| ♦ I was a fool living in a dream |
[15 Jan 2009|03:58pm] |
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Better Off Alone - Marie Digby |
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I really need some time to write something in here. It's been so empty.
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| ♠ hey pretty lady |
[26 Dec 2008|01:35pm] |
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Ryuusei - TiA |
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She makes love so beautiful!
I can't remember the last time I felt similarly. But looking back at all the stuff. Gosh. It must be incredible :)
This blog is due for a makeover soon. Nyar!
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| ♦ stop me going home |
[15 Dec 2008|12:56pm] |
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Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance |
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Something doesn't feel right.
And I totally wasn't expecting that.
Gosh, what if everyone is right?
I should think on this.
Because here I am, at my desk with the usual Monday blues with absolutely no muse to write anything work-related, and in addition to the grind misery is this very strange, very uncomfortable, almost physical sensation in my gut that's making me lose my appetite. If it gets any more intense than this I might actually want to throw up.
Maybe it will change everything.
Maybe new things scare me.
Maybe I'm thinking too much. (It's a talent, really.)
I feel like lying on the floor.
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| ♥ there would still be music left to write |
[05 Dec 2008|11:01am] |
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The Longest Time - Billy Joel |
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I finally. Finally. FINALLY. Got the job of my dreams.
I'm full time now at Arena! All the shit from this past year was worth it!
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| ♠ something your eyes never told me |
[05 Dec 2008|10:24am] |
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Light In Your Eyes - Blessed Union of Souls |
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I wonder how many times in my life I'm going to end up using this phrase:
"This is so... weird! But in a good way!"
Ok granted, the last time I said "trippy" and this is less so, considering the circumstances. This is not recommended for less dire reasons.
I wonder how some people will react if this gets out. But at least for once in a long time, I don't really care who knows. There's no strict reason to! I'm not actually doing anything wrong! Hahaha!
Life's little ironies.
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| ♦ baddest little thing |
[03 Dec 2008|06:29pm] |
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Leavin' - Jesse McCartney |
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I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first. I have to be the first.
I have to be the first to feel what I know is coming.
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| ♦ the lonelier side of the jealousy stick |
[28 Nov 2008|03:45pm] |
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The Professor - Damien Rice |
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Kenneth's last day today...
:'(
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| ♠ I'm trying hard not to pretend |
[26 Nov 2008|09:28pm] |
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Saint Simon - The Shins |
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"Hey, take care of him okay?"
"Um, haha. Sure. If I can, you know? I'll try! Haha."
"Be his girlfriend la~"
"Wha..? *nervous laughter*"
And I was so taken aback by that joke --because it sounded like he was half serious-- that a whole bunch of things I wanted to and could have said were in my mind. Like
"You DO know he has a girlfriend already right?"
"I'n fact, I'm pretty sure you met her!"
"That would be so strange on so many levels right now."
"Don't you remember what happened on new year's eve?? You there there!"
But then what I did end up saying was..."
"Haha.. if it were only that easy."
What the hell does that even mean? It's not easy being his girlfriend? It's not easy becoming his girlfriend? I make a horrible girlfriend? I don't want to be his girlfriend?
Sleep deprivation makes me say weird things that make no sense and apparently have no relevance.
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| ♦ so much younger |
[26 Nov 2008|10:02am] |
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Helicopter - Bloc Party |
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It's Lev's last day today!
:(
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| ♠ stuck on the hood rat |
[23 Nov 2008|03:11pm] |
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Elevator - Timbaland |
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Oops. Didn't realise there were more from the same moment. Someone's camera phone I expect. Maybe Alyssa's. Then again, even if it wasn't hers, I'm too lazy to change the credit... La la la...
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| ♠ about time aye? |
[23 Nov 2008|02:44pm] |
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Lucky - Jason Mraz ft. Colbie Caillat |
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I believe we were waiting for a cab after shopping at Wal-Mart. Because this was really quite a while ago, I don't remember too many details. I'll try to put up photos as chronologically as possible. :P
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| ♠ what Sundays are for |
[23 Nov 2008|12:21pm] |
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She Likes Me for Me - Blessed Union of Souls |
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"It's ok. I wish I was all someone thought about."
