Smilodon's Journal

6:43PM - Hhhhhmmmmm....

What has happened? I am now 18. Pretty good,hah? Christmas went, and I really didn´t get the feeling. Blah! We have a DVD-player and A new computer (I mean my brother has). Nice. I read all the CCS in two days and returned those. I feel myself somekind of trouplemaker (this the only word that I found, perhaps not the best). Why? Last Sunday I disturbed Gabby and borrowed CCS-DVDs (I feel so embarrassed!). The english voices were good, occasionally, but the books are funnier. Some parts are even cutted away! Nah!
I got that dictionary! Don´t ask me how much it cost or I faint. Problem is, I didn`t take it with me tonight!
Happy New year for everyone!

3:51PM

YOU ARE JUST A LITTLE PEACH!!
Wow, aren't you perfect. You should get all the
things you want, including the new dictionary
you've been waiting for.


Is Santa bringing you presents this year?!
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Okayyyyy.... Where on earth did that know I want new dictionary? Spooky!

10:38AM - Did you know that the next generation will be doom?

That´s just my opinion as a biologist. Why? Yesterday, me and my mum, fixed biology exams together. It is a miracle how inventive those pupils can be and where they get those strange names to animals. Only one of them knew what was a diver larva. They called it as a water scorpion, white "katka" and someone claimed that it was a "mönkiäinen". A diver was also strange for pupils, generally they claimed it is a beetle ( mum was gracious and gave half points because diver belongs to the family of beetles). A Mosquito larva was a centipede.
Bird identifying went better, but some boy thought that penguins live in The Baltic sea. Terns live in reeds nowdays.
Have you ever heard this: When the Baltic sea become entrophic, mosses are going to grow there. This was the funniest answer I think, because this boy didn´t mean water mosses which grow on the bottom of rapids. Another legendary phrase came up later. A question was this: What kind of routes birds use when they move?
"Those go near Tampere". Okayyyy, they don´t use their brains at all. Some pupils saved their numbers by using their brains in insect assignment.
I am angry to Wildy by the way. Why she had to tell everyone taht I am a lunatic? Dream said I am extremely smart usually, but sometimes I make funny scenes. Embarrassing!

7:55PM - Birthday comes, Christmas comes, and O my god, there comes the Squirrel.....

Working days are here again. I am not complaining, but I am a bit tired. And emprassed someway. I decided to be reasonable and leave myself out olders dances or what ever it is (Sorry Gabby!). I have also a new blurty friend, Velgar, but at school I call him Squirrel. So irriteting as boy with wicked mind can be, but sometimes he is very amusing. I happened to say another day that he and Phantom are made for each other. Dream prevented her aims to kill me, and Gabby and I laughed our heads of.
Homefront: nothing new.
There is about two weeks for my birthday. I guese I should be hilarious, but I am not. I feel it as a common birthday.
An american colonel came to keep a discussion in our school. He might believe what he said, or tried just brainwash us. I am not so sure, but he kept telling "that´s a very good question" and sticked up for Securaty politics. Still, he said something reasonable, though. I kept my mouth shut all the time eventhought I would have wanted to ask something. Mayby it was the best decision.
Ehh, I have got a greate idea for my friends´ Christmas psesents. We shall see does it succeed.
I haunt my teachers to get exams back. Heh heh, just a joke. Nothing more now.

8:15PM - I am so tired working every day. Now the weekwend has come I can throw my trouples away...

