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[16 Nov 2003|11:23am] [ mood | upset ] [ music | The calling ] SORRY. I really couldn't keep up 5 million journals. I cut it down to only 2... LJ and DJ. If you have one of those you can add me there dj.com/~silverdust55 or lj.com/~xo_ox I'm going to miss blurty! Bye Bye. (such harsh words.) 2 comments|post comment

[08 Nov 2003|09:00pm] [ mood | crappy ] [ music | nothing ] urfff I dunno why I still bother with this journal... I mean, its no use keeping it. I only know Ana (in real life) soooo... yeah. post comment

[04 Nov 2003|04:35pm] [ mood | bummed ] [ music | Barenaked Ladies - Pinch Me ] Well, so much to say. I am so bummed. I dunno where to begin. You all must think I'm bipolar, huh? My computer keeps breaking down! It's all cause of AOL! Hopefully my mom will agree to get a new type of connection. *crosses fingers for MSN* everything will just start to freeze up. and then it all dies. I hate it! So I guess it's confirmed that Jessica is leaving in December. Man, oh man. I've never been attached to someone like that so fast. I barely even know her. I know I'm gonna miss her. She's like the medicine this boring retarded school needed. A little pep-up for us. December... my favorite month too. I always thought December was a romantic month, and had always decided that when I marry and decide to have children, I will have my first child conceived in time to be born in December. I will calculate and everything. (excuse my train of thought) But I dunno, maybe December will make me cry this year? I have learned a lot from her. I love how she just doesn't care. Uff well... enough of that, I'll start crying. Which I don't want. I'm officially over Garrett.... hehe. Well, have been. Avoiding it. yeah.... So I guess Nick doesn't like Ana like that. It nearly broke me to hear it cause I had such high hopes for them. I really saw them as something... even if it was just friends. I'm cold. When am I not? I never get shouties... so I'll send shouties to my friends cause they make me feel special. Ana! David! Chris! Jessica P! Jessica M! Laura! Ui! Courtney! Liz! Madison! Charlie! Christina! Paige! Navaz! Cody! Melissa! Ben! Amanda! James! Matt P! Cindy! I'm a loser. 4 comments|post comment

[03 Nov 2003|07:54pm] [ mood | ditzy ] Hahha everythings so funny. look updating for my chee! Happy now? you ho! lol XxCuteRockerxX: are you joshin me?! ThexLoserxAnthem: lol yeah I am! ThexLoserxAnthem: lol XxCuteRockerxX: haha XxCuteRockerxX: u best be watching ya self XxCuteRockerxX: lol ThexLoserxAnthem: ya self? lol XxCuteRockerxX: yea u best reganize bigga~! XxCuteRockerxX: bigge(nigga) XxCuteRockerxX: bigga* XxCuteRockerxX: hha ThexLoserxAnthem: lol ThexLoserxAnthem: *cough cough* crackhead *cough cough* XxCuteRockerxX: hahah XxCuteRockerxX: *claps* with sarcasm laugh *hahaha ThexLoserxAnthem: o.O??? ThexLoserxAnthem: weRrRrRrD dawg XxCuteRockerxX: yea wangsta! XxCuteRockerxX: u best be trippen off ice bigga!!! XxCuteRockerxX: lol XxCuteRockerxX: haha... bigga u there?! are ya joshin me?! XxCuteRockerxX: o0o hells no u be joshin... XxCuteRockerxX: u about to get bigga slapped XxCuteRockerxX: lol ThexLoserxAnthem: ohh hell naw! I'll smack yo' biznaatch up so hard you'll be cryin on monday and bruisin on tuesday! XxCuteRockerxX: hahahha XxCuteRockerxX: *claps* XxCuteRockerxX: go bigga! ThexLoserxAnthem: lol ThexLoserxAnthem: thats a knee-slapper. ThexLoserxAnthem: it was so funny, I'm going to put it in my journal. lol 1 comment|post comment