- Mark Sloan, Grey's Anatomy
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| ♠ before you |
[17 Nov 2008|10:12pm] |
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Unintended - Muse |
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A really random memory just popped into my head while I was in the shower. I don't know when this happened, but I do remember I was drunk (otherwise I'd recall this a whole lot better). I just remember a guy - a kid maybe - saying to someone I was with something like: Hey don't leh. She's my friend now."
I can guess under what circumstances that was said. But I'm more curious as to who said that. And I keep thinking it's someone quite a bit younger than me....
OKAY in the five minutes that I paused while trailing off that sentence I actually do recall what happened, when it happened and who said it.
Oh well. Nothing traumatic, so it's not really worth telling. It's from way too long ago anyway.
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| ♦ we. |
[17 Nov 2008|06:47pm] |
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My Name is Jonas - Weezer |
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I think music is necessary to keeping sane. Cos there's nothing else like it that's going to pull any emotions outta me.
Even then, can't really say it's working well enough.
It's pretty exhausting not experiencing feelings like a normal person. (Or maybe they're too normal.) Happy only for a while, cos you know it's not supposed to (or going to) to last.
Then feeling like pond scum and not really knowing why (and why it's lasting so long).
And the only bloody thing that's constant is stress.
And really hating to sound even remotely emo. But it's gotta come out somewhere eh? :)
I need a patch for my old patch. This constant swinging back and forth is not doing anything to help me figure shit out. Cos the excuse I'm giving is: Hey, it passes the time and I'm going to feel that bite for days.
Jan's right: It's not healthy!
Hahaha. I know it's not! Does it look like I care though? Everything I'm doing is an attempt to feel less detached from you all.
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| ♥ WTF moment in the office |
[17 Nov 2008|02:46pm] |
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The Best Damn Thing - Avril Lavigne |
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I did a full day hand shoot for Tony for a jewelry-calendar spread and the colour proofs were out today. Ka Wei and John were in Tony's cubicle and I could hear my name from across the office. So I walked over to see what they were going on about...
John: (Loud enough for half the floor to hear) Omg Charmian~~~ I didn't know you were so good at hand jobs~~~
Me: wa lau eh...
John: For free some more!!
Me: T_T
Steve: Who's jewels were you grabbing? *Laughs*
Tony: Certainly not mine... Haha...
Gotta love my colleagues eh...
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| ♠ drink, drank, drunk |
[14 Nov 2008|03:33pm] |
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Monsters - Matchbook Romance |
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Last night was insane!
Moet et Chandon really know how to throw a party. My glass was empty only one time, and that's because I was in a smoking room that had no waiters. No matter how often and quickly we chugged, the glasses will be - almost instantaneously - refilled.
Was hanging out with the AUGUST team (don't look at me like that Jon) and it's quite safe to say we finished off a bottle each. Actually, it's probably more than one bottle... The "Be Fabulous Gold" edition of Moet is really pretty too.
After the event, we did the obvious thing: Drink s'more. Drove to Butter Factory and ordered Glenlivet. We're still not sure who bought it, but we're inclined to think Lulu since she found herself with a bottle card the next morning.
And... the rest of the night was scarily hazy.
I don't remember how or when we decided to leave, or how I got a cab. I did remember almost throwing up in the cab, and emptying my whole bag to try and find my wallet.
This morning I woke up at 10:30. I was supposed to be at a meeting at 10. So when I first got up, the first words out of my mouth were a bleary "What... time.. is it.." followed by a long string of "FUUUUCK FUCK FUCK FUCKING HELL OMG FUCKING SHIT FUCK FUCK FUCK." Got out of bed and that's when I realised, to my puzzlement, that my ankle was fucking aching and that I wasn't wearing undies. But I didn't really have time to think about that. Threw on a polo, jeans and shoes that don't match, grabbed my bag, couldn't find my keys and rushed out.
Somewhere along the way I noticed my arm was hurting too. That's when a snippet of last night floated back to memory. I actually fell down the fucking stairs. I'm surprised (and relieved) it didn't happen sooner. Those fucking feet-hating Guess heels I got are precariously high. And thanks to all the alcohol, I was seriously wobbly. So I must've tripped on my own shoes or something.
