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[28 Feb 2004|09:45am] |
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asl-the shoting star that destroyed us all |
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sorry all that i havent updates ina while i gave a new live journal who_caresx if neone wanted to knw hehe ne way i am seriouly thinkg about emo again but then i stop cuz i can only think of like 2 people who wouldnt care i know i am supposed to be what i want to be but latley being what i awnt to be would do more harm then help :'[
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| i fucked up.... |
[08 Feb 2004|08:11pm] |
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so i fucked up ...again omg i cant belive this im so stupid me and samm were starting to get close again and yeah im so gay ughh neways cuts agin bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad bad im so stupid god dammit i hate this shit i went to ky-kys party today he is so cute he turned 5 today then i came home and it was hel again im so alone god i hate this later.......
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| wait this went on to far... |
[07 Feb 2004|03:45pm] |
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samm im sorry i didnt write that out the right way so it came out all worng
aimee sorry too i ddnt call u nething i dont want this to become a whole big fight thing ok so ill admit i was wrong ok im me later or whatever sry
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| and its begins again... |
[06 Feb 2004|08:07pm] |
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im at saras yay but samm and lex are taryns "sisters" now w/e!!!!!fuck all them they just lie fuck it
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[03 Feb 2004|01:00pm] |
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i cna;t stand people nemore they really piss me off i am gunna write what ever i want cuz if it piises people off o well they shouldnt look in here...im mad at samm...aimee..kerry...and so many more people im like maybe it would be better if i just stuck to myself until i finish school ugh i only have this year and high school o welll as soon as im out im leavin this hell hole....i despise her i mean we used to be such close friends i knew her since i was fuckin 2 man jesus she talks about me behind my back to kerry(new "bff") god that was a mistake why did i even bother gettin new friends aand trying to move on god i knew nothing good could last....and im not gunna waste room writing how i feel about samm because i'll just waste space....i iwsh i never befriended this assholes...w/e...i mean ashweed is the only one no forget it why bother i'll just jynx it fuck everyone....
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| u mean the world to me...why cant u see that |
[31 Jan 2004|07:11pm] |
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god i hate love it sucks...i just came back from howell ughh i feel like shit im sick again wtf i wanted to go to weeds' house but no my mom i an asshole she never lets me go newhere w/e god
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| u mean the world to me...why cant u see that |
[31 Jan 2004|07:11pm] |
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god i hate love it sucks...i just came back from howell ughh i feel like shit im sick again wtf i wanted to go to weeds' house but no my mom i an asshole she never lets me go newhere w/e god
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| sick of it all... |
[24 Jan 2004|07:25pm] |
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i dont get it i mean i can write lyrics for ne type of music yet i keep circleing back to eo wich i always dissed i dont want to be called a hypocryte im just confused if punk is my life why am i always face to face with this constant controvercy
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[22 Jan 2004|12:52pm] |
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im in science yeah james is hott o wow i cut last night alot alot my mom saw it and was bad she was like i dont have to rethink this concert thing do i im like nooooooooooooo omg i hate this shit well g2g
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[22 Jan 2004|12:52pm] |
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im in science yeah james is hott o wow i cut last night alot alot my mom saw it and was bad she was like i dont have to rethink this concert thing do i im like nooooooooooooo omg i hate this shit well g2g
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| what the fuck... |
[18 Jan 2004|11:03am] |
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NOFX-punk guy |
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so life sucks what else is fuckin new man jesus christ im tired of people i hate them all fuck authority!so neway im here again doin nothing im bored as fuckin hell i need to hang out wit weed' man this sucks everyone has plans and im fat loser who sits at home all day smokin stogs' and sleepin w/e fuck em' all
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[16 Jan 2004|02:49pm] |
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i dont know what to do or say nemore its like whatever i do is wrong im tired of it people alwaus r telling me what i do wrong nothing that i do is right to them...anthony is just a whole big confusing mess i dont now if i love him or hate him sumtimes o well im going to the poison the well concert with kerry in march yay
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[05 Jan 2004|06:49pm] |
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FOREVER
We used to have so much fun
Before our friendship became unstrung
Late night phone calls
That would never end
We said we would be friends forever
Who thought that forever would end
On this cold rainy day
I decide to slit open my wrists
I have craved for deaths kiss
I am gone
Far away from here
No one saw this coming
Its all such a shock
I know find myself sitting here writing in blood….
