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Thursday, May 22nd, 2003
8:55 pm - hey
hey evry1.. wel i gotta get my cast on tomorrow and miss mosta stand by me day bc my mother is gay. michele had this quote on her pf and i fell in love lol:

i wanna tell you how im feelin but
i dunno where to start
i wanna tell u everything
but i don't wanna
broken heart

well thats like my entire perspective on love lol well i gg ttyl xo
steph

current mood: annoyed
current music: who put the bop// me first and the gimme gimmes

why do you build me up

Wednesday, May 21st, 2003
3:18 pm - fill out this shiznit
1. FULL NAME: Stephanie Grace Zarko
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?: Stephanie is from Full House, i was sposed 2 b named kelly but my dad said he wanted a long name for a girl, and Grace is from my great aunt and Zarko is my daddys last name so id think id get it
3. SCHOOL:MTMS
4. MASCOT: Mustangs
5. NICKNAME: i hav a lot but the main ones: Gabbi, Zark, Zark the SHark, Steph, poseur
6. BIRTHDAY: Sep 21 1989
7. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?: Chesapeake VA
8. HAVING FUN: yep
9. HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN ON THE COMPUTER TODAY?: almost an hour
10. GPA AVERAGE: i dn prolly 3.1
11. HEIGHT: 5' 4 1/2
12. SHOE SIZE: like 10
13. HAIR COLOR: brown w/ blond highlights
14. EYE COLOR: blue
15. SIBLINGS:2 brothers
16. DO YOU LIKE HIM/HER: sure
17. LAST MOVIE YOU SAW IN THE THEATRE: ummm i dont remember.. prolly just married lol wat a loser
18. LAST MOVIE YOU RENTED: the ring
19. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT: reading.. mrs pedroza
20. LAST TAPE YOU BOUGHT: i get dvds
21. LAST CD YOU BOUGHT: punk o rama 2 and 7 but i lost volume 2
22. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?: yep
23. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?: yes
24. DO YOU THINK IT COULD EVER HAPPEN?: umm ;)
25. IS HE OR SHE GOOD LOOKING?: yea
26. FAVORITE ACTRESS: Reese Witherspoon
27. FAVORITE ACTOR: thomas ian nicholas, ben affleck...
28. FAVORITE MOVIE: Fast and the Furious, American Pie I and II
29. FAVORITE TV SHOW(S): Crank Yankers, SNL
30. FAVORITE SONG: brain stew // green day lmao and lotsa others
31. FAVORITE FOOD: rice-a-roni
32. FAVORITE COLOR:blue, silver
38. FAVORITE FRIENDS TO HANG WITH: i dn
39. AM I YOUR FRIEND?: are you?
41. HOW LONG ARE YOU IN THE SHOWER?: 20 mins unless i fall asleep
42. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO GO ON VACATION: back to virginia
43. FAVORITE CITY TO CHILL IN: williamsburg
46. FAVORITE DRINK?: brisk lemon ice tea
47. WORST FEAR?: spiders, death
49. BEST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: feeling of accomplishment (like when the play i wrote got performed on the state theatre!! hehe)
50. WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?: gettin dumped


