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       Feb.12.2004      03:17A
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Name: Jessie Renee
Birthday: April 7thth, 1987
Location: Ridge
Mood: Exausted

Favorites
Color: Pink, orange, and brown
Decade: 1970's
Cold Beverage: Orange soda
Hot Beverage: Vanilla coffee
Alcoholic Beverage: Corona
Time of day: 1am
Movie: Moulin Rouge, Romeo and Juliet, Spaceballs, The Breakfast Club, The Sandlot, and Billy Madison
Book: Cube Route
TV Show: Real World/Road Rules
Month: April/July
Age: 17
Rapper: Tupac
Band: Linkin Park
Music: Anything really
Comedian: George Cariln
Finger: Thumb
Food: Mexican
Actor: John Malcovich and Russel Crow
Actress: Nicole Kidman
Restaraunt: Meson Ole
TV Channel: MTV
Store: Walmart
Smell: Vanilla, or cologne :)
Superhero/heroine: I'm not sure actually
Cartoon: Hey Arnold/Simpsons
Sport: Volleyball/Soccer
Subject: English, Anatomy and Physiology
Radio Station: 106.1
Season: Summer/Winter
Car: Mitsubishi Eclipse
Dog: MINE!!!!!!!!! Schipperkees/Jack Russels :D
#: 13

Either Or
dog/cat: dog
blonde/brunette: brunette
light/dark: light
night/day: both
inside/outside: inside
Lamp/candle: lamp
tape/glue: tape
pen/pencil: pen
phone/im: phone
singing/acting: acting
Stereo/discman: discman
Gay/straight: whatever floats your boat
VH1/MTV/BET: MTV

Current
Clothes: comfy pants, abercrombie sweater, grey shirt, yellow socks :)
Annoyance: exaustion
Location: in my home, in my den
Taste: apple pie
Smell: my perfume
Worry: how the hell am I going to handle a 600 page book, and then a 12 page research paper???
Time: 2:53
Thing I ought to be doing: Sleeping
Make up: chapstick, eye shadow, coverup
Amusement: Judge Mathis
Desire: SLEEP

1st Thing Comes to mind
Red: wine
Rain: I'm siiiiiining in the rainnnn!
Michael Jackson: The way you make me feel!! It really turns me on!
Beach: HOT
Socks: yellow joe boxer :)
Love: psh
Money: desire
Hurt: knee

Future
College: I really, REALLY want to attend NYU .. but I'm not sure if I'm capable of getting in/affording it. So either NYU or UCF
Spouse: Whomever I love
Profession: I'm not sure yet
Kids: However many pop out, haha

Do You Believe In?
Love: Yes
At first Sight: I haven't experienced it yet
Fate: Yes
Higher Power: Yes
Music's Power over the soul: Yes
One Person's Ability to change the World: Yes
Santa Claus: No
The Easter Bunny: No
Tooth Fairy: No
Aliens: Yes
Magic: Yes
Math: Only Junior high-Lower graded math .. everything else is just made to challenge the mind.

Most Important
Question: What do you think is right?
Law/Rule: Thou shalt not kill.
Posession: My dogs

Miscellaneous
Lucky Number: 13
Sign: Aries
Best Friend: My closest friends are Kristy Paulsen, Dana Siebert, and Courtenay Fedler :) .. And the person that knows me the best and will always have a special place in my heart is William
Your Theme Song: Sweetness- Jimmy Eat World
Been Skinny Dipping: Nope
Eye Colour: Hazel
Piercings: 2 in each ear
Snore: Probably .. I wouldn't know because I'd be SLEEPING while doing it ..

HAVE YOU EVER
Ran away: Yes
Broken someone's heart: No one's heart can be broken forever
Cried when someone died: Yes
Broken a bone: Nope
Drank alcohol: Yes
Lied: Yes
Cried in school: Yes

WHICH IS BETTER
COKE or PEPSI: pepsi
SPRITE or 7UP: sprite
GIRLS or GUYS: guys
FLOWERS or CANDY: Flowers, absolutely
SCRUFF or CLEAN SHAVEN: Scruff is sexy, clean shaven is slick
QUIET or LOUD: Depends
BITCHY or SLUTTY: neither.
TALL or SHORT: guys gotta be taller than me
PANTS or SHORTS: Depends..I prefer to wear pants, but if it's warm enough I'll wear shorts

WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX
What do you notice first?: If they're smiling, then their smile
Last person you slow-danced with: I have no idea actually

THE LAST TIME
Showered: Last night
Had a great time with the opposite sex: Idk

WHAT IS
Your good luck charm: I don't think I have one
Person you hate most: My old stepfather
The best thing that has happened to you today: Going to math lab .. haha .. always fun

DO YOU EVER
Sit by the phone all night? yes
Save AIM conversations? if they're important/funny-yea
Save e-mails?: if they're important/funny-yea
Wish you were someone else?: at times, but who doesn't?
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Sometimes, because most females are so manipulative and canniving. Plus they're extremely complicated
Cry because of someone's mean words?: yep

BEST
Cologne: Abercrombie and Fitch ... WOW
Perfume: Chanel
Romantic memory: I have a lot from Will
Most recent piece of advice given: Don't ever say never

HAVE YOU
Fallen for your best friend?: yeah
Made out w/ JUST a friend?: yes
Been rejected?: yes
Been in lust?: idk
Used someone?: no
Been used?: no
Cheated on someone?: Never
Been cheated on?: Nope
Been kissed?: yes
Done something you regret?: of course

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON
You touched?: I'm not sure
You talked to?: Will and Rob
You hugged?: Will
You instant messaged?: Robert
You kissed?: Will
You yelled at?: Ummmm I'm not sure
You laughed with?: myself, lol
Who told you they loved you?: My mom

DO YOU
Colour your hair? nope
Have tattoos? i wish.
Own a webcam? nope
Own a thong? yeah
Sprechen sie deutsche?: No i dont speak german
Habla espanol? Somewhat
Quack? meep.

HAVE YOU/DO YOU/ARE YOU
Stolen anything? Yes..in like 6th grade .. damned peer pressure
Schizophrenic? Nope
Obsessive? yes
Compulsive? yes
Obsessive compulsive? yes lol
Panic? Nope
Anxiety? Nope
Depressed? At times
Suicidal? No
Obsessed with hate? Absolutely not
Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? No
Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? No
If you could be anywhere, where would you be? Somewhere extremely hot
Can you do anything freakish with your body? My tounge can do some fun things (not in a sexual way, lol)
What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? lips, smile
Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?: yeah
Would you marry for money? no
Have you had braces? yes
Do you pluck your eyebrows?: yes
Do you like hairy backs?: EWWW NOOO
When was the last time you had a hickey?: I've never had one
Could you live without a computer?: No
Do you use ICQ, AOL, MSN Buddy list etc...?: yes
If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: I don't feel like counting
If you could live anywhere in the past, when would it be?: 70's
Do you wear white socks?: yup
Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: i take em off
What is your favorite fruit?: tangerine
Do you eat wheat bread or white?: white
What is your favorite place to visit?: Honduras, St. Thomas
What is the last movie you saw?: Butterfly Effect
At home? Some love movie on Fox Family, it was awsome
Are you photogenic?: no
Do you dream in colour or black and white?: color
Are you wearing fingernail polish: clear
Do you have any dimples?: one
Do you remember being born?: No
Did you like or do you like high school?: High school has it's shitty moments, but I know I'm gonna miss it
What is the best accent? Austrailian, English, Spanish, French, WHATEVER!.
Who do you want to kiss?: No one
Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: Sunrise, because they're hardly ever seen
Do you want to live to be 100? Yes
Is a flat stomach important to you?: I wish
Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: yeah
Are you loyal?: Definitely
Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: yes
When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: off
Do you have nightmares frequently?: yea
Do you like your nose?: Sure, it's okay
Do you think you can draw well?: Yes
At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasn't real?: 8, my fucking dad told me, lol
How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet?: a lot, but I hardly wear any of them
Do you write poetry?: yeah
Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: I'm a switcher
Do you lick stamps?: yes
Do you use an electric can opener?: yes
Have you ridden in a hotair balloon?: no
Which hurts the most, physical or emotional? physical, because you can get over emotional, it just depends on if you want to.
Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: yes
Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: piano
Are you a sex addict?: haha
Do you know someone who has cancer?: yeah.
Do you like to argue?: Nope
Do you hunt?: no
Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: both
Which would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: every zoo is the same..art museum.
Do you have a middle name? Renee
Are you basically a happy person?: Yes
Are you tired? extremely
Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: nope
Have you ever met anyone off the internet? no
How many phones do you have in your house?: 6
How long is your hair?: Umm about 3/4 down my back
Do you get along with your parents?: Yes
What color of eyes do you prefer? Any color is beautiful
Do you like your name? Sure
Were you named after anyone?: My Uncle Jesse
Do you wish on stars?: yes
When did you last cry?: last night
Do you like your handwriting? at times
What is the #1 priority in your life?: keeping up my grades, my family, and my friends.
What is your favorite lunchmeat?: turkey
Any bad habits?: biting my nails, cracking my knuckles, twitching my nose, and biting my lip
What is your most embarrassing CD?: Eifel 65, haha
If you were another person, would you be friends with yourself?: yes
Are you a daredevil?: Haha .. you know it
Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell?: Probably, who hasn't?
Do looks matter?: Yes
Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: ...no
Do fish have feelings?: yes
Are you trendy?: I'm my own style
How do you release anger?: Staying quiet
Where is your second home?: My dad's
Do you trust others easily?: Nope
What was your favorite toy as a child?: Jurassic Park toys
What class in school do you think is totally useless?: Math
Do you like sappy love songs?: yes I do
Have you ever been on radio or television?: Nope
Do you have a journal?: yes
Do you use sarcasm a lot?: definitly! lol.
Have you ever been in another country?: Yes
If so, where?: Bermuda, Mexico, Canada, Haiti, Jamaica, Honduras, and the Camen Islands.
Would you bungee jump?: DEFINITELY
Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? nope
Do you ever wear overalls?: lol, no
Do you think you are strong?: yes
Whats your least favorite thing?: life
What would you change about yourself?: my body
Who are the people you care about most?: my family and friends that care about me
cmnt

