reason. LoL. i had a good weekend but my head still hurts and aside from the fact that I keep wanting Will more by everday that passes.. Later.
Ok if I remember correctly I left off with me and Melonie on the roof eating candi and her doing my hair. A little while after we got on the roof the kittens were in my pants. It weas a weird feeling. Not good but not bad. Just kinda neutral, ya know? Then some guy named Sean came up to visit her, he's hot but not for me... I know who is... You know who you are... THE KISSES!!! LoL. I left her and Sean alone, she called her cell from her phone outside trying to get my attention, it didn't work. Oh well. Then they came inside so we sat in her room, I threw the huge wooden shoe at him. I am so charming aren't I? But anyway not too logn after he had to leave. He's bread that he had bought was literally sweating. He had to get it home. Caitlin and Hana came out of no where. There was a who throws the stuffed animals best contest. I tihnk Hana won but I don't know I couldn't see the stuffies were flying everywhere. Then we went downstairs and Caitlin went otuside so we locked her out there. She took a bucket and started throwing the water from it at the doors and windows trying to get in. So I took a bucket filled it up and poured it on her. She got pissed and walked off. When she came back me and Melonie were having a pillow fight. She joined in. Then me and Mel ganged up on her and she fell to the ground. Needless to say, WE WON!!!! MUA HA HA HA!!! We walked down to Willowbrook to visit Mel's sis. But got taken away by the Ice Cream Women who we bought snow cones and fudgesicles and she like that from. We visited her again when Micheal bought us somemore. Such a nice guy. LoL!! Then we went back home(Melonies a.k.a my second home now). Caitlin and Hana left and Mel finished up my hair then I went home. And here I am now writing this for no apparent reason/ I left out a lot of details but oh well. Umm..... Ima go, Later.
Hello peopel I have been gone since Friday over at Melonies house. On Friday I saw a movie with Will and God i want him to come and see me but he's busy. *sniffles* THE KISSES!!!! Mel became and picked me up and took me to the mall with her. We stalked some guys around the mall for no apparent reason gave out money to the hot ones. And asked one strange question have you ever fucked a constapated cow or monkey. One guy said he jacked off a constapated cow but thats it. We got some weird stares. Then we went back to her house didn't even know I was staying until about the second we were in front of her house and I called mine. We sat around talking for a little bit then we walked down to High's(at 10:30 p.m.), it's the old 7-11. We bouts $21.27 worth of candy and were happy about that, the clerk gabve us some nice stares trying to figure out how we were so small and ate that much candy. When we walked back these cars stopped for us asking for eityher sex or head. So I explained to them that I am lesbian and perfer the pussy over the dick(I am not in real life). One guy was being extremely disgusting about it. When we got back we played on her computer and had some fights with various objects and throwing them at each other. At onei n the morning we went grabbed the lap top and layed on the roof with some blankys and watched Jackass. OMG! Those people in there get hard of the strangest things and have the weakest stomachs. They puke over nothing. That guy shoved a toy car up his ass then got a x-ray of it, strange people. That stupid bitch kept stealing my blanky so I got sick. LoL. She left me up on the freezing to death. Then I took her kittens after movie was over and made them fall asleep on me. It was so cute. I WANT CABINET!!!! LoL. I think she was bored when she named her cat cabinet, doorstep, and doorknob. I went to bed round 5, 5:15. The kittys came bnack to me. In the morning or wghen we woke up morning to us we sat on the roof ansd she did my hair up in braids. Didn't get it done until a few minutes ago. Ugh I can't type anymore I will finish this up later. Lates.
The camera in the corner
Why I'm nailed to a cross
Hanging from the ceiling
My last words
My final stuggle
The last breath
I'll ever take
You'll see what it felt like
You couldn't shed
Living a life
I never really lived
But the smiles that last forever
See what all of you did to me
On the camera
In the corner
I was rewriting my poems in a different book earliar it took like 3 or 4 hours but I found this one. I rather like it, and some of my other ones. I was so messed up yesterday I still am. There are 64 cuts on my right leg on the lefth alf of it. I counted I had a nice stream of blood running down it rather beautiful as a matter a fact. After that I passed out for a while. The phone made me get up so I broke it.... I didn't do it. I also have the flu and all I am just so sick of this place. I swear I wanna leave so quickly. And Frog I am sorry I shouldn'tve said that. If anybody wants to have more of my poems jsut ask me and I'll send sum to you but don't you dare steal them I'll hunt ya down. Ima do something more entertaining. And Frog you can't hurtself. Understood?
I went to my friends party for her birthday yesterdai. We didn't get drunk or anything and nothing bad happened but amazingly I had a good time and I got a couple things out of it(I took them from Patrick and Zeb... hehe I'm a good person). It was really small Me, Patrick, Her, Tim, Josh, Zeb, Sam, and Rachel. We just screamed and shit for awhile and I got to beat the shit out of Patrick, Zeb, and Josh. Nobody stopped me only whn I went after Tim for touching Caryn and getting hard. My new word for him is boing. So we went upstairs and we all gave our present to Caryn. She got about fifteen movies, two hoodies, a watch, a ring (from Tim), a bracelet(from Tim), a teddi bear, four monkeys, money and shit like that. So we went and watched the ring and I found ot if I try I can look like that demented child, I am so proud. Uh oh. Gots to go trouble. Later.
Remind me never to call a damn store ever again. Tehy take forever to load anything and to figure out if they have it there. And to make it worse spending thrity minuteso n the phone got me no its not here and none of our tores have it. Damn it now I have to order it off the net. Didn't go to school today, not surprising at all. Actually its more normal than anything/ I have missed thrity some odd days and I am still passing. Thank whatever is real. My nipple hurts like hell. And I am sick. I am jsut not having a good day. How am I to order this thing off the net if I don't even own a fucking credit card? Ugh. Damn stores. I will burn them all. MUA HA HA HA!!! Anyway my sick ass is going to go out or to something more interesting right now. Later.
