Plush's Blurty

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Hey -___________- I still haven't been able to talk to my sweetheart ~_~; I miss him lots. It really sucks without him -_-; What if he's juss so sucked up into his GameCube that he'd rather play that than talk to me.. ;-; I have to compete with a frickin GameCube >_<;; Makes me mad.. and upset -_-;; I really miss him... *sighs* Where are you my sweetie? Plez don't disappear like Dominik did ~_~;;

Last night I cut up the drawing of Dominik that I did last yr. I also cut up the piccys I printed out of him and that I kept in my wallet. I cut em all up u_u;; And I threw away most of the notes where I'm like talkin to myself bout Dominik... or w/e. I threw em out u___u Now.. I juss need to get the strengh to delete all the e-mails he sent me. And to delete all the piccys of himself. *sighs* I'll be able to do it one day.. I juss hope soon.. and I juss hope Matt'll help me do it.

I hope our relationship won't be the same as the one I had with Dominik. It started out pretty much the same way... but then it juss got worse. And then the suicide talk.. and the running away.. and the pain he caused me -_-; *sighs long* What a hell it was... I hope with Matt it won't be like that.

I think to myself that I wanna be cautious with the relationship but then I always find myself half naked with him. I <3 him lots.. and I really miss him -____________________- Why won't he sign on ~_~; I hope at 6:00 he signs on.. It's only 5:49 now.. Okies.. I'm gonna go now so laters.

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