       Feb.10.2004      10:59A
full name = Jessie Renee Maria Rivadeneyra
x. birthday = April 7th, 1987
x. piercings =2 on both ears
x. tattoos = not yettt
x. height =5'4
x. shoe size =8 1/2
x. hair color =brown
x. length =long

last...

x. movie you rented = Anger Managment
x. movie you bought = Umm Lord of the Rings 2 :P
x. song you listened to = Evanescence - My Immortal
x. song that was stuck in your head =Alicia Keys - You Don't Know My name
x. person you've called = Dana
x. person that's called you = Dana

do...

x. you have a bf or gf = nope
x. you wish you could live somewhere else = more than often
x. you believe in online dating = well no not for me
x. dating = ..I do date, but not at this time.
x. others find you attractive = idk, i hope so
x. you want more piercings = yes my tounge
x. you want more tattoos = well i want one right now
x. you drink = yepp
x. you do drugs = nope
x. you like cleaning = I only hate cleaning my room ... I have piles of clothes in my room
x. you like roller coasters = loveeeeeee them
x. you write in cursive or print = both at the same time.
x. you carry a donor card = nope

for or against

x. long distance relationships = I would definitely do it .. just as long as the other person was completely into it ...
x. using someone = Definitely against.
x. suicide = against
x. killing people = against
x. teenage smoking = There's no reason for it.
x. doing drugs = negative
x. premarital sex = For, just as long as it's not with random people. Just as long as you're comfortable with the person and trust them completely.
x. driving drunk = No point in doing it.
x. soap operas = Idk, I don't watch them.
x. your mom = 100% For.

have you...

x. ever cried over a girl or guy = yes.
x. ever lied to someone = yes.
x. ever been arrested = no .. but I will eventually for my somewhat reckless driving O:D

how many...

x. of times I have had my heart broken?: I haven't.
x. of hearts I have broken?: one
x. of times I have been in love?: I cared for him deeply ..
x. of girls I have kissed?: zero
x. of countries I have lived in?: one, but I wish I lived in Europe
x. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends?: Very few.
x. of people I consider my enemies?: I don't have any enemies that I know of
x. of cd's that I own?: a lot, mostly burned ones
x. of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?: A few times for Science awards .. elementary .. psh.
x. of scars on my body?: Seven.
x. of things in my past that I regret? various things


Who was the last person...

x. You talked to?: Jenn
x. You kissed?: My momma
x. You hugged?: Umm Courtenay
x. You had sex with?: Only one.
x. Who broke your heart?:
x. Who told you they loved you?: My mom


