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|Thursday, May 12th, 2005|
wooot :D :(
so wierd day.like 2 more days left in school.but im like so scared and shit.got tomorow left and thats it. then ff to hereford.took some lush pics of everyone though. but i just dont wanna leave them all.i really think im gonna cry, wot a fucking pussy, lol. but no im gonna miss everyone soo much its unbelievable and im just so scared of going.
went for a wonder today with tom and arawn, and they took me down the beach first girl.i was so privalidged i love those guys sooo much.so nice to me lol. tomorow will be our last walk home together from skool.im not gonna cry i promise lol
i really dont know what to do with myself.trying to go to aber saturday just gotta ask mother dear lol.im gonna lie say im going to see my bf she'll let me then. she lets me have more free space like soo yea good exscuse lol. should bee a fun day out, get a nice tour of aber an all wooot.
im gonna leave it at that cause i dunno what to talk about so meh.
loving you love me xxxxx
Current Mood: blank
|Wednesday, May 11th, 2005|
today kinda had the day off. but it did suck a bit.
decided that there was no point going in so i told my mum id revise. and i had to aswell, so i was a good girl did some maths with regular breaks lol. twas still hell just sitting there working and reading uchhh.
missed all my friends loads, my life without them, christ i dont think i would cope.need some crazy talking to make me sane everyday lol.
so releaved about a lot of things. so just alll happyness. hehehehehehe.
i watched beauty and the beast again today i nearly cried at the end when he was about to die, but yey he came alive and turned into a handsome young man for belle to live happily ever after with hehe. aww.
defo camping now for my party.so plan is firstly
go for meal with family
then marks little band thing
then camping wooooop
tis gonna be lush i hope
just gonna need to sort out bus times for us all to get to senny and shit. and then theres the stuff we need plenty of tents blah blah blah, i will sort it out and it will be perfect and a birthday to remember, or ill cry yea cry ok!lol.
Current Mood: chipper
Current Music: kaiser chiefs - i predict a riot
|Tuesday, May 10th, 2005|
soo yea school today.
was ok day i guess.kinda went bit nuts cause i was talking about the plans for my b-day and then rob said that boo was gay cause i mentioned how he was coming and so went bit nuts started saying how i dont give a shit on others opinion, and how they dont even fucking know him but they're just follwoing the fucking crowd cause people like mark hate him.just pissed me off so much. i jsut hate it when they judge people like that.its pathetic.
had a good r.e. lesson me and eleri just writing random notes to each other was funny as fuck and started creating a list of whos coming to my b-day party.we need lots like over 60 seriously, tis gonna be big, like bigger than a jumbo sausage hehe. and we made a list of stuff we need to bring, eleri wrote some random stuff, was bril though. really hope she can camp out. i really hope we can cause i aint actually asked mother dearest yet.ill just tell her were camping in howards field, lol im sure she'll allow it.i hope :s. just think positive.
im really scared cause people keep saying oh your gonna love my prezzie blah, but i hate suprises, like i cant react well if i dont actually like it, i cant fake liking it, cause ive never had to do that before.but hey tis there fault, they are my friends so they should know what to buy me.lol.yea anywhooo.
went to hereford sixth form col today, really scared of going. for so many reasons really.but there all kinda pathetic.just scared of leaving people i care about so much behind, i know ill still see them but i wont see them as often, and it will just be wierd.
im completely confused about everything ive never felt so wierd in my entire life. i have so many feelings rushing through me its unbelievable but its a lush feeling at the same time. hmm.
cant believe it friday will be my last day in my school, last day with my friends as a whole year.its fucking crazy shit.
but yey wooooo have some bril plans for my party so think happyness.11 days to go wooooot.
loving you love me xxxxxxxxxxxx
Current Mood: weird
Current Music: athlete - wires
|Monday, May 9th, 2005|
wierd day today.
been completely happy.
but slightly sad.
awwww me. fuck that lol.
soo yea today was really happy mad and shit cause i like boo, and cause i just was. didnt really want to be upset. although had some kinda bad news last night. but we wont go into that like. then everyones just been annoying me about the whole boo thing, like tom mark arawn.marks being the most understanding,he's being a great mate to me at the moment like. but its just like i dont want to hear anyone else's fucknig opinions on boo,i like him not them and whatever they say aint gonna change my bloody mind. like what i dont get is why they cant just be happy for me cause i like someone. christ too much to ask for. just making me feel worse.
getting really worried about eleri and all. i love her soo much and i hate whats happening to her. and im just sooo worried about her especially at this moment.i couldnt stand anything bad happening to her. fainted once again me and scott stayed with her though.its just so wierd she just collapsed and just kinda reminded me of my cousin and how serious that was, i know its not the same situations at all, but just with holi collapsing and stuff made things just remind me and i really just wanted to cry. elez looked just pale in her hands and its just kinda frightening not knowing whats happening to her. just hate it and feel so bad for her cause she doesnt need this either and i can tell its pissing her off. and its just for fuck sake like why cant things go right.
then theres the whole amy situation fucking pissing me haz and elez off. grrr shes so annoying and turning into a right whore. its like everythings about her mememe.fucking shut up stupid cunt.i have so much anger in me as you can tell lol. but naa were kinda not talking much to her no more, shes such a spoilt immature bitch.so why bother.
i had so much to write about and now its kinda all forgotten.ummm hmm let me think.
ahhh well cant think, not much change there.
bye bye xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: breakdown - elixir
|Sunday, May 8th, 2005|
so yea was gonna do this last night but, couldnt be assed basically.
went to boo's birthday party or whatever you want to call it.met some amazing new people and had sooo much fun.although dont remember a lot of there names, not cause i was drunk just cause i suck with names.grr.
nice seeing boo again, and chloe and nesta like. went in the river with chloes puffy pj's fucking fun except went bit see through uh oh i know hehe.but was really nice not too cold.
but ahhh boo's sooo lush and funny and great. but anywhooooo.
dilema = morgan.grr.well i think i like him but i hardly know him, but we do have loads in common.and i told him i liked him and he told me back and like hes lovely.but then theres mr.boo hehe ive liked him longer.and yea me and boo at the party holding hands and stuff morgan kinda came and saw, havent spoken to him and dunno what he thinks like.but also apparently he said i was going out with him like wtf im not. but i do feel guilty.but boo, hes boo. end of.
was on the phone to elez twice today just talking about everything random and personal was lush.kinda had bad news so needed to talk to someone close. but life is going kinda well for both of us.and i love her to bits shes the.best.hehehe.
well fare thee well loving you xxxmexxx
Current Mood: bouncy