Arikato, arikato! The exam week is finally over! I am very tired, but in my mind I dance. My history exam went well today, thank God. Now I have to wait half and one week to get exams back, I prosume. Loatsome!
I haven`t got time to write a long time, and I have forgotten many thinds I would have wanted to write down. But it´s not as bad as it looks like, I have something. Others have already written about our meeting in my place. Am I really an excellent cook? How flattering! It was extremely fun (if we don´t count that I ate too much nuts and loose my appetite). We laughed so much that my mum asked later are we so noisy at school also. Now, we aren´t. We had spent long time in filmtown tried ti select a movie that everyone likes. A hard mission. We chose "Hero". Good choice, for once a different film! Very well acted and filmed.
I can´t tell how much I hate George more stupid Bush and his Secretaries! While ago I saw an excellent document about their politic. They have put their noses everywhere and get tangled with every national conflict, in east, in west, in south, in north. That comes to 79 different conflicts or wars! Do they really think they could pacity Iraq with threats? I have nearly finished Michael Moore´s book "Stupid white men", which reveals the dirty game that Bushis practiced in their homeland. Bravo Moore!
Gabby made nice picture from us other day. I wonder should it tell something? I succeeded to make Phantom angry. How? I just told her what my mother had joked. Phantom hashed over Wildy´s hair and afterwards I cleaned her shoulders from dandruff. My mother said that we are like a group of monkies. I didn´t mean to offend Pantom, I thought it was funny.
In home nothing new, except I have found a connection with my dad, brother doesn´t annoy me so much, Lotus wants to eat all the time and mother is tired. Heh, by the way, I am an owl, and my strenght is wisdom. Hope so.
Hah, the term chance. Nice term I thing, I shall save Wildy from madness, if we believe her words. I have only one course where she isn´t with me. Nice, I thing.
End of the day I can rest, read, clean, make a supper in peacy, plan Christmas and present.... That reminds me, I have to ask from Gabby shall we arrange Christmas parties. I listen Christmas songs, my mind is in balance. Could a day better be? (Let´s see is there any balance left when I start to get exams back)

But,

Fear no more the heat o´ the sun.
Nor the furious winter´s rages

12:42PM - Ohh God, I´m loooooooser!

It´s been along time since I have written anything here (I think so). Nearly all things I have been planning to tell about have vanished from my head, but still I want to unburden my heart.
I have realized how afful my english must be but I must to admit that it is only my own fault that I didn´t read english properly at elementary school. Be ashamed of you, ashamed of you stupid Smilly! I´m looooooser!
And now when have moaned, I can tell some items. Wildy have written an excellent english essay which is titled "It is still a mans world- true or not?". Especially the point: "there is a woman behind every decision", is very true when think our history, for example Aspasia, Empress Theodora and Marie Antoianette. But I wonder does Wildy know how wicked women can be sometimes.
I have invited all my friends to my house next friday. We are going to cook ( you don´t know how difficult it is to find food that everyone eats) and have fun! If I won´t say anything emparrassed it will be. But first I must do my Themistokles-essay ready.

Minä muutan käärmeet enkeleiksi.
Kohottakaa päänne! Nouskaa pyrstöllenne!
Hetkinen- eikä enää yksikään kähise.
Autuaina lepäävät ne jalkojeni juuressa,
vaipuneina uneen, suudellen vaippani lievettä.
Sormielen lyyraa. Maan yli kulkee tuuli
hiljaa, juhlallisesti, kyynelissään,
suudellen kauneuden elottomia, marmorinvalkeita
patsaita suulle,
jotta ne avaavat silmänsä.
Minä olen Orfeus. Minä voin laulaa miten tahdon.
Kaikki on minulle luvallista.
Tiikeri, pantteri, puuma seuraavat minua
kallioluolaani metsään.

Ohh my God, I love Edith Södergran!

2:16PM - I´m only loyal to my tribe

Wheh, Here I am eventhought I promised to my mother I won´t write anything till some works are done. But she won´t have to know anything about this.
Today was incrediable at school. I happened to hear at a school hall Miss H´s speaking, and found out that she was going to say something to Gabby and Wildy. First I was just suprised. What on earth they had done wrong that Miss H had taken offense? And she talked something about getting into court! Well I know what has happened between Miss H , Gabby and Wildy of course, but STILL!
Next thing I could think about was: I have to warn G and W! I am loyal to my friends you see (and I don´t want to see probaply stubid ).
And what was the issue? Gabby had just written about her on her journal! Talk about
Hmmm, this is not my thing, but it is so memorable that I had to write this. And one thing also. Miss Pearl had asked something about me from Gabby and Wildy. Häh, if she wants to know me she should come to me and
ask!
O tempora o tore!
Hey guys, read me latest journal and give me comments!

7:29PM - Too much, too much, too much....