In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: Yes, last night.
02. Bought something: Yes .. FOOD .. of course
03. Gotten sick: I am now
05. Eaten: A few hours ago
06. Been kissed: by my mom on the cheek
07. Felt stupid: Yesterday at work because my boobs wouldn't fit in the top of my apron .. damn jublies :(
08. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't:
09. Met someone new: Umm a few days ago
10. Moved on: I don't think anyone moves on completely from anything
11. Talk to an ex: Today
12. Missed an ex:
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on: Nope
14. Had a serious talk: Not today
15. Missed someone: yeah
16. Hugged someone: No
17. Fought with your parents: Yeah .. my mom .. because wanted me to clean my room. Lol.
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with:Nope.

Social Life:
01. Best girl friend: I'm not sure actually
02. Best guy friend: I'm not sure actually
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Will and I shared many great memories.
04. If no, current dating partner: none
05. Hobbies: SLEEPING .. drawing, writing, etc.
06. Pager: i've never had one...even when all those cats did in like middle school. what was the poin tof that? honestly.
07. Are you center of attention or the wallflower: I'm the wallflower
08. What type automobile do you drive: TRENT the Blazer. Holler
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: Perhaps a Mustang .. that'd be nice.
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: my friends...duhhh i wouldnt trade them suckas in for antyhing!
11. Where is the best hangout: Court's haha
12. Do you have a job: yeah, Friendlys
13. Do you attend church: Nope.
14. Do you like being around people: Sometimes
15. Independant/Dependant: a little of both ... but more independent
01. Have you known the longest: Umm .. I'm not sure
02. Do you argue the most with: My mom.
03. Do you always get along with: Kristy
04. Is the most trustworthy: i can trust some of my friends
05. Makes you laugh the most:all of us together
06. Has been there through all the hard times: everyone has had some hard times
07. Has the coolest parents: Jen Trefferts .. haha .. or Courtenays :)
08. Has the coolest siblings: DANA. The end. And Kristy's brothers are FINE.
09. Is the most blunt: jen treffert all the way.
10. Is the smartest: Jen
11. Do you love(in a friends sort of way): everyone
12. Do you love(relationship wise): None.

Personal:
01. Who is your role model: Lenny Smalls from a movie.
02. What are some of your pet peeves: People who have their fat hang out. Bugars. Loogies.
03. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: Idk probably
04. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: Of course
05. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: Nope.
06. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): nope
07. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: Lol of course
08. Rather be dumper or dumped: dumped
09. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": As of now, none.
10. Want someone you don't have right now: No
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: ..
12. Do you want to get married:yes
13. Do you want kids: 3
14. Do you believe in psychics: idk, sometimes
15. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point: Haven't met them yet, so no.
16. What do you think is the best part of your physical appearance?: My eyes? Idk .. my body sucks .. my hair sucks .. so we'll go with the eyes.
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: My realistic point of view on things
18. Are you happy with you: emotinally, yes. Physically, no.
19. Are you happy with your life: Reality is a Given, Reaction is a Choice. You choose how to live/like your life .. and I love mine.
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: Have the perfect body. Really that's what I want at this point and time. The end.
cmnt

