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A quick recap [27 Jun 2007|02:11am]
The turmoil of 07....
1.)BYU
2.)Beth
3.)Chemistry and Bio
4.)"The Fall"
5.)Brittany
6.)Moving to Belmont
7.)Getting an actual job
8.)Custodial
9.)APXAlarm Data Entry
10.) The Twins
11.) Rehab
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I'm back [27 Jun 2007|02:04am]
So its been a while since i've been on here. What purpose do i have to start writing here again. All i know is that i do have some pent up feelings. I"m so sick and tired of failing, and yes no one likes a complainer especially ourselves, or rather to ourselves, we know what we must do i know what I MUST do and yet i seem to fall in the same vicious cycle, the funny thing is that there is nothing that is making me do the things that i do. i can stop i can be free, but i let myself fall, so eventually inevitable i'm the cause of my own demise its not anybody its me. yes outside forces can play a great role in that...but i've decided that its just me. i need to let go of me.
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[12 Feb 2007|07:30pm]
tired....very tired...midterms suck...and oh..i'm addicted to facebook...so u'll find me there this journal is dyin'
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[10 Feb 2007|10:37am]
I have to ditch the Brit-party-hopping tactics......
We went to Salsa Chocolatte yesterday till the wee hours of the morning..and i'm tired....I need to be innocent again, what happened to my spirituality its like i unleashed this beast of blah....ugh....
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[06 Feb 2007|03:12pm]
Awkward....i hate this....when I finally meet a girl I like, she wants to take things slow...and i'm just really frustrated...oh well..she's worth it.....BUT.....the awkwardness is that i'm here at the WILC and there's this guy thats staring at me, i can't move because my laptop is plugged to the wall and there's no other place for me to sit. So i'm angling myself to the point where people can't see me.
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A New Obsession [04 Feb 2007|11:09am]
FACEBOOK....Everybody...gimme ur names full please so I can add you to the most extensive network of people out there!
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Flying by [02 Feb 2007|08:16am]
I can't believe how fast time has flown by it just seems like it was yesterday when i stepped onto campus and thought to myself what the heck is going to happen to me, i don't know anybody here and all i have is michelle, which is good because all we have is each other. Several weeks have gone by and it seems like i've been here for ages, enough drama has happened to fill the lives of any normal human being. Just to recap a few.
I've been on 7 dates, 3 girls, a break up of which was mutual. but somehow this was different and i feel like a total jerk for doing what i did. Beth called me first and i understood that, she was trying to protect herself formt he hurt that she might have felt had i initiated the break up. Here was the convo verbatim
Me:"Hey Beth, you said you wanted to talk to me?"
Beth:" Yeah, I had a crisis this weekend, so that's why i haven't been answering my phone."
Me: "I'm sorry, are you okay?"
Beth:"Yeah I'm fine, but I don't think that we should doing what we're doing, we shouldn't see each other anymore, i don't know what WE are...."
Me:" Oh....Well thats GREAT!...Yeah thats fine, its not like there was commitment anyway."
Beth: "Oh that's how you saw it..............."
Me:" Well no hurt feelings here...see ya Beth."...*click*
WHAT AN IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She was totally testing me, but I don't have time for games, i don't even have time for myself. I have two tests coming up this weekend so so much for trying to ask Debi out. Whatever, I'm so done with dating for a little bit. I know I know, its only been one kinda serious girlfriend. The pursuit to find a wife and make little Mikey's wll continue. There's just so many damn distractions, and I can't keep interest on a girl for more than five seconds...
Anyway, it gets better, i dont know if its me or if its my roomate but i can't stand him anymore. Like last night, i don't know why he did what he did and he knew it bugged me too. Well i had to finish writing this editorial for english and while i was trying to focus he goes ahead and pumps his crap out from his guitar...annoying...well i have to go print my paper...more drama later....
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its over! [30 Jan 2007|11:37am]
[ music | My Love - JS ]