First I want to say that I must be very boring person, because nobody doesn`t write anything about me in their journals. Nah, stupid. There has been a long week. Lotus has recovered from sterilization (Hurraa!), but she is forced to keep a collar for ten days. On Friday she is free, but in the meantime she looks like a radar when she walks around the flat, and others laughed theír heads off. Idiots!
I had yesterday geography exam (which was make-up exam). I ques it went pretty well. But now I am sure should I be offensed about that what Dream said to today. Pymph! Sometimes I feel myself a bit lonely in our group because I don´t enthuse over anime and don`t understand half of what they speak. Nah (funny word by the way), at least they always account for.
I still don`t know should I go our school`s dances (it is not prom dances). Gabby and Phantom are going, but Wildy and Dream doesn`t want to even think about it( when we dance they can laugh their heads of). Mrrrrrrrr! My other side says no, because I still see nightmares about my previous dances. But I might regret my choice some day.
Hiiiii, I just found out that I am not Phantom`s friend (In her journal), at least I think so. It must be because she doesn´t want to see my bad English. Well, revenge! I promised to continue the wood horoscopes, and now is Phantom´s turn, and of course me!

So, Phantom is Maple

Maple takes care of herself. She follow the fashion and doesn´t want to be one of in the masses. She is usually there where is something interesting. Mable is full of energy and brave, she is tireless (now I have to say somthing wicked; Phantom, when I meet her, looks like a ghoust! she is always tired and little angry).
Maple is always on the top; she is individualist. Althought Maple is shy and distant, she can make choices which are very risky. She doesn´t like sitting inside, on the contrary, she wants to meet new people (kröhönhöm...). She is loyal to her friends and doesn´t gossip.
Maple has always lots of plans, which are bizarre. She loves every kind of novelty and protect her ideas, but rarely put those into effect. Maple is cynic-public opinion is irrelevant (very true). She likes people talking about her (Ääääää....).
Maple´s intelligence is clear and sharp. Althought she has lots of problems, her mighty imagination and intuition compensate for it. Maple is very versatile.

Maple´s characteristics: sense of humour, analysis, calculating

Comment: Distant and individualist Phantom really is, and she can spit on public opinion, but else sounds very strange, if you know Phantom. Webname and enthusiaasm towards vampyres and evil powers can tell you something.

Why on earth I hang out with her?!?!? Mayby she reminds me about dark side that never rise up on me.
Haa, and the last, me!!! I am figtree (Eva and Adam come to mind now). So read and judge.

Figtree, Smilly

Fig is refined, not beautiful, but eloquentcharacteristic(I don´t know is this the right word). Fig is sensitive and needs warmth. She bears trouples badly, and sadness can take power in her.
Family is important to her, and she needs permanence. Althought she is not very strong. Fig has inferiority complex, and because of it she loose somtimes her calmness and joy of life. Althought Fis is not strong, she doas her duty punctually.You can trust her.
She works hard, eventhought she is sometimes lazy. Fig is impulsive and full of good aims, but life gives her a hard time continuously. Fig is realist, always hardworking and enterprising. She is a real treasure to her neighbours. Take a fig into your garden and take care of it. You won´t degret.
Simple feelings are more important to fig than the fantasys. Everyone gets along with Fig if you don´t have complex and can understand her. But remember this;Fig takes offence easily!

Fig´s characteristics: realism, practical intelligence, impulsive, ability of monitoring, organizational talents

Comment: Bad I think, but there are some things that I recognize on me.

By the way, I want comment from you, Wildy,Gabby and Dream!

After this, I insist that I don´t believe any kind of horoscopes, but this has been fun! The drawback is that my mother argue that I have enthusiasm of teenager towards Internet, journal and myths now. YÖK! What an insult!! If I would be enthusiastic, I couldn`t keep my hand´s of a computer. But I still have suspicions to computer, so what can you say!

I listened a couple of days ago Christmas songs! Call me crazy, but I love Christmas songs. Okay, my mother starts to get irritated, I have to stop.

That´s all folks! Goodnight!

2:52PM - Check this out.

Before you start to read this, go and read my last journal first, so you understand what I am writing here about. Ehh, Lotus is now on the operation. Horrible, and I just update my journal. But I have to do what I have started earlier. So, I told about my Linden friend Wildy. Now my other friends.

Gabby is Elm

Elm is big, limber and beautiful. She is very pleasing, but in the same time withdrawn. She doesn´t sweat the small stuff, dress down and doesn´t want to renounce her old sweater. She is modest, calm and balanced. She has also a tendency to be a moralist (moralist?! Gabby? Ääääää....)
She is straightforward, open and generaus. She is stronger than others, very responsible and put up with difficulties. When it comes to feelings she is passionate. Elm loves to lead and is very talented to control people (?!). You have to be patient with her, because she deserves it
She has cheerfull mind and sense of humour, which saves her often from groomines (well, that´s true, Gabby can always pull me up from saddness at least).