What Do You Think About...
51. BILL CLINTON: he should die, he disgraces arkansas
52. THE WHOLE ALIEN THING: i think its true
53. LINDA TRIPP: whos that
54. TEENAGE SMOKING: if they want to they can
hey where did #55 n 56 go?
57. DOING DRUGS: happens all the time
58. MARILYN MANSON: hes gay, woo im so scary .. NOT!
59. GUY BANDS: hate em
60. DEATH: it sucks.. too sad
61. LOVE AT FIRST SITE: one in a million :)
62. A CERTAIN PERSON OUT THERE FOR YOU: i sure hope sp
63. JERRY SPRINGER:the show sucks but hes pretty cool
67. SOUTH PARK: love it
68. CHARITY: stupid-- GET A JOB YOU BUM
69. GIRLS WITH LOTS Of MAKEUP: depends..
70. GOD: ...
Which Is Better?
104. COKE OR PEPSI: pepsi
105. LAKE OR OCEAN: ocean
106. TV OR RADIO: radio... @aol
107. GOING TO THE MOVIES OR RENTING A MOVIE: either or
108. PILLOW OR 2: 3 pillows
110. HOT OR COLD: hot
111. NICE OR MEAN: nice
112. JOCK OR BRAIN: jock lol
113. DROP DEAD GORGEOUS OR JUST GOOD LOOKING: drop dead gorgeous
114. HUG OR KISS: kiss mwah
116. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: chocolate
117. HOCKEY OR FOOTBALL: football
118. ABERCROMBIE OR AMERICAN EAGLE: abercrombie?
119. ADIDAS OR NIKE: adidas
120. FREDDIE OR RYAN: freddie
121. JEN OR JOEY FROM DAWSONS CREEK: neither but joey is a cool name
122. RED OR BLUE: both
123. EMINEM OR WILL SMITH: rap sucks
124. CARNIVAL OR AMUSEMENT PARK: amusement park
125. MACS OR IBM's: geek
126. BRITNEY OR CHRISTINA: dont like either, pop sucks too :)
127. WINTER FRESH OR DOUBLE MINT: winterfresh
Have You Ever...
128. BEEN ON A PLANE?: nope
129. WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: yup
130. SWAM IN A LAKE: yup
131. PEED IN A OCEAN: ewwie no
132. PEED IN A POOL: no......ewz
133. GONE SKINNY DIPPING: haha, no
134. CHEATED ON A TEST: yea ... many many times
135. LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeah
136. FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH?: yeah
137. FELL ASLEEP WHILE EATING: think so
138. GONE TO CHURCH: yeah
139. READ THE BIBLE: nop am i gonna go 2 hell now
140. CLIMBED A TREE: yeah
141. WATCHED DAWSON'S CREEK: no
142. GONE WATER SKIING: no
143. GONE SNOWBOARDING: no
144. GONE SKATEBOARDING: yep
145. FELL ASLEEP DURING A SCARY MOVIE: prolly
146. GONE ALL NIGHT WITHOUT SLEEP: umm i went to sleep for a 1/2 hour then woke up.. does that count? i cant stand it.. i need sleep :)
147. BEEN TO CAMP: yeah
148. HAVE A CAMP: nopers
149. PLAYED SOCCER: yeah.. since i was 4 sherlock
150. BEEN TO A MAJOR BASEBALL GAME: yes
152. BEEN TO AN NFL GAME:nop.. almost but no
153. BEEN TO AN NHL GAME: no
154. SAT IN A RESTAURANT WITHOUT ORDERING ANYTHING: yes
155. EATEN SUSHI: nop
156. EATEN FISH: yes
157. WATCHED DIRTY DANCING: yeah
158. AND DANCED ALONG : no
159. WANTED TO DIE: yeah almost too much
160. MET A CELEBRITY: yep the slut from the golden girls =)
161. DRIVEN A CAR: yes
162. DIDN'T WASH YOUR HAIR FOR A WEEk: no eww.. 3 1/2 days is my record
163. GOT STITCHES: no
164. BROKEN SOMETHING: yess many
165. BOUGHT ICE CREAM FROM AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: yeah, everyday in the summer when i was little, i remember that, it was great.
166. DRIVEN AN ICE CREAM TRUCK: no
167. THOUGHT ABOUT SUICIDE: too much.. specially lately :-[
168. TRIED TO COMMIT SUICIDE: nop
169. USED YOUR PARENTS CREDIT CARD: nop
170. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SCARED OF GETTING SHOT: yes
171. GOTTEN A CAVITY: yess
172. GOT A SHOT: yup
173. WATCHED SOMEONE DIE: no
174. CRIED SO LONG AND HARD YOU COULDN'T STOP SHAKING: yes
175. GOT IN A FIST FIGHT:no a fake one
