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Thursday, June 12th, 2003

Time:8:15 am.
He will cry, and she will cry, and she will cry, and they all will cry but me who sits here pleasantly, thrilled to be leaving this torturous hell called high school, not about to really miss anyone due to the ones I would so call “miss” I know how to get a hold of. The end has come and I couldn’t be happier. But, as I adjust my cap and gown, make my long brown hair fluff and curl at the tips, and work on the clean lip-gloss that will help make me shine on this oh so precious day, I start to wonder… do I really want to leave? High school was fun at times but more painful for me but what will my future hold? I wonder if I can survive outside of these walls. But oh well, were lining up now, our parents with family members are standing and clapping, its time to walk onto stage… its time to leave and go out, set forth on a new life… so how come I’m scared and feel tears in my eyes now? And how come I fear I never will see Josh Chasez again?

Moving on, to you
Raquel J. Cruz

Removing boxes from the car, with the sun beating down upon them, a smile creeps over Raquel’s face. Turning she looks up at the tall building, mumbling under her breath ‘home’ before catching her father’s eye, seeing the proud sad look on his face and in his old gray eyes.
“Its not like I’m moving a million miles away, home is only an hours drive,” she says, looking at him with slight concern, trying to hide her excitement of her new found freedom.
“It’s not every day I say goodbye to my only daughter,” he says, moving over and resting a hand on her shoulder, looking down at the young confident woman that stands before him, missing his spunky tomboy daughter who use to sit on his lap and frolic around.
“True, but then you still have Miguel at home, and isn’t Tina, Jesus’s girlfriend pregnant?” Raquel questions with a raised eyebrow. Her father shakes his head, pulling her to him, hugging her close and kissing the top of her head.
“Grandbabies and your brothers will never replace my love for you lil’ one so stop trying for it, you’re still my daughter.”
“Minor flaw you’ll correct in a month,” she teases, slipping her arms around him and hugging him back. He was taking it hard, especially since mom died two years earlier and while he wanted to hold on, forever, they both know he must release her sometime.
“You know…” he tries to find words, tears sliding his old rough cheeks. “You know, you’re always welcomed home and when you need me I will always find a way to be there and…”
Raquel reaches up, her finger caressing his cheek and wiping the tear off, finding herself about to cry if he keeps this up.
“Daddy don’t, I know. I love you and you have been the best father a girl can ask for. Thank you for being here for me and thank you for all you have done… now please, don’t cry. I don’t think I can take it.”
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Thursday, April 10th, 2003

Time:8:56 am.
i dare ALL OF YOU to look up the lyrics to "run away train" and then on your mp3 download system find "MMC's JC Chasez - run away train" and form there you download it and listen to it for me... *grins*

hey y'all how ya doing? i'm good and chillin ... love the pookey of course.

ex's and old fuck buddies are evil *growls at ones who keep telling poncho things he DOESN'T need to hear and know*

anyways life is good, got strait b's so mom isn't on my case too badly. school is boring though but if you are in it you already know that. there was an ice storm this weekend and i lost cable but i got it back... *hugs internet service*

i love my pookey and he loves me... he just won't talk about marriage and children *teases pookey*

shay is good i think... if not i beat her up *jokes*

BRIAN AND I GET MARRIED IN ONE MONTH... its an inside joke but yep we set a date lol so y'all have to come and see us get "married" *laughs* i'm such a dork i know.

love you pookey *blows million of kisses*

love ya bri and shay and care bear and... thats it lol. *winks*
~Raquelly the quelly pickle
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Thursday, April 3rd, 2003

Time:1:06 am.
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Wednesday, April 2nd, 2003

Time:8:36 am.
let recap life quickly here.

in the last month i have...
joined to many rpgs, got suckered into moding about 5 now. i have got with chris, had problems with chris, cried over chris and left chris. i have hurt and played justin and not on purpose. i have made a new friends brian and poncho who i adore with all my heart. i have started dating poncho who i have no desire on ever cheating and for once i am content on a relationship. i have yelled at josh but that is normal. i have started writing emails again to michelle which has brought me much joy because she is my sister and all. i have decided which college to go to and started seeking out financial aid and all that annoying stuff. i have been looking for a job by forcing of my evil mother... who i love *smiles innocently* i have been in many fights wth my sister. i have kept my grades good and have even been dare i say less lazy.

right now i am doing the following...
reading the book "the mambo kings songs of love"
i am dating happily poncho and feeling blessed for having him.
chillin with shay more.
made a kirsten dunst icon site due to HOW MANY i have.
fought my sister more and more to the point where she tried to cut my hair.

shout outs!
Poncho - love you pookey and you make every day better just by being in my life. your wonderful and i'm glad to have you. i will never cheat on you or hurt you like that.

shay - thank you for the icons yesterday hehehe i know there was a lot and *whines* i'm sleepy.

