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Things.... [19 May 2003|09:53pm]
mood | happy
music | Toadies - Backslider

Yeah... so I'm getting married...... YAY!

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War is hard.... [10 April 2003|08:45pm]
mood | calm
music | None

It's been a long time since I posted anything. At the moment we are at war over in Iraq trying to take Saddam out of power. I read this today thinking about that. It made me cry.....



A LESSON TO MY SON
by A PROUD AMERICAN

The other day, my nine year old son wanted to know why we were at war. My
husband looked at our son and then looked at me. My husband and I were in
the Army during the Gulf War and we would be honored to serve and defend
our country again today. I knew that my husband would give him a good
explanation.

My husband thought for a few minutes and then told my son to go stand in
our front living room window. He told him:

"Son, stand there and tell me what you see?"

"I see trees and cars and our neighbors houses." he replied.

"OK, now I want you to pretend that our house and our yard is the United
States of America and you are President Bush."

Our son giggled and said "OK."

"Now son, I want you to look out the window and pretend that every house
and yard on this block is a different country." my husband said.

"OK Dad, I'm pretending."

"Now I want you to stand there and look out the window and see that man
come out of his house with his wife and he has her by the hair and is
hitting her. You see her bleeding and crying. He hits her in the face, he
throws her on the ground, then he starts to kick her to death. Their
children run out and are afraid to stop him, they are crying, they are
watching this but do nothing because they are kids and afraid of their
father. You see all of this son....what do you do?"

"Dad?"

"What do you do son?!"

"I call the police, Dad."

"OK. Pretend that the police are the United Nations and they take your
call, listen to what you know and saw but they refuse to help. What do you
do then son?!"

"Dad, but the police are supposed to help!" My son starts to whine.

"They don't want to son, because they say that it is not their place or
your place to get involved and that you should stay out of it," my husband
says.

"But Dad...he killed her!!" my son exclaims.

"I know he did...but the police tell you to stay out of it. Now I want you
to look out that window and pretend you see our neighbor who you're
pretending is Saddam turn around and do the same thing to his children."

"Daddy...he kills them?"

"Yes son, he does. What do you do?"

"Well, if the police don't want to help, I will go and ask my next door
neighbor to help me stop him." our son says.

"Son, our next door neighbor sees what is happening and refuses to get
involved as well. He refuses to open the door and help you stop him," my
husband says.

"But Dad, I NEED help!!! I can't stop him by myself!!"

"WHAT DO YOU DO SON?"

Our son starts to cry.

"OK, no one wants to help you, the man across the street saw you ask for
help and saw that no one would help you stop him. He stands taller and
puffs out his chest. Guess what he does next son?"

"What Daddy?"

"He walks across the street to the old ladies house and breaks down her
door and drags her out, steals all her stuff and sets her house on fire and
then...he kills her. He turns around and sees you standing in he window and
laughs at you. WHAT DO YOU DO?!!!"

"Daddy..."

"WHAT DO YOU DO?!!!"

Our son is crying and he looks down and he whispers, "I close the blinds,
Daddy."

My husband looks at our son with tears in his eyes and asks him... "Why?"

"Because Daddy.....the police are supposed to help...people who needs
it....and they won't help....You always say that neighbors are supposed to
HELP neighbors, but they won't help either...they won't help me stop
him...I'm afraid....I can't do it by myself...Daddy.....I can't look out my
window and just watch him do all these terrible things and...and.....do
nothing...so....I'm just going to close the blinds....so I can't see what
he's doing........and I'm going to pretend that it is not happening."

I start to cry.

My husband looks at our nine year old son standing in the window, looking
pitiful and ashamed at his answers to my husbands questions and he tells
him...."Son"

"Yes, Daddy."

"Open the blinds because that man....he's at your front door..."WHAT DO YOU
DO?!!!!"

My son looks at his father, anger and defiance in his eyes. He balls up
this tiny fists and looks his father square in the eyes, without hesitation
he says: "I DEFEND MY FAMILY DAD!! I'M NOT GONNA LET HIM HURT MOMMY OR MY
SISTER, DAD!!! I'M GONNA FIGHT HIM, DAD, I'M GONNA FIGHT HIM!!!!!"

I see a tear roll down my husband's cheek and he grabs my son to his chest
and hugs him tight, and cries..."It's too late to fight him, he's too
strong and he's already at YOUR front door son.....you should have stopped
him BEFORE he killed his wife. You have to do what's right, even if you
have to do it alone, before......it's too late." my husband whispers.