176. PUNCHED SOMEONE FOR NO REASON: yes
177. THOUGHT YOU WERE IN LOVE: yea and still do
178. HAD AN ONLINE RELATIONSHIP: yea lol
179. WATCHED MTV/MUCH MUSIC AT 4 IN THE MORNING: nop im prolly sleepin then
180. USED A PORTA-POTTY: yeah
181. STAYED ONLINE TILL 4 IN THE MORNING: yup
182. LOVED SOMEONE SO MUCH IT MADE YOU CRY: i think so
185. CAUGHT A FISH: no
186. SNUCK OUT OF YOUR HOUSE: yea
187. STREAKED: no
188. BEEN HURT BY A GUY/GIRL YOU LIKED: yeah
189. GONE TO ANOTHER STATE: yeah
190. GONE TO ANOTHER COUNTRY: not yet
191. MOVED: yes
192. BROKEN THE LAW: yeah
194. HOW: how what
195. KILLED SOMEONE: no
196. KILLED SOMEONE IN YOUR THOUGHTS: hell yes
197. SMOKED IN SCHOOL: no
198. SKIPPED SCHOOl: yess
199. BEEN SCARED ENOUGH TO PISS IN YOUR PANTS: no
200. BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK BY A "FRIEND":yeah
202. WHO IS YOUR FAV. PERSON TO SHOP WITH: lisa shes so silly, roxy, natasha, melli, erin (my mall bud), kc
203. WHO IS YOUR FAV. PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?: many
204. WHO IS YOUR FAV. PERSON TO TALK TO ABOUT LIFE: lisa
205. WHO DO YOU HATE: not sayin
207. IF YOU COULD KISS ANYONE WHO WOULD IT BE?: ppl...
208. GIRLS: ??
209. WHO WOULD YOU WANT TO MEET: many ppls
210. WHO DO YOU MISS? my brother
211. WHO HAVE YOU LIKED FOREVER?: noone.. was i sposed to?
212. WHO WOULD YOU DIE FOR? my friends
214. WHO IS THE NICEST FRIEND YOU KNOW?:i dn theyre nice mosta the time
215. WHO IS THE MEANEST PERSON YOU KNOW?: shh
[.Whats The First Thing That Comes 2 Mind When You Hear....]
[120] Eminem: crap
[121] Dog: brandy
[122] Hot: ____ (a certain guy)
[123] Britney Spears: silicon
[124] Nsync: fag
[125] Real World: hot guys
[126] Orange: pretzels
[127] Choice: one
[128] Smurf: jay
[129] Bisexual: dyke
[130] Black: racist
[131] ICQ: ??
[132] Insane Clown Posse: hehe love em sumtimes
[133] Linkin Park: ...
[135] Rainbow: care bears
[136] Cherry: hata (from carly hehe)
[137] Cucumber: summer catch
[138] Shark: zark the shark
[139] Lifehouse: my brother..
[140] Bat: man
[141] Leather: style
[142] Whip: ...
[143] America: lisa
[144] Water: shower
[145] Volcano: pants (dont ask)
[.This Or That.]:
[146] rock or rap: rock
[147] pop or rap: they both suck pretty much
[148] rap or r&b: they suck
[149] rock or metal: rock
[150] rock or pop: rock
[151] linkin park or limp bizkit: neither
[153] selena or jenifer lopez: isnt jennifer lopez selena? oo oops.. neither
[154] hot or cold: hot
[155] winter or summer: summer
[156] spring or fall: fall
[157] shakira or britney: neither
[158] ICP or Eminem: Eminem: ICP
[159] Marilyn Manson Or Rob Zombie: neither
[160] Kittie or Garbage: hey sounds like the dirty mexican
[161] mtv or vh1: vh1
[162] Buffy or Angel: neither
[163] Dawsons Creek Or Gilmore Girls: neither
[164] Football or Basketball: both
[165]summer olympics or winter olympics: summer
[166] Skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding
[167] roller blading or skateboarding: skateboarding
[168] black or white: white
[169] orange or red: red
[170] yellow or green: yellow
[171] purple or pink: purple
[172] slipknot or mudvayne: none
[173] hot topic or pac sun: pac sun
[174] inside or outside: outside
[175] weed or alcohol: ;)
[176] cell phone or pager: cell
[177] pen or pencil: pen
[178] power puff girls or Charlie's angels: charlies angels
[179] Scooby doo or dino: scooby doo
[180]dragon ball Z or pokemon: none
[181]star wars or star trek: star wars
[182]tattoo or piercing: tatoo :)
[183]prep or punk: punk
[184]Slut or whore: hmm? man whore!!