[01 Nov 2003|09:14am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Indie//Hai Mera Dil ] Last night was great (or yesterday in general) After school, me, Chris, Ana, and Beth all went to La Taquiza (I still can't spell it... lol) and had some lunch. Then after that, me and Beth walked to my house and hung out. Navaz came over at like 5:00 and then we like lounged around my room for a while then headed out. I was a bit embarassed to trick or treat, because people gave us dirty looks, but ok. After the first few houses they went to, I started trick or treating. We went to like 4 different neighborhoods. lol we got some good candy. And suprisingly only ONE person asked us if we were too old to be trick or treating. Hell no. but it's ok, I didn't like him, EVER. It was so great. lol I was sad to see no kids dressed up as Harry Potter, but was equally happy to see an old gy dress up as him, and a guy who looked like around 15-16 as Harry, too. hehe ^_^ Overall it was fun. 3 comments|post comment

[31 Oct 2003|07:34am] [ mood | excited ] [ music | people talkin. ] Wooo.. it's Halloween! I finished my costume (last minute of course) I know what to do for my make up, I have everything figured out. I'm happy! Beth is coming over today and Navaz too. We're going "trick or treating" but I doubt we will. We'll probably just walk around like crazy people like usual. I'm guessing I'm cool with everyone now. I dunno, I tried to talk to Ana today (we all apologized last night) and she seemed really sullen. It's like nobody wants to talk to me or anything, but at the same time everyone's my friend. It's confusing. *sigh* I did the Amy Lee scar on the eye thing today. Nobody has yet noticed it, but then it's still like, covered by my hair. Hell, look at the time *glances at the clock* So yeah, I'm in Mr . Ray's class right now, school hasn't even started yet. David: "It's only 7:26?" hehe it's ok, ferret. ;p 3 comments|post comment

[29 Oct 2003|07:53pm] [ mood | stressed ] [ music | Dj Sammy//Boys Of Summer Remix ] fuck. Why is it that comments are so popular? ooo big deal. I missed an entry. So sue me. uff.. I dunno. I mean, its a JOURNAL. it's nice to get comments, but isn't it more important about what you feel? and what you say? Its not specifically people on blurty... more like Deadjournal and livejournal. so fuck. fuck fuck fuck fuckity fuck fuck!!!! KILL ME! I dON'T LIKE TO COMMENT! I LIKE TO ADD RANDOM PEOPLE! SO SUE ME! 1 comment|post comment

[27 Oct 2003|05:43pm] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Homegrown//Last Night Regrets ] I'm sorry. Sorry to everyone. from now on, I stick up for myself and only myself. Hell, I can't even do that. I run away and cry. final words. I'm sorry. post comment

[26 Oct 2003|10:04am] [ mood | pissed off ] [ music | Evanescence//Exodus ] Wow, last night was AMAZING. I went the the "Please Help Us" show, and it was SO much better than "The Punk Show" at Roller King. The bands were great, even though I couldn't stay for After The Fall. John puts on some good shows. Poor guy, had to work 3 jobs to pay for it. ;_; I REALLLY loved Ash Wednesday. And the third to last band. lol I forgot what they were called. I think the highlight of my night was hearing Chris got turned down by Kandi. LOL It was her Hacaneiga or something like that in mexican (her 15th birthday party) and I guess he was planning on asking he out (on his knee's too... boy he must be pretty darn desperate) at 8:00 and so at 8:30 me and Beth called him (I learned that if you want to block your number from caller ID, it's *67) and she talked to him, and he said she said no. lol it was AWESOME. lol Then Ana called him, and she was all "Silva says your an ugly ass fucker who shouldn't be let out into the world by yourself." lol it was FUCKING AWESOME! lol Overall I had a good time, until David was acting stupid and was all "How come you invited them?" Referring to Bethany and Dani. First of all, I didn't invite them. Holy shit, you know how many fliers were handed out???? Secondly, just cause you don't like them, and the fact that they're my friends doesn't mean its all my fault they're here. OK? There's just so many friggin things wrong with him, and I hope he reads this. OK? OK DAVID??? I HOPE YOU FUCKING READ THIS. That was my only peeve the whole night. And Ana just fucking started shaking her head at me. SHAKING HER HEAD. WTF??? Shit, look I'm all angry now. Damn. *sigh* I need some better friends. Some who don't fucking judge others like that. pleh. 1 comment|post comment