Stupid quizzes that I stole from my friends site
You are Vlad the Impaler. The man behind the legend
of Dracula. You hanged your victims, stretched
them on the rack, burned them at the stake,
boiled them alive, but mostly impaled them.
Most of your killings were politically targeted
but sometimes you killed just because you were
bored. Your "reign of terror" lasted
from 1456 to 1462. Estimated numbers of victims
vary between 30,000 and more than 100,000.
Evil Evil man. Fie on you!
Which Imfamous criminal are you?
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Psycho. You are overwhelmed by anger. You may even
hate the world and everything in it and you
believe revenge is the way of the world. An eye
for an eye.
How Emotional Are You?
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You are burning
What Self-Mutilation Are You?
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This is from my actual diary.
I hate this war, all my friend are having to go into a mindless war because they joined the military not even thinkg there might actually be a war. It is bull shit. Stupid fucking Bush. Its only to heighten the family business, family pride, and to boost the economy. Killing people shouldn't be the price to boost our economy. But the worst part of it all is Little Froggy might be leaving to go into there. I gave him all of my heart and told him he could do whatever he wanted to with it. Though he will probaly never give his back in return. I also won't take my heart back. Caryn is being her normal self again(conceded only caring about herself bitch). She sits there going 'I don't know if Tim loves me anymore he pulled away from my hug.' It is bull. I mean god its a fucking hug maybe he wasn't feeling well and didn't want hjer to get sick or maybe he was in a rush to get some where. She always wants to think teh worst of things. Stupid bitch doesn't even relize what she has. I mean I am the one who got told to leave my house, more like kicked out, gets bitched at, and taken advantage so much and she thinks she's got it rough just because Tim pulled away from a hug. She has never had anything bad happen to her, I know this because I know everything about her. Her little dillusional world needs to end and she needs to relize she's not worse off, in fact she's got it better than most and to stop caring about only herself. You know it, I think I am goign to leave here. I need to find a place to stay. Hmmmmm.... Hopefully I'll find one. I really hope I do, I need to get the fuck out of her. The longest I'd stay at my friends is like a month, but that is only if they approved and I was welcome there. Otherwise I prolly wouldn't even go. And fucking calling Caryn to tell her if I'm ok, she prolly won't even notice I am gone. Most people prolly won't. Little Froggy will probaly be happy once he figures it out and the rest will be good riddance to bad rubbish. Oh yea I found out another good thing, just because I missed about forty days of school doesn't mean I will fail. Which is really good as long as they are excuse I make up the work pass my classes and pass my weird little tests thingys that I forgot the name too I should be fine. Which so far I am good in all areas of that. Hope it stays that way otherwise I am out of the program and screwed. Stupid class is boring me to death. Stupid teacher needs a new job. Ignorant me needs friends. I mean I have people I hang out with but none are really friends. I mean they consider me their friend because I am always there for them whenever they come to me and I am their shoulder to lean on. Sometymes I wish I had one. But there is very little people I trust and even when I trust them I don't want to burden my problems on them. I wish that the one person I love would be there for me and just hold me. I had a dream bout him theo ther night. We were laying together on the hoodo of his car, holding each other, and looking at the stars. It was so serene. I wish it would just happen for real. But the Little Froggy will never have me. Oh well. The least I can do is get him a girl he will love. I want the best for him. Well I think its tyme I get the fuck out of this boring class.
Isn't that nice? LoL. Well that pretty much explains a lot and now I am sick of starring at the same site so I am done with this. Later people.
On Saturdai I went out to the all to meet up with a couple of people. I went 2 hours early to spend tyme with a good friend. Which unfournately for two hours I waited for a guy who didn't come. It was mean. I accidently knocked some guy out because I hit him too hard when he was looking down my shirt he deserved it. Hmph. As I was walking in from outside I hit a guys arm with the door and had to run like hell because it looked bent the wrong way. It was hilarious I shouted "Sorry" as I ran down the little hall. When I met up with Patrick and Rachel I started screaming and yelling for no apparent reason. All the people were starring at me so I just kept doing stupid shit to amuse them. I ran aroudn the mall, then saw Melonie and tried to take her skateboard(well her brothers). I had Patrick lift me up like Simba in the Lion King so I could try and see the snow but I just fell on the concrete. Fall and go boom. Then I had him push me around in the little shopping cart which was entertaining till the stupid fucker tipped it over and ran like hell. We were walkign to the movies when we found Jenn and Eric, who told us Caryn was there and crying because she got stood up by her boyfriend. I took my shoes off and started sliding to her andm ade Rachel carry them. I fell on my ass on the stairs. When I saw Caryn I gave her the little stuffed monkey and gave her a hug. Someone tripped me so I fell and lost my gum, later I found it in my hair and had to freeze it out. Patrick payed for all of our tickets to see the movie so I gacve him a hug. In the movie theatre I flashed the seventy people twice.When I went home I decided to spend the night at Caryn's so when they came to get us I had to get in the car and sit on her mom's lap in the back seat and Eric was sitting on Jenn's and Monica and Angela and Caryn had their own seats. In al ittle five seat car we all fitted in. When I got to her house we bleached Angela(who hates me) hair and a little of Caryn's, made her a lepord. Thats when I foudn the gum so I froze it out so I didn't have to chop my hair off. In the morning Caryn hadn't got all the bleach out of her hair when we had washed it(she washed mine in the sink because I couldn't do it, ignorant me). I had to leave really wearly though. That was my weekend. How bout yours?
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