[.Private Life I.E. Sex, Drugs, Rock &Roll...]
[185] Boyfriend Or Girlfriend?: yep
[187] Do You Love Anyone Right Now: yea
[188] Have You Ever Been In Love: yes
[189] How Many People Have You Kissed:
[191] Ever Have Oral Sex:
[192] Still A Virgin:
[193] If Not How Many Times:
[194] How Many Hearts Have You Broken: who knows
[195] How Many People Broke Your Heart: lost count
[196] Best Quote To Sum Up Love: "i can sum up what i learned about life in 3 words... it goes on ."
Wen I c ur Face I Still Get Butterflies
ppl Talk bout u & It Brings Tears 2 My Eyes
Wen u Touch Me My Stomach Still Turns
I Guess I'll Have 2 Put Up w/ Every1 Sayin
"That Girl Neva Learns"
[197] So Whats Your Girlfriend/Boyfriend/Crush Like: hottttttttt and niice n and funny and sweet
[198]Whats Your Dream Guy/Girl Like: see above
[199]Do U Go More By Looks Or Personality: both
[200] ...?: im sure
[201] Ever Kiss A Friend: nop
[202] Are You Still Friends: yea
[203] So Moving Along... You Smoke: nope
[204] How About Some Weed... You Smoke Weed: no
[205] Ever Trip On Acid: no,
[206] How About A Little tic: no
[207] Crack, Heroin, Anything Else: no. im not looking forward too either.
[208] Beer Good Or Beer Bad: beer good
[210] Are U The Little Sissy Who Drinks Mikes And hine Coolers: nop red killians
[211] Do U Like Smirnoff Ice: i dn
[212] Prefer Beer Or Liquor: both
[Would You Ever.]
[218] Bungee Jump: hell yes
[219] Sky Dive: yes
[220] Swim With Dolphins: yes!!!
[221] Scuba Dive: hell yes
[222] Go Rock Climbing: hell yes
[224] Eat Shit For 1,000,000 $: hell no
[225] Change Your Religion: sure.
[226] Turn Your Back On Your Friends For Personal Gain: i dn depends
[227] Steal A Friends Boyfriend/Girlfriend: mabey
[228] Cross-Dress: sure.. its just guy clothes.
[229] Lie To The Police: yea
[230] Run From The Police: yea
[232] Lie To Your Parents: yea
[233] Walk Up To A Total Stranger And Kiss Them: why the hell not?
[234] Be an Exotic Dancer: no nobody would wanna c that lol
[235] Walk Out Of A Restraunt Without Paying: thatd just be mean
[236]streak[run naked through somewhere for all who you dont know]:no
[.Your Friends.]
[257] Best Friend: no one in paticular
[258] Known Longest: nick and elaine
[259] Wish You Talked To More Then You Do: lisa.. kel.. kaela.. aj
[260] Wish You Saw More Then You Do: ;)
[262] How Many Do U Actually Hang Out With: most of them...
[263] Who Drives You Insane After Awhile: id rather not say
[264] Who Can You Stay Around Forever And Hardly Get Sick of: jordan <3
[265] Ever Loose A Good Friend Because You Took It To The Next Level: no
[266] Craziest: lisa
[267] Loudest: me, kaela and aj lol
[268] Shyest: many
[269] Best Hair: lisa serino and janey n amanda gilbert but i dont think were friends
[270] Can Always Make You Laugh: evryone
[271] Best Eyes: amanda levan
[272] Best Body: anthony lol i dn
[273] Most Athletic: michele jackson
[274] Sex Symbol: ...
[275] Hot Tempered: kalie?
[276] Most Impatient dn
[277] Shortest: britt, roxy
[278] Tallest: Natasha, jojo
[279] Talented: sue
[280] Best Singing Voice: ROXY defly
[281] Skinniest: erin
[282] Nicest: too many
[283] Best Personality: lisa (both)
[284] Biggest Drug User: breanna lol
[285] Alcoholic: ?