Chem test is over but I got a C yay!!! And to top it all off the Professor decided that everybody could redo their work SOOO we can get like 1/3 of our credit back...which would be awesome...that would bring my grade back up to a B so...no worries on my end.
Well its finally over, the Mike-Beth age of my life has finally ended. She called yesterday and we've made it official we are not together anymore, which is fine with me, i wasn't ready for commitment and now me and matt have made a pack that we were going to be on our search for the "right" one, but i'm definitely gonna have fun on the way to true love. So anyway, everyone's been wondering how i'm taking it, i'm like "Um hello? Remember I didn't want this the first place?" I was just testing the waters and the waters were nice, although she's not my type. I am considering someone, but...I don't think that I could go through that again.

This is directed to Justin and wowie:
My life right now is in a "step by step" change, i'm not gonna hit the ground running without making small baby steps first. So I hope you catch the drift.

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Ahora Empieza... [28 Jan 2007|04:48pm]
Well our home teachers invited us for dinner so that will be awesome, Jason's making pot roast, and Stan is making potatoes: how american, but that's okay, Jason promised to make us something French next time, after all that studying abroad in France. THEN Kimi invited us to her house for desert, and I totally forgot to make one so me an Daniella Lopez are hooking up to make brownies!
FINALLY got a hold of Eric, who is impossible to get, so now we have his CD's and I'm way excited!!! SO..i have to get ready, the din din starts soon. And Ashleigh is still making her pie SOo this all works out, AH crazy Sunday but its full of food so i"m excited!
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And I'm not ready [28 Jan 2007|11:07am]
And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that itll be okay
Yeah, I try to believe you
But I dont

When you say that its gonna be
It always turns out to be a different way
I try to believe you
Not today, today, today, today, today

[chorus]
I dont know how Ill feel
Tomorrow
Tomorrow
I dont know what to say
Tomorrow
Tomorrow is a different day
Tomorrow

Its always been up to you
Lets turn it around, its up to me
Im gonna do what I have to do
Just dont

Give me a little time
Leave me alone a little while
Maybe its not too late
Not today, today, today, today, today
Oh

[chorus]
I dont know how Ill feel
Tomorrow
Tomorrow
I dont know what to say
Tomorrow
Tomorrow is a different day

Hey, yeah, yeah
Hey, yeah, yeah
And I know Im not ready
Hey, yeah, yeah
Hey, yeah, yeah
Maybe tomorrow
Hey, yeah, yeah
Hey, yeah, yeah
Im not ready
Hey, yeah, yeah
Hey, yeah, yeah
Maybe tomorrow

And I wanna believe you
When you tell me that itll be okay
Yeah, I try to believe you
Not today, today, today, today, today
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change
Tomorrow it may change
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Somewhere between... [28 Jan 2007|10:46am]
[ mood | confused ]
[ music | Remember when it rained - Josh Groban ]

I'm so sorry for not updating in the longest time. Although I do have pretty legit reasons why I haven't been. This past week was seriously like the trial of my life. I've never stressed out over a test before, I mean I didn't even flinch for the Math exam but the Chemistry I've never been so involved with electrons and their abbreviated configurations, and how the uncertaintiy principle disproves the Bohr Model explanation of the atom. AHH!!!! All i can think of is SI units and....ok shutting up now. Just trying to prove that it was insane. But the weekend just got more insane...