       Feb.10.2004      10:12A
01. i like any type of music that connects with me.
02. i love to read fantasy books.
03. I like the color pink, orange, and brown.
04. i love getting to know people and having long conversations.
05. i love surrounding myself with people that make me happy...that make me laugh
06. i live for nights i won't remember with friends i'll never forget.
07. i am somewhat organized.
08. I love life to the fullest.
09. i never question love, but only the purpose or reason for it.
10. I wish I lived in the future.
11. i love rain.
12. i have an obesession of staying in the light, due to my MASSIVE fear of the dark.
13. i like my eyes.
14. i love swimming.
15. I love Romeo and Juliet, Moulin Rouge, Spaceballs, The Sandlot, The Breakfast Club, and Billy Madison.
16. Cuddling with someone really wonderful is the greatest thing in the world.
17. I think that you should always give someone a second chance.
18. I would rather die young and happy than old and alone.
19. I like every kind of music except some hard metal.
20. I live for adventure, experience, laughter, and love.
21. I have never been snowboarding before.
22. i love making people happy.
23. i hate being stabbed in the back.
24. I do some things, that i shouldnt.
25. i HATE waking up in the morning.
26. i am terrified of failure.
27. i like my lips.
28. music can change my mood.
29. i like riding in cars with my friends.
30. i wish i lived in New York City.
31. I need to change some things in my life.
32. I love having my own car, but im not in love with it.
33. I'm a good speller.
34. I love dogs.
35. i don't want to be anywhere near negative or rude people.
36. i want to leave Longwood.
37. I hate being told what to think.
38. I think that I could use a beach trip.
39. i love hearing stories.
40. i wish i had more money.
41. i want romance.
42. i have no tattoos, but will get one asap.
43. i love my mom and dad.
44. i love when people play with my hair.
45. i like being home alone.
46. i would rather listen to music than watch t.v.
47. although I really hate high school, I know I will miss it.
48. I look forward to 4 years of college
49. Having a treehouse as a kid was fun.
50. i love children.
51. i think sneezes are cute.
52. I think that there’s nothing better than a quiet night at home spending quality time with my dog.
53. i'm glad I have job so I can have money.
54. i have many regrets.
55. I have had cornrolls before.
56. I want to die in my sleep.
57. i try to think before I act, but sometimes I forget.
58. I hate judging people, but I get caught up in it because of my friends sometimes.
59. I like writing, but English class blows.
60. I hated my soccer camps.
61. I want to go to the junior prom with my friends and an awsome date.
62. i love to laugh.
63. I have never watched Scarface.
64. I LOVE snow.
65. I wish everyday was full of suprises.
66. I think, i think, i think too much
67. I like to sing when no one is around.
68. i think people with eating disorders are either messed up or very ill.
69. i sadden when i think of how some people destroy others.
70. I want to have 2 kids, a boy and a girl.
71. I wish I was really, really good at something.
72. i love falling asleep.
75. i'm online a lot.
76. i like reading infos when they are interesting and not just all "i love my boyfriend, i love my friends, i love shopping, i love being a fucking idiot".
77. I hate only one person, and for a very passionate reason.
78. i'd rather be hated for who i am than be loved for who i am not.
79. I sometimes think “what on earth am I doing?"
80. I like to paint.
81. i cry a lot.
82. i want to win the lottery
83. I hate being wrong.
84. i like unique qualities in the opposite sex.
85. i am allergic to shedding animals and certain antibiotics.
86. i wish that I had enough money to buy THE WORLD.
87. I sometimes wonder if somewhere there is a person doing the same thing I am at the very same moment.
88. i love my mom and dad, more than anything.
89. I laugh when I fall down.
90. i love long car rides and watching clouds.
91. I love to steal the salt-n-pepper shakers from resturaunts
92. I think all food is wonderful.
93. Nothing beats the weekend.
94. i love horror movies.
95. Broccoli and Cheese is my favorite food.
96. I have a semi-large vocabulary.
97. i like some coffee.
98. I love to watch basketball.
99. 13 is my favorite number.
100. Imagination is the best word, ever.

Ps. I want a Valentine really bad. I was watching Fox Family before and I watched THREE movies on love. I can't deal with this shit. =/
cmnt

       Feb.10.2004      05:00A
Oh man. Okay. Friday, Math lab, Dana, Jen, and I were there. So was Billy Lee and Patrick. And, so was Tiffany Grabowski. Anyway, Dana brought in this Afro Sheen cream ... ya know, cholesterol syrum for black people's hair. Okay well Tiffany went over to the teacher that was in the math lab, and Dana took her water bottle and put the afro sheen all around the rim of the bottle where you drink from, put the cap back on, and put the drink back. Lmao .. ohh man .. too friggen funny. It got even funnier when Tiffany has people telling Dana that she wants to "hurt her badly" now .. haha. I mean c'mon ... who fights over some cholesterol on a water bottle anyways .. honestly?? So yeah, if little miss TIFF says anything to Dana .. IT'S ON!! Haha .. okay back to my weekend..
Saturday I worked all day and then went to Treffert's for the night with a bunch of other people. Yeah .. wow .. extreme hangover the next day. I was supposed to work 12-5 on Sunday, but I'm pretty sure that I was still drunk, so I switched with Moe and worked 6-10. It was worth it though, lol.
Yesterday was Monday .. andddd Dana and I went to Friendlys for lunch and so that she could pick up an application. The waitress gave us three, in case Day messed up any of them, so we had two extras and made up retarded fake ones. There were two questions right in a row that said "Are you a US citizen?" and then "Have you been convicted of a felony in the past 5 years .. and if so, why?" So on mine I wrote "I broke into Walmart at 3am to ride around the store on scooters." And Dana.. thinking that the Why part of the question was asking "Why are you a citizen now?" wrote .. "Because my dad chased me around with his favorite kite and got taken away." .. Lol .. friggen retard. On our way home to dropping her off we hit a garbage pale with my car GOOD. It shattered the whole thing .. lmao. Too much. Then I had work 5-10 :D
Today has been very bleh. I went home early because I felt like shit and was very tired. My mom and I are going tanning in a bit. We're tanning now so that when we go to Honduras we won't get skin poisioning lol. Hopefully after tanning I can go to Dana's for AMERICAN IDOL NIGHT. It gets really intense over there ...
I guess that's about it. I am Jessie and this is a peace out homie.
cmnt