[.Have You Ever.]
[286] Flashed someone: no
[287] told the person you liked how u felt: yes
[288] been to Michigan: no
[289] gotten really wasted: no
[290] gone to jail/juvi: no
[291] skateboarded: yep
[292] skinny dipped: no sicko
[293] stolen anything from a store: no
[294] wanted to kick my ass for making this so damn long: whos my?
[295] kicked someone's ass: yea but jus playin
[296] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: who hasnt?
[297] broke a beer bottle: yes
[298] gotten into a bar under aged: yea.. but they didnt gimme nething..
[299] kissed someone of the same sex: hell nah
[300] flipped someone off: yea
[301] gone on a road trip: yea
[302] gone on vacation without adult supervision: no
[303] been to a concert: yea!!!!
[304] been to another country: no..
[305] talked back to an adult: duh
[306] got pulled over: not that i no of
[307] into a car accident: yes kinda
[308] broke a law: yep
[309] given money to some homeless person: yes
[310] tried to kill yourself: ...
[311] cried to get out of trouble: im so great at it.
[312] kissed a friends brother/sister: no
[313] dropped something on the floor that you were cooking: yea, but i used the five second rule so it was all good.


[.Opinions.]

[314] What Do You Think About Boy Bands: hate em
[315] What Do You Think About Flag Burrning: grr.
[316] What Do You Think Of The War On Terrorists: for it
[317] What Do You Think About Suicide: for it
[319] What Do You Think About Abortion: for it
[322] Who Do You Think You'll Still Be Friends With In 5 Years: hopefully many
[323] What Do You Think About The Pop Music Scene: it should die

[.What Did You Do..]
[339]Last Birthday: nothin lol

[340]Yesterday: slept
[341]Last Weekend: went on aol
[342]Christmas: got presents
[343]Thanksgiving:hung out with cousins
[344]New Years Eve: went to erins with lisa c
[345]Halloween: went trick or treating wit casey elaine and cynthia
[346] Easter:um went to memas
[347] Valentines Day: went to the mall with erin and stalked random ppl

[.The Last Thing....]
[363] You Ate: a sandwich
364] You Drank: brisk
[365] You Took A Shower: this morning
[366] You Wore Out: red shirt n blue jeans rolled up
[367] The Last Place You Went: school..
[368] Last Thing You Bought: ummm a strawberry daquari at medieval times
[369] Last Thing You Got Pierced/Tattooed: my ears like 6 years ago
[370] Last Person You Saw: mom
[371] Last Person You Kissed: ...
[372] Last Person You Fucked: ...
[373] Last Person You Talked to: adri and lisa
[375] Last Thing You Watched: 8 simple rules
[376] Last Song You Heard: i only wanna b with you // me first and the gimme gimmes

[.Now.]
[377] So What Are You Eating: nuttin
[378] Anything To Drink With That: nothig
[379] Whatchya Wearin: read shirt n jeans rolled up
[380] Any Shoes: nope
[381] Hair: in a bun
[382] Listening To Anything: yep.. radio@aol
[383] Talking To Anyone: adri
[384] Are You Pissed I Made This So Long: who r u?

