SoccerLFQT08's Blurty

Growing up
This week has been pretty chill; more so than I expected. I've done some homework, have a test tomorrow morning, been studying, managed to hang out with Ryan, and snag lunch with Chris today. It feels like I was 18 just yesterday, but feels like so much time has happened in between at the same time. Ryan and I ran into Melissa at Target today. I remember when she was my best friend at VT. It seems like ages ago. I barely get a chance to talk to her now. Our schedules have been so opposite since then. It was her, me, and Jose then. Nasser and Russell were in the picture then, too. So long ago. My main group of friends has seen a few changes. I've finally gotten my "double life" in check. I've mastered my Blacksburg-ness and my VT-ness finally. I was having a hard time being both a Blacksburg resident and a VT student at the same time in the beginning. I think I've finally found my own. I am comfortable in this skin and I embrace my uniqueness.
I realize that I'll always be different from others in some way. That's my life. I'll always be Elissa from NC to the people I went to high school with in Blacksburg and I'll be Elissa from Blacksburg to the out of towners who go to VT. I like being different even though it's tough sometimes. Being the outsider has been the story of my life with moving to new places throughout my life. I almost thrive on it in a way. I wish sometimes I was able to relate more to everyone. As for this school year, I think I'm accomplishing that more and more. I have that steady boyfriend (my first adult relationship I guess one could say), I'm hanging out more with my friends (not to say I didn't hang out with them before, but I do more so now), and are in turn having many of the same experiences of life everyone else is having.
Valentine's Day is coming up. That boyfriend of mine and I have decided to cook dinner for ourselves the night after and then go out for dessert since my dad's birthday is on Valentine's Day. I'm looking forward to having someone for Valentine's. Ryan's a great boyfriend and I'm excited to see how things turn out for that special day. I should get to bed now. I'm tired and have an 8 am class and then a test at 9:30 :-( Unfortunate. I'll post later on.

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