       Feb.06.2004      10:39A
Yupahh .. just got home from hanging out with SKITLHOTN. We all went to the Hawaiian night basketball game. I only wanted to go to watch Step Squad because I am simply amazed by them and wish I were black just for one night to perform, hah. After their performance Court and I went to 7-11 to get Slurpees for us and drinks for everyone else. So yeah, that was fun. Then we were just driving around and I ran THREE lawns tonight. Hit two pales too. I need to find some other sort of harmless destruction to do with my car because lawn running and pale hitting is getting a little boring. There were massive amounts of puddles in the friggen roads ... so Rob and Court stuck their heads out the window and I went like 30 right in the middle of a huge puddle and they got SOAKED haha. Then we drove Robert home, and on the way back to Courts there was a plastic hubcab in the middle of the road, so we took it. I think it's still in my car lol. Next time we have the car late at night, we're stealing a mini picknick table and a cement schmiggum (idk what it is .. so it's a schmiggum). Courtenay didn't want to get them so I just drove away. But soon, don't you worry. So yeah, I didn't have a ride back to Court's, so they're all having an effin sleepover and I'm not there. But that's okay because I am quite tired. I have work tomorrow from 12-8 ... fun fun.
Will and I aren't talking anymore. Just thought that should be stated. I'm not sure if it was the best thing to do, and I know it wasn't what I really wanted to do ... but I think it was needed. Because no matter what, some problem or some sort of drama would end up developing, and our breakup has been hard enough, aside from all the fighting. It's my fault and his fault, but no matter who's fault it is, it isn't right and it isn't healthy. Idk .. hopefully in the future him and I will be able to talk, but I highly doubt that it'll be soon, because if it will be, then we'll just end up not talking ... again. So yeah .. I've kind of been upset about that the past few nights. I'm not stating why I got mad at him in the first place because yeah, I don't feel like it, but I do not regret getting angry over what I did because I think it was rather justified. The end on that subject.
I really want a Valentine. Just some random person. That would be so incredibly lovely. It really would be.
My knee hurts really bad. When I was driving and every time I'd put my foot on the brake pedal, my knee would hit my friggen keychain. Oh well.
I really am not in a happy mood. I don't know if it's because of the Will thing or I'm just in an unhappy state. Whatever ... I'll just have to suck it up and get over it.
I'm going to bed soon, I am Jessie, and this is goodnight
cmnt

       Feb.03.2004      09:17A
Today was simply wonderful.
School was actually fun. We did a lab today in chemistry, but Ms. Halioris picked the groups which sucked, but ohwell. I went to every class about five minutes late due to my "injury" hah. And I took the elevator a few times. It smelt bad.
After school I ate, watched some tv, and then did the most splendid thing in the universe. NAPPED. Five hours baby. Sleep is the ultimate love of my life ... you have no idea lol.
I got all of my homework done because I was in quite the productive mood. And umm .. yep. That was my day. Actually, it was rather boring, but still a wonderful day :D.
I want a Valentine :/. I'm hoping that next week I get a carnation. Just one would satisfy me. Or not even a flower. Just a .. "Happy Valentine's Day" .. anything!! :/
cmnt