[.Yes Or No.]
[385] Are You A Vegetarian: no.. should i be?
[386] Do You Like Cows: yes
[387] Am I A Bitch For Making This Damn Survey: no
[388] Are You Artisitic: kinda
[389] Are You A Fast Runner: not at all
[390] Can You Ski: no
[391] Are You British: no
[392] Do You Want To Spear Britney: hell yes
[393] Do The Voices Talk To You And You Only: you hear them too?
[394] Did You Ever Give Barbie A Free Haircut & Hairdye Special: umm sure?
[395] Would You Eat Mac&Cheese w/Hot Dog In It: all the time
[396] Do You Think Disney Creators Were On Acid: sure
[397] Will The Real Slim Shady Please Shut Up: i dont think he will.
[398] Are You Straight: yes.
[399] Are You 1/2 Stupid, 1/4 insane and another 1/4 physicaly handicapped:i geuss
[402] Are You Short:i dn am i?
[403] Do You Own A Hot Pink Shirt: do i?
[404] How About Orange Pants: yes
[405] Can You See The Flying Monkeys: you do too?!
[406] Are You Evil: define evil
[407] Did You Ever Knew someone Who Had A Mullet: did i?
[409] Is Britney A whore: yes and whores shoudl die
[410] Are You A Teenage Zombie: yeh
[411] Am I Annoying You Really Bad With All This Nonsense: no.
[412] Do You Like Marilyn Manson: no, .
[413] If You Dont Like Manson You Know You Suck Right: i do?
[414] Are You Secretly From Another Planet: i dn am i?
[415]Did You Ever Touch Someone Elses No-No Spot all the time: ;)
[416]Do You Shop At Hot Topic: i was sposed 2 get band stuff but i didnt hav enuf moolah
[417]Could You Kick My Ass: yes i could


quotes:

being with u makes me feel like for once in my life
i dont have to try so hard to be happy

u start backstabbin me and goin
against ur word thinkin she'll never find out
well gues what...i definitly fuccin heard

current mood: crappy
current music: good riddance (time of your life) // green day

why do you build me up

Monday, May 12th, 2003
6:18 pm - school
it was a monday i dont really expect much from them. nothing happened at all. if anyone wants to buy tickets to our drama play see me. its $2 for students and $4 for adults well thats it. gg now bye
_zArK tHe ShArK_
go \o/ hornets
. b u t t e r c u p b a b i .

At first I was afraid I was petrified

kept thinkin' I could never live without you by my side;
But thne I spent so many nights thinkin' how you did me wrong
and I grew strong and I learned how to get along.

And so you're back
from outer space

I just walked in to find you here with that sad look
upon your face

I should have changed that stupid lock

I should have mafe you leave your key
if I'd've known for just one second
you'd be back to bother me
go on now.

Go on now go
walk out the door
just turn around now
you're not welcome anymore
weren't you the one who tried to hurt me with goodbye
did I crumble
did you think I'd lay down and die ?
Oh no
not I. I will survive

oh
as long as I know how to love I know I'll stay alive;
I've got all my life to live

I've got all my love to give
and I'll survive
I will survive. Hey
hey.

It took all the strength I had not to fall apart

kept tryin' hard to mend the piece of my broken heart

and I spent oh so many nights just feelin' sorry for myself.
I used to cry but now I hold my head up high.

And you see me
somebody new
I'm not that chained up little person still in love with you

and so you felt like droppin' in
and just expect me to be free
now I'm saving all my lovin'
for someone who's lovin' me.
lmfao breanna kel and lisa


current mood: tired
current music: cute w/o the "e" (cut from the team) // taking back sund

why do you build me up

Sunday, May 11th, 2003
1:31 pm - mothers day
mothers day in general is rele gay.. and so is fathers day. i mean seriously.. for being a parent you get a day dedicated to yourself but the children who made you that doesnt its bullshit. well neway , yesterday we had soccer. our team won!! against the first place team!! so were wearin our uniform shirts to school lol. i have the worst strawberry.. its disgusting grr.. i dont wanna wear shorts for gym tomorrow now lol .. (strawberrys are like rugburns on u but from grass and dirt you get from sliding in soccer and baseball) well thats about it.. later im goin to my grandmothers house in staten island but its so gay coz i do nothing there and i dont have hw. well i gg now, bye
_zArK tHe ShArK_
go \o/ hornets

current mood: pissed off
current music: what it is to burn // finch

why do you build me up ..buttercup babii

Friday, May 9th, 2003
6:12 pm - bad day
omg i had a bad day today :(.. well i was wearing my white soccer shirt and i came home adn it was raining then i got locked out of my house. of course i had to walk all the way to chrissys.. in the rain.. in a whiite shirt. i called my mom to bring a key and she said shed come as soon as she could to jsut wait on the deck so i walked home (luckily chrissy gave me an umbrella) so i was sittin on my bookbag ont he only dry spot on the deck reading my soccer book for over an hour... i was soooooo bored and i had to go to the bathroom so bad. and i rele wanna dump brad bc lisas sposed to fix me up with som1 at the pal dance.. so yea.. and i like som1 else soooo much more :-\ .. well i gg get ready for pal.. bye bye