I bet you wished your forever didn’t end….
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| i miss....you |
[03 Jan 2004|04:23pm] |
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i thought being at sras' would make me happy and it did sum what but im still down and i still want to die its like everything i say is wrong to other people i dont meet peoples standerds im not cute enough or skinny enough or sane enough im just a loser and it seems like everyone is walking past me and im just stuck in one spot and im always going to stay there people and oppertunities are passing me byt and i cant reach out for them everyone i know treats me different i lost my best friend and i know she isnt coming back i know i have sara kerry weed' n shelly but it wont ever be like mine and samms friendship i miss it i would do nething to get her back but its to late she has zack why would she need me....
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[02 Jan 2004|09:05pm] |
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o wow im over sara's house chillen away from my family-thank god- i love sara so much she is my bestest friend in the whole fucking world i loveeee her so much i dont know if i would be here if it wasnt for her!!
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| Fuck it.... |
[24 Dec 2003|08:43am] |
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well....this fuckin sucks life sucks people suck he sucks she suces they suck everyone does god damn anthoyn thinks im always talking shit about him but i am kinda but it isnt bad god hes so oblivious to the world sumtimes god its been 3 days and im about to snap god i havent gone there in 3 weeks! god damn im going crazy here steve is so hott the other day we had so much fun hes so crazyyy well everyone is still sleeping here so im gunna enjoy the silence for awhile ok im gunna go
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[24 Dec 2003|08:43am] |
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well....this fuckin sucks life sucks people suck he sucks she suces they suck everyone does god damn anthoyn thinks im always talking shit about him but i am kinda but it isnt bad god hes so oblivious to the world sumtimes god its been 3 days and im about to snap god i havent gone there in 3 weeks! god damn im going crazy here steve is so hott the other day we had so much fun hes so crazyyy well everyone is still sleeping here so im gunna enjoy the silence for awhile ok im gunna go
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[20 Dec 2003|09:01am] |
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omg i feel so weird today its gay last night i had basketball practice it was ok but the girls on my team are just a little mmm hyper add kid on speed kinda thing its like wow i still am in love-sigh- which sucks no mater what it sucks so bad god dammit i went shoppinf before to get presents i got stuff for sara,samm,lexi,ashweed,michelle,kerry,and maggie geeze i wish i went to the mall lst night ugh steve was thee and we could of fwent to dennys but no i was grounded of course g2g update later
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[18 Dec 2003|08:09pm] |
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today was ok for a change wowo samm wasnt in scholl and anthony was sick too so it was like a big stress relive-imso gay- i dont know what to get everyone for xmas grr i am in love with ICP they rock omg i lovvvveee them neway i miss anthony and just having himm there i never thought i would miss im ugh-sighs- i like steve but so does ashweed she can have him but he's a JUGGALO omg when i heard that i was like o babay ashweed said we could get considered for juggalettes but i dont want people to be assholes i know like a million juggalos n juggalettes so its all good im so confused tho its like my life has totally twizted around i went from like EMO KID to hardcorepunk deathmeatal freak i dont even know what i am i dont like to label myself or other people but that doesnt mean other people dont label me me and michelle,weed' and kerry have so much fuckin fun i love those girls remember weed "fuck em' all stoners rule!!!!"we'll be friends forever and ever nothing can sepersate us now!!!!
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| i dont kow what to say nemore...... |
[17 Dec 2003|03:12pm] |
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well i love anthonynething new ugh-rolls eyes- samm isnt mad at me and we are frineds i was wrong about everything whats new i didnt go to school on monday or tuesday cuz i didnt want to and i felt lke shit newasy ughh life gets more confusing the older you get its like the whole guy thing is WOAH im so confused helpp me sumone....
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