Elm´s characteristics: realism, powers of observation, organizational talents

Comment: I could really discribe Gabby with these kind of adjectives.

This is fun! Dream´s tree is very difficult, because I didn´t find it from English dictionary. I have to use Finnish name, which is Keltis. Keltis belongs to the family of Elms, thay is all I know. So,

Dream is Keltis

Keltis isn´t dainty, but make an impression of old and beautiful tree. She adapts every kind of circumstances, and she have good health. She is dynamic and self-confident. Keltis forces her surroundings to keep her in value, but in the same time she is sensitive to jokes which are directed towads her and doesn´t understand them.
Keltis wants to attract attention and be in the centre of it, and she can do sacrofices to get in that. She thinks that SHE have to make decisions nad say the last word. She solve complex problems easily, but is also imprudent.
Keltis is proud, self-centered, straightforwad and optimistic. That´s why she tends to do extreme actions. Althought she is very independent, others can lead her. She is gutsy and belongs to ones, who are always right.
Keltis person is also sensitive and sentimental. She is often artistic, she has a sense os ryhtm. Keltis was born to adventures and enjoys variety life

Keltis` characteristics: impulse, optimism, intelligence, reasoning power

Comment: Dream is really self-confident and wants to say the last word (at least I think so, sorry Dream!)

And because I am at library again, the time runs out soon. I have to stop, but this is not over yet. There is still Phantom and Me. I will write them next time, who knows when. One thing, I am very sorry about my bad English and I quarantee that all this doesn´t come from my head, just the comments and the little phrases in the horoscopes.
See you tomorrow friends, if you read this. Bye!

10:35AM - Let`t rock and ride! (take this as a joke)

Oookei, now I am at library writing my journal. Now mother cannot say anything, Whee!
It is Monday(holiday) and the land is white here in Turku. I don`t mean it has started to snow, no no, just ice has gone. Oooh, and today Lotus go to vet. I have at last decided that she won´t get any kittens, because she is so small (and my brother loose his nerves). I also totally believe that I am a loser. I made yesterday horrible mistake when tried to help my father. Why I couldn´t keep my mouth shut!
I also read my friend´s journals made some tests which Dream had done. O, I am the Unicorn, The Innocent, a curious individualist. My goodness, I AM NOT innocent. I would like to be vampyre, because it is realist and sensible. Am I curious? Well, on the other hand, you can look it from different aspects.
Now the prime story. I found a very amusing thing from Internet; The Woodhoroscope of Druids. These anciant kelth druids thought that every person have their own tree, which shows their characters. I even phoned to Wildy and asked when Dream´s birthday is to find out which tree she is. I have sum up here something.

Wildy is a Linden

Linden is very charming, na she knows how to use this. She adapts easily in every kind of circumstances, and only a bed can create homey atmosphere. On outside Linden is calm, even involuntary, queit, jumpy, and sometimes also pessimistic. Sorrow and debression are her main enemies, and those rise to power in her mind sometimes.
Linden is unpredictable and full of contradictions. It is difficult to understand her. Still, one thing is sure: She is very symbatic Social relations are pleasent and easy, because Linden pays attention patiently to her conversationpartner nad take friend´s proplems seriously and doesn`t want to order them. Althought she is sometimes unreliable, she is still loved (BAD mistake; I cannot ever imagine that Wildy could be unreliable).
Linden thinks practical. She has tendency towards technic, she is resourceful and punctual. She has strongly developed self-esteem. She perceives her surroundings accurately, ans she is realist.

Linden´s characteristics: powers of observation, organizational talents

Comment: I don´t know about the horoscope, but when I think about Wildy, She really bears resemblance to linden. She is so calm, queit and reliable and doesn´t take heat from every little setbacks (like yours truly). She stands up in storms and a wind can only make her leaves to hum.

Time is up! See you!

5:15PM - I really believe that I am insane.