Michelle - hey girl.

Brian - love ya bri-bri.

josh never reads this so he doesn't get one *sto*

chris - i still want to be friends...

everyone else - HI!

ok now y'all better leave comments and love cause i did this and btw i may be home earlier then expected due to the fact my tongue is swollen and i don't feel good at all.
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Friday, March 28th, 2003

Time:5:11 pm.
all you racist bitter stupid ignorant prick bitches and ass holes of the world FUCK OFF ON THE MEXICANS! you stupid pathetic wastes of flesh. i'm racist against all you people. yep you wanna say shit against the mexicians then i fucking am racist against you!
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Thursday, March 27th, 2003

Time:8:05 pm.
i am pre-appologizing for snapping and hating on y'all.... it will happen soon because a close friend of the family just died today
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Thursday, March 20th, 2003

Time:12:02 am.
chris enlisted.... i'm bitter, sad, and scared shitless *sighs*

uncle terry hits iraq this friday... *pouts*

I HATE WAR... justin stop whining about the fact if you enlist they might cut your hair... hair goes back thanks.
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Tuesday, March 18th, 2003

Time:10:21 am.
hey everyone what's up? life here is good i guess. school sucks and i'm suppose to be doing a project which TOM is annoying me on.... *throws a paper at him* anyways here are grades

creative writing - A+
human relations - B
Economics - C

boys are confusing, ask chris and justin what is going on with me. Josh and I are JUST friends. i repeat Josh and I are JUST friends! barely that right now cause i'm cranky at him.

brian is the bomb and he is on for me *glares at seth who is NEVER on anymore*

ROXY! i HATE ashton and he NEEDS to stay out of my private life!

Mark - shaunna doesn't want to break up so don't talk to Ashton or listen to him.


landon - hi hon.

shaunna - omg he looked so cute on punked.

chris thomas - UPDATE!
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Sunday, March 9th, 2003

Time:2:09 pm.
guys suck for the most part accept for a couple..... the couple should know who they are cause i tell them they rock all the time.

i am single... not sure how it will last this time but i'm not rushing anything.

lol rpg has taken over a lot... LOVE YOU BRIAN! he is the best rpg guy in the world and he deserves everyones love.

i talked to seth :-D! he is good, camping right now but oh well.

chris is "going to denver".... not sure i believe him really at all.

justin you are a sweetie and glad you got a journal.
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Wednesday, March 5th, 2003

Time:1:43 pm.
i miss chris
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Thursday, February 27th, 2003

Time:1:20 pm.
Everyone, if you are like me, in an ECO class, or PIG class, or in college, or in some way hearing and dealing with politics then please, I urge you to join me cause.

The group is for you to speak your mind; you have a voice. PLEASE! Please join my cause and tell anyone, and everyone, how you feel.

USA_Iraq please just check it out, and if you want, please join.
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Sunday, February 23rd, 2003

Subject:for chris....
Time:3:46 pm.
Mood: loved.
(Jim Brickman/Jack Kugell)

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you
If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
But in my dreams I couldn't love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time...
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine

And even if the sun refused to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart until the end of time
'Cause all I need is you, my Valentine
You're all I need, my love, my Valentine
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Saturday, February 22nd, 2003

Time:10:04 pm.
OMG! i'm updating. i know i suck at it but i have been mad busy with im's and even now i have.... *counts* 9 fucking IM's going so give me a break.

chris and i are in love and getting married and life is good.

school was out this week and life is good

i have to see my dad next weekend and yeah... great *rolls eyes*



chris thomas, see ya in gym
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Friday, February 14th, 2003