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Weekend.... [17 February 2003|11:44pm]
mood | ecstatic
music | Bush - Machinehead

Well, had a fun time this weekend. I could re-type it all.... OR....

You could just read up on my sweetie's take on it here!

Don't we look good together?


US!

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! * ! [08 February 2003|01:39am]
mood | cranky
music | None

Fuck this life!

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Bleh [04 February 2003|11:26pm]
mood | crappy
music | None

I get a job. I get a job that pays decent. I have no money. I had no money before and I did not have to slave for 40+ hours a week to be there. Some one remind me why I am doing this before my father kicks me out for non-payment of 2 months rent, the gas gets shut off and I don't have hot water again.

I am off to bed. At least that way I can hide in the dreams that my life is ok.

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Forgot... [03 February 2003|10:21am]
mood | hyper
music | None

I quit smoking! Will be three weeks this Thursday! Yay for me. Off to work..... ta ta

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Where does the time go? [01 February 2003|02:39am]
mood | cheerful
music | Yello - Call It Love

I have not written in AGES. All is well with me. The job is going good. Christina has moved in, it's great to wake up next to her every day.

The car needs a head gasket and Christina's truck broke something today. My weekend is now booked doing car repairs. If we get lucky and done in time, we are thinking about a day trip out of town on Sunday.

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Argh! [11 January 2003|10:57am]
mood | calm
music | Adema - Giving In

It's Saturday and I have to go work on my car. I think it blew a head gasket AGAIN. I wont know for sure till I look into it some more. Just what I needed after starting a new job.

Christina and I are doing great. She makes me happy. She has been sick over the last week and I have been trying to take care of her. Poor thing, I don't like it when she feels down.

Been looking into playing with a thin client terminal services piece here at the house. It's like $300, but would be fun to play with. Maybe in time. The job is going ok and having money feels good.

Enough for now, I am off to fuck with my car.

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Candy Canes [07 January 2003|10:14pm]
mood | cheerful
music | Toadies - I Come From The Water

One of the nice things about Christmas passing is that candy canes go on sale dirt cheap. I am sitting here sucking on one reflecting on the past week.

Training at work is almost completed. That means I will be hitting the floor to take calls. I'm not all that thrilled. The paychecks are nice, that's why I stay. I also seem some possibility of a management level position in short time.

Been getting in some Battlefield 1942 gaming when I have the chance. Richard, Kenny, and Ryan all play with me online. I got a new headset so we can chat using Roger Wilco. No, I did not pay that crazy price. It was like $49.99 at Fry's Electronics. It's been fun.

This with Christina couldn't be any better. We have been spending a lot of time together. Every chance we have in fact. She makes me happy. We used her truck on New Year's eve and I took my radar detector with us to help keep an eye out for the Po Po. She still has it in her truck. I think she is digging it and I am gona be hard pressed to get it back. Guess I will be buying a new one. Oh well, good enough reason to try out the Valentine One.

I met Christina's parents last night. We all met up at Chilli's for dinner. I think it went good over all. I have been invited to join them on a ski trip in two weeks. I am planning on going. The problem is I am still flat broke and trying to catch up on the bills. The other problem would be that I do not know if I will have the weekend off. Time will tell I guess.

I need to find more time to post. Just a few moments a day. I started this to give me something to look back on. At the current rate, there wont be much to look at.

Enough for now, Christina is on her way over to pick me up to go get something to eat. Then we head to feed a dog she is sitting. Then back here to cuddle up for a nights sleep. Life is good.

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Another day [29 December 2002|07:30pm]
mood | tired
music | Art Of Noise - Beatback

Things are going ok. Job is working out. House is coming along.

Christina's friend from Cali, Maddy, is here in town for the week. They came over last night with Kenny and we all partied for a bit. It was nice. I took Maddy to Christina's house today when we got up. Christina had to leave early to go to work. Kenny took off about the same time Christina did.

I went over and did some dog sitting stuff for Christina tonight since she is not feeling up to it. I am suppose to go see her when she gets off work tonight.

Went to dinner with my dad and Sally. Seems he has tracked down his step brothers. This is good. He has been out of touch with most of his family for a long time. There has been talk of him going to Michigan to meet them. I hope he does.

Enough for now.

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