It is Sunday night and I sit in front of the monitor. Why? Because I look for some information about Themistokles, from whom I am going to write an essay. Still I haven´t found anything usefull. But can imagine what did I find from library? A hundred years old book from Greeks! My history teacher Mr Lahtero said that I can even use it!
Ou yes, I believe that I am insane. Why? I assumed right when I was at Gabby`s place. I showed a couple of VERY crazy websites to her. We laughed our heads off! Not only the sites were funny, but they also were so well written! But, like always, I really ashamed myself now. I hope that Gabby doesn´t keep me childish. So, who cares about that? ME!!!!
Maybe stright people can sometimes be insane. Nevetheless, one thing is sure. I HAVE TO READ! Nearly this whole weekend I have just imagine something very weird and haven´t concentrated on my academics. Bad, bad, bad. Which remains me, I must dash. Good night Willy, Gaggy, Phantom and Dream if you read this boring journal!

3:45PM - Waiting, waiting, waiting.....

This time I write this at Gabby`s place. Whee, I´m waiting for my exams. The teachers are either lazy or very busy, because the majority of my friend`s exams are still in teacher`s hands. I have got three back, two more to go, history and English. I got Ten from biology! Or should I say, A.
Nothing more, if we don`t count that I am wondering will I show one page to Gabby.

6:29PM - Have I missed something?

I haven`t written long time. That`s because I don´t have Internet at home. But it doesn´t matter now. I´m pretty sure that I have missed something. I mean my friends. I just read them journals, and what did I found out? Gabby and Wildwhite have given me a nickname, Smilly. Thank you very much, I am very pleased.
Another thing was that Gundam wing-comparison. It´s not new for me, but it seems that I am an old lady with a bun (even thought I like to keep my hair that way). Well, it is true that I am strict for myself, but I have to keep myself in some sort of line.
Another news, my test week stopped a couple of days ago. I didn´t get to geography-test because I brought down the day before test. ASHAMED! Well, now I just have to do it some other time. My dear big brother annoys me very much, because he seems to be nearly always angry when he visit and he has named me as "keila". Don´t ask me what ever that means.
Nothing else now. Exept I have found very, VERY amusing fanfiction about.... Ohh, don´t tell you, it is just my business. So long!

5:49PM - What I have done wrong!?!?!?!!!!!

This sucks! Sorry everyone. I have worked at my uncle`s farm, you know, picked up cabbages and salads. Now I am home, and try to invent something. It is pretty boring when you just read books or watch TV or imagine with your cat. This is not really bad, but my stomach doesn`t work, and I don`t know why I`m so nervos.

8:43PM

Here is my lovely baby (even thought she nearly five-year-old abyssinian) Mi-amor Lotus Aboa Fennica, simply Lotus:

First, I have to apologise to Phantom, because I wrote her name wrong last time. Well, me, wildwhite, Phantom and Riikka are at Gabby`s home and watching anime music videos right now. We are going to watch some movies. Atmosphere is pleasent, and everything is okei, except I couldn`t eat because my stomach little sick. But, it`s better now.
Everybody thinks I`m crazy, I think, because I don`t like summer. I mean, summer is too long here in Finland. One month would be very nice, but two and half months! I have nothing to do! Of course I can read and make some needleworks, and work at my ungle`s farm, but he lives in Laitila (60 km from Turku) and there is also a cat called Eino, so I can`t take Lotus with me. Oh, my mother has suggested that she could look after her. We see it then. Bloody sars, I`m scared to go anywhere! Ou, on the other hand, it was just expected. The human population is too large.
Well, I stopped now. We see........... later.

6:33PM - Thursday

Well, this is it. My first journal. I still don`t understand how I get into this. My friends Wildwhite and Phamton told me about their own journals, and when they taught me how use computer, we created journals for me too. Or, can use a word "create" I don`t know. But,... ÄÄhhhh.... I have no ideas what to say. Mayby I just tell what did happen today.
I can´t understand where my schoolmate Bogel rip her dreams. She always has a new, insane dream for each day, yesterday she had seen me in her dream, today a monster. Riikka----------- we should throw her out of a ladder. Wildwhite think she could write a book called: " The dreams of Christina".
Phamton was, like usually, tired and depressed, Gabriella talked about Ayoi (I´m not sure if I got this right).
Lotus, my dear abyssinian, doesn´t follow my father anymore, thank heavens. I nearly thought that it would never stop. And I should read for exams now, but hear I´m, writing about my boooooring life.
Now I will stop. And I´m reaaaaally sorry about all my grammar mistakes.