_zArK tHe ShArK_
go \o/ hornets

life doesnt change much, there isnt a big change between our clothes didnt match and cooties because ur clothes suck and guys give us mono...

current mood: contemplative
current music: the middle // jimmy eat world

why do you build me up

Thursday, May 8th, 2003
3:26 pm - howdy
hey everyone.. well like 2 nites ago brad asked me out and then last nite i said yes bc of kalie.. i felt bad sayin no :(
ummmm..... yesterdya was rele busy.. i had to go into school at 7 for early morning band and at 530 i left bc of drama.. i came home for 5 mins to change and i had to go to the marching band meeting.. there are only like 4 clarinets i think but all the ppl are so nice and outgoing.. haha tom wore a pink dress then a purple one lol.. rich (the leader) scares me tho but it seems to be pretty cool. well i didnt get bac home til 930 nd thanx to gay time limits i could only be on for a half hour.. well i gess thats about it. bye bye

ttyl xo
_zArK tHe ShArK_
.*. steph .*.

P.S. this name to the journal isnt copyin offa j callanan.. my nickname was soccer smurf from kc n roxy at bowling when we were in love with care bears and smurfs.. well thats about it xo

current mood: guilty
current music: san fransisco // me first and the gimme gimmes

why do you build me up

Monday, May 5th, 2003
8:34 pm - :(
hello hello.. well somthin rele sucks.. i found out this guy from chicago likes me.. i mean dont get me wrong hes rele hott.. but i was talkin with this gurl he rele likes and shes like "you should rele go out with him he rele likes you" and im like.. uh i live in jersey and it would be weird and shes like "true but if he did live closer then would you go out with him" i kinda like him but im like i dn if he would still like me and shes like cool.. i dn i feel rele weird.. i dn if i should tell him i kinda like him or not tho...... i hav rele bad luck. and mike!! from sayreville.. he was so cool and i thought i liked him and he IMed me one day and hes like i think i love you nd im lke what? r u joking and hes like no.. ur rele cool and stuff and then hes like and mo (his lil brother) likes you too.. of course i can get the guys i dont live near.. grr..... well me n kalie-mon were joking around n i was like i wana go out with som1 n shes like adam .. im like no .. then im like mike claus (just jokin around) nd shes lik yeah and im like no MITCHELL and shes like no lol. then she said i love czechloslovakians and im like NICK!! so now our joke is i love nick and i gotta fake i rele like him .. o jeez its gonna be sad.. nd then i was on the phone with lisa adn shes like "ur gonna dance with anthony frost at the pal dance" and im like noooooo shes like u hav to so i gess i gotta and yea im booooored .. i got kiked off aol coz of gay time limits. oh yeah and me n erin made a remix to the song high school by off by one n here are the lyrics.. i had to bleep some stuff out but..


Did you hear that justin kissed a girl
Could it be kelly or just some other stupid hoe
Did you hear that James cut off all of his hair
How much do you bet stephs not wearing underwear
Nikoles IQ is smaller that her skirt
She pretends she wants it but she is just a flirt
______- slept with ___ and now they're going out
Get ready cause

This is middle school

Passing notes about what happened Friday night
Is it possible that there could be a fight
Meet at the pal dance approximately 8pm
I will beat your ass cause now you're in middle school

Now you're in middle school

Oh how we love these middle school days
Don't want to leave wish we could stay
I'll really miss those band geeks now
They are the highlight of math class

Did you hear about how Mr. Salle
Turns his back to the class so he can scratch his balls
|____| dumping ______ she says he sucks in bed
But not as good as she does

