SoccerLFQT08's Blurty

The Cinema, Little Italy, and Alcohol
So, this has been a pretty shitty weekend. Dinner went well on Friday night with Ryan. We made dinner at his place for our 2 month anniversary. Afterwards he went on to get drunk at a party we went to. That party was sketchy. I had a bad time. Ryan ended up passing/blacking out when we got home afterwards. I was hoping to make it to Target and the mall on Saturday. So much for that. Ryan didn't want to leave since he was hung over. I didn't feel like going myself and besides, I like to be with him. He told me we'd go today. That didn't happen because of the awful weather we're receiving at the moment. I'm tempted to say "fuck it" and go anyway. I thought maybe we could go to the basketball game tonight. I saw where it's open to everyone with a VT ID. Ryan said he's not going. Maybe next time. I know I sound like I'm so mad at Ryan, but I'm not. I just wish things had turned out differently this weekend. I had hoped Friday night would be so great and it didn't turn out to reach my expectations and so I was left disappointed.
Instead of going out and about like I wanted to yesterday, Ryan and I got to watch 4 movies. I don't want to look at a TV again. Ironic because it's all I've been able to do today. We watched some movie with Samuel L. Jackson and Kevin Spacey in it. I'm not sure what it's called. We also saw "Little Black Book" with Brittany Murphy, "Something About Mary," and "La Vita e Bella" (Life is Beautiful). The first three were on FX and Ryan had Netflixed the last one for us. "Life is Beautiful" is an Italian film about a Jewish-Italian man and his wife and kid who are placed in a concentration camp in Berlin. He tells his kid that it's a game so as to protect his innocence. It was such a great movie! I absolutely loved it! It definitely ended Saturday on a good note. Ryan and I shared the strawberries and Nutella that we bought for dessert on Friday last night since the rest of our meal had us so stuffed the night before. I'm thankful for him. Really.
Chris told me on the phone yesterday that he had asked out Elena this past week. I was kind of hurt because he didn't tell me sooner. I'm happy that he's found someone. I just don't want him to forget about me though. I don't know why I think he would. I don't think he would, but it scares me. He's my best friend and I don't know what I would do without him. I hope I can get along with Elena. I couldn't get along with his last girlfriend. I'm not sure why I'm so emotional over this. I shouldn't be. Silly Elissa. I'm going to go in hopes of someone getting online to talk to.

Current Mood: pissed off
Current Music: The Foo Fighters "Best of You"