So its Friday night...I totally needed a breather, in fact I totally just celebrated the fact that I survived that stupid Chem test. I think I did ok (still hung up on it! See what I mean?) So anyway, We got invited to this party next door, it was Ashleigh's birthday party...and the theme was Ghetto...I didn't want to go solo so I call up my unofficial girlfriend, Beth, and she says yes. Well it was like 3 hours before the party started, so we went to 368 red brick (I LOVE THOSE GIRLS...) anway, SOOO we chilled with Tori, Amy, Meghan, and Leslie...SO funny...n e wayz...Tori was like, her friend plays in this bad so she invited us to it, i figure, meh...Ash's bday party...or alone time with Beth...I picked the latter. We drove to downtown Provo and went in to Velour...it was like the Knitting Factory in LA where upcoming bands make their first appearances or old artists come just to perform. It was awesome, people sitting on the floor mediterranean feel to it, stained glass windows and a theater like seating it was so laid back in there, i love that place now. We started making out...and it was great...it was amazing....but i don't feel anything. So why would I say great? for the simple fact that no other girl, ever has made me feel so comfortable...but at the same time....its not "that" feeling!...of love....And i don't want to hurt her.
The night ended nice....
Saturday there was a social dance at the WILC so we went there with 368 (the girls). And well I had a good talk with Les and she encouraged me to go tell Beth how I felt about the whole situation...and so I went over to Ashleigh's and role played the situation out with her and Lindsay. SO.......This....kinda break up shouldn't be hard...but this is where it really hurts. Yes, I may have come off as a jerk, asking for kisses way too soon. But I called her, she told me she was making dinner so I asked if I could come over and maybe have alone time with her, after all, that's what she kept telling me. (I slept in her arms the night before....on the couch, with other people there...and it was..*sigh*)...BUT then she told me she was tired and told me that she didn't want to be the reason why I had bad grades...so I was totally blind sided did she beat me to the punch? So I took her word for it. I was having withdrawals so I went to visit at 12:30 at night, and she wasn't home...so I was like..maybe at the neighbors..and she wasn't there either. Hmmm.....nevermind.....Maybe she's dropping hints....

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Lost and Found [24 Jan 2007|02:24pm]
BYU has an amazing Lost and Found...Sorry I had to just say that because I lost my key yesterday and this is a dang small key and they had it at the lost and found among many other things. That also means I don't have to pay 50$ just to replace that key. OMG, seriously I almost paid for it yesterday and good thing I didn't, THANK YOU GOD!!...no seriously! I kept wanting to pay the amount but, something kept holding me back from doing it, so I definitely know there was divine intervention there.
Nothing has changed, me and Beth are going out this weekend. yay! Got a C on my math test, suck! It was a mixture of over confidence and dumbness on my part. I can't behind the excuse that i'm an RM, so yeah, i'll just pay more attention to my Chinese speaking math teacher, yes that implies he can't speak English. Pretty much all I do is talk to Kyle and Ted the whole time. Kyle lived in La Crescenta and so his school apparently went against Hoover a lot....SO we make fun of Armos still....
Um....i'm re-doing my OE article and doing it on the inconvenience of labeling products with complicated terms. "Large vs. Venti" yeah, fun times...
My social life is seriously so packed with activities of which i HAVE to eliminate. Tori said hi point black today and I didn't see her, I'll have to go apologize later. 368 Red Brick YEEEAAHH!!!! Oh and Katie at Granary she's my dance partner...
N e wayz....I wonder if Eric is home, he owes me those CD's.....bah...i'll nap i Have a chem test to freak out about....
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A Plain Morning [21 Jan 2007|09:49am]
It's yet to be determined,
but the air is thick,
and my hope is feeling worn.
I'm missing home,
and I'm glad you're not a part of this,
there's parts of me that will be missed.
And the phone is always dead to me,
so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping
and it feels like.

It's colder than it ought to be in March
and I still got a day or two ahead of me
till I'll be heading home,
into your arms again.
And the people here are asking after you.
It doesn't make it easier.
It doesn't make it easier to be away.(to be away)

I'd like to hire a plane.(a plane)
I'd see you in the morning, (morning)
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again. (I'm coming home again)
Coming home again. (again)
Coming home again. (again)
When the day is fresh,
I'm coming home again.(I'm coming home again)

But it's warmer where you're waiting.
It feels more like July.
There's pillows in their cases,
and one of those is mine.
And you wrote the words "I love you",
and sprayed it with perfume.
It's better than the fire is
to heat this lonely room.
It's warmer where you're waiting
It feels more like July.
It feels more like July.