This is middle school

newya i love brad mike and ***** and &&&
well quotes:

Like jaqqed edge said you’re the best I ever had
Like usher cried I got it bad
Like ginuwine said you’re so sweet
Like Sisqo cried without you I’m incomplete
Like Kc&Jo Jo I’m goin’ crazy crazy crazy
But Mariah put it best you’ll always be my baby

sumtimes i wish i could press fast foward
to see if its all worth it

its hard 2 b strong wen ya love
the thing that makes ya the weakest
The worst way 2 miss sum1 is to c them sittin rite next 2 ya watchin them love sum1 else

Why is it that I have 2 climb 1,000 mountainz to get u, but all u have 2 do is smile to get me?

well buh~byez mwa xoxo
_zArK tHe ShArK_
go \o/ hornets
. b u t t e r c u p b a b i i .

current mood: blah
current music: if u c jordan//something coprate

why do you build me up ..buttercup babii

4:10 pm - heyy
hey everyone.. i had school today .. i dont think it could get much more boooooring .. the rundown:
math- did nothin.. wksts basically n the test is thurs
science- gilroy wasnt here!! read the stupid book our final is on
gym- we hav to play stupid badmitten
french- started a new chapter .. its almost the end of the year and were on chapter 2 lol
band- my clarinet broke.. o joy n nunez is gay n.. omg dont get me started lol
ssr- boring as usual.. did nothing
lunch- roxy sat with us!! lol thats about it
social studies- wrote a note to lisa
reading- broke 3 of the school computers and i typed 4 pages of my research paper and it got deleted so now i hav a sentence done :( well gg do hw
bye bye

zark the shark

current mood: annoyed
current music: pictures//goldfinger

why do you build me up

Sunday, May 4th, 2003
7:55 pm - lalala
hey- i just got bak from erins like 2 hours ago.. well sat nite i went to erins and slept over.. we had sing along time lmao and the poping candys-AH!! it exploded in my throat!! n "if you dont stop singing im gonna make you watch the supernovas cheer" .. umm i cant rele member the rest lol
.|. quotes of the moment .|.
})Ï({  I wish i could say u were jus sum guy
but i kno inside, the butterflies don`t  l i e })Ï({

**..*even though it's over..*..**
**..* and we both said good bye*..**
**..*ill look into your eyes*..**
**..* and itll make me wanna cry *..**

well gg finish mah gay hw ttyl x0x
.+. buttercup babii -x- zark the shark .+.
¯\_ go hornets _/¯

current mood: determined
current music: scholarship in punk // guttermouth

why do you build me up

Saturday, May 3rd, 2003
11:43 am - soccer
hey everyone..
last night i went to chrissys part and it was rele fun.. we played manhunt and capture the flag haha WAR PAINT!! and we did eachothers hair and makeup and we had a cake fight n we watched the ring.. i didnt get to sleepover tho bc i left at 11 sumthin to go home and sleep coz i had a soccer game early this morning
i just got back from my soccer game and we lost (again) .. this rele sucks but thats alright.. i cant wait til my wrist gets better, lol kalie. im prolly gonna end up putting quotes i like here so i can look back and use them or other ppl can.. well ttyl.. QUOTES::

member when you asked me who i liked and i said noone?
well what i meant was noone but you..

crazi daiiz`fun azz nytz
hugz n kissez`stupid fytz
secrets n storiez`there till tha end
mi grlz`mi sistrz`mi best friendz<3

ever have one of thoes dayz
when sumone comes up 2 you
and asks wuts wrong
and you say i dont feel good
and they say aw wut hurts
and all you wanna say is
<3 my heart <3

ill be wit these gurls
till the Lord strikes me dead
when nerds stat failin classes
and hoes stop givin head

**alright i guess thats enuf.. the only reason theres so much is its my first entry.. later there will be less ..well im out**
.*. steph .*.
¯\_ go hornets!! _/¯

current mood: tired
current music: the bind//cigar

why do you build me up ..buttercup babii



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