[24 Oct 2003|10:50pm] [ mood | grumpy ] [ music | Ev//Whisper ] I hope you all fucking read this. You deserve to know. I've avoided it too long now. 1st- YOU. I can't sit here and watch you call HER a ho when she did absolutely nothing to you! You have absolutely no right to do that, and plus, how the FUCK is she being a ho? Cause HE liked her and she didn't want a boyfriend? NO! OK! NO! THATS NOT HOW THE FUCKING WORLD GOES. DON'T FUCKING SIDE UP WITH HIM JUST CAUSE YOU ONLY TALK TO HIM! WHY DON'T YOU OPEN UP YOUR FUCKING MIND????? 2nd- Ok, its cool that you two are cool, but you need to tell a certain SOMEONE to stop calling someone else some bad untrue names. And how come all of a sudden you're so happy and high now that you have a girlfriend? I have included links to the undisclosed people's journals for the witness protection program. Give me a life. 5 comments|post comment

[22 Oct 2003|08:21pm] [ mood | stupid. ] Why is it, people can't take a hint? My neighbor Katie came over today while I was outside looking for a stray dog. She was all "You wanna go walking?" I was like, "Ok, sure." So I took my cell phone and we went. And went. And Went. We were playing on my cell phone, ya know? Just calling up random people, we called Emmanuel, Joe (which was the funniest of all, boy do I miss him), Yuki, and Chris. Yes Chris. Unfortunately, I forgot to block my number and he knew it was us. Whatever. I was having fun! So he sent me a text message and it said, "I don't appreciate you having "Shaniqua" call me and play that immature game. Please Stop that..." like we've been playing it for months. Mhmmmm so I text him back with the reply, "damn retard, take a chillpill! I don't appreciate you lying to my friends about stupid stuff!" And that was the end of it. I never got a reply. HA! I don't want one, anyways. ;p So we decide to walk to her boyfriends house, and it was really boring. All he did was try to rape her, and then his friend Taylor comes along. Ack.. it was really annoying hanging around immature, hormonal preteens. I shan't do it again. So they were walking us home, and Taylor opens his mouth and goes, "Dude, go make out with her!" and so for 15 minutes they were standing in the street trying to make out but Katie was immensely scared. Ughhh.. if it isn't natural, don't do it! There's nothing wrong with not doing it! Holy shit. Kids these days. She said she was in love, and I told her if it was love, then she wouldn't be so scared about it. urf... anyways, I must go. David wants me to fix up his journal...blarghhh...bye. 2 comments|post comment

[22 Oct 2003|04:08pm] [ mood | numb ] [ music | Evanescence//Away From Me ] Ughhh so much missing and so much to say. I can't think anymore. It hurts. I guess they're going out now. I dunno why I bothered. I knew it was gonna happen. I'm such a broken-hearted loser. I skipped MSYO today. I couldn't stand it. He's such a dope. No really. Like a drug. So intoxicating. He sucked me in, and left me. Went after her, one of my best friends. I couldn't do that to her. But she is such a nag sometimes. She's 10x's prettier than me, but he's only doing it so her doesn't hurt her. It's always that reason. I just wish the world would be cold to me. post comment

[20 Oct 2003|07:32pm] [ mood | crushed ] [ music | nothing. ] Why do I always screw up good times in the family? I asked my dad for the $100 dollar deposit and he gave me "the look" and so I didn't even wanna start with that. Then I dunno, he goes, "you want the money by OCTOBER?" I was like "it is October." kinda ya know, angrily and annoyed. Then he gets even more cuter with me and goes "By November" and I just totally disregard THAT question and he gets mad. Uhh... he obviously doesn't know what he's doing. But either way, my parents get so angry over stupid stuff like that and I shouldn't have done that. I asked him for $15 earlier too, for the Sega Genisis I wanted from GameCrazy (cause he's a liar and didn't get it) and I wanted to go. Now I don't wanna go anywhere. I just wanna die... post comment