Subject:update for today
Time:12:30 pm.
Mood: accomplished.
Music:dirty -xtina.
Times change more then you probably would like them too. In the last couple days for my life nothing more could be true. I have lost a boyfriend, gained one, and lost it again. I have made a brand new friend with wide horizons and definitely someone who deserves the bright future he has been working for. My best friend Shaunna is still the same just bubbly and working on websites, one for the new friend Landon. Here in Rochester Josh and I are going to get close again I think because I really miss him and well he seems to miss me. Landon also comes up next weekend, which I can’t wait considering a song of mine, yes of MINE he is going to sing HEHEHE! YAY! I love it. School is still boring but I’m glad to actually have classes with Chris Thomas cause the boy is all gossip and we just talk and it’s fun. I’m in the library right now writing this but the librarians love me so no fears I will find no trouble. –sighs- I just don’t know what to do. Well, this was the update, I hope you enjoyed. Lmao, catch ya later and feel free to Message me on AIM when you have the chance. Peace and love!
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Thursday, February 13th, 2003

Time:11:30 pm.
know what's great? when bored just find chris and fight *rolls eyes* god damn it i hate fighting him but he is being cold and hurtful *Pouts* and he even sent me this sweet card and i sent one back but no, he comes online and BAM he is mean *sighs* he talked to landon too and i have NO CLUE what went down there. everyone who likes firesting should join. also hear there singles "i need you" and "bamboo"

lol i have a valentine which is kind of cool but i'm alone tomorrow. just me and my sexy computer lmao. idk i have rpg and i maybe will work a little on homework... YUCKY! but YAY i have a whole like week off from school. i know at one poiny landon will be here, i know one day i am at josh's and forcing him to pay attention to me, and then i think i am forcing shaunna to come with my mom and me and amanda to see "ten days to lose a guy" lol.

well i'm out, hit me up on aim@
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Tuesday, February 11th, 2003

Time:11:33 pm.
don't ask questions just know the following....

................i'm dating chris again.................


landon is a sexy monkey... don't ask lmao.
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Subject:i love myself.... but not chris duersh who is officially CARTER!
Time:10:27 am.
Mood: flirty.
Music:i need you - fire sting (CAUSE LANDON IS A HOTTIE!).
chris thomas is a poopyhead! lmao he is in school with me right now getting a blurty journal, lol what a copy cat! *sto* ok i love the world i guess even if life isn't completely peachy....

CHRIS AND I ARE NOT TOGETHER! well both chris duersh and i broke up and i'm ok with it really, i wish him luck and i hope him happiness, we're still friends and always will be... even if he is a idiot for dumping me.

so how is everyone? i'm good i guess.... suppose to be working *laughs* i'll do it all tomorrow though cause i got it like that.

AHH! i'm v-day dateless and it sucks! LANDON! you are suppose to take me out lol but he has a job and i completely understand. josh isn't even taking me out... chris thomas i won't ask cause he is a meany!

well i'm out, love ya all and shay! FIRE STING RULES! lol gotta plug in the hotties band.... i need new icons!
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Wednesday, February 5th, 2003

Time:2:48 pm.

Which Season are you?
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Friday, January 31st, 2003

Time:5:04 pm.
wheezing.... a sore throat..... dizzy-ness..... light headed.... anxioty.... cramps.... enlarged tongue.... tired..... shivers.... an annoying hagging cough.... and a need to squirm...

amanda and i are SERIOUSLY sick... to the point where she weent to the hospital cause she had started to hyperventolate when her lungs and tongue and throat muscles all swelled.... i'm getting worse and she is getting slightly better now... watch out hospital i'm next. we have a viral infection that the doctor is FORCING us to stay home and for amanda if it gets worse she is over-night at hospital cause the swelling could actually kill us... but it's highly unlikely *shakes head* I HATE THE DOCTOR I WANNA BE HEALTHY!
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Sunday, January 26th, 2003

Subject:quick update
Time:12:33 am.
lol need i say more????

shay is over.... YAY SHAY! i love her *grins* I OWN SHAY! back off marky she is MINE! *giggles*

CHRIS I LOVE YOU! lol BE HAVE!.... tell bloom to behave too *sto*

JOSH + non-working phone = *cries* missing him!

SETHY! i love you *smiles innocently* nah but all seriousness i miss you! email me!

laters before shay strangles me....

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