       Feb.02.2004      02:54A
Oh man, my friggen knee hurts so bad :/ ... Friggen a's ... everytime I went to go use the elevator in school, no one was around to open it for me. So I had to walk up and down the stairs like six times. Everytime I took a step I felt my knee crotch spreading. Ewwwwww haha. That sounds so dirty!! Nothing much has happened. I can't wait until Dana's birthday. OUT OF CONTROL. I can't wait to get her presents. I highly doubt that I'm going for an actual theme with her presents, but just an all around dollar store shopping spree. Hah jk jk ... I'm not sure what I'm doing yet. It will be super though.
I started my diet today. All I ate was an Atkins friendly wrap at Subway. It was really good when I was eating it .. but now that I actually think about it .. it kind of makes me want to vomit. Ew.
As soon as I'm done with this entry I'm napping like whoa. My body is in serious need of sleep, and I will give it some heh.
Laddy da da da. I don't have much to say but I feel the need to continue typing.
I'm excited for the Inferno premiere (tonight at 10pm on MTV!!) ... I'm such a reality tv freak.
Okay well I'm cold now. And I'm tired. So it's time for a nap.
My name is Jessie. Kbye :D
cmnt

       Jan.29.2004      09:04A
First time I've updated this bad boy in months. A lot's been going on. Where to start ...

I don't really talk to Will anymore. Not that I hate him or dislike him, because I don't in the least. He taught me so many things that no one else could ever teach me and we shared great memories, but at this point and time I don't believe it's a great idea for us to be talking. After the breakup I'm worried of certain feelings coming back on his part and mine, so the best way to prevent anything involuntary happening would be from not talking I guess. I don't know if it's the best decision, but idk. Time will figure things out in that department.

I'm really just focusing on myself right now and trying to achieve the things that I want to. All I really want is to be a good person and pursue happiness. Getting good grades, spending time with my family and friends; these are the years that I'll remember for the rest of my life, and I want to be able to make my own decisions. The good and the bad. I'm making friends that I know will support me for a long time to come, and I can't wait for the future to come. I want to get away from high school and go to college in the city. Go somewhere that no one knows who I am, as if I was being reborn again. I honestly cannot wait to graduate, but I know that I'll be sad to leave Longwood, although it is quite trashy, it's got a special place in my heart<33.

Enough of the emotinal subjects. Time to talk about present time things.

Well, on Monday after the first portion of the English regents, Dana, Kristy, Courtenay and I went out (me driving of course) snowboarding in some sump in Ridge. Welp. Yeah ... maybe I'm not quite ready for snowboarding yet, hah. As I was going down my first run, there was a slight drop in the ground, and I slipped and hit my knee on ice, stone, something HARD. At first I just layed there holding my breath because it was that feeling that you get when you either bang your elbow or knee on something hard ... except the feeling was there for about 30 seconds. I wanted to cry, but then I see Dana coming down the hill as "Snow Patrol" to come and save me, meanwhile she fell right in front of me and then I see risty sliding down the hill sideways hysterically laughing, so of course I started laughing. I didn't think anything was wrong with my knee, so I kept going down the hill about three more times on my disc sled. So I'm strapping on my snowboard to go down some more and I look down at my fleece pants and I see blood. Oh fuck. So I lift the fleece and look at my jeans and Kristy and I look at each other and are like .. "uhohhh" haha. So I lift my jeans and when I saw the gash on my leg I almost vomited because it was so deep and I started tearing because it schkeeved me out so badly. It looked like utter vagina. Haha. So I drove home and told my mom that I slipped and fell on the ice, because if she found out that I was driving around, she'd whoop my ass. So yeah, all in all, two layers of five matress stitches and a full leg brace for a week. F >:o.... It's all good though, it got me out of work for a week. Only bad thing is that I have no "excuses" to go out driving ..so yeah..bummer. Tis okay about work though, I babysat on Wedsnday and made $72 ... not bad! My momma's in Vermont until Sunday, so I'm not going into school tomorrow. Rich and are are hanging out sometime on Saturday. I was supposed to go to Amanda Vallone's Sweet Sixteen, but I refuse to go to a party, in a dress, with a full leg brace on and not being able to fully enjoy myself while dancing. Oh well. I'm not sure what I'm doing tomorrow ... idk ... I'll figure it out tomorrow as usual. Okay well I'm going to go call Rich and then probably fall asleep. Goodnight.

Ps. I love New York. I love the snow. I love the stars. I love my friends. And I love the new sketch pad my mother bought me ...
cmnt

       Nov.15.2003      09:49P
APRIL:
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their luver can see.

Pretty damn good.
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