[19 Oct 2003|09:16pm] [ mood | tired ] [ music | Dead Or Alive//Spin Me Around ] Holy shit I did it again. I changed my layout in less than 2 days, that must be a record. lol oh yeah, got another journal at LJ username; xthis_is_realx LOL that was extremely weird. I got an e-mail from blurty saying I changed my password. haha but I know Leah changed it and probably forgot to change the e-mail address on it (I gave her my ooooolllld journal) Oh yeah. I'm thinking of going back to my old journal star_duzt I dunno. I've been on this username for so long, I don't want to part with it! lol I'll make some use out of the old one. maybe a dead graphics thing or something. feedback? *points to comment links* (; 1 comment|post comment

[18 Oct 2003|06:08pm] [ mood | curious ] [ music | Harry Belafonte//Shake Shake Senora ] I'm happy. Ana updates her journal now. >.< David updates his journal. >.< Chris can fuck a cow. ^_^ So, I lost my "appeal" with Laura and Mr. Maggard, cause I didn't want to get my locker combo changed because she was stupid and gave it out to people. We're not on speaking terms, so why bother changing it so why doesn't she find some other locker? She's not even my official one, Kati is. And it should be up to Kati and me, not Laura. Anyways, her and Chris were talking about me, not that I heard them, but I saw them talking together and me and her had just walked away from arguing and the retard walks up to her thinking this is a good time to make fun of Silva. That's ok. I'll show him with the voodoo doll I sent him. Courtesy of pinstruck.com. I feel so very sowwie for Navaz, she has to do an essay on Columbus. Whilst I sit here and have to order a pizza and endure my brother singing the Friendship Song from Spongebob *strangle* post comment

The citys far, the rivers low, where you are I never know... [17 Oct 2003|07:15pm] [ mood | giggly ] [ music | Vineyard//Air I Breathe ] Woo.. big updates and no love from no one. HAPPY BIRTHDAY mydsmbr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111~~12!~~!!oneone Have a great 18th. ~_^ 3 comments|post comment

[14 Oct 2003|04:53pm] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Candy ☆ Unlimited//DJ Naoki ] I totally forgot to post on Sunday. I saw Chris. We went shopping with his mom. Hit up Old Navy and DILLARDS! lol I've never been there... I swear why don't they just call Macy's, Gottshaulks, JCPenny's, Dillards, Nordstrom, Robinson's May all just ONE name! Something like, "THE DEPARTMENT STORE!!!" or something! lol Yeah, it was great just seeing him again. I didn't really bring up the fact tat he might move, but I jst casually asked about it. His Mom: Silva, you go to Beyer? Me: yep. Mom: So Chris is going to be in your school next year? (DING DING! Clue NUMBER ONE!!!) Me: Yep Yep. (20 minutes later when I'm just with him) Me: So you're staying here? For Sure? Chris: I dunno, we might not move sometime soon. Most likely we'll stay here. Me (smiling): Alrighty. It's so cute, his voice is getting all raspy and deep. >.< Stupid Puberty, started late on him! ;_; XD XD XD Dude, I just totally cleaned up my hard drive. It was full of spamming crap! My dad blames it on me, but it's HIM who pushes OK on the security boxes that pop-up! Grrr... post comment

[10 Oct 2003|08:55pm] [ mood | geeky ] Anybody remember that game "Don't Wake Daddy?" Where you had to sneak into the kitchen and get some food without waking the Dad? That game has given a bad influence on my generation. 2 comments|post comment

[10 Oct 2003|08:29am] blah blah blah jessica is soooo hot man o man i wanna bite off the candy bar....id lick her lik she was a tootsie pop (t post comment

[09 Oct 2003|07:48pm] [ mood | miserable ] [ music | Kittie//Paperdoll ] Update.... no one loves me. Everyone is getting in a relationship but me. Cody/Sou Paige/Garrett* It's more than likely going to happen. She said to give him my AIM s/n cause she doesn't have one anymore and then to tell her what he said. I dunno how he said it, you couldn't tell that he what he was going to say. *sigh* Ben/Tori (well, he likes her, and it just goes from there...) Cindy/Matt I need WANT a boyfriend/lover/affectionater/fuck mate. post comment

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