But yes, aside from that, I don't remember much else in Butter. BUT I am proud of myself for not making drunk calls to anyone :D
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| ♠ do you see a single tear |
[10 Nov 2008|02:31pm] |
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So Yesterday - Hillary Duff |
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Tagged by Ms Dragonfly (and am so glad I'm still remembered enough to be tagged since my growing absence here..)
1. Do you have secrets?
Who doesn't?
2. Would you fall in love with a younger male/female?
I'd rather not. I'm even staying away from people the same age now.
3. Do you enjoy going to school?
Oh how I loathed school. But I have to say... MDIS was awesome, and only because I was fortunate enough to have befriended AWESOME people.
4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
Predictable things like saving, donating and making it turn into another billion.
Then buy a vacation house in every major city.
Then buy awesometastic presents for all my friends and family.
5. Would you love your ex-boyfriend/girlfriend again?
Hm. Nope. I'm speaking generally here.
6. Which is more blessed - loving or being loved?
Loving. At least that's a constant. It's just a bonus if you're loved back.
7. List out your 15 favourite songs.
Reptilia - The Strokes
A Little Pain - Olivia Lufkin
Say Yes - Chage and Aska
You Only Live Once - The Strokes
Famous Last Words - My Chemical Romance
I Don't Love You - My Chemical Romance
I Hate It - Ellegarden
Anthem for the Ordinary - Astroninja
Through the Fire and Flames - Dragonforce
Stockholm Syndrome - Muse
Skyway Avenue - We the Kings
Santa Claus - Ellegarden
Howl's Moving Castle Theme - Joe Hisaishi
How to Save a Life - The Fray
Hey Brittany - Forever the Sickest Kids
8. If you are single and your crush is attached, what would you do?
That happened to me before. Just wait and hope they break up.
9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
Lots of things have. If we're just talking this year, then I'd say the brief events of January made me extremely happy.
10. What makes you angry?
People rushing to get into trains.
11. How would you see yourself in 10 years?
Established in the industry, with readers actually looking out for my columns. Oh, and in love, if that's also not too much to ask.
12. Currently, who are the most important people to you?
I don't really want to answer.. Cos the list is quite bloody long and I'd run the risk of offending the people I may have missed out. Aside from the Arena team, it's pretty much everyone whose been around listening to my whining. (You know who you are. Yes, every single one of you.)
13. What is the most important thing in life?
Love.
14. Are you single or attached?
Single. (And wondering if I prefer it to couplehood.)
15. What is your favourite colour?
Don't have just one. Generally black, white, pink and red.
16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes.
17. What would be the first thing you say/shout when you reach the peak of Mount Everest?
Oh... fuck... (by then I think I'd be hyperventilating).
18. What are you doing now?
Aside from this? Telling Luann how scary Dead Space is.
19. Do you prefer coffee or chocolate drinks?
Chocolate drinks!
20. Tag five people.
Jake
Jan
Luann
Jon
(Anyone else who still reads this)
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| ♣ elsewhere in the bin |
[30 Oct 2008|11:18am] |
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No. 13 - Ellegarden |
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Oh God help me. I'm down to three stories and I'm working on my food pages now. It's torture. Know why? Cos I'm STARVING. Damn those descriptive press releases. My imagination and appetite are going on overdrive right now.
The only reason for this mindless ramble is because doing that on Facebook is too limiting. Why does everything have to start with your name? And there's only so many times I want to change my MSN personal message. Those are ideally reserved for something that's supposed to reflect my general state of mind. And right now I feel like I need to self-censor those cos I don't want people to read it out of context.
Expect more of this nonsense over the next couple of hours.
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| ♠ the resident gamers |
[29 Oct 2008|04:51pm] |
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Give Me Some Love - James Blunt |
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A rather amusing moment at work today:
Kenneth: Hey Charmian?
Me: What?
Kenneth: [Waves a review copy of Fallout 3.]
THREE SECONDS LATER
Levan: Hey Charmian!
Me: What?
Levan: [Waves a review copy of Fallout 3.]
Lol. People have waited some 10 years for this sequel. I'll bet they're counting down the seconds to 6 o' clock. Hahahaha...
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| ♦ army of two |
[16 Oct 2008|01:00pm] |
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Fix You - Coldplay |
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Why do you two (THE TWO OF YOU OF ALL PEOPLE) have to smell so much alike?!
It confuses the fuck out of me.
Colognes are evil.
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