It's yet to be determined,
but the air is thick,
and my hope is feeling worn.
I'm missing home,
and I'm glad you're not a part of this,
there's parts of me that will be missed.
And the phone is always dead to me,
so I can't tell you the temperature is dropping
and it feels like.

It's colder than it ought to be in March
and I still got a day or two ahead of me
till I'll be heading home,
into your arms again.
And the people here are asking after you.
It doesn't make it easier. (easier)
It doesn't make it easier to be away.(to be away)

I'd like to hire a plane.(a plane)
I'd see you in the morning, (morning)
when the day is fresh.
I'm coming home again. (I'm coming home again)
Coming home again. (again)
Coming home again. (again)
When the day is fresh,
I'm coming home again.(I'm coming home again)
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A Plain Day [20 Jan 2007|06:02pm]
[ mood | cold ]
[ music | Sway - Bic Runga ]

First of all, Justin, i know what you're thinking, with what i'm about to say don't allude to Britney Spears, even though it may seem that way.
Yesterday, went party hopping, and when i meant party hopping, it was just two parties. Both had really different natures too. The first one was Stan's birthday which was so embarrassing because I didn't even know who the guy was. So i get there at the party with the Y-front crew (my apartment), and i was asking everybody, who the heck Stan was so I could say happy birthday. Well, he happened to be just standing right in front of me, so that was really stupid. Stupid point of the night.
Anyway, the night got more interesting because Beth, my non-exclusive girlfriend decided to come with me to Club Flix, grand opening was from 11:30pm to 1:30am. So we went clubbing there with Michelle and her uber fiesty friend Ashley ( really really strange gurl). Well it was worth it, we got our groove on and yes we partied with our underwear on, thermals to be specific.

Now for the grand finale....My first kiss....was last nite, with Beth, and wow......it was just...wow......

Um....then got home, was totally still wired from the kiss so I watched like two episodes of Ugly Betty. I don't know why, but i LOVE that show. It's captivating...
Went to another party today with Beth, she threw it actually it was at the Colony Apartments. It was "Revisit Our Childhoold party" So we did fingerpainting and cereal necklaces coloring books, it was really cute, it was awkward, cuz this one gurl kept looking at me and beth and was like...My boyfriend is hotter than yours, its okay cuz i'm sorry I looked way hot today (hahahahah CONCEITED ME..yeah, nothing's changed)....

Gurl, "Beth, Let's play show and tell, who's he?"
Beth, "Mike" and she hugs me
Gurl,"This is John" she leans over and starts rubbing his leg. Slut, hahaha, we weren't competing, but you'd have to admit we were a cute couple...

So i'm home now, its six and i have to go to the library and be mature and get A's and all that jazz....So far, i'm doing OKAY....There's this one guy in my math class...weird..what do you do when you get hit on by guys? Oh well, i'll just sit at the front. But he's already having me do favors for him...SICKOS..he asked me to turn in his homework for him...hahaha....
ANYway...I'm eating Weston's awesome peanut butter pie...yummy! Oh about that, Michelle and Weston are totally flirting each other to death its killing me. I don't know how he feels about her but she is head over heels for him. He has a coldplay - the fray look about him. He's cool. He knows our filipino cuz he served his mission in the Phils.
And michelle is stuck dating this guy she doesn't like, ONLY because he totally romantically asked her. He put flowers in a box and a note on the top that said, "the guy who wants to date you, his name is in this box of flowers"...she opened it no name...but shortly after his guy friend told her to go to the pool....And there the guy was holding a rose...BUT she doesn't like this guy...oh well.....we'll see what happens...Just got off the fone with MIchelle..she is officially on the date...weird...she said she was gonna take pics...I have to approve she approved of Beth so we'll see...

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2nd week [19 Jan 2007|04:41pm]
This week has been insane. I don't know even where to start. First things first, any out of the blue news. Bienz, yes Elder Bienz is going to get married May 25th, holy cow they are getting married him and Jill. It was Sandy's b-day yesterday and it was cute, it was small but hecka fun. Today is Friday and what should any normal college kid be doing? Well, i took a nap, i'm so tired it doesn't even matter. today was just not my day, people giving me mixed signals, me forgetting my i-clicker for the Chemistry quiz, AND lucky for me he drops the 8 lowest grades, cool huh? which means i can still get an A. As for English, my OE article seems like a hit, assuming i can follow it up with another, which sucks because now i've raised the bar for myself. Bio, dead boring. Math, I think I have a crush on somebody in that class....hehehe. Um, my Math teacher is chinese...no he's really chinese as in he can barely speak the frikkin' language. HE NEEDS TO QUIT....
Um, let's see, making more friends...
I really wish i could spill more, but i'm way too tired...i've never been so drained in my life...oh well, so does this mean I can go clubbing now?
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My roomates are weird [16 Jan 2007|10:08pm]
they put a tape recorder in the bathroom and left it recording...sick...sick people
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El Toro [13 Jan 2007|09:59am]
My Taurus Horoscope sez:
Your new plans are the hot topic among your friends -- find out what they're saying.

The outward results may not be dramatic, but nonetheless, you are experiencing some profound shifts at a soul-deep level. A change in attitude will eventually effect a change in your outer circumstances
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Transformation [13 Jan 2007|09:39am]
[ music | "Hurt" C.A. ]

Hiatus for two years, I had suppressed a lot of things, my focus was on something far more important, but now the tides have shifted. I have officially entered into the realm of college. Another phase in my life that I intend to life to its fullest. Its such a pivotal moment, wherein every decision and move will dramatically shift the course of the future, ultimately my destiny.

Social:
It's getting there. I've been on 3 dates since I've arrived here in UT. Not bad, does this imply that I will have to keep up with the expectations that I've set up for myself. No. I just wanted to see what all this "dating" was like. Yes, I haven't been on official dates. Let's just say I jumped the gun most of the times. What do I mean? Well my impulse has often times placed me in "semi-one-night-stand" situations. But that's the old me, I've actually come to enjoy this casual dating concept. I actually have more fun, with more than one person. Great for a person with a short attention span like mine. I think the closest people that I hang with have to be my Y-front brothers and sisters! Sandy, Nate, Wes, Dan, Cliff, Scott, Erica, Melissa, Kathryn, Candice, and everybody else i'm forgetting thank you for making this a smooth transition or me. Kalle (pronounced Kallah) just my favorite German friend! (I know y'all want pics, but I like to protect my friends, I consider them very high profile people). And Beth babe, thanks for giving me the best time of my life last night (NOT like that silly), yes I've only met you once, but the chemistry, keep it comin' babe!

Spiritual:
God will always be my top priority and right now its weekly temple trips and daily scripture reading!

I just got an email from Eric and that was a pleasant surprise. For all y'all who don't know Eric? He's my BESTEST FRIEND in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD...

Note to friends: We're planning a European tour this summer, all those interested please contact me for details!

Michelle lovers:
Here's the latest scoop on Michelle, my ever amazing sister!
The Bryce and Ian situation is escalating to new heights. Bryce has confessed 50 times to my sister that he loves her and he really means it. but the problem is she can't reciprocate the feelings. Another dilemma, Weston. You see, she's always been attracted to guys that were unique (in a good way). She's just frustrated because she said that she couldn't be with a guy like him. he's too "nice", you know my sis, she's...nice....with a lil spice. BUT she's gonna get to know Kalle today, I hope things work out, FRIENDSHIP wise!!! Well..till then folks...i have hw..boo!

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Addition to Resolution [30 Dec 2006|11:08pm]
Don't be a royal @$$hole!

To Jackie and Justin:
I've been stuck with the flu for 2 days and im finally JUST recovering. I"m so sorry!
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DC Controversy continues... [29 Dec 2006|10:28am]
So the grandparents are coming in about 8 hours....
3 days till i leave...
I still haven't been to glendale...
I still need to hang out with the old crew before I leave...
This is utter chaos....
What's not going to stop be from visiting Pasadena? No...I should control myself, revisiting people there will only